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Otob\u00fcste sevgi yoktu. Orada herkes kendine ve birbirine d\u00fc\u015fmand\u0131. \u0130\u015fte bu y\u00fczden otob\u00fcsteki insanlar birbirlerine en k\u00f6t\u00fc y\u00fczlerini g\u00f6stermekten \u00e7ekinmiyorlard\u0131. \u015eof\u00f6r en ac\u0131mas\u0131z tavr\u0131yla yolcular\u0131 durmaks\u0131z\u0131n azarl\u0131yor, gen\u00e7 \u00f6\u011frenci ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131n dibinde art\u0131k ayakta durmaktan g\u00fcc\u00fcn\u00fc t\u00fcketmek \u00fczere olan ya\u015fl\u0131 bir kad\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rmezlikten geliyor; gen\u00e7 bir adam adeta b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00f6vdesiyle, \u00f6n\u00fcndeki k\u0131z\u0131 habire s\u0131k\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131yor, a\u00e7\u0131k\u00e7as\u0131 cinsel tacizde bulunuyor; \u00fcst\u00fc ba\u015f\u0131 pis, \u00fcstelik kendi kendisine konu\u015fuyor diye ya\u015fl\u0131 bir adam\u0131n yan\u0131na kimse oturmuyor; gen\u00e7ten biri yan\u0131nda kendisinden biraz daha k\u0131sa boylu birinin \u00fczerine neredeyse aban\u0131yordu. Bir sivil polis \u00f6n\u00fcnde oturan iki \u00f6\u011frencinin neler konu\u015ftu\u011funa kulak kesilmi\u015fti. Bir ba\u015fkas\u0131n\u0131n aya\u011f\u0131na basan sonra asla \u00f6z\u00fcr dilemedi\u011fi gibi aya\u011f\u0131na bast\u0131\u011f\u0131 ki\u015fiye adeta, aya\u011f\u0131m\u0131n alt\u0131nda aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131n ne i\u015fi var der gibi bak\u0131yor, herkes herkesi olup olmad\u0131k zamanlarda su\u00e7luyor ve a\u015fa\u011f\u0131l\u0131yordu… Evet, bu otob\u00fcste sevgi yoktu! ..<\/p>\n
Bir duraktan gen\u00e7 bir kad\u0131nla, dokuz on ya\u015flar\u0131ndaki o\u011flu bindi, otob\u00fcse… K\u0131sa bir s\u00fcre sonra av\u0131n\u0131 bulmu\u015f bir avc\u0131n\u0131n heyecan\u0131yla, biletini at han\u0131m diye ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131 bizim \u015fof\u00f6r. Gen\u00e7 kad\u0131nsa utanarak yolcular\u0131n aras\u0131na saklanmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u015eof\u00f6r yine: Biletini atmad\u0131n, bak kafam bozuluyor art\u0131k diye \u00f6fkeyle \u00e7\u0131k\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Biraz daha gittik ama \u00e7ok ge\u00e7meden gen\u00e7 kad\u0131n a\u011flamakl\u0131 bir ses tonuyla: Durun… L\u00fctfen, burada inmek istiyorum dedi. Otob\u00fcs durdu. Kad\u0131n, yan\u0131nda \u00e7ocu\u011fuyla durak d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda, \u00f6ylesine bir yerde indi a\u015fa\u011f\u0131ya. Bu defa y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc \u00f6rtm\u00fc\u015f h\u0131\u00e7k\u0131ra h\u0131\u00e7k\u0131ra a\u011fl\u0131yordu. O\u011flu ise annesine sar\u0131l\u0131p: Anne a\u011flama, ne olur a\u011flama diyordu habire. Otob\u00fcste ans\u0131z\u0131n bir sessizlik olmu\u015f, herkes nefesini tutarak bu olay\u0131 izliyordu. Bu gen\u00e7 kad\u0131n\u0131n varl\u0131\u011f\u0131yla k\u00f6t\u00fc bir d\u00fc\u015ften uyanm\u0131\u015f gibiydik. O\u011fluna sar\u0131l\u0131p a\u011flayan bu gen\u00e7 anne y\u0131llard\u0131r bast\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z duygular\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 hat\u0131rlatm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 sanki bize.<\/p>\n
Ve hemen sonra hi\u00e7 beklemedi\u011fimiz bir \u015fey oldu: \u015eof\u00f6r otob\u00fcs\u00fcn el frenini \u00e7ekip a\u015fa\u011f\u0131ya indi ve kad\u0131nla \u00e7ocu\u011fun yan\u0131na gitti ve onlardan \u00f6z\u00fcr dilemeye ba\u015flad\u0131. Duyuyorduk, \u015fof\u00f6r a\u011flayan kad\u0131na yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u015ften \u00e7ok bunald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, ge\u00e7im s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131s\u0131 \u00e7ekti\u011fini, trafi\u011fin ve yolcular\u0131n sinirlerini harap etti\u011fini, demin yapt\u0131klar\u0131ndan pi\u015fman oldu\u011funu s\u00f6yl\u00fcyor ve biletsiz olsa bile -ki \u015fu an bu hi\u00e7 \u00f6nemli de\u011fildi- gen\u00e7 anneyi otob\u00fcse davet ediyordu. Gen\u00e7 kad\u0131nsa biraz \u00f6nce \u00e7ok a\u015fa\u011f\u0131land\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, \u00e7ok utand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, bir daha o otob\u00fcse binemeyece\u011fini s\u00f6yl\u00fcyordu.<\/p>\n
