\u00a0<\/p>\n
G\u00fcn do\u011fmadan a\u00e7\u0131yorum d\u00fckkan\u0131
ku\u015flar uykuda daha, a\u011fa\u00e7lar uykuda, y\u00fcre\u011fim uykuda
a\u011fz\u0131mda ak\u015famdan kalma k\u0131yak bir cigara
kula\u011f\u0131mda elektrik zilleri, sirenler
-Usta \u00e7ay\u0131 demledim, bak\u0131r tav\u0131nda<\/p>\n
Bing\u00f6l’den geleli d\u00f6rt y\u0131l
fincan kadar bir d\u00fckkan
\u0131sl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 giy
ortal\u0131\u011f\u0131 s\u00fcp\u00fcr
tezgah\u0131 d\u00fczenle<\/p>\n
En tiz \u00e7an bak\u0131r, kalay ve fosfattan d\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcr
fil kadar \u00e7anlar d\u00f6km\u00fc\u015f ustam
biri Galata’daki b\u00fcy\u00fck kilisenin avlusunda
biri bizim orda G\u00fcll\u00fcba\u011f istasyonunda kampana
biri Fatih-Harbiye tramvay\u0131nda
biri solgun bir fesle\u011fen gibi duruyor ustam\u0131n \u00e7ocukluk an\u0131lar\u0131nda
(En \u00e7ok bu can\u0131 seviyorum nedense)
Her g\u00fcn \u00f6\u011fle paydosunda bu can\u0131 anlat\u0131yor ustam
askerden daha yeni gelmi\u015f o zaman
bile\u011finde bir d\u00f6\u011fme ki hala durur
bir mavi ejderha, sular i\u00e7inde, kollar\u0131 aras\u0131nda bir kad\u0131n<\/p>\n
g\u00f6vdesi ejderha, ba\u015f\u0131 ayn\u0131 insan sureti
askerli\u011finden kalan tek hat\u0131ra
o zaman elektrik nerde, sirenler nerde
i\u015f gani, parada bereket, g\u00fcc\u00fc kuvveti yerinde
k\u00f6r\u00fc\u011fe bast\u0131k\u00e7a, \u00f6rse vurduk\u00e7a geni\u015fliyor d\u00fckkan
sanki K\u0131z\u0131l\u0131rmak’t\u0131r, tarihi \u015fanl\u0131 Toroslar, sanki Haymana ovas\u0131
s\u0131n\u0131rs\u0131z bo\u015flu\u011funda bir g\u00fcz sabah\u0131n\u0131n<\/p>\n
Bir g\u00fcnde d\u00f6kermi\u015f fil kadar \u00e7an\u0131 derler
\u015eimdiyse k\u00fcsm\u00fc\u015f bak\u0131ra, kalaya, fosfata, k\u00f6m\u00fcre
\u00e7ekice, e\u011feye, tuza, keskiye, \u00f6rse, ekme\u011fe
\u0131\u015f\u0131l \u0131\u015f\u0131l bir sevince, al\u0131nterindeki r\u00fczgara
seste yans\u0131yan cevhere
\u00f6fkeye<\/p>\n
\u015eimdiyse y\u0131rt\u0131k bir resim gibi raflar\u0131n rutubetli kokusunda<\/p>\n
Bing\u00f6l’den geleli d\u00f6rt y\u0131l
\u00e7ekicin sap\u0131 k\u0131r\u0131k
ustan\u0131n g\u00f6nl\u00fc<\/p>\n
san\u0131rs\u0131n \u00e7an de\u011fil d\u00f6kt\u00fc\u011f\u00fc bir k\u00fcsk\u00fcnl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn izd\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm\u00fc<\/p>\n
Tuvalet penceresinin kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131 koca bir han
\u00e7o\u011fu terzi, konfeksiyoncu, \u00fct\u00fcc\u00fc bir s\u00fcr\u00fc k\u0131z
ne zaman pencereden baksam sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 tar\u0131yor biri
hafif\u00e7e dizleri a\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131\u015f birinin, y\u00fcz\u00fcnde bir dalg\u0131nl\u0131k esintisi
bana m\u0131 bak\u0131yor i\u00e7imdeki suya m\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyor a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6lgesi
biri s\u00fcrf\u00fcle mi, te\u011fel mi ne, elinde i\u011fneler, iplikler, y\u00fcks\u00fckler
soluk bir \u00e7ay barda\u011f\u0131na daml\u0131yor al\u0131nteri
usulca bir cigara yak\u0131yorum
g\u00f6zbebe\u011fimde Cemil kalecilerin korkulu r\u00fcyas\u0131, her ma\u00e7ta \u00fc\u00e7 \u00e7eken
g\u00f6zbebe\u011finde T\u00fcrkan \u015eoray, Fatma Girik, Arzu Okey
en \u00e7ok da G\u00f6kben bir \u015fark\u0131da:<\/p>\n
“Ben d\u00fcn gece bir r\u00fcyada
Ya\u015f\u0131yordum sanki
Dansettim kollar\u0131nda
Gen\u00e7 k\u0131zlar doland\u0131
Sa\u011f\u0131nda solunda
Sen ise beni se\u00e7tin
Cennete d\u00f6nd\u00fc d\u00fcnya”<\/p>\n
Bir cigara, bir cigara daha
z\u00fclf\u00fcn\u00fc ok\u015fay\u0131p i\u015fareti \u00e7ak\u0131yor hemen
“Ak\u015fam sekizde, otob\u00fcs dura\u011f\u0131nda ama ablam\u0131 ekersem”
ve patl\u0131yor birden a\u011fz\u0131ndaki ciklet<\/p>\n
Ustam \u00e7ok k\u0131z\u0131yor b\u00f6yle s\u0131k s\u0131k tuvalete gitmeme
bu ya\u015fta cigara, ci\u011ferlerin zift tutacak, ben askerken
