I<\/p>\n
Senin ad\u0131n\u0131
kol saatimin kay\u0131\u015f\u0131na t\u0131rna\u011f\u0131mla kaz\u0131d\u0131m.
Malum ya, bulundu\u011fum yerde
ne sap\u0131 sedefli bir \u00e7ak\u0131 var,
(bizlere \u00e2l\u00e2t\u0131-kat\u0131a verilmez),
ne de ba\u015f\u0131 bulutlarda bir \u00e7\u0131nar.
Belki avluda bir a\u011fa\u00e7 bulunur ama
g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnde g\u00f6rmek
bana yasak…
Buras\u0131 benden ba\u015fka ka\u00e7 insan\u0131n evidir?
Bilmiyorum.
Ben bir ba\u015f\u0131ma onlardan uza\u011f\u0131m,
hep birlikte onlar benden uzak.
Bana kendimden ba\u015fkas\u0131yla konu\u015fmak
yasak.
Ben de kendi kendimle konu\u015fuyorum.
Fakat \u00e7ok can s\u0131k\u0131c\u0131 buldu\u011fumdan sohbetimi
\u015fark\u0131 s\u00f6yl\u00fcyorum kar\u0131c\u0131\u011f\u0131m.
Hem, ne dersin,
o berbat, ayars\u0131z sesim
\u00f6yle bir dokunuyor ki i\u00e7ime
y\u00fcre\u011fim par\u00e7alan\u0131yor.
Ve t\u0131pk\u0131 o eski
ac\u0131kl\u0131 hik\u00e2yelerdeki
yalnayak, karl\u0131 yollara d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f, yetim bir \u00e7ocuk gibi bu y\u00fcrek,
mavi g\u00f6zleri \u0131slak
k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131, k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcc\u00fck burnunu \u00e7ekerek
senin ba\u011fr\u0131na sokulmak istiyor.
Y\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc k\u0131zartm\u0131yor benim
onun bu an
b\u00f6yle zay\u0131f
b\u00f6yle hodbin
b\u00f6yle sadece insan
olu\u015fu.
Belki bu h\u00e2lin
fizyolojik, psikolojik fil\u00e2n izah\u0131 vard\u0131r.
Belki de sebep buna
bana aylard\u0131r
kendi sesimden ba\u015fka insan sesi duyurmayan
bu demirli pencere
bu toprak testi
bu d\u00f6rt duvard\u0131r…<\/p>\n
Saat be\u015f, kar\u0131c\u0131\u011f\u0131m.
D\u0131\u015farda susuzlu\u011fu
acayip f\u0131s\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131
toprak dam\u0131
ve sonsuzlu\u011fun ortas\u0131nda k\u0131m\u0131ldanmadan duran
bir sakat ve s\u0131ska at\u0131yla,
yani, kederden \u00e7\u0131ld\u0131rtmak i\u00e7in i\u00e7erdeki adam\u0131
d\u0131\u015farda b\u00fct\u00fcn ustal\u0131\u011f\u0131, b\u00fct\u00fcn tak\u0131m taklavat\u0131yla
a\u011fa\u00e7s\u0131z bo\u015flu\u011fa k\u0131pk\u0131z\u0131l inmekte bir bozk\u0131r ak\u015fam\u0131.<\/p>\n
Bug\u00fcn de apans\u0131z gece olacakt\u0131r.
Bir \u0131\u015f\u0131k dola\u015facak yan\u0131nda sakat, s\u0131ska at\u0131n.
Ve \u015fimdi kar\u015f\u0131mda ha\u015fin bir erkek \u00f6l\u00fcs\u00fc gibi yatan
bu \u00fcmitsiz tabiat\u0131n
a\u011fa\u00e7s\u0131z bo\u015flu\u011funa bir anda y\u0131ld\u0131zlar dolacakt\u0131r.
Yine o malum sonuna erdik demektir i\u015fin,
yani bug\u00fcn de m\u00fckellef bir da\u00fcss\u0131la i\u00e7in
yine her \u015fey yerli yerinde i\u015fte, her \u015fey tamam.
