\u00a0<\/p>\n
An\u0131ms\u0131yor musun
deniz ile makineleri
ve yap\u0131\u015fkan karanl\u0131kla dolu
o ambarlar\u0131?
Ve Filipinler’le s\u00fcslenmi\u015f
yaban\u0131l hayalleri,
bir de Magosa d\u00fc\u015flerindeki
kocaman y\u0131ld\u0131zlar\u0131?
Tek bir denizci olsun an\u0131ms\u0131yor musun
ki susuz bak\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131 yitirmi\u015f enginlerde,
orda, ak\u015famlar\u0131 g\u00fcne\u015fin batt\u0131\u011f\u0131 yerde,
tropi\u011fin kokusu i\u00e7inde yo\u011fun?
An\u0131ms\u0131yor musun nas\u0131l
yava\u015f yava\u015f defnetmi\u015ftik biz
buzla\u015fan en son umutlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131,
nas\u0131l bitti iyili\u011fe
ve insana y\u00f6nelik
olanca g\u00fcvenimiz,
nas\u0131l yitirdik romantikli\u011fi
ve o bombo\u015f
kuruntular\u0131m\u0131z\u0131?
An\u0131ms\u0131yor musun nas\u0131l
birileri acele etti
ve biz ya\u015fam\u0131n tuza\u011f\u0131na tak\u0131ld\u0131k.
Uyand\u0131k uyanmas\u0131na.
Ama \u00e7ok ge\u00e7ti.
Ac\u0131mas\u0131zca k\u0131sk\u0131vrak ba\u011flanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131k art\u0131k.
Kafese k\u0131st\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f hayvanlar\u0131nki gibi
kederli parl\u0131yordu
susuz g\u00f6zlerimiz
ve merhamet dileniyor
ve yalvar\u0131yordu.
Oysa o denli gen\u00e7,
inan\u0131lmayacak denli gen\u00e7tik biz!
Ve sonra’ sonra
tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z bir kin
sarmaya ba\u015flad\u0131 derinden i\u00e7imizi.
Kangren gibi,
hay\u0131r, c\u00fczam gibi vahim
b\u00fcy\u00fcyerek o,
\u00e7\u00fcr\u00fctmeye ba\u015flad\u0131 y\u00fcre\u011fimizi,
ac\u0131mas\u0131z a\u011flar\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6r\u00fcyordu o,
bombo\u015f ruhlar\u0131m\u0131za karanl\u0131k ve bezgin;
kan\u0131m\u0131zda s\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fcyor,
tehditlerle k\u00f6p\u00fcr\u00fcyordu o,
oysa vakit erkendi, \u00e7ok erkendi bizim i\u00e7in’<\/p>\n
\u00dcstelik orda
-y\u00fcksekte, derinli\u011finde g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcn-
eski haliyle
g\u00f6zal\u0131c\u0131 u\u00e7u\u015fu s\u00fcr\u00fcyordu mart\u0131lar\u0131n.
G\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc mika \u00f6rne\u011fi \u0131\u015f\u0131yordu yine,
engin yine maviydi
ve alabildi\u011fine ayd\u0131n.
Ufukta her ak\u015fam \u00fczeri yine
yava\u015f yava\u015f siliniyordu
rengi bezlerin
ve yitiyordu yelkenler uzak bir yerde,
ama feri bitmi\u015fti bizlerdeki g\u00f6zlerin.<\/p>\n
\u00d6nemsiz, ge\u00e7mi\u015f bir zamand\u0131r bu benim i\u00e7in,
ama unutmuyorum payla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z saman yata\u011f\u0131
ve tek sana a\u00e7ma gereksinimi duyuyor i\u00e7im
ne denli din\u00e7 oldu\u011fumu ve yar\u0131na inand\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131.<\/p>\n
\u0130\u015fte budur asl\u0131nda beni cayd\u0131ran
\u015faka\u011f\u0131m\u0131
par\u00e7alama
delili\u011finden.
Ama y\u00fcre\u011fimin derinindeki
o kin durmadan
bir sava\u015f azmine d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyor
art\u0131k
k\u00fckreyen.<\/p>\n
Odur bizi kavu\u015fturacak olan Filipinler’e
ve kocaman y\u0131ld\u0131zlar\u0131na Magosa’n\u0131n
ve makine sevgimizi diriltecek o yine
ve sonsuzlu\u011funu denizdeki uzakl\u0131klar\u0131n,
tropi\u011fin o e\u015fsiz kokular\u0131 i\u00e7inde.
Gecedir \u015fimdi.
Makine tekd\u00fczelikle dinlenmeden
okudu\u011fu \u015fark\u0131yla
s\u0131ms\u0131cak umutlar sa\u00e7\u0131yor i\u015fte.
Ya\u015fam\u0131 nas\u0131l sevdi\u011fimi bilmelisin sen!
Ve s\u0131n\u0131r tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131
bo\u015f \u015feylere
nefrette’<\/p>\n
Yar\u0131n tan a\u011faraca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bildi\u011fim kadar kesin ‘
biliyorum buzlar\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131zla k\u0131raca\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131.
Ve karanl\u0131k ufuktan do\u011faca\u011f\u0131n\u0131
g\u00fcne\u015fin,
evet, parlayacak
bizim g\u00fcne\u015fimiz,
g\u00fcne\u015flerin hi\u00e7 batmaz\u0131.
Vars\u0131n o, minik bir kelebe\u011fin
kanatlar\u0131 gibi, alazlas\u0131n
kanatlar\u0131m\u0131 en nihayet.
Ne ilenece\u011fim,
ne de yerinece\u011fim,
\u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc nas\u0131l olsa bir g\u00fcn
\u00f6lece\u011fimi biliyorum elbet.
Ama, farkl\u0131 bir \u015feydir,
yery\u00fcz\u00fc
zehirli pas\u0131ndan
silkinirken
\u00f6lmek,
ba\u015flarken milyonlar\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fcms\u00fczl\u00fc\u011f\u00fc,
asl\u0131nda bu, \u015fark\u0131 demek,
evet, bu \u015fark\u0131 demek.<\/p>\n
Nikola VAPTSAROV<\/p>\n
\u00c7eviri: Erdal alova<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
\u00a0 An\u0131ms\u0131yor musundeniz ile makinelerive yap\u0131\u015fkan karanl\u0131kla doluo ambarlar\u0131?Ve Filipinler’le s\u00fcslenmi\u015fyaban\u0131l hayalleri,bir de Magosa d\u00fc\u015flerindekikocaman y\u0131ld\u0131zlar\u0131?Tek bir denizci olsun an\u0131ms\u0131yor musunki susuz bak\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131 yitirmi\u015f enginlerde,orda, ak\u015famlar\u0131 g\u00fcne\u015fin batt\u0131\u011f\u0131 yerde,tropi\u011fin kokusu i\u00e7inde yo\u011fun?An\u0131ms\u0131yor musun nas\u0131lyava\u015f yava\u015f defnetmi\u015ftik bizbuzla\u015fan en son umutlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131,nas\u0131l bitti iyili\u011feve insana y\u00f6nelikolanca g\u00fcvenimiz,nas\u0131l yitirdik romantikli\u011five o bombo\u015fkuruntular\u0131m\u0131z\u0131?An\u0131ms\u0131yor musun nas\u0131lbirileri acele ettive biz ya\u015fam\u0131n […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[69],"tags":[],"class_list":{"0":"post-1320","1":"post","2":"type-post","3":"status-publish","4":"format-standard","6":"category-nikola-vaptsarov"},"yoast_head":"\n