\u00f6ks\u00fcr\u00fc\u011f\u00fc geliyor derinlerden<\/p>\n
Bing\u00f6l’den geleli d\u00f6rt y\u0131l
di\u015fleri a\u015f\u0131nm\u0131\u015f e\u011fenin, tutmuyor kerpeten
a\u015f\u0131nm\u0131\u015f y\u00fcre\u011fimdeki uluzgar
san\u0131rs\u0131n \u00e7an de\u011fil d\u00f6kt\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm bir \u00f6zlemin izd\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm\u00fc<\/p>\n
En tiz \u00e7an bak\u0131r, kalay ve fosfattan d\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcr
fil kadar \u00e7anlar d\u00f6kmek istiyorum
hi\u00e7 olmazsa bizim orda G\u00fcll\u00fcba\u011f istasyonunda kampana kadar
ama hep ayn\u0131 k\u00f6m\u00fcr yan\u0131yor ocakta
hep ayn\u0131 \u00f6ks\u00fcr\u00fck, ayn\u0131 ses ustam\u0131n puslu an\u0131lar\u0131nda
hep ayn\u0131 \u00f6ks\u00fcr\u00fck, ayn\u0131 ses ustam\u0131n puslu an\u0131lar\u0131nda
sanki hi\u00e7 Fener – Be\u015fikta\u015f ma\u00e7\u0131na gitmemi\u015f
hi\u00e7 film g\u00f6rmemi\u015f T\u00fcrkan \u015eoray’l\u0131, Ayhan I\u015f\u0131k’l\u0131, Arzu Okey’li
hi\u00e7 a\u011flamam\u0131\u015f Orhan Gencebay’\u0131, Selahattin Cesur’u dinlerken
(Ak\u015fam Orhan Gencebay’\u0131n “Dertler Benim Olsun”
pila\u011f\u0131n\u0131 alay\u0131m
bir de resmini aynan\u0131n kenar\u0131na asmak i\u00e7in)<\/p>\n
Hi\u00e7 sevgilisi de olmam\u0131\u015f galiba bir otob\u00fcs dura\u011f\u0131nda bekleyen<\/p>\n
En tiz \u00e7an bak\u0131r, kalay ve fosfattan d\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcr
davara tak da\u011flardan da\u011flara ula\u015fs\u0131n sesi
paytona tak \u015feneltsin yollar\u0131 sesi
arabaya tak hele bir de yan\u0131nda mavi boncuklar olursa
trene tak bir gurbetten bir gurbete dola\u015fs\u0131n sesi
ama hep ayn\u0131 cevher s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcyor al\u0131nterimden
ayn\u0131 uluzgar \u00e7ekicin suyunda, alevin yalaz\u0131nda, pazular\u0131mda<\/p>\n
Fincan kadar bir d\u00fckkan
oca\u011f\u0131 yak
madeni haz\u0131rla
ate\u015fi k\u00f6r\u00fckle
ba\u011flanm\u0131\u015f bir kez nasibim, zor zanaat
vuruyorum vuruyorum vurduk\u00e7a b\u00fcy\u00fcyor avu\u00e7lar\u0131mda nas\u0131r
daha yeni terlemi\u015f b\u0131y\u0131klar\u0131m
b\u00fcy\u00fcyor kollar\u0131mda sap\u0131na sevgilimin ad\u0131n\u0131 kaz\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u00e7eki\u00e7
vurduk\u00e7a b\u00fcy\u00fcyor sab\u0131r ve k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcl\u00fcyor nedense sefertas\u0131mda lokma
Bing\u00f6l’den geleli d\u00f6rt y\u0131l
-Usta \u00e7ay\u0131 demledim, kalay tav\u0131nda<\/p>\n
Bing\u00f6l’den geleli d\u00f6rt y\u0131l
telsiz duvaks\u0131z bir k\u00fcl\u00fcst\u00fcr ocak
k\u00f6r\u00fc\u011f\u00fc pas tutmu\u015f bir usta
san\u0131rs\u0131n \u00e7an de\u011fil d\u00f6kt\u00fc\u011f\u00fc bir yang\u0131n\u0131n izd\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm\u00fc<\/p>\n
G\u00fcn batarken kap\u0131yorum d\u00fckkan\u0131<\/p>\n
Refik DURBA\u015e<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
\u00a0 G\u00fcn do\u011fmadan a\u00e7\u0131yorum d\u00fckkan\u0131ku\u015flar uykuda daha, a\u011fa\u00e7lar uykuda, y\u00fcre\u011fim uykudaa\u011fz\u0131mda ak\u015famdan kalma k\u0131yak bir cigarakula\u011f\u0131mda elektrik zilleri, sirenler-Usta \u00e7ay\u0131 demledim, bak\u0131r tav\u0131nda Bing\u00f6l’den geleli d\u00f6rt y\u0131lfincan kadar bir d\u00fckkan\u0131sl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 giyortal\u0131\u011f\u0131 s\u00fcp\u00fcrtezgah\u0131 d\u00fczenle En tiz \u00e7an bak\u0131r, kalay ve fosfattan d\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcrfil kadar \u00e7anlar d\u00f6km\u00fc\u015f ustambiri Galata’daki b\u00fcy\u00fck kilisenin avlusundabiri bizim orda G\u00fcll\u00fcba\u011f istasyonunda kampanabiri Fatih-Harbiye […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[88],"tags":[],"class_list":{"0":"post-1880","1":"post","2":"type-post","3":"status-publish","4":"format-standard","6":"category-refik-durbas"},"yoast_head":"\n