{"id":2537,"date":"2009-12-06T16:54:37","date_gmt":"2009-12-06T13:54:37","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/localhost\/wordpress\/2009\/12\/06\/ayri-odalar\/"},"modified":"2009-12-06T16:54:37","modified_gmt":"2009-12-06T13:54:37","slug":"ayri-odalar","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/narteks.net\/index.php\/2009\/12\/06\/ayri-odalar\/","title":{"rendered":"AYRI ODALAR"},"content":{"rendered":"<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\u00a0<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Anne beni onayla ve daha \u00e7ok sev, dersiniz..<br \/>Baba, beni \u00f6nemse ve hep yan\u0131mda ol, dersiniz&#8230;<br \/>Bak\u0131n size yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir \u015feyi okuyaca\u011f\u0131m, can kula\u011f\u0131yla dinleyin&#8230; Okulda \u00e7ok b\u00fcy\u00fck bir ba\u015far\u0131 kazand\u0131m, bunun benim i\u00e7in ne kadar \u00f6nemli oldu\u011funu ne olur anlay\u0131n, dersiniz&#8230;<br \/>Hi\u00e7 eksilmesin, hep artarak s\u00fcrs\u00fcn istersiniz&#8230;<br \/>Ama bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc istedi\u011finiz olmaz. Onaylarm\u0131\u015f g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrler, ama sadece g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrler&#8230; Sevmi\u015f gibi yaparlar, ama bilirsiniz ki sevgileri istedi\u011finiz kadar de\u011fildir&#8230; \u00d6nce y\u00fcceltir, \u00f6nemser gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrler, ama hi\u00e7 beklemedi\u011finiz da k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcmserler. Hem de kalbinizin en savunmas\u0131z bir an\u0131nda&#8230;<br \/>Yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 okurken ilgiliymi\u015f gibi yapmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fsalar da ilgisiz bak\u0131\u015flarla dinledikleri g\u00f6zlerinizden ka\u00e7maz&#8230;<br \/>O s\u0131rada ak\u0131llar\u0131ndan g\u00fcnl\u00fck, s\u0131radan meseleler ge\u00e7er, kazand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z ba\u015far\u0131n\u0131n onlar i\u00e7in ger\u00e7ek bir anlam\u0131 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 o kay\u0131ts\u0131z bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131ndan anlars\u0131n\u0131z&#8230;<br \/>\u00d6nce \u00f6perler, ama hi\u00e7 ummad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z bir anda \u00f6pt\u00fckleri yerden kanat\u0131rlar sizi&#8230; Sonra yine kanatt\u0131klar\u0131 yerleri \u00f6pmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rlar, ac\u0131s\u0131 ge\u00e7sin diye&#8230;<br \/>Sizi en \u00e7ok sevdikleriniz yaralar&#8230; Hem de en derinden&#8230; Bu s\u0131z\u0131 hi\u00e7 gitmez i\u00e7inizden. Aradan y\u0131llar ge\u00e7mi\u015f olsa bile sanki birka\u00e7 saat \u00f6nce olmu\u015f gibidir. Hi\u00e7, ama hi\u00e7 unutamazs\u0131n\u0131z, silip atamazs\u0131n\u0131z i\u00e7inizdeki o s\u0131z\u0131y\u0131&#8230;<br \/>\u0130\u015fte as\u0131l benli\u011finiz budur&#8230; Hayat\u0131n\u0131z\u0131n geri kalan y\u0131llar\u0131nda sizi hi\u00e7 beklemedi\u011finiz bir anda ortaya \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p olmad\u0131k yerlere s\u00fcr\u00fckleyebilecektir. Zaman\u0131n\u0131 kollamaktad\u0131r, i\u00e7ten i\u00e7e bunu \u00e7ok iyi bilirsiniz, ama onu unutmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z&#8230;<br \/>B\u00fct\u00fcn derdiniz onu gizleyip susturmakt\u0131r asl\u0131nda. Kimseye g\u00f6stermemektir. En derinlere itersiniz onu. Bu s\u0131z\u0131y\u0131 en \u00fcrk\u00fct\u00fcc\u00fc s\u0131rr\u0131n\u0131z gibi saklars\u0131n\u0131z. Size en yak\u0131n olan insanlardan bile&#8230; \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc bilirsiniz ki, o s\u0131z\u0131 bir kez uyand\u0131 m\u0131 ne yapsan\u0131z onu dindiremeyeceksinizdir&#8230; Bir kere kendisini hat\u0131rlatt\u0131\u011f\u0131 zaman, ne zaman dinece\u011fini asla bilemeyeceksinizdir, unutmak isteseniz de i\u00e7ten i\u00e7e bilirsiniz bunu&#8230;<br \/>Bilirsiniz ki bu s\u0131z\u0131 ortaya \u00e7\u0131kar \u00e7\u0131kmaz k\u00f6rle\u015fecek, bildi\u011finiz her \u015feyi unutacak, savundu\u011funuz her de\u011fer anlam\u0131n\u0131 kaybedecek, o g\u00fcne dek kazand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z