\u00a0<\/p>\n
Bir kara par\u00e7as\u0131 san\u0131r insan
D\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc m\u00fc ba\u015f\u0131 derde
Kendini a\u00e7\u0131k denizlerde. <\/p>\n
\u015eimdi bir k\u0131y\u0131 bile de\u011fil
Bir ufuk \u00e7izgisi bile de\u011fil
Yaln\u0131zca \u00f6l\u00fc
Sabaha do\u011fru ya\u011fan kar\u0131n alt\u0131nda
K\u0131vr\u0131lm\u0131\u015f kalm\u0131\u015f
Besbelli tutunmak istemi\u015f bo\u015flu\u011fa
Kollar\u0131 havada
S\u0131km\u0131\u015f avu\u00e7lar\u0131yla bir demet g\u00fcl\u00fc
Yay\u0131lm\u0131\u015f g\u00f6vdesine bir g\u00fcl\u00fcmseme
Ve \u00e7evresine
Ta\u015f binalara, karanl\u0131k pencerelere
Kefeni kardan ve g\u00fclden. <\/p>\n
Polis arabas\u0131 kap\u0131ya geldi\u011fi zaman
Giyimevlerini, mezecileri, postaneyi ge\u00e7erek geldi\u011fi zaman
Arka sokaklardaki birka\u00e7 kiliseyi
Cenaze levaz\u0131mat\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 ve
Bin dokuz y\u00fcz yirmi sekiz modas\u0131na g\u00f6re giyinmi\u015f bir kad\u0131n\u0131n bir anl\u0131k \u00f6l\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc
Ge\u00e7erek geldi\u011fi zaman
Bir kamyon et bo\u015falt\u0131yorken bir kasap d\u00fckkan\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde, tam o zaman
Y\u00fcz\u00fc sabunlu bir otel m\u00fc\u015fterisinin elinde tra\u015f makinesiyle
Pencereden sarkt\u0131\u011f\u0131 zaman. <\/p>\n
Polis arabas\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rmeden \u00f6nce
Her yan\u0131 aynalarla \u00e7evrili bir meyhanedeydim
S\u0131r\u00e7alar\u0131 d\u00f6k\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f aynalarla
Par\u00e7a par\u00e7a g\u00f6r\u00fcyordum kendimi
D\u0131\u015farda kar vard\u0131, kirli kar
Is\u0131nmak i\u00e7in konyak i\u00e7iyordum
– Is\u0131nmak i\u00e7in mi dedim, tuhaf –
D\u0131\u015farda kar vard\u0131
Saat dokuzu on ge\u00e7iyordu, Bal\u0131kpazar\u0131’n\u0131n her g\u00fcnk\u00fc sabah\u0131
Y\u0131llard\u0131r hep ayn\u0131 sabah
\u0130ri bir kayabal\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7b\u00fckey karn\u0131
Ve binlerce, on binlerce kedinin hep birden
Kente hi\u00e7 uymayan bir yarat\u0131k gibi k\u0131m\u0131ldand\u0131\u011f\u0131
O sabah. <\/p>\n
Polis arabas\u0131 kap\u0131ya geldi\u011fi zaman
Aynal\u0131pasaj’\u0131n d\u00fc\u011fmecileri, g\u00f6mlek\u00e7ileri
Y\u00fcz\u00fck\u00e7\u00fcleri, bilezik\u00e7ileri, tuhafiyecileri
D\u00fckkanlar\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131k unuttuklar\u0131 zaman
Ve d\u00fckkanlar\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcndeki heykelciklerin
Bir yas t\u00f6renine haz\u0131rlan\u0131r gibi
Anlat\u0131mlar\u0131n\u0131 de\u011fi\u015ftirdikleri zaman
Bal\u0131k\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131n bal\u0131klar\u0131n kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda en iyi durduklar\u0131 zaman
Ayakta \u00e7ay i\u00e7tikleri zaman
Mermer masalar\u0131n alt\u0131ndan yorgun g\u00f6vdeleriyle
\u00c7\u0131kt\u0131klar\u0131 zaman serserilerin
Ve Pasaj temizlenmeye ve karlar k\u00fcrenmeye ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131 zaman
Masmavi iki yenge\u00e7 gibi bakmaya ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131 zaman g\u00f6zleri garson Vasil’in
Tam o zaman. <\/p>\n
Polis arabas\u0131 kap\u0131ya geldi\u011fi zaman
\u00dc\u00e7 ki\u015fi siyah bir otomobilden indiler
\u00dc\u00e7\u00fc de sivildi, ellerinde \u00e7antalar\u0131 vard\u0131
Ben meyhanenin penceresindeyim
\u0130\u00e7erde ve kar i\u00e7indeydim
Bir demet g\u00fcl i\u00e7indeydim
G\u00fcle g\u00f6m\u00fcl\u00fcyd\u00fcm
Kana. <\/p>\n
Polis arabas\u0131 gitti\u011fi zaman
Demir kap\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131nda \u00f6l\u00fc
