Ne g\u00fczel \u015fey hat\u0131rlamak seni :
\u00f6l\u00fcm ve zafer haberleri i\u00e7inden,
hapiste
ve ya\u015f\u0131m k\u0131rk\u0131 ge\u00e7mi\u015f iken…<\/p>\n
Ne g\u00fczel \u015fey hat\u0131rlamak seni :
bir mavi kuma\u015f\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnde unutulmu\u015f olan elin
ve sa\u00e7lar\u0131nda
vakur yumu\u015fakl\u0131\u011f\u0131 can\u0131m\u0131n i\u00e7i \u0130stanbul topra\u011f\u0131n\u0131n…
\u0130\u00e7imde ikinci bir insan gibidir
seni sevmek saadeti…
Parmaklar\u0131n ucunda kalan kokusu sardunya yapra\u011f\u0131n\u0131n,
g\u00fcne\u015fli bir rahatl\u0131k
ve etin daveti :
k\u0131pk\u0131z\u0131l \u00e7izgilerle b\u00f6l\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015f
s\u0131cak
koyu bir karanl\u0131k…<\/p>\n
Ne g\u00fczel \u015fey hat\u0131rlamak seni,
yazmak sana dair,
hapiste s\u0131rt\u00fcst\u00fc yat\u0131p seni d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmek :
fil\u00e2nca g\u00fcn, falanca yerde s\u00f6yledi\u011fin s\u00f6z,
kendisi de\u011fil
edas\u0131ndaki d\u00fcnya…<\/p>\n
Ne g\u00fczel \u015fey hat\u0131rlamak seni.
Sana tahtadan bir \u015feyler oymal\u0131y\u0131m yine :
bir \u00e7ekmece
bir y\u00fcz\u00fck,
ve \u00fc\u00e7 metre kadar ince ipekli dokumal\u0131y\u0131m.
Ve hemen
f\u0131rlayarak yerimden
penceremde demirlere yap\u0131\u015farak
h\u00fcrriyetin s\u00fctbeyaz mavili\u011fine
sana yazd\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131 ba\u011f\u0131ra ba\u011f\u0131ra okumal\u0131y\u0131m…<\/p>\n
Ne g\u00fczel \u015fey hat\u0131rlamak seni :
\u00f6l\u00fcm ve zafer haberleri i\u00e7inden,
hapiste
ve ya\u015f\u0131m k\u0131rk\u0131 ge\u00e7mi\u015f iken…<\/p>\n
***<\/p>\n
Da\u011f\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnde :
ak\u015fam g\u00fcne\u015fiyle y\u00fckl\u00fc olan bir bulut var da\u011f\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnde.
Bug\u00fcn de :
sensiz, yani yar\u0131 yar\u0131ya d\u00fcnyas\u0131z ge\u00e7ti bug\u00fcn de.
Birazdan a\u00e7ar
k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 :
gecesefalar\u0131 birazdan a\u00e7ar k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131.
Ta\u015f\u0131r havam\u0131zda sessiz, cesur kanatlar
vatandan ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011fa benzeyen ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131…<\/p>\n
1 Ekim 1945<\/p>\n
***<\/p>\n
G\u00f6zlerine bakarken
g\u00fcne\u015fli bir toprak kokusu vuruyor ba\u015f\u0131ma,
bir bu\u011fday tarlas\u0131nda, ekinlerin i\u00e7inde kayboluyorum…
Ye\u015fil p\u0131r\u0131lt\u0131larla u\u00e7suz bucaks\u0131z bir u\u00e7urum,
durup dinlenmeden de\u011fi\u015fen ebed\u00ee madde gibi g\u00f6zlerin :
s\u0131rr\u0131n\u0131 her g\u00fcn bir par\u00e7a veren
fakat hi\u00e7bir zaman
b\u00fcsb\u00fct\u00fcn teslim olmayacak olan…<\/p>\n
10 Ekim 1945<\/p>\n
***<\/p>\n
A\u011fa\u00e7lar ovada son bir gayretle p\u0131r\u0131ldamakta :
pul pul alt\u0131n
bak\u0131r
tun\u00e7 ve tahta…
\u00d6k\u00fczlerin ayaklar\u0131 ya\u015f topra\u011fa g\u00f6m\u00fcl\u00fcyor yumu\u015fac\u0131k.