sand\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131z\u0131n bir hi\u00e7ten ibaret oldu\u011funu g\u00f6receksinizdir&#8230; \u00d6mr\u00fcn\u00fcz sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z \u015fey elinizden ka\u00e7acak, as\u0131l yazg\u0131n\u0131z ortaya \u00e7\u0131kacakt\u0131r&#8230; Yazg\u0131n\u0131z i\u015fte o en derinlerde saklad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z yaral\u0131 ve s\u0131z\u0131larla dolu benli\u011finizdir. En yasak b\u00f6lgenizdir&#8230; Onu en alta gizlemek i\u00e7in bir\u00e7ok benlik edinirsiniz. Bu benlikleri hayranl\u0131klarla, ilgilerle, ba\u015far\u0131larla, kazand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z imgelerle s\u00fcsleyip g\u00f6steri\u015fli hale getirirsiniz ki, sizi tan\u0131yan en altta yatan\u0131 g\u00f6rmesin, hep onlarla ilgilensin, onlar\u0131 ger\u00e7ek sans\u0131n, onlara hayran olup ba\u011flans\u0131n istersiniz&#8230;<br \/>\u0130li\u015fkiler ya\u015fars\u0131n\u0131z, beraberlikleriniz olur, kimseye, ama kimseye yeterince g\u00fcvenmez, onu; o altta yatan yaral\u0131 benli\u011finizi elinizden geldi\u011fince saklamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z. Ya\u015fad\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131za, ili\u015fkilerinize kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131rmazs\u0131n\u0131z onu. Ne yaparsan\u0131z, ne s\u00f6ylerseniz, onsuz ya\u015far, onu hi\u00e7 hesaba katmadan s\u00f6ylersiniz. Ondan habersizmi\u015f gibi yapars\u0131n\u0131z. \u0130yisinizdir b\u00f6yle, \u00e7ok da yara almadan s\u00fcr\u00fckleyip g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcrs\u00fcn\u00fcz hayat\u0131n\u0131z\u0131&#8230; Her ili\u015fki bir di\u011ferini besler. \u0130li\u015fkilerde \u00e7o\u011fu kez hayranl\u0131kla seyretti\u011finiz y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fczde o s\u0131z\u0131 yoktur. Kaybetmemi\u015f kazanm\u0131\u015fs\u0131n\u0131zd\u0131r. Hi\u00e7 s\u00f6ylemedi\u011finiz g\u00fczel ve anlaml\u0131 s\u00f6zleri hayat\u0131n\u0131za yeni girecek insana saklarken aynan\u0131zdaki y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcz bir b\u00fct\u00fcnd\u00fcr&#8230; Ya da siz \u00f6yle g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u00fcn\u00fcz&#8230;<br \/>Sonra hi\u00e7 ummad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z anda biri \u00e7\u0131kar kar\u015f\u0131n\u0131za&#8230; Ona da di\u011ferlerine yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z gibi yapars\u0131n\u0131z. S\u00fcsleyip g\u00f6steri\u015fli hale getirdi\u011finiz benliklerinizle ya\u015famaya ba\u015flars\u0131n\u0131z onunla&#8230; \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc daha \u00f6nce kimselere g\u00fcvenmedi\u011finiz gibi ona da tam anlam\u0131yla g\u00fcvenemezsiniz&#8230; Ba\u015flarda g\u00fczeldir onun aynas\u0131nda g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fcz y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcz. B\u00fct\u00fcnd\u00fcr&#8230; Eski ili\u015fkinizden saklad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z g\u00fczel ve anlaml\u0131 s\u00f6zlerin onu etkiledi\u011fini hissettik\u00e7e daha da ayd\u0131nlan\u0131r aynas\u0131ndaki resminiz. Ona \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n arkada\u015flar\u0131na yeni ald\u0131klar\u0131 oyuncaklar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6sterir gibi o s\u00fcsl\u00fc ve daha \u00f6nce ba\u015fkalar\u0131 taraf\u0131ndan hep onaylanm\u0131\u015f benliklerinizi g\u00f6sterip durursunuz&#8230;<br \/>Ama her \u015fey yolunda gibi giderken birg\u00fcn sizi art\u0131k eskisi gibi onaylamad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, s\u00f6ylediklerinizi hayranl\u0131kla dinlemedi\u011fini anlamaya ba\u015flars\u0131n\u0131z. Hatta zaman zaman ba\u015flardaki onay\u0131n\u0131n gizli bir onays\u0131zl\u0131\u011fa, hayranl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n sinsi bir k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcmsemeye d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc fark etmeye ba\u015flars\u0131n\u0131z. Bir\u00e7ok insan\u0131 etkiledi\u011fini sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z