\u00a0<\/p>\n
I<\/p>\n
g\u00fcne\u015fi hi\u00e7 g\u00f6rmedim penceremde
ne ay do\u011fdu geceme ne bir y\u0131ld\u0131z
hem s\u0131k\u0131\u015f s\u0131k\u0131\u015f hem \u00e7\u00f6l kadar \u0131ss\u0131z
be\u015f y\u0131ld\u0131r bir \u015feyler soluyor i\u00e7imde<\/p>\n
II<\/p>\n
dal olsun diye ku\u015fa uzatt\u0131md\u0131 kolumu
omuzlar\u0131ma kadar ekmek ufalad\u0131md\u0131
yan\u0131l\u0131p da bir kez bile konmad\u0131
inip \u00fc\u00e7 ad\u0131mda bitirdim yolumu<\/p>\n
evet \u00fc\u00e7 ad\u0131mdabir tokat
gibi \u00e7arpt\u0131 y\u00fcz\u00fcme duvar
dibine \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcp avu\u00e7lar\u0131m\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131m fakat
hangisine sapsam ne \u00e7ok yol var<\/p>\n
el eli \u00e7o\u011faltmay\u0131nca bir yerde
u\u00e7urumla\u015f\u0131yor avu\u00e7 \u00e7izgisi de
tek ba\u015f\u0131ma y\u00fcr\u00fcsem \u015fimdi
barbaros bulvar\u0131’ndan be\u015fikta\u015f’a
bir vapura binsem ya da motora
\u2014kaptan d\u00fcmen k\u0131r \u00fcsk\u00fcdar’a\u2014
d\u00fc\u015fteki gibi ans\u0131sam birden
koyun gibi yat\u0131r\u0131l\u0131p kaz\u0131nm\u0131\u015f sa\u00e7\u0131mla
ayakkab\u0131s\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131m.. pantolonsuz bacaklar\u0131mla
i\u00e7inizde ayk\u0131r\u0131 bir ya\u015fam\u0131m ben
ihbar polis filan.. g\u00fcvertede tutuklanmadan
bal\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcne mart\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131na
yar\u0131 yolda kald\u0131r\u0131p g\u00f6vdemi atsam
bulurdum kendimi ayaklar\u0131m\u0131n dibinde
be\u015f y\u0131ld\u0131r bir \u015feyler s\u00fcr\u00fckleniyor i\u00e7imde<\/p>\n
y\u0131llarca mektupsuz kitaps\u0131z b\u0131rak\u0131ld\u0131m
bir elimle yazd\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131
okudum di\u011fer elimle
be\u015f y\u0131ld\u0131r be\u015f koca y\u0131ld\u0131r
bir \u015feyler kopuyor i\u00e7imde<\/p>\n
III<\/p>\n
\u015fortum ve \u015f\u0131p\u0131d\u0131k tokyalar\u0131mla g\u00f6rd\u00fcn\u00fcz
beni haydarpa\u015fa hastane giri\u015finde beklerken
g\u00fcne\u015f yan\u0131\u011f\u0131 teninize renk renk giysilerinize bakarken
uzun zincirlerle ba\u011fl\u0131 kollar\u0131m\u0131 s\u00fczd\u00fcn\u00fcz<\/p>\n
imgeleminiz hemen de devindi
\u2014deli bu deli\u2014
y\u00fczdeki buru\u015fmadan
duymasa da anl\u0131yor insan
biraz k\u00f6t\u00fcc\u00fcl biraz ac\u0131makl\u0131
bakt\u0131n\u0131z y\u00fcre\u011fimi \u015fa\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m
d\u00fcrterek birbirinizi
gizliden f\u0131s\u0131lda\u015ft\u0131n\u0131z<\/p>\n
s\u0131k\u0131ca kavran\u0131p kollar\u0131mdan
\u00f6zenle ge\u00e7irildim aran\u0131zdan
\u2014sizi mi koruyorlard\u0131 beni mi bilmem\u2014
\u00e7ocuklar\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 kaparak \u00e7amurmu\u015fum
gibi s\u0131\u00e7rad\u0131n\u0131z iki yan\u0131ma
ama soru sorand\u0131r \u00e7ocuk-baba
anne kim neden bu amca…
bir \u00e7ift dikenli tel yuma\u011f\u0131yd\u0131 g\u00f6zlerim
a\u011flayamad\u0131\u011f\u0131mca a\u011flad\u0131m yan\u0131t\u0131n\u0131za<\/p>\n
IV<\/p>\n
g\u00fcn bat\u0131nca \u00e7ocuklar erkenden