Ve da\u011flar dumana bat\u0131k
kur\u015fun\u00ee, s\u0131r\u0131ls\u0131klam…
Tamam,
sonbahar belki bug\u00fcn bitti art\u0131k.
Yaban kazlar\u0131 h\u0131zla gelip ge\u00e7ti demin
herhal \u0130znik g\u00f6l\u00fcne gidiyorlar.
Havada serin
havada is kokusu gibi bir \u015fey :
havada kar kokusu var…<\/p>\n
\u015eimdi d\u0131\u015farda olmak,
d\u00f6rtnala s\u00fcrmek da\u011flara do\u011fru at\u0131.
\u00ab- Ata binmesini de bilmezsin,\u00bb — diyeceksin ama
\u015fakay\u0131 b\u0131rak ve k\u0131skanma,
yeni bir huy edindim hapiste :
seni sevdi\u011fim kadar de\u011filse de
hemen hemen ona yak\u0131n seviyorum tabiat\u0131…
Ve ikiniz de uzaktas\u0131n\u0131z…<\/p>\n
12 Aral\u0131k 1945<\/p>\n
***<\/p>\n
Damardan bo\u015fanan kan gibi \u0131l\u0131k ve u\u011fultulu
son lodoslar esmeye ba\u015flad\u0131.
Havay\u0131 dinliyorum :
nab\u0131z yava\u015flad\u0131.
Uluda\u011fda, zirvede kar
ve Kirezli-yaylada \u015fahane ve \u015fip\u015firin yatm\u0131\u015f uykudad\u0131r
k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 kestane yapraklar\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnde ay\u0131lar.
Ovada kavaklar soyunuyor.
\u0130pekb\u00f6ce\u011fi tohumlar\u0131 k\u0131\u015flaklar\u0131na gitti gidecek,
sonbahar bitti bitecek,
nerdeyse girecek gebe-uykular\u0131na toprak.
Ve biz yine bir k\u0131\u015f daha ge\u00e7irece\u011fiz :
b\u00fcy\u00fck \u00f6fkemizin i\u00e7inde
ve mukaddes \u00fcmidimizin ate\u015finde \u0131s\u0131narak…<\/p>\n
12 Kas\u0131m 1945<\/p>\n
***<\/p>\n
Gece kar birdenbire bast\u0131rm\u0131\u015f.
Bembeyaz dallardan da\u011f\u0131lan kargalarla ba\u015flad\u0131 sabah.
G\u00f6z alabildi\u011fine Bursa ovas\u0131nda k\u0131\u015f :
ba\u015fs\u0131zl\u0131k ve sonsuzluk geliyor akla.
Sevgilim,
de\u011fi\u015fti mevsim
\u00e7eki\u015fen geli\u015fmelerden sonra bir s\u0131\u00e7ramakla.
Ve kar\u0131n alt\u0131nda ma\u011frur
hamarat
s\u00fcr\u00fcp gidiyor hayat…
13 Aral\u0131k 1945<\/p>\n
***<\/p>\n
Tarif kabul etmez, – diyorlar, – \u0130stanbulun sefaleti,
milleti, – diyorlar, – k\u0131r\u0131p ge\u00e7irdi a\u00e7l\u0131k,
verem illeti, – diyorlar, – diz boyu.
\u015eu kadarc\u0131k k\u0131z \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n\u0131, – diyorlar, –
yang\u0131n yerlerinde, sinema localar\u0131nda…
. . . . .
. . . . . . . . .
Kara haberler geliyor uzaktaki \u015fehrimden :
namuslu, \u00e7al\u0131\u015fkan, fakir insanlar\u0131n \u015fehri –
sahici \u0130stanbulum,
sevgilim, senin mek\u00e2n\u0131n olan
ve nereye s\u00fcr\u00fclsem, hangi hapiste yatsam
s\u0131rt\u0131mda, torbam\u0131n i\u00e7inde g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm
ve evl\u00e2t ac\u0131s\u0131 gibi y\u00fcre\u011fimde,
senin hayalin gibi g\u00f6zlerimde ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u015fehir…<\/p>\n
13 Kas\u0131m 1945<\/p>\n
***<\/p>\n
Hay aksi l\u00e2net, fena bast\u0131rd\u0131 k\u0131\u015f…
Sen ve namuslu \u0130stanbul’um ne haldesiniz kim bilir?
K\u00f6m\u00fcr\u00fcn var m\u0131?
Odun alabildin mi?