oyuncaklar\u0131n\u0131z\u0131n onu etkilemedi\u011fini hissedersiniz&#8230; Onu b\u00fcy\u00fclemek i\u00e7in s\u00f6yledi\u011finiz s\u00f6zlerin sanki bir duvara \u00e7arp\u0131p yine size geri d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc ve her geri d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde kanats\u0131z ve kan\u0131 \u00e7ekilmi\u015f ku\u015flar gibi i\u00e7inizdeki o \u00e7ok gizli olan bo\u015flu\u011fa birer birer d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u00fcn\u00fcz&#8230; Tuhaf bir \u00fcrk\u00fcnt\u00fcyle sars\u0131l\u0131r, ayaklar\u0131n\u0131z\u0131n alt\u0131ndaki zeminin usulca kayd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlars\u0131n\u0131z. Aynas\u0131ndaki foto\u011fraf\u0131n\u0131z \u00e7oktan g\u00f6lgelenmeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131r. Sanki sizi sizden iyi bilen, ama sizin \u00e7ok da tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z birisinin \u00e7ocuklu\u011funuzun arka bah\u00e7esinde, yeni al\u0131nm\u0131\u015f ve o \u00e7ok sevdi\u011finiz oyuncaklar\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 teker teker yakt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u00fcn\u00fcz&#8230; Oyuncaklar\u0131n\u0131zdan \u00e7\u0131kan yan\u0131k kokusu \u00e7ok eski ve hi\u00e7 unutulmayan bir felaketin yakla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hissettirir&#8230; Bu yakla\u015fan felaket hissi yang\u0131n\u0131n arka bah\u00e7enize do\u011fru ilerledi\u011fini hat\u0131rlat\u0131r size&#8230; Art\u0131k aynas\u0131ndaki y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcze bu yan\u0131k kokusu e\u015flik etmeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131r&#8230; Y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcz eskisi gibi tan\u0131d\u0131k gelmemeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131r&#8230; Bir an \u00f6nce buradan bir \u00e7\u0131k\u0131\u015f aramak ve bu ili\u015fkiyi sonland\u0131rmak istersiniz&#8230; Ama bir \u015fey tutar sizi&#8230; Basiretiniz ba\u011flan\u0131r. Giderayak y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcz\u00fc onun aynas\u0131nda bir kez daha g\u00fczel, ayd\u0131nl\u0131k ve b\u00fct\u00fcn olarak g\u00f6r\u00fcp \u00f6yle \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p gitmek istersiniz bir ba\u015fka aynaya&#8230; Yang\u0131n arka bah\u00e7eye s\u0131\u00e7ramadan ona g\u00fczel ve hep hayranl\u0131kla an\u0131msayaca\u011f\u0131 bir son haz\u0131rlamak istersiniz&#8230; Ve art\u0131k tek derdiniz onu bu g\u00fczel sona ikna etmekten ba\u015fka bir\u015fey de\u011fildir&#8230; Ama haz\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z hi\u00e7bir veda \u015f\u00f6leni onu etkilemez&#8230; Yang\u0131n i\u00e7erlere, derinlere do\u011fru h\u0131zla ilerlemeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131r. Art\u0131k ona g\u00f6sterebilece\u011finiz hi\u00e7bir yeni oyunca\u011f\u0131n\u0131z kalmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131r&#8230; Her veda \u015f\u00f6leni bir \u00f6ncekinden daha g\u00f6steri\u015fsiz, bir \u00f6ncekinden daha yoksul ve ac\u0131nas\u0131 olmu\u015ftur&#8230; Savunmalar\u0131n\u0131z birer birer onun g\u00f6z\u00fcnde anlam\u0131n\u0131 yitirmi\u015ftir&#8230; Her\u015feyi \u00f6ylece b\u0131rak\u0131p gitmek, b\u0131rak beni art\u0131k, gitmek istiyorum, deseniz de bu ondan \u00e7ok size inand\u0131r\u0131c\u0131 gelmez. Ayr\u0131l\u0131p gitmeye \u00f6nce kendinizi ikna edemez olmu\u015fsunuzdur&#8230; Beni b\u0131rak, bitsin art\u0131k bu ili\u015fki, deseniz de, bu s\u00f6zler ona \u00e7arp\u0131p; beni b\u00f6yle b\u0131rakma, beni onaylamadan, bana hayran olmadan, beni sevmeden b\u0131rakma, olarak yine size geri d\u00f6ner&#8230;<br \/>Bu art\u0131k kendinizi onun g\u00f6z\u00fcyle g\u00f6rmeye ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 g\u00f6sterir ki ka\u00e7\u0131p kurtulman\u0131z i\u00e7in art\u0131k \u00e7ok ge\u00e7tir&#8230; Y\u0131llard\u0131r herkesten saklad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z o yaral\u0131 benli\u011finiz sakland\u0131\u011f\u0131 yerden, art\u0131k birer k\u00fclden ibaret olan benliklerinizin yan\u0131k kokular\u0131 aras\u0131ndan en \u00fcste \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015ft\u0131r&#8230; Art\u0131k s\u00f6z sizden \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015ft\u0131r&#8230; Kaderinizin ipleri elinizden ka\u00e7m\u0131\u015f yazg\u0131n\u0131zla savunmas\u0131z bir \u015fekilde kar\u015f\u0131 kar\u015f\u0131ya kalm\u0131\u015fs\u0131n\u0131zd\u0131r&#8230; Aynas\u0131ndaki y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcz parampar\u00e7ad\u0131r&#8230; Art\u0131k o aynadaki y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcze o \u00e7ok eski s\u0131z\u0131lar olmadan bakamaz olmu\u015fsunuzdur&#8230; O \u00e7ok eski s\u0131z\u0131lar, sanki birka\u00e7 saat \u00f6nce girmi\u015f gibidir i\u00e7inize&#8230; Sanki unuttu\u011funuzu sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z o \u00e7ok eski zamanlarda de\u011fil de hen\u00fcz \u015fimdi yaralanm\u0131\u015f gibisinizdir&#8230; Sanki hayata ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z yere sizi geri \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r o s\u0131z\u0131lar&#8230; O noktaya nas\u0131l geldi\u011finizi anlamadan, kar\u015f\u0131n\u0131zdaki insandan t\u0131pk\u0131 o yaral\u0131 \u00e7ocuklu\u011funuzdaki \u00f6zleminiz gibi, sizi sonuna dek anlay\u0131p benimsemesini beklersiniz..<br \/>Anne beni onayla ve daha \u00e7ok sev, der gibi&#8230; Baba beni \u00f6nemse ve hep yan\u0131mda ol, der gibi yapars\u0131n\u0131z ne yapsan\u0131z&#8230; Ama ne deseniz, ne yapsan\u0131z hep eksik kal\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z onun g\u00f6z\u00fcnde, hep yetersiz&#8230; \u0130\u015fte bu y\u00fczden sizi birg\u00fcn b\u0131rak\u0131p gidecektir&#8230; As\u0131l bu korkunun alt\u0131nda yatar bir zamanlar onca korktu\u011funuz \u00f6l\u00fcm&#8230; Bu korkuyu ya\u015famamak i\u00e7in defalarca kendinizi yok etmek ge\u00e7er akl\u0131n\u0131zdan&#8230; Ama tek bir\u015fey y\u00fcz\u00fcnden k\u0131yamazs\u0131n\u0131z kendinize, tek bir\u015fey: Onu bir daha g\u00f6remeyecek olmak korkusu&#8230; Bu korku y\u00fcz\u00fcnden her s\u0131z\u0131ya katlan\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z, her ac\u0131ya, her ayr\u0131l\u0131k endi\u015fesine&#8230;<br \/>O da t\u0131pk\u0131 anneniz gibi yapar, baban\u0131z gibi davran\u0131r&#8230; Onaylam\u0131\u015f gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr, ama istedi\u011finiz gibi onaylamaz. Seviyor gibi yapar, ama bu bekledi\u011finiz o sevgi de\u011fildir. \u00d6nce y\u00fcceltir, ama hi\u00e7 beklemedi\u011finiz bir anda k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcmsemeye ba\u015flar&#8230; Hem de kalbinizin en savunmas\u0131z an\u0131nda&#8230; S\u00f6yledi\u011finiz ya da yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z bir\u015feyi ilgiliymi\u015f gibi dinler, ama i\u00e7ten i\u00e7e ilgisizli\u011fini hissedersiniz&#8230; Bir ba\u015far\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 anlat\u0131rken anlars\u0131n\u0131z ki, o s\u0131rada akl\u0131ndan g\u00fcnl\u00fck, s\u0131radan sorunlar ge\u00e7er&#8230; \u00d6nce \u00f6per, ama hi\u00e7 ummad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z bir anda \u00f6pt\u00fc\u011f\u00fc yerden sizi kanatmaya ba\u015flar&#8230; Sonra kanatt\u0131\u011f\u0131 yerleri yeniden \u00f6pmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r, ac\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 dindirmek i\u00e7in&#8230; \u0130\u015fte b\u00f6yle anlarda ona hi\u00e7 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 kadar ba\u011flan\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z. B\u00f6yle anlarda sizi hi\u00e7 beklemedi\u011finiz zamanlarda kanatt\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in bile ona minnet duymaya ba\u015flars\u0131n\u0131z. Ne yaparsa yaps\u0131n, ne dersen desin, ne kadar incitirse incitsin, ama sonra gelip kanatt\u0131\u011f\u0131 yerleri \u00f6ps\u00fcn, yeter ki neden oldu\u011fu ac\u0131m\u0131 dindirsin, dersiniz&#8230;<br \/>Onun durmadan de\u011fi\u015fen y\u00fczlerine, duygular\u0131na g\u00f6re ya\u015famaya ba\u015flars\u0131n\u0131z&#8230; Sizi incitip kanatt\u0131ktan sonraki sar\u0131lmas\u0131na&#8230; Ans\u0131z\u0131n niye ve neden oldu\u011funu bilemedi\u011finiz \u00f6fkelenmesinden sonraki g\u00fcl\u00fcmseyi\u015fine&#8230; O d\u00fcnyan\u0131z\u0131 karartan k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcmsemesinden sonra size y\u0131llar sonra g\u00fcne\u015fin do\u011fu\u015fu gibi gelen ilgi ve hayranl\u0131\u011fa g\u00f6re ya\u015famaya ba\u015flars\u0131n\u0131z.. Art\u0131k ondan gelecek her \u015feye raz\u0131 olursunuz. Bu yo\u011funlu\u011fun ad\u0131 k\u00f6leliktir. G\u00f6n\u00fcll\u00fc k\u00f6lelik.