\u00a0<\/p>\n
\u00f6nce ya\u011fmur vard\u0131<\/p>\n
adam i\u00e7erden kekeme ad\u0131mlarla \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131
burnunun ucuna d\u00fc\u015fen g\u00f6zl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc d\u00fczeltti
arkadan ba\u011fl\u0131 de\u011fildi kollar\u0131
ama o bunu farketmedi
bakt\u0131 bir ufka yat\u0131p bakar gibi bir ufka
g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00e7\u00fclerin aras\u0131na kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131m
oysa ben de\u011fildim arad\u0131\u011f\u0131<\/p>\n
sar\u0131ld\u0131lar boynuna adam\u0131n
sar\u0131lanlar\u0131 tan\u0131yordum<\/p>\n
\u00e7ok iyi tan\u0131yordum<\/p>\n
adam \u00f6pt\u00fc onlar\u0131 koklad\u0131
adam birini arad\u0131 durmadan
ben de\u011fildim arad\u0131\u011f\u0131
sendin
usulca ellerimi tutan<\/p>\n
seni ya\u011fmurlar\u0131n ald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 biliyordu
belki bilmiyordu
adam durmadan seni arad\u0131
ad\u0131n\u0131 ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131m<\/p>\n
duymad\u0131<\/p>\n
beni benden ba\u015fka kimse duymad\u0131<\/p>\n
barbaros kafe’nin balkonunda oturuyorduk
masada bir eylemin ba\u015flang\u0131c\u0131 duruyordu
ya\u011fmurun alt\u0131nda ak\u015fam oluyordu<\/p>\n
ya\u011fmur ya\u011fmasa ak\u015fam olmayacakt\u0131
belki bunlar\u0131n hi\u00e7biri olmayacakt\u0131<\/p>\n
\u015fiirden ayr\u0131lan bir dize gibi kalkt\u0131n
bir dizesi eksik \u015fiir gibi kalkt\u0131n<\/p>\n
onsekiz ya\u015f\u0131n\u0131 al\u0131p masadan<\/p>\n
arabaya bindirdiler adam\u0131
bu\u011fulu cama dayad\u0131 \u0131slak burnunu
kollar\u0131 ba\u011fl\u0131 de\u011fildi fark\u0131na varmad\u0131
seni ya\u011fmurlar\u0131n ald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 biliyordu
belki bilmiyordu
bakt\u0131m arkas\u0131ndan ko\u015ftum arkas\u0131ndan<\/p>\n
aram\u0131zda sekiz y\u0131l vard\u0131<\/p>\n
ya\u011fmur ve ak\u015fam<\/p>\n
ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 duymad\u0131m ama ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 biliyorum
elini arad\u0131m elin yoktu
deh\u015fetle girdim bal\u0131k\u00e7\u0131 pazar\u0131na
i\u015fte b\u00f6yle ya\u011fmurlu bir ak\u015famd\u0131
sakal\u0131m ve kederim yoktu \u00f6nceden
ve be\u015fikta\u015f’ta bal\u0131klar
bu kadar pahal\u0131
de\u011fildi<\/p>\n
ka\u00e7 adam d\u00fc\u015fer bal\u0131k\u00e7\u0131 tezgah\u0131na<\/p>\n
vurulup tezgah\u0131n\u0131za d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm bir ak\u015famd\u0131
kan\u0131m\u0131n bal\u0131klar\u0131 boyad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir ak\u015famd\u0131<\/p>\n
seni ya\u011fmurlar\u0131n ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir ak\u015famd\u0131<\/p>\n
seni ya\u011fmurlar\u0131n ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir ak\u015famd\u0131
karn\u0131ndan vurulmu\u015ftu o kalbini tuttu
aln\u0131ndan vurulmay\u0131 sevmiyordu<\/p>\n
g\u00fcl dese de \u015fairler<\/p>\n
kadavra gibi diktiler karn\u0131n\u0131
kalbini avu\u00e7layarak kalkt\u0131 adam
g\u00f6zl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc arad\u0131 y\u00fcz\u00fcnde
hen\u00fcz g\u00f6zl\u00fck kullanm\u0131yordu bunu unuttu
bir leylak ge\u00e7ti \u00f6n\u00fcnden eflatun mu ak m\u0131
kokusundan tan\u0131d\u0131 bir leylak ge\u00e7ti \u00f6n\u00fcnden
bakt\u0131 arkas\u0131ndan ko\u015ftu arkas\u0131ndan
seni tan\u0131m\u0131yordu bunu da unuttu<\/p>\n
bu\u011fulu cama dayad\u0131 \u0131slak burnunu<\/p>\n
y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn \u0131slakl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ya\u011fmura yordular