Camlar\u0131n k\u0131y\u0131s\u0131na gazete k\u00e2ad\u0131 yap\u0131\u015ft\u0131r.
Gece erkenden yata\u011fa gir.
Evde de sat\u0131lacak bir \u015fey kalmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131r.
Yar\u0131 a\u00e7, yar\u0131 tok \u00fc\u015f\u00fcmek:
d\u00fcnyada, memleketimizde ve \u015fehrimizde
bu i\u015fte de \u00e7o\u011funluk bizde…<\/p>\n
14 Aral\u0131k 1945<\/p>\n
***<\/p>\n
Kale kap\u0131s\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131karken \u00f6l\u00fcmle bulu\u015fmak \u00fczre,
son defa d\u00f6n\u00fcp bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131zda \u015fehre,
sevgilim, \u015fu s\u00f6zleri s\u00f6yleyebilece\u011fiz :
\u00ab- Pek de \u00f6yle g\u00fcld\u00fcrmedinse de y\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc,
\u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131k g\u00fcc\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fcn yetti\u011fi kadar
seni bahtiyar
k\u0131lal\u0131m diye.
Devam ediyor bahtiyarl\u0131\u011fa do\u011fru gidi\u015fin,
devam ediyor hayat.
\u0130\u00e7imiz rahat,
g\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u00fczde hak edilmi\u015f ekme\u011fine doymu\u015fluk,
g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fczde \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan ayr\u0131lman\u0131n kederi,
i\u015fte geldik gidiyoruz
\u015fen olas\u0131n Halep \u015fehri…\u00bb<\/p>\n
18 Ekim 1945<\/p>\n
***<\/p>\n
R\u00fczg\u00e2r akar gider,\u00a0
ayn\u0131 kiraz dal\u0131 bir kere bile sallanmaz ayn\u0131 r\u00fczg\u00e2rla.
A\u011fa\u00e7ta ku\u015flar c\u0131v\u0131lda\u015f\u0131r :
kanatlar u\u00e7mak ister.
Kap\u0131 kapal\u0131 :
zorlay\u0131p a\u00e7mak ister.
Ben seni isterim :
senin gibi g\u00fczel,
dost
ve sevgili olsun hayat…
Biliyorum hen\u00fcz bitmedi
sefaletin ziyafeti…
Bitecek fakat…<\/p>\n
2 Ekim 1945<\/p>\n
***<\/p>\n
Bu ge\u00e7 vakit
bu sonbahar gecesinde
kelimelerinle doluyum;
zaman gibi, madde gibi ebed\u00ee,
g\u00f6z gibi \u00e7\u0131plak,
el gibi a\u011f\u0131r
ve y\u0131ld\u0131zlar gibi p\u0131r\u0131l p\u0131r\u0131l
kelimeler.
Kelimelerin geldiler bana,
y\u00fcre\u011finden, kafandan, etindendiler.
Kelimelerin getirdiler seni,
onlar : ana,
onlar : kad\u0131n
ve yolda\u015f olan…
Mahzundular, ac\u0131yd\u0131lar, sevin\u00e7li, umutlu, kahramand\u0131lar,
kelimelerin insand\u0131lar…<\/p>\n
20 Eyl\u00fcl 1945<\/p>\n
***<\/p>\n
Saks\u0131larda h\u00e2l\u00e2 tek t\u00fck karanfil bulunursa da
ovada g\u00fcz nadaslar\u0131 yap\u0131ld\u0131 \u00e7oktan,
tohum sa\u00e7\u0131l\u0131yor.
Ve zeytin dev\u015firilmekte.
Bir yandan k\u0131\u015fa girilmekte,
bir yandan bahar fidelerine yer a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131yor.
Bense hasretinle dolu
ve b\u00fcy\u00fck yolculuklar\u0131n sab\u0131rs\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131yla y\u00fckl\u00fc
yat\u0131yorum demirli bir \u015filep gibi Bursada…<\/p>\n
20 Kas\u0131m 1945<\/p>\n
***<\/p>\n
O\u011flumuz hasta,
babas\u0131 hapiste,
senin yorgun ellerinde a\u011f\u0131r ba\u015f\u0131n,
d\u00fcnyan\u0131n hali gibi halimiz…<\/p>\n
\u0130nsanlar, daha g\u00fczel g\u00fcnlere insanlar\u0131 ta\u015f\u0131r,
o\u011flumuz iyile\u015fir,
babas\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kar hapisten,
g\u00fcler senin alt\u0131n g\u00f6zlerinin i\u00e7i,
d\u00fcnyan\u0131n hali gibi halimiz…<\/p>\n
21 Eyl\u00fcl 1945<\/p>\n
***<\/p>\n
Kitap okurum :
i\u00e7inde sen vars\u0131n,
\u015fark\u0131 dinlerim :
i\u00e7inde sen.