<br \/>Peki, neden bir ba\u015fkas\u0131na de\u011fil de ona kar\u015f\u0131 duyars\u0131n\u0131z bu yo\u011funlu\u011fu, bu g\u00f6n\u00fcll\u00fc k\u00f6leli\u011fi&#8230; Neden ba\u015fkalar\u0131 sizin o s\u00fcsl\u00fc ve g\u00f6steri\u015fli benliklerinize hayranl\u0131kla inanm\u0131\u015f, sizi size do\u011frulam\u0131\u015ft\u0131r da, neden onun aynas\u0131nda seyretti\u011finiz y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcz b\u00f6yle parampar\u00e7a, b\u00f6yle yang\u0131nlar i\u00e7indedir&#8230; Neden ba\u015fkalar\u0131 de\u011fil de o gelip dokunmu\u015ftur y\u0131llard\u0131r herkesten saklad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z o yaral\u0131 benli\u011finize&#8230; \u0130\u015fte bu \u00e7o\u011fu kez derin bir s\u0131rd\u0131r. \u00c7ok zordur bu muammay\u0131 \u00e7\u00f6zmek&#8230; Y\u00fcz\u00fc, y\u00fcz\u00fcndeki garip bir \u0131\u015f\u0131k&#8230; Bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131ndaki eski bir esrar&#8230; Hangisinde, hangisinde sakl\u0131d\u0131r o size bile bir s\u0131r olan teslimiyetiniz, bilemezsiniz&#8230;<br \/>Karanl\u0131k bir ormand\u0131r insan. \u00dcrk\u00fct\u00fcc\u00fc ve \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fclmez g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr&#8230; Uzaklardan gelen bir \u0131\u015f\u0131k gelir, bu orman\u0131n i\u00e7indeki inleyen bir hayvan\u0131n g\u00f6zlerindeki ac\u0131y\u0131 parlat\u0131r. Bu k\u0131sac\u0131k parlay\u0131\u015f an\u0131nda ayaklar\u0131 k\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f bir at\u0131n g\u00f6zlerindeki derin ac\u0131 sezilir. At\u0131n ac\u0131yla inip kalk\u0131yordur g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fc&#8230; O koca orman\u0131n i\u00e7inde bir ba\u015f\u0131nad\u0131r&#8230; Sonra \u0131\u015f\u0131k kaybolur gider. Ama art\u0131k koca ormandan geriye o ayaklar\u0131 k\u0131r\u0131k at\u0131n g\u00f6zleri kal\u0131r sadece akl\u0131n\u0131zda&#8230; Ac\u0131yla inip kalkan g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fc kal\u0131r&#8230; Sanki b\u00fct\u00fcn o karanl\u0131k orman\u0131n ruhu ayaklar\u0131 k\u0131r\u0131k at\u0131n ac\u0131yla bakan g\u00f6zlerine do\u011fru ak\u0131p durur&#8230; \u0130\u015fte o karanl\u0131ktan g\u00f6zlere do\u011fru akan yo\u011funluk a\u015fk\u0131n ta kendisidir. Orman ne kadar karanl\u0131ksa bu ak\u0131\u015f o kadar h\u0131zl\u0131 olur&#8230;<br \/>Yani siz ne kadar karanl\u0131kta kalm\u0131\u015fsan\u0131z, o karanl\u0131ktan g\u00f6zlerinize do\u011fru akan yo\u011funluk o kadar ac\u0131 ve o kadar g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fcd\u00fcr&#8230;<br \/>\u0130\u00e7inizdeki karanl\u0131k ormandan g\u00f6zlerinize do\u011fru akan bu yo\u011funlu\u011fun ad\u0131 a\u015fkt\u0131r&#8230; Art\u0131k g\u00f6zleriniz bir k\u00f6le gibi bakmaya ba\u015flar&#8230; Bir efendiniz vard\u0131r art\u0131k, nereye baksan\u0131z onu g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u00fcn\u00fcz&#8230; G\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fcz her\u015fey ondan bir iz, bir soluk ta\u015f\u0131r.<br \/>O herkesten gizledi\u011finiz yaral\u0131 benli\u011finiz zincirlerinden kopmu\u015f, sahip oldu\u011funuz her\u015feyi ezip ge\u00e7mi\u015f, gelip g\u00f6zlerinizi kaplam\u0131\u015ft\u0131r&#8230; G\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fcz, dokundu\u011funuz, bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z her\u015feye o yaral\u0131 benli\u011finizin g\u00f6zleriyle bakmaya, onun g\u00f6zleriyle g\u00f6rmeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fs\u0131n\u0131zd\u0131r&#8230; D\u00fcnya o yaral\u0131 benli\u011finizden ibarettir art\u0131k&#8230;<br \/>O g\u00fcne dek bildi\u011finiz her\u015feyi unutmu\u015fsuzdur&#8230; Ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z