Otob\u00fcs\u00fcn durdu\u011fu yerin biraz a\u015fa\u011f\u0131s\u0131 deniz kenar\u0131yd\u0131 ve hemen orac\u0131kta bir \u00e7ay oca\u011f\u0131 ve g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc renginde masa \u00f6rt\u00fcleri bulunan masalar vard\u0131. G\u00fcne\u015f ve r\u00fczg\u00e2r bu \u00e7ay bah\u00e7esini soylu bir ne\u015feyle kucakl\u0131yordu. Gen\u00e7 kad\u0131n \u00e7ocu\u011fuyla beraber biraz olsun soluk almak ve dinlenmek i\u00e7in bu \u00e7ay bah\u00e7esindeki masalardan birine oturdu. G\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131 dinmi\u015fti. \u015eof\u00f6rse onu b\u0131rakm\u0131yor, yan\u0131na diz \u00e7\u00f6km\u00fc\u015f \u00f6z\u00fcr dilemeye devam ediyordu, i\u015fte ne olduysa bu andan sonra oldu. Herkesin y\u00fcz\u00fc ayd\u0131nland\u0131 ve ortak bir kararla gidece\u011fimiz yerlerden vazge\u00e7ip otob\u00fcsten indik, adeta ko\u015far ad\u0131m g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc rengindeki \u00f6rt\u00fclerle \u00f6rt\u00fcl\u00fc masalar\u0131n oldu\u011fu \u00e7ay bah\u00e7esine gittik. Gen\u00e7 kad\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131na diz \u00e7\u00f6ken \u015fof\u00f6r\u00fcn omuzuna vuran g\u00fcne\u015f \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131, gen\u00e7 annenin o unutulmaz masum y\u00fcz\u00fc defalarca i\u00e7imize i\u015flemi\u015fti. Sanki birbirinden \u00e7ok, ama \u00e7ok farkl\u0131 insanlar\u0131n i\u00e7inde ne gariptir ki ayn\u0131 ortak ses: Art\u0131k yeter, bunca k\u00f6t\u00fcl\u00fck, bunca duyars\u0131zl\u0131k yeter diyordu.<\/p>\n
Nitekim \u015fimdi hemen herkes gen\u00e7 anneyi teselli ediyor, sakinle\u015fmesi i\u00e7in \u00e7aba harc\u0131yordu. Gen\u00e7 kad\u0131n bu yak\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131zdan cesaret al\u0131p durumunu g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fckle de olsa anlatt\u0131. Kocas\u0131 siyasi mahkummu\u015f, y\u0131llard\u0131r cezaevindeymi\u015f, kendisi i\u015ften \u00e7\u0131kart\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, g\u00fcnlerdir i\u015f arad\u0131\u011f\u0131 halde bulam\u0131yormu\u015f, evde hi\u00e7 yiyecek bir \u015fey kalmam\u0131\u015f, \u00e7ocu\u011funu annesine g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcyormu\u015f, otob\u00fcs bileti alacak paras\u0131 yokmu\u015f. Gen\u00e7 kad\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131 anlat\u0131nca bir anda herkes garip bir duygusall\u0131\u011fa kap\u0131ld\u0131 ve deminki deh\u015fet otob\u00fcs\u00fcnde uyanan k\u00f6t\u00fc ruhlar\u0131 i\u00e7in birbirlerinden \u00f6z\u00fcr dilemeye ba\u015flad\u0131lar. Yaln\u0131zca \u00e7ok gen\u00e7 insanlarda g\u00f6r\u00fcl\u00fcr bu duygusall\u0131k; o k\u00f6t\u00fcc\u00fcl mant\u0131k yoktur. \u0130yi ki de yoktur, g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcsleri heyecanla inip kalkar…<\/p>\n
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\u00a0 Otob\u00fcste sevgi yoktu. Orada herkes kendine ve birbirine d\u00fc\u015fmand\u0131. \u0130\u015fte bu y\u00fczden otob\u00fcsteki insanlar birbirlerine en k\u00f6t\u00fc y\u00fczlerini g\u00f6stermekten \u00e7ekinmiyorlard\u0131. \u015eof\u00f6r en ac\u0131mas\u0131z tavr\u0131yla yolcular\u0131 durmaks\u0131z\u0131n azarl\u0131yor, gen\u00e7 \u00f6\u011frenci ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131n dibinde art\u0131k ayakta durmaktan g\u00fcc\u00fcn\u00fc t\u00fcketmek \u00fczere olan ya\u015fl\u0131 bir kad\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rmezlikten geliyor; gen\u00e7 bir adam adeta b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00f6vdesiyle, \u00f6n\u00fcndeki k\u0131z\u0131 habire s\u0131k\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131yor, a\u00e7\u0131k\u00e7as\u0131 […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[18],"tags":[],"class_list":{"0":"post-2574","1":"post","2":"type-post","3":"status-publish","4":"format-standard","6":"category-cezmi-ersoz"},"yoast_head":"\n