masallar\u0131n\u0131 dinlemeden derin bir uykuya
bir yunus dal\u0131p \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yormu\u015f gibi suya
kalk\u0131yorlar g\u00f6zlerinde y\u0131ld\u0131z g\u00fclerken<\/p>\n
bendim \u00f6pen bendim silen
anne diye \u00fc\u015f\u00fcyen korkular\u0131n\u0131
ellerimle \u015fafak yang\u0131n\u0131 y\u0131ld\u0131zlar\u0131
bendim g\u00f6zlerine koyup giden<\/p>\n
sabah bir par\u00e7a da anneler
beni \u00f6p\u00fcyorsunuz
bilmeden tad\u0131m\u0131 ta\u015f\u0131yorsunuz
g\u00fcnboyu s\u0131cac\u0131k dudaklar\u0131n\u0131zda<\/p>\n
yasland\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z a\u011fa\u00e7ta benim s\u0131rt\u0131m
\u00e7i\u011fniyorsunuz sokakta ayak izlerimi
koklad\u0131k\u00e7a a\u00e7an g\u00fczelim \u00e7i\u00e7e\u011fi
ans\u0131y\u0131n bir zaman yakama takt\u0131m<\/p>\n
ge\u00e7erken kulaklar\u0131n\u0131za u\u011fultular geliyordur
evet siz de vard\u0131n\u0131z taksim alan\u0131’nda
hepten unuttu\u011funuza inanm\u0131yorum mutlaka
omzunuzda omzumun s\u0131cakl\u0131\u011f\u0131 duruyordur<\/p>\n
V<\/p>\n
duysan\u0131z anlasan\u0131z bir kez beni
b\u00f6yle tek ba\u015f\u0131ma geceleri
\u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131k \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131\u011fa kalkmazd\u0131m
ellerimin aras\u0131nda kanayan aln\u0131mla
\u00e7atlak bir duvar gibi bakmazd\u0131m<\/p>\n
bir elime ate\u015f \u00f6tekine barut
\u00e7izgi \u00e7izgi ben mi kaz\u0131d\u0131m
de\u011fmesin diye ba\u011flasa m\u0131yd\u0131m
a\u00e7l\u0131k ve \u00f6l\u00fcmle ya\u011farken bulut<\/p>\n
gen\u00e7li\u011fimi kak\u0131p durmay\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131ma
bug\u00fcnden yar\u0131na akard\u0131m
bir bilseniz neler ya\u015fad\u0131m
y\u00fczy\u0131l bebek kal\u0131r yan\u0131mda<\/p>\n
VI<\/p>\n
as\u0131ld\u0131m y\u00fcre\u011finizin kap\u0131s\u0131na
ac\u0131y\u0131 sevince b\u00f6lerim
su gibi yaprak gibi g\u00fclerim
\u00e7\u0131kmay\u0131n dokunmadan bana<\/p>\n
bir orman gibi y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fcp elbet
varacaks\u0131n\u0131z ortas\u0131na yolun
ben yatar\u0131m bin m\u00fcebbet
siz \u00e7i\u00e7eklene-dallana durun<\/p>\n
Ocak 1985<\/p>\n
Nevzat \u00c7EL\u0130K<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
\u00a0 I g\u00fcne\u015fi hi\u00e7 g\u00f6rmedim penceremdene ay do\u011fdu geceme ne bir y\u0131ld\u0131zhem s\u0131k\u0131\u015f s\u0131k\u0131\u015f hem \u00e7\u00f6l kadar \u0131ss\u0131zbe\u015f y\u0131ld\u0131r bir \u015feyler soluyor i\u00e7imde II dal olsun diye ku\u015fa uzatt\u0131md\u0131 kolumuomuzlar\u0131ma kadar ekmek ufalad\u0131md\u0131yan\u0131l\u0131p da bir kez bile konmad\u0131inip \u00fc\u00e7 ad\u0131mda bitirdim yolumu evet \u00fc\u00e7 ad\u0131mdabir tokatgibi \u00e7arpt\u0131 y\u00fcz\u00fcme duvardibine \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcp avu\u00e7lar\u0131m\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131m fakathangisine sapsam ne […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[25],"tags":[],"class_list":{"0":"post-2787","1":"post","2":"type-post","3":"status-publish","4":"format-standard","6":"category-nevzat-celik"},"yoast_head":"\n