bu yo\u011funluk o g\u00fcne dek ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z de\u011ferleri, inatla savundu\u011funuz do\u011frular\u0131 bir anda unutturmu\u015ftur size&#8230;<br \/>Sahi, siz daha \u00f6nce kim ve nas\u0131l biriydiniz&#8230; Unutmu\u015fsunuzdur&#8230;<br \/>Ba\u015fkalar\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6rmedi\u011fi, g\u00f6r\u00fcp de anlamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015feyleri g\u00f6r\u00fcr ve hissedersiniz de, sizi as\u0131l ilgilendiren, ilgilendirmesi gereken \u015feyleri bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc g\u00f6r\u00fcp hissedemezsiniz&#8230; Kimdir, asl\u0131nda ne d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr sizi bu hale sokan sevgili&#8230; Ger\u00e7ekte sizin i\u00e7in ne d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmektedir&#8230; Hayatla ve kendiyle ilgili ne hesaplar\u0131, nas\u0131l kayg\u0131lar\u0131 vard\u0131r&#8230; Sizin sevginiz ona ne kadar ge\u00e7mektedir&#8230; Sevginizin ondaki yans\u0131malar\u0131 nelerdir&#8230; Bunlar\u0131 bilmezsiniz de, dokundu\u011funuz ve g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fcz her\u015feyde onu hissetti\u011finizi, g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fcz\u00fc bilirsiniz&#8230;<br \/>\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc sizin i\u00e7in d\u00fcnya odur&#8230; Ama onun d\u00fcnyas\u0131 bu d\u00fcnyan\u0131n neresindedir, i\u015fte bunlar\u0131 asla bilemezsiniz&#8230; Siz hi\u00e7bir eve, hi\u00e7bir odaya, hi\u00e7bir yere s\u0131\u011fmazs\u0131n\u0131z, ama onun ka\u00e7 evi, ka\u00e7 odas\u0131, s\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131p gizlendi\u011fi ka\u00e7 yeri vard\u0131r, bilemezsiniz.<br \/>O sizi onaylay\u0131p be\u011fensin, hep yan\u0131n\u0131zda olsun ve hep sevsin diye ona i\u00e7inizden ge\u00e7en her\u015feyi eksiksiz anlat\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z da, o size sizinle ve kendiyle ilgili d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcklerini ne kadar anlat\u0131r, i\u015fte bunu asla bilemezsiniz&#8230;<br \/>Sizin onu sevdi\u011finizi herkes, b\u00fct\u00fcn d\u00fcnya bilsin istersiniz, onun sizi sevdi\u011finizi, o da seviyorsa nerede, hangi odada, kime ve ne \u015fekilde s\u00f6yledi\u011fini asla bilemezsiniz&#8230;<br \/>\u0130\u015fte bu e\u015fitsiz bir ili\u015fkidir&#8230; Siz k\u00f6le, o efendidir&#8230; O sizin d\u00fcnyan\u0131za istedi\u011fi an girebilir, ama siz onun d\u00fcnyas\u0131na giremezsiniz&#8230; Sizin i\u00e7in onu sevdi\u011finiz d\u00fcnya bir b\u00fct\u00fcnd\u00fcr, ama onun d\u00fcnyas\u0131 evlere, odalara, gizlere, bilinmeyen yerlere b\u00f6l\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcr&#8230; Siz onu d\u00fcnyan\u0131zda ararken, o kimbilir hangi evde, hangi odada, sizin hakk\u0131n\u0131zda kime ne s\u00f6ylemektedir ya da ne s\u00f6ylememektedir, i\u015fte bunu asla bilemezsiniz&#8230;<br \/>Siz onu \u00f6yle \u00e7ok sevmi\u015fsinizdir ki, i\u015fte en \u00e7ok bu y\u00fczden onun sadece bir y\u00f6n\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u00fcn\u00fcz&#8230; \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc sevginiz o g\u00fcne dek hayat\u0131n g\u00f6r\u00fcnmeyen yanlar\u0131 hakk\u0131nda olan b\u00fct\u00fcn bilgilerinizi unutturmu\u015ftur size&#8230; Onu art\u0131k bu bilgilerle, bir zamanlar savundu\u011funuz de\u011ferler ve do\u011frularla de\u011fil, onu art\u0131k bu yaral\u0131 benli\u011finizle g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u00fcn\u00fcz. Bu y\u00fczden siz ne kadar hakl\u0131 olsan\u0131z da, durmadan ona kar\u015f\u0131 su\u00e7lu ve ezik hissedersiniz kendinizi&#8230; Ne kadar b\u00fcy\u00fckse onun bo\u015flu\u011fu sevginiz o kadar eksiktir&#8230; B\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fck\u00e7e onun bo\u015flu\u011fu siz bu y\u00fczden o kadar \u00e7ok pi\u015fmanl\u0131k biriktirirsiniz, ke\u015fke onu daha \u00e7ok sevseydim, diye&#8230;<br \/>Asl\u0131nda kendisine g\u00fcvenli bir k\u0131y\u0131 arayan odur, ama siz onu b\u00f6yle g\u00f6rmek istemedi\u011finiz i\u00e7in onun i\u00e7in okyanuslara hep ge\u00e7 kald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 