Oturdum ekme\u011fimi yerim :
kar\u015f\u0131mda sen oturursun,
\u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r\u0131m :
kar\u015f\u0131mda sen.
Sen ki, her yerde \u00abh\u00e2z\u0131r\u0131 n\u00e2z\u0131r\u00bb\u0131ms\u0131n,
konu\u015famay\u0131z seninle,
duyamay\u0131z sesini birbirimizin :
sen benim sekiz y\u0131ld\u0131r dul kar\u0131ms\u0131n…<\/p>\n
22 Eyl\u00fcl 1945<\/p>\n
***<\/p>\n
O \u015fimdi ne yap\u0131yor
\u015fu anda \u015fimdi, \u015fimdi?
Evde mi, sokakta m\u0131,
\u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yor mu, uzanm\u0131\u015f m\u0131, ayakta m\u0131?
Kolunu kald\u0131rm\u0131\u015f olabilir,
– hey g\u00fcl\u00fcm,
beyaz, kal\u0131n bile\u011fini nas\u0131l da \u00e7\u0131r\u00e7\u0131plak eder bu hareketi!…-<\/p>\n
O \u015fimdi ne yap\u0131yor,
\u015fu anda, \u015fimdi, \u015fimdi?
Belki dizinde bir kedi yavrusu var,
ok\u015fuyor.
Belki de y\u00fcr\u00fcyordur, ad\u0131m\u0131n\u0131 atmak \u00fczredir,
– her kara g\u00fcn\u00fcmde onu bana t\u0131p\u0131\u015f t\u0131p\u0131\u015f getiren
sevgili, can\u0131m\u0131n i\u00e7i ayaklar!…-
Ve ne d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyor
beni mi?
Yoksa
ne bileyim
fasulyan\u0131n neden bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc pi\u015fmedi\u011fini mi?
Yahut, insanlar\u0131n \u00e7o\u011funun
neden b\u00f6yle bedbaht oldu\u011funu mu?<\/p>\n
O \u015fimdi ne d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyor,
\u015fu anda, \u015fimdi, \u015fimdi?…<\/p>\n
23 Eyl\u00fcl 1945<\/p>\n
***<\/p>\n
En g\u00fczel deniz :
hen\u00fcz gidilmemi\u015f olan\u0131d\u0131r.
En g\u00fczel \u00e7ocuk :
hen\u00fcz b\u00fcy\u00fcmedi.
En g\u00fczel g\u00fcnlerimiz :
hen\u00fcz ya\u015famad\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131z.
Ve sana s\u00f6ylemek istedi\u011fim en g\u00fczel s\u00f6z :
hen\u00fcz s\u00f6ylememi\u015f oldu\u011fum s\u00f6zd\u00fcr…<\/p>\n
24 Eyl\u00fcl 1945<\/p>\n
***<\/p>\n
Saat 21.
Meydan yerinde kampana vurdu,
nerdeyse ko\u011fu\u015flar\u0131n kap\u0131lar\u0131 kapan\u0131r.
Bu sefer hapislik uzun s\u00fcrd\u00fc biraz :
8 y\u0131l…
Ya\u015famak : \u00fcmitli bir i\u015ftir, sevgilim,
ya\u015famak :
seni sevmek gibi cidd\u00ee bir i\u015ftir…<\/p>\n
25 Eyl\u00fcl 1945<\/p>\n
***<\/p>\n
Bizi esir ettiler,
bizi hapse att\u0131lar :
beni duvarlar\u0131n i\u00e7inde,
seni duvarlar\u0131n d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda.<\/p>\n
Ufak i\u015f bizimkisi.