Ben,
ben i\u00e7erdeki adam
yine mutad h\u00fcnerimi g\u00f6sterece\u011fim
ve \u00e7ocukluk g\u00fcnlerimin ince saz\u0131yla
suzin\u00e2k makam\u0131ndan bir \u015fark\u0131 a\u011fz\u0131yla
yine bill\u00e2hi kahredecek dil-i n\u00e2\u015f\u00e2d\u0131m\u0131
seni b\u00f6yle uzak,
seni dumanl\u0131, e\u011fri bir aynadan seyreder gibi
kafam\u0131n i\u00e7inde duymak…<\/p>\n
II<\/p>\n
D\u0131\u015farda bahar geldi kar\u0131c\u0131\u011f\u0131m, bahar.
D\u0131\u015farda, bozk\u0131r\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnde birdenbire
taze toprak kokusu, ku\u015f sesleri ve saire…
D\u0131\u015farda bahar geldi kar\u0131c\u0131\u011f\u0131m, bahar,
d\u0131\u015farda bozk\u0131r\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnde p\u0131r\u0131lt\u0131lar…
Ve i\u00e7erde art\u0131k b\u00f6cekleriyle canlanan kerevet,
suyu donmayan testi
ve sabahlar\u0131 \u00e7imentonun \u00fcst\u00fcnde g\u00fcne\u015f…
G\u00fcne\u015f,
art\u0131k o her g\u00fcn \u00f6\u011fle vaktine kadar,
bana yak\u0131n, benden uzak,
s\u00f6nerek, \u0131\u015f\u0131ldayarak
y\u00fcr\u00fcr…
Ve g\u00fcn ikindiye d\u00f6ner, g\u00f6lgeler d\u00fc\u015fer duvarlara,
ba\u015flar tutu\u015fmaya demirli pencerenin cam\u0131 :
d\u0131\u015farda ak\u015fam olur,
bulutsuz bir bahar ak\u015fam\u0131…
\u0130\u015fte i\u00e7erde bahar\u0131n en k\u00f6t\u00fc saati budur as\u0131l.
Velhas\u0131l
o pul pul \u0131\u015f\u0131lt\u0131l\u0131 derisi, ate\u015ften g\u00f6zleriyle
bilhassa baharda ram eder kendine i\u00e7erdeki adam\u0131
h\u00fcrriyet denen ifrit…
Bu bittecr\u00fcbe sabit, kar\u0131c\u0131\u011f\u0131m,
bittecr\u00fcbe sabit…<\/p>\n
III<\/p>\n
Bug\u00fcn pazar.
Bug\u00fcn beni ilk defa g\u00fcne\u015fe \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131lar.
Ve ben \u00f6mr\u00fcmde ilk defa g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn bu kadar benden uzak
bu kadar mavi
bu kadar geni\u015f oldu\u011funa \u015fa\u015farak
k\u0131m\u0131ldanmadan durdum.
Sonra sayg\u0131yla topra\u011fa oturdum,
dayad\u0131m s\u0131rt\u0131m\u0131 duvara.
Bu anda ne d\u00fc\u015fmek dalgalara,
bu anda ne kavga, ne h\u00fcrriyet, ne kar\u0131m.
Toprak, g\u00fcne\u015f ve ben…
Bahtiyar\u0131m…<\/p>\n
Naz\u0131m Hikmet RAN<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
I Senin ad\u0131n\u0131 kol saatimin kay\u0131\u015f\u0131na t\u0131rna\u011f\u0131mla kaz\u0131d\u0131m. Malum ya, bulundu\u011fum yerde ne sap\u0131 sedefli bir \u00e7ak\u0131 var, (bizlere \u00e2l\u00e2t\u0131-kat\u0131a verilmez), ne de ba\u015f\u0131 bulutlarda bir \u00e7\u0131nar. Belki avluda bir a\u011fa\u00e7 bulunur ama g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnde g\u00f6rmek bana yasak… Buras\u0131 benden ba\u015fka ka\u00e7 insan\u0131n evidir? Bilmiyorum. Ben bir ba\u015f\u0131ma onlardan uza\u011f\u0131m, hep birlikte onlar benden […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[59],"tags":[],"class_list":{"0":"post-1089","1":"post","2":"type-post","3":"status-publish","4":"format-standard","6":"category-nazim-hikmet-ran"},"yoast_head":"\n