hissedersiniz&#8230; Bu su\u00e7u, bu pi\u015fmanl\u0131\u011f\u0131, bu gecikmi\u015fli\u011fi sorgulatmak, biraz olsun temize \u00e7\u0131kmak i\u00e7in bir mahkeme ararsan\u0131z, ama kimse b\u00f6yle bir mahkemenin yerini bilmiyordur&#8230;<br \/>Siz onun i\u00e7in neleri g\u00f6ze ald\u0131ysan\u0131z ve alacaksan\u0131z, onun da sizin i\u00e7in ayn\u0131 \u015feyleri g\u00f6ze ald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ve alaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hissedersiniz&#8230; Oysa o sizin sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131zdan \u00e7ok ayr\u0131 biridir. Bildi\u011finiz o y\u00f6n\u00fcnden ba\u015fka bilmedi\u011finiz bir\u00e7ok y\u00f6n\u00fc, bir\u00e7ok y\u00fcz\u00fc, bir\u00e7ok odas\u0131 vard\u0131r&#8230;<br \/>Sizin sevdi\u011finiz yan\u0131ndan ba\u015fka bilmedi\u011finiz ve bu s\u0131z\u0131lar i\u00e7inde asla bilemeyece\u011finiz yerleri vard\u0131r onun&#8230; Tamamen k\u00f6rle\u015fmemek onu b\u00fct\u00fcn\u00fcyle g\u00f6rmek i\u00e7in alttan alta bunu hissedersiniz de bu bo\u015flu\u011fun ad\u0131n\u0131 tam olarak koyamazs\u0131n\u0131z&#8230; Bu bo\u015fluk onun ger\u00e7ekli\u011fidir&#8230; Ayaklar\u0131n\u0131n yere bast\u0131\u011f\u0131d\u0131r; sizin gibi bu hayat\u0131n kurallar\u0131ndan hi\u00e7 kopmay\u0131p, aksine ona s\u0131ms\u0131k\u0131 sar\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131d\u0131r&#8230; Size istediklerinizi ancak hayat\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn o ba\u011flar\u0131ndan, b\u00fct\u00fcn bu par\u00e7alanm\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan, parasal ve gelecekle ilgili korkular\u0131ndan kurtulmu\u015f biri verebilir, ama \u00f6yle biri de\u011fildir ki; i\u015fte bu y\u00fczden onun sar\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 yerlerden sizin o b\u00fcy\u00fck yan\u0131lg\u0131n\u0131z ba\u015flar&#8230;<br \/>Asl\u0131nda siz bir anlam, bir y\u00fcz, bir \u0131\u015f\u0131k, bir ruh diye bir bo\u015flu\u011fu seviyorsunuzdur&#8230; Dopdolu diye sar\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z&#8230;<br \/>Kurtulu\u015fum, diye sar\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z onun ard\u0131na gizlendi\u011fi, sizin hi\u00e7 bilmedi\u011finiz ve belki de hi\u00e7 bilemeyece\u011finiz bo\u015flu\u011fudur.<br \/>Karanl\u0131k orman\u0131n\u0131zdan g\u00f6zlerinize, g\u00f6zlerinizden d\u00fcnyaya do\u011fru akan o yo\u011funluk i\u015fte bu bo\u015flu\u011fa do\u011fru akmaktad\u0131r&#8230; A\u015fk\u0131n\u0131z i\u015fte s\u0131n\u0131rlar\u0131 bilinmeyen bu bo\u015flu\u011fun \u00e7ekimine kap\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r&#8230; Ac\u0131n\u0131z, i\u00e7inizdeki s\u0131z\u0131lar\u0131n derinli\u011fi, \u00fczerinden ko\u015ftu\u011funuz u\u00e7urumlar\u0131n\u0131z bu bo\u015flu\u011fun \u00e7ekimiyle daha \u00e7ok b\u00fcy\u00fcr&#8230; Sizi o yaral\u0131 benli\u011finiz k\u00f6rle\u015ftirmi\u015ftir, bu y\u00fczden d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fcz yerleri g\u00f6remezsiniz&#8230; Siz o diye onun bir yan\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u00fcn\u00fcz, ama o sizin i\u00e7in ay\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 odalardan birinden sizi seyretmekte ve oradan sizi b\u00fct\u00fcn y\u00f6nlerinizle g\u00f6rmektedir&#8230; Sadece sizin i\u00e7in ay\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 o odada bu halinize \u00fcz\u00fclmekte, belki de sizi \u00f6zlemekte ve bu a\u015fk i\u00e7in ac\u0131 \u00e7ekmektedir&#8230;<br \/>Ama bir di\u011fer odas\u0131na ge\u00e7ti\u011finde orada bir ba\u015fkas\u0131yla sizin hi\u00e7 bilmedi\u011finiz y\u00f6n\u00fcyle, bu hayatta ayakta nas\u0131l kal\u0131r\u0131m, nas\u0131l ac\u0131 \u00e7ekmeden, nas\u0131l \u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcp incinmeden ya\u015far\u0131m\u0131n hesab\u0131n\u0131 yapmaktad\u0131r&#8230;<br \/>Siz onu b\u00fct\u00fcn\u00fcyle bildi\u011finizi zannederseniz, ama sizin hi\u00e7 bilmedi\u011finiz y\u00f6nlerinden biriyle parasal bir s\u0131rr\u0131 konu\u015fmaktad\u0131r bir ba\u015fkas\u0131yla&#8230;<br \/>O da sizin gibi her\u015feyini, b\u00fct\u00fcn su\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131, b\u00fct\u00fcn itiraflar\u0131n\u0131 bildi\u011fini, ama ona ne kadar g\u00fcvence verece\u011fini, ona ne kadar g\u00fcven ve rahatl\u0131k sa\u011flayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilemedi\u011fi bir ba\u015fkas\u0131ndan paras\u0131n\u0131 nereye g\u00f6md\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc \u00f6\u011frenmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmaktad\u0131r.