As\u0131l en k\u00f6t\u00fcs\u00fc :
bilerek, bilmeyerek
hapisaneyi insan\u0131n kendi i\u00e7inde ta\u015f\u0131mas\u0131…
\u0130nsanlar\u0131n bir\u00e7o\u011fu bu hale d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f,
namuslu, \u00e7al\u0131\u015fkan, iyi insanlar
ve seni sevdi\u011fim kadar sevilmeye l\u00e2y\u0131k…<\/p>\n
26 Eyl\u00fcl 1945<\/p>\n
***<\/p>\n
Bir elman\u0131n yar\u0131s\u0131 biz
yar\u0131s\u0131 bu koskoca d\u00fcnya.
Bir elman\u0131n yar\u0131s\u0131 biz
yar\u0131s\u0131 insanlar\u0131m\u0131z.
Bir elman\u0131n yar\u0131s\u0131 sen
yar\u0131s\u0131 ben
ikimiz…<\/p>\n
27 Ekim 1945<\/p>\n
***<\/p>\n
It\u0131r saks\u0131s\u0131nda artan koku,
denizlerde u\u011fultular
ve i\u015fte dolgun bulutlar\u0131 ve ak\u0131ll\u0131 topra\u011f\u0131yla sonbahar…<\/p>\n
Sevgilim,
ya\u015f kem\u00e2lini buldu.
Bana \u00f6yle gelir ki
belki bin y\u0131ll\u0131k bir \u00f6mr\u00fcn maceras\u0131 ge\u00e7ti ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131zdan.
Ama biz h\u00e2l\u00e2
g\u00fcne\u015fin alt\u0131nda el ele yalnayak ko\u015fan
hayran g\u00f6zl\u00fc \u00e7ocuklar\u0131z…<\/p>\n
28 Ekim 1945<\/p>\n
***<\/p>\n
Seni d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmek g\u00fczel \u015fey
\u00fcmitli \u015fey
d\u00fcnyan\u0131n en g\u00fczel sesinden en g\u00fczel \u015fark\u0131y\u0131 dinlemek gibi bir \u015fey.
Fakat art\u0131k \u00fcmit yetmiyor bana,
ben art\u0131k \u015fark\u0131 dinlemek de\u011fil
\u015fark\u0131 s\u00f6ylemek istiyorum…<\/p>\n
30 Eyl\u00fcl 1945<\/p>\n
***<\/p>\n
Delindi sintine,
esirler par\u00e7alamakta p\u0131rangalar\u0131.
Y\u0131ld\u0131z-poyrazd\u0131r esen,
tekneyi kayalar\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcne atacak.
Bu d\u00fcnya, bu korsan gemisi batacakt\u0131r,
ta\u015f \u00e7atlasa batacak.
Ve senin aln\u0131n gibi h\u00fcr, ferah ve \u00fcmitli bir \u00e2lem
kuraca\u011f\u0131z Pir\u00e2yem…<\/p>\n
5 Aral\u0131k 1945<\/p>\n
***<\/p>\n
\u0130kimiz de biliyoruz, sevgilim,
\u00f6\u011frettiler :
a\u00e7 kalmay\u0131, \u00fc\u015f\u00fcmeyi,
yorgunlu\u011fu \u00f6lesiye
ve birbirimizden ayr\u0131 d\u00fc\u015fmeyi.
Hen\u00fcz \u00f6ld\u00fcrmek zorunda b\u0131rak\u0131lmad\u0131k
ve \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fclmek i\u015fi ge\u00e7medi ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131zdan.<\/p>\n
\u0130kimiz de biliyoruz, sevgilim,
\u00f6\u011fretebiliriz :
d\u00f6v\u00fc\u015fmeyi insanlar\u0131m\u0131z i\u00e7in
ve her g\u00fcn biraz daha candan
biraz daha iyi
sevmeyi…<\/p>\n
5 Ekim 1945<\/p>\n
***<\/p>\n
\u00c7i\u00e7ekli badem a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 unut.
De\u011fmez,
bu bahiste
geri gelmesi m\u00fcmk\u00fcn olmayan hat\u0131rlanmamal\u0131.
Islak sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00fcne\u015fte kurut :
olgun meyvelerin bayg\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131yla p\u0131r\u0131ldas\u0131n
nemli, a\u011f\u0131r k\u0131z\u0131lt\u0131lar…
Sevgilim, sevgilim,
mevsim
sonbahar…<\/p>\n
5 Kas\u0131m 1945<\/p>\n
***<\/p>\n
Onlar \u00fcmidin d\u00fc\u015fman\u0131d\u0131r, sevgilim,
akar suyun,
meyve \u00e7a\u011f\u0131nda a\u011fac\u0131n,
serpilip geli\u015fen hayat\u0131n d\u00fc\u015fman\u0131.