belki cama dayamazd\u0131 burnunu
biryazg\u00fcn\u00fc a\u00e7\u0131lsayd\u0131 kap\u0131lar<\/p>\n
biryazg\u00fcn\u00fc a\u00e7\u0131lsayd\u0131 kap\u0131lar
ya\u011fmur ya\u011fmasayd\u0131
seni ya\u011fmurlar almasayd\u0131
\u0131sl\u0131\u011f\u0131mla ok\u015fayacakt\u0131m
heybetinden yan\u0131na var\u0131lmaz
da\u011flar\u0131<\/p>\n
solu\u011fum da\u011f
kurdun ku\u015fun u\u011framad\u0131\u011f\u0131 taze bir \u015feftali
bir fesle\u011fen bir \u0131t\u0131r bir sardunya kokusu
ko\u015facakt\u0131m sana<\/p>\n
ihtimal ben kap\u0131y\u0131 vurmadan a\u00e7acakt\u0131n<\/p>\n
ellerimi bulacakt\u0131n<\/p>\n
ya\u011fmur ya\u011fmasayd\u0131
seni ya\u011fmurlar almasayd\u0131
nizamiye kap\u0131s\u0131nda dururdun
g\u00fcne\u015f sa\u00e7lar\u0131nda dururdu
g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00e7\u00fclerin g\u00f6zlerinde
n\u00f6bet\u00e7inin kepinde dururdu<\/p>\n
kimbilir ellerin nas\u0131l dururdu<\/p>\n
kiremit renkli aral\u0131k
beni i\u00e7ine al\u0131yordu
sen yoktun
s\u00f6zlerini bulamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m
bir \u015fark\u0131n\u0131n m\u00fczi\u011fi vard\u0131
k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck eski bir yara izi gibi
t\u00fcfeklerin d\u00f6n\u00fcp bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131
bir \u015fark\u0131n\u0131n m\u00fczi\u011fi vard\u0131<\/p>\n
sen yoktun<\/p>\n
ben kederimi ellerinden tuttum<\/p>\n
ya\u011fmur ya\u011fmasa ak\u015fam olmayacakt\u0131
belki bunlar\u0131n hi\u00e7biri olmayacakt\u0131
ya\u011fmurda b\u00fct\u00fcn \u0131\u015f\u0131klar \u00f6l\u00fcyordu
sakall\u0131 bir karanl\u0131k y\u00fcr\u00fcyordu
lalezar caddesi’nde \u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131rtkan sesleri
sinemalar tiyatrolar s\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc<\/p>\n
y\u0131ld\u0131zlar dahil lalezar caddesi \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc<\/p>\n
cafe naderi’de oturuyorduk
cadde istanbul karar\u0131yordu
tek tek \u00f6l\u00fcyordu \u0131\u015f\u0131klar
ellerin ellerimde uyuyordu
g\u00f6zlerin ba\u015fka s\u00f6yl\u00fcyordu
birden \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131n tokalar\u0131n\u0131
sa\u00e7lar\u0131n omuzlar\u0131ndan akt\u0131<\/p>\n
masaya b\u0131rakt\u0131n<\/p>\n
furu\u011f’la oturmu\u015ftuk soltanpur’la kalkt\u0131n
sakall\u0131 karanl\u0131k \u00fcst\u00fcm\u00fcze y\u00fcr\u00fcyordu
y\u0131ld\u0131zlar dahil b\u00fct\u00fcn \u0131\u015f\u0131klar \u00f6l\u00fcyordu
furu\u011f’la oturmu\u015ftuk soltanpur’la kalkt\u0131n
onsekiz ya\u015f\u0131n\u0131 al\u0131p masadan g\u00fcl\u00fcm
karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcne bir \u015fim\u015fek gibi \u00e7akt\u0131n<\/p>\n
ya merg ya azadi<\/p>\n
tahran’da ak\u015fam oluyordu
geceye d\u00f6n\u00fcyordu ya\u011fmur<\/p>\n
yoktun<\/p>\n
zendan-e evin’de bir \u015fafak
belki ast\u0131 seni bu kapkara devrim
belki ya\u011fmura kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131n<\/p>\n
ne as\u0131lanlar\u0131n aras\u0131nda ad\u0131n
ne ya\u011fmurda kokun<\/p>\n
olsa duyard\u0131m
gecenin y\u00fcz\u00fcne vururdu
cublar\u0131n aynas\u0131na vururdu<\/p>\n
kalbim dururdu<\/p>\n
kimbilir ellerim nas\u0131l dururdu<\/p>\n
kimselere sormad\u0131m seni
cublara bakarak y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fcm
suretini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrmedi suya
aln\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131k tek bir kad\u0131n<\/p>\n
seni kimselere sormad\u0131m
onsekiz ya\u015f\u0131n\u0131 al\u0131p kalkt\u0131n
\u0131srarla u\u00e7tu sa\u00e7lar\u0131n
bir pasdar gelip yap\u0131\u015ft\u0131