G\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc d\u00f6nemecinin alt\u0131nda
Ve yerde b\u0131rakmamak ister gibi s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc
Elinde bir demet g\u00fclle
‘G\u00fcl, g\u00fcl’ diye ac\u0131 bir ba\u011f\u0131rt\u0131y\u0131 uzatt\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00fcllerle
Ip\u0131slak sa\u00e7lar\u0131yla buzdan yata\u011f\u0131na uzanm\u0131\u015f. <\/p>\n
(O zaman \u0131hlamur a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131 kardan g\u00f6r\u00fcnmezdi. G\u00f6zlerim azal\u0131rd\u0131,
gizlenirdim. Babam koyu kahverengi \u00e7izmeleriyle karlar\u0131 ezer ezer
ezerdi \u00e7ak\u0131lta\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n ayaklar\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131nda oyna\u015ft\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 duyuncaya
kadar. Annem \u00e7at\u0131 kat\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131ndaki sivri kuleden g\u00f6zlerini ay\u0131rmazd\u0131,
yeter ki g\u00f6k kanas\u0131nd\u0131 beyaz beyaz ve kocaman bir alabal\u0131\u011f\u0131n karn\u0131.
U\u015faklar bir k\u00f6\u015feye sinerlerdi, hi\u00e7 konu\u015fmazlard\u0131, bir kristal s\u00fcrahi
r\u00fczgardan \u00fcrperir titrerdi. \u0130niltiye benzeyen bir ses yay\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131.
Karanl\u0131\u011fa yap\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m, bir kap\u0131 karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131na, bir duvar karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131na, bir
yokolu\u015f karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131na. \u00d6l\u00fcm \u00e7ok uzaklardayd\u0131, o zaman \u00e7ok uzaklardayd\u0131
\u00f6l\u00fcm.) <\/p>\n
Sordu
Karla kapl\u0131 kirli bir c\u00fcmle
Ba\u015f\u0131nda kimler vard\u0131?
Bir, emekli postac\u0131 H\u00fcseyin
– \u00c7ok adres bildi\u011fi i\u00e7in ad\u0131 pezevenge \u00e7\u0131kan –
\u0130ki, cenaze kald\u0131r\u0131c\u0131s\u0131 Adem
– \u00c7\u0131plak kafal\u0131, \u00f6n di\u015fleri \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f –
\u00dc\u00e7, akordeoncu kad\u0131n
– Hemen hemen hi\u00e7 konu\u015fmayan, sa\u00e7lar\u0131 oksijele sarart\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, Bizansl\u0131 bir
kehribar taciri gibi \u015fi\u015fman, ya\u015fl\u0131 ve k\u0131zo\u011flank\u0131z –
Ve sonra \u00f6tekiler
\u00dc\u00e7 Horan Kilisesinin kap\u0131c\u0131s\u0131
\u00c7ingene \u00e7alg\u0131c\u0131lar, bademciler
Lotaryac\u0131lar
Bir iki garson
En geride
\u00c7engelli i\u011fne satan bir k\u0131z \u00e7ocu\u011fu. <\/p>\n
Ve onu kald\u0131rd\u0131lar, ben g\u00f6rd\u00fcm
\u0130kinci konya\u011f\u0131m\u0131 i\u00e7tim bitirdim
Demir Kap\u0131dan \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131lar ve g\u00f6rd\u00fcm
Morg arabas\u0131na koydular
Kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 ittiler, kap\u0131 kapand\u0131
Taraklar, istiridyeler a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131 kapand\u0131
\u00c7i\u00e7ekler titre\u015ftiler
Bir bal\u0131k\u00e7\u0131 bal\u0131k do\u011frad\u0131 ve tartt\u0131
Pencereden \u00e7ekildim.
G\u00fcnlerdir ilk olarak g\u00fcld\u00fcm, g\u00fcl\u00fcmsedim
Y\u0131llard\u0131r ilk olarak
Sanki ilk g\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131n\u0131n tarihini buldum, \u00fcst\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7izdim. <\/p>\n
Ve sordu gene
\u00d6l\u00fcmle kapl\u0131 o kirli c\u00fcmle:
Siz Ruhi Bey nas\u0131ls\u0131n\u0131z
Ben Ruhi Bey nas\u0131l\u0131m
Anlad\u0131m anlad\u0131m
Ve \u015fimdi iyi biliyorum art\u0131k nereye.<\/p>\n
Edip CANSEVER<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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