<br \/>O nerede kime ne s\u00f6ylerse s\u00f6ylesin, o hangi odada hangi parasal s\u0131rlar\u0131n hesab\u0131n\u0131 yaparsa yaps\u0131n, o hangi evde bilmedi\u011finiz hangi y\u00f6n\u00fcn\u00fc ya\u015farsa ya\u015fas\u0131n, sizin ona duydu\u011funuz a\u015fk\u0131 asla eksiltmez bu&#8230; Aksine onu hi\u00e7 tan\u0131yamad\u0131k\u00e7a ona duydu\u011funuz a\u015fk daha da artar&#8230; Sizin i\u00e7in her ge\u00e7en g\u00fcn dayan\u0131lmaz bir hale gelen \u00e7ekicili\u011fi onun birt\u00fcrl\u00fc g\u00f6remedi\u011finiz o b\u00fcy\u00fck bo\u015flu\u011fuyla daha bir artar&#8230;<br \/>Karanl\u0131k orman\u0131n\u0131zdan g\u00f6zlerinize, g\u00f6zlerinizden d\u00fcnyaya ve oradan sevdi\u011finiz insan\u0131n bo\u015fluklar\u0131na do\u011fru akan yaral\u0131 benli\u011finiz bir \u00f6nceki g\u00fcnden daha b\u00fcy\u00fck bir s\u0131z\u0131yla kaplan\u0131r.<br \/>\u00d6yle bir s\u0131z\u0131d\u0131r ki bu, kendi bo\u015flu\u011funda \u00f6ylesine b\u00fcy\u00fcyen bir sevgidir ki, kar\u015f\u0131n\u0131zdaki e\u011fer b\u00f6yle bir sevgiyle dolu de\u011filse bir s\u00fcre sonra geri \u00e7ekilir&#8230; Geri \u00e7ekilirken bir odal\u0131k bile olsa size duydu\u011fu sevgiyi fazla ac\u0131 \u00e7ekmemek i\u00e7in an\u0131nda zehirleyip geri \u00e7ekilir&#8230;<br \/>Ve birg\u00fcn gelir size ay\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 o tek bir odan\u0131n bile \u0131\u015f\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u00fcp, kap\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 kapat\u0131p; \u00e7ekip gider ve sizi a\u015fk\u0131n\u0131za terk eder&#8230;<br \/>Sizi art\u0131k ilgisiz de olsa dinleyen o yoktur&#8230;<br \/>Art\u0131k sizi \u00f6nemsiyor g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcp de asl\u0131nda \u00f6nemsemeyen, yan\u0131nday\u0131m, dedi\u011fi halde asl\u0131nda \u00e7ok uzakta olan biri bile yoktur&#8230; \u00d6nce \u00f6pen, sonra \u00f6pt\u00fc\u011f\u00fc yerleri kanatan, ard\u0131ndan kanatt\u0131\u011f\u0131 yerleri \u00e7ok ac\u0131mas\u0131n diye \u00f6pmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan o yoktur yan\u0131n\u0131zda&#8230;<br \/>Sevdik\u00e7e sizi bir o kadar \u00e7ok yaralayan o bile yoktur art\u0131k.<br \/>\u0130\u015fte o zaman sevgili diye, d\u00fcnya diye, hayat diye bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z her bo\u015flu\u011fu art\u0131k sadece sizin o yaral\u0131 benli\u011finiz doldurur&#8230;<br \/>Art\u0131k nereye, hangi kalabal\u0131k \u015fehre gitseniz bile pe\u015finizden o \u0131ss\u0131z,<br \/>o karanl\u0131k orman\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 birlikte g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcrs\u00fcn\u00fcz&#8230; Nereye gitseniz kendinizi orada kaybolmu\u015f hissedersiniz&#8230;<br \/>Yollarda kime rastlasan\u0131z, \u00e7\u0131kart\u0131p onun foto\u011fraf\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6sterirsiniz&#8230; Bu insan\u0131 tan\u0131yor musunuz, buralardan ge\u00e7ti mi, onu g\u00f6rd\u00fcn\u00fcz m\u00fc, diye sorars\u0131n\u0131z&#8230;<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Cezmi ERS\u00d6Z<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>\u00a0 Anne beni onayla ve daha \u00e7ok sev, dersiniz..Baba, beni \u00f6nemse ve hep yan\u0131mda ol, dersiniz&#8230;Bak\u0131n size yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir \u015feyi okuyaca\u011f\u0131m, can kula\u011f\u0131yla dinleyin&#8230; Okulda \u00e7ok b\u00fcy\u00fck bir ba\u015far\u0131 kazand\u0131m, bunun benim i\u00e7in ne kadar \u00f6nemli oldu\u011funu ne olur anlay\u0131n, dersiniz&#8230;Hi\u00e7 eksilmesin, hep artarak s\u00fcrs\u00fcn istersiniz&#8230;Ama bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc istedi\u011finiz olmaz. 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