\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc \u00f6l\u00fcm vurdu damgas\u0131n\u0131 al\u0131nlar\u0131na :
– \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcyen di\u015f, d\u00f6k\u00fclen et -,
bir daha geri d\u00f6nmemek \u00fczre y\u0131k\u0131l\u0131p gidecekler.
Ve elbette ki, sevgilim, elbet,
dola\u015facakt\u0131r elini kolunu sallaya sallaya,
dola\u015facakt\u0131r en \u015fanl\u0131 elbisesiyle : i\u015f\u00e7i tulumuyla
bu g\u00fczelim memlekette h\u00fcrriyet…<\/p>\n
6 Aral\u0131k 1945<\/p>\n
***<\/p>\n
Bulutlar ge\u00e7iyor : haberlerle y\u00fckl\u00fc, a\u011f\u0131r.
Buru\u015fuyor h\u00e2l\u00e2 gelmeyen mektup avucumda.
Y\u00fcrek kirpiklerin ucunda
uzay\u0131p giden toprak u\u011furlan\u0131r.
Benim ba\u011f\u0131ras\u0131m gelir : – \u00abP \u00ee r \u00e2 y e ,
P \u00ee r \u00e2 y e !…\u00bb – diye…<\/p>\n
6 Ekim 1945<\/p>\n
***<\/p>\n
Bursada havlucu Recebe,
Karab\u00fck fabrikas\u0131nda tesviyeci Hasana d\u00fc\u015fman,
fakir-k\u00f6yl\u00fc Hat\u00e7e kad\u0131na,
\u0131rgat S\u00fcleymana d\u00fc\u015fman,
sana d\u00fc\u015fman, bana d\u00fc\u015fman,
d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnen insana d\u00fc\u015fman,
vatan ki bu insanlar\u0131n evidir,
sevgilim, onlar vatana d\u00fc\u015fman…<\/p>\n
7 Aral\u0131k 1945<\/p>\n
***<\/p>\n
\u0130nsan \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131klar\u0131 ge\u00e7ti geceleyin a\u00e7\u0131k denizleri
r\u00fczg\u00e2r-
-larla.
Dola\u015fmak tehlikeli h\u00e2l\u00e2
geceleyin a\u00e7\u0131k denizleri…<\/p>\n
Alt\u0131 y\u0131ld\u0131r s\u00fcr\u00fclmedi bu tarla,
duruyor oldu\u011fu gibi tank paletlerinin izleri.
Tank paletlerinin izleri
kapan\u0131r bu k\u0131\u015f karla.<\/p>\n
Ah, g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn nuru, g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn nuru,
yine yalan s\u00f6yl\u00fcyor antenler :
al\u0131n teri tacirleri kapatabilsin diye defteri y\u00fczde y\u00fcz k\u00e2rla.
Fakat Ezrailin sofras\u0131ndan d\u00f6nenler
d\u00f6nd\u00fcler verilmi\u015f kararlarla…<\/p>\n
7 Ekim 1945<\/p>\n
***<\/p>\n
\u00c7ekilmez bir adam oldum yine :
uykusuz, aksi, n\u00e2let.
Bir bak\u0131yorsun ki
ana avrat s\u00f6ver gibi, azg\u0131n bir hayvan\u0131 d\u00f6ver gibi bug\u00fcn \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorum,
sonra bir de bak\u0131yorsun ki
a\u011fz\u0131mda s\u00f6n\u00fck bir c\u0131gara gibi tembel bir t\u00fcrk\u00fc
sabahtan ak\u015fama kadar s\u0131rt\u00fcst\u00fc yat\u0131yorum ertesi g\u00fcn.
Ve beni \u00e7ileden \u00e7\u0131kart\u0131yor b\u00fcsb\u00fct\u00fcn
kendime kar\u015f\u0131 duydu\u011fum nefret
ve merhamet…<\/p>\n
\u00c7ekilmez bir adam oldum yine :
uykusuz, aksi, n\u00e2let.
Yine her seferki gibi haks\u0131z\u0131m.
Sebep yok,
olmas\u0131 da imk\u00e2ns\u0131z.
Bu yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m i\u015f ay\u0131p
rezalet.
Fakat elimde de\u011fil
seni k\u0131skan\u0131yorum
beni affet…<\/p>\n
8 Ekim 1945<\/p>\n
***<\/p>\n
Uzaktaki \u015fehrimin damlar\u0131 \u00fczerinden
ve Marmara denizinin dibinden ge\u00e7ip
sonbahar topraklar\u0131n\u0131 a\u015farak
olgun ve \u0131slak
geldi sesin.
Bu, \u00fc\u00e7 dakikal\u0131k bir zamand\u0131.
Sonra, telefon simsiyah kapand\u0131…<\/p>\n
8 Kas\u0131m 1945<\/p>\n
***<\/p>\n
D\u00fcn gece r\u00fcyama girdin :
dizimin dibinde oturuyormu\u015fun.
Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 kald\u0131rd\u0131n, kocaman, sar\u0131 g\u00f6zlerini bana \u00e7evirdin.
Bir \u015feyler soruyormu\u015fun.
Islak dudaklar\u0131n kapan\u0131p a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131yor,
sesini duymuyorum ama.<\/p>\n
Gecenin i\u00e7inde bir yerlerde ayd\u0131nl\u0131k bir haber gibi saat \u00e7al\u0131yor.
Havada f\u0131s\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131 ba\u015fs\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n ve sonsuzlu\u011fun.
K\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 kafesinde, kanaryam\u0131n : \u00abMemo\u00bbmun t\u00fcrk\u00fcs\u00fc,
s\u00fcr\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f bir tarlada topra\u011f\u0131 itip y\u00fckselen tohumlar\u0131n \u00e7\u0131t\u0131rd\u0131s\u0131
ve bir kalabal\u0131\u011f\u0131n hakl\u0131 ve muzaffer u\u011fultusu geliyor kula\u011f\u0131ma.
Senin \u0131slak dudaklar\u0131n hep \u00f6yle a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131p kapan\u0131yor
sesini duymuyorum ama…<\/p>\n
Kahrederek uyand\u0131m.
Kitab\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnde uyuyakalm\u0131\u015f\u0131m me\u011fer.
D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum :
yoksa senin miydi b\u00fct\u00fcn o sesler?<\/p>\n
9 Ekim 1945<\/p>\n
***<\/p>\n
\u0130lk g\u00f6z g\u00f6ze geldi\u011fimiz g\u00fcnk\u00fc elbiseni \u00e7\u0131kar sand\u0131ktan,
giyin, ku\u015fan,
benze bahar a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131na…
Hapisten
mektubun i\u00e7inde yollad\u0131\u011f\u0131m karanfili tak sa\u00e7lar\u0131na,
kald\u0131r, \u00f6p\u00fclesi \u00e7izgilerle k\u0131r\u0131\u015f\u0131k beyaz, geni\u015f aln\u0131n\u0131,
b\u00f6yle bir g\u00fcnde y\u0131lg\u0131n ve kederli de\u011fil,
ne m\u00fcnasebet,
b\u00f6yle bir g\u00fcnde bir isyan bayra\u011f\u0131 gibi g\u00fczel olmal\u0131 N\u00e2z\u0131m Hikmetin
kad\u0131n\u0131…<\/p>\n
Aral\u0131k 1945<\/p>\n
Naz\u0131m Hikmet RAN<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Ne g\u00fczel \u015fey hat\u0131rlamak seni :\u00f6l\u00fcm ve zafer haberleri i\u00e7inden,hapisteve ya\u015f\u0131m k\u0131rk\u0131 ge\u00e7mi\u015f iken… Ne g\u00fczel \u015fey hat\u0131rlamak seni :bir mavi kuma\u015f\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnde unutulmu\u015f olan elinve sa\u00e7lar\u0131ndavakur yumu\u015fakl\u0131\u011f\u0131 can\u0131m\u0131n i\u00e7i \u0130stanbul topra\u011f\u0131n\u0131n…\u0130\u00e7imde ikinci bir insan gibidir seni sevmek saadeti…Parmaklar\u0131n ucunda kalan kokusu sardunya yapra\u011f\u0131n\u0131n,g\u00fcne\u015fli bir rahatl\u0131kve etin daveti : k\u0131pk\u0131z\u0131l \u00e7izgilerle b\u00f6l\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015f s\u0131cak koyu bir […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[59],"tags":[],"class_list":{"0":"post-1147","1":"post","2":"type-post","3":"status-publish","4":"format-standard","6":"category-nazim-hikmet-ran"},"yoast_head":"\n