bir pasdar bir pasdar daha<\/p>\n
\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn\u00fc de arkamda b\u0131rakt\u0131m<\/p>\n
\u00fc\u00e7 kur\u015fun \u0131sl\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00e7al\u0131p<\/p>\n
tahran’da ak\u015fam oluyordu
geceye d\u00f6n\u00fcyordu ya\u011fmur
yoktun<\/p>\n
ya\u011fmur da yoktu<\/p>\n
ben kederimi ellerinden tuttum<\/p>\n
\u0131slak burnunu cama dayad\u0131 adam
ben kederimi ellerinden tuttum
kollar\u0131 ba\u011fl\u0131 de\u011fildi arkadan
benim kollar\u0131mdayd\u0131 bunu unuttum<\/p>\n
bakt\u0131m arkas\u0131ndan ko\u015ftum arkas\u0131ndan<\/p>\n
yan\u0131nda sen yoktun<\/p>\n
ranzamda
a\u00e7l\u0131\u011f\u0131n buza kesen ayaz\u0131nda yat\u0131yordum
\u00e7iftle\u015fen s\u0131\u00e7anlar\u0131n \u00fczerinde
gece huzursuz bir e\u015fkiya gibi
k\u0131p\u0131rdan\u0131yordu<\/p>\n
uyumuyordum
s\u0131\u00e7anlar da uyumuyordu
n\u00f6bet\u00e7iler a\u00e7 de\u011fildi
onlar da uyumuyordu<\/p>\n
sen<\/p>\n
sen de uyumuyordun
\u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc yoktun<\/p>\n
\u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc ya\u011fmur yoktu<\/p>\n
s\u0131\u00e7anlar vard\u0131
ve en iyi onlar bilirdi
a\u00e7l\u0131k grevlerinde
\u00f6l\u00fcme yakla\u015fan insan\u0131<\/p>\n
askerlerden sonra \u00e7o\u011fal\u0131p
bas\u0131yorlard\u0131 ko\u011fu\u015fu \u00fc\u00e7er be\u015fer
ka\u00e7 kez e\u011filip konu\u015ftum
ku\u015flarla anla\u015famamak korkusu belki
belki sen yoktun
belki ya\u011fmur<\/p>\n
ka\u00e7 kez e\u011filip konu\u015ftum<\/p>\n
\u00f6l\u00fcm istedi\u011fi yerde istedi\u011fi bi\u00e7imde dursun
ben girerdim d\u00fc\u015flerimin \u00e7atala\u011f\u0131zlar\u0131na
\u00e7ak\u015f\u0131rlar\u0131 \u00e7at\u0131lar\u0131 ok\u015fayan g\u00fcvercinler
uzak mavileri \u00e7a\u011f\u0131ldayan kanatlar\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7ard\u0131<\/p>\n
biz \u00e7atakta oturur zeytin ekmek yerdik<\/p>\n
haki mintan\u0131ma yap\u0131\u015fan \u00e7amsak\u0131zlar\u0131
senin u\u00e7urdu\u011fun r\u00fczgarlar\u0131 toplard\u0131
t\u00fcfeklerin patlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 yere koyard\u0131
kalbimi al\u0131p oraya koyard\u0131<\/p>\n
bir \u00e7aylak g\u00f6lgesini koyard\u0131<\/p>\n
vururduk \u00e7elimsiz g\u00f6vdelerimizi
\u00e7etelerin s\u0131rtlar\u0131n\u0131 verdikleri da\u011flara
kur\u015funlar \u00e7\u0131vard\u0131 da omuzverdi\u011fimiz kayalardan
gidip \u00e7ayla\u011f\u0131n g\u00f6lgesini vurmazd\u0131<\/p>\n
\u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc sen yoktun<\/p>\n
\u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc ya\u011fmur yoktu<\/p>\n
ben kederimi ellerinden tuttum<\/p>\n
ellerin platin ve elmas kokuyor
b\u00fct\u00fcn tarihin
\u00fcst\u00fcn ba\u015f\u0131n<\/p>\n
bunu s\u00f6yleyen ilk kad\u0131n
dokundu\u011fum ilk beyaz
kom\u00fcnist kad\u0131n
sendin<\/p>\n
\u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc alamazd\u0131 kokusunu platinin ve elmas\u0131n
platin ve elmas kokan bantu kad\u0131n<\/p>\n
babama dedesinden ge\u00e7mi\u015f bu koku
dedesinin y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc avu\u00e7lar\u0131na al\u0131p
\u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fck \u015fark\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 f\u0131s\u0131ldad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda kula\u011f\u0131na
onun dedesi<\/p>\n
her gece korkulu r\u00fcyalar do\u011furur
beyazlar\u0131n kap\u0131 mandal\u0131<\/p>\n
babana dedesinden ge\u00e7mi\u015f bu korku
bir elinde incili \u00f6tekinde silah\u0131
zululu sava\u015f\u00e7\u0131 dedemin dedesini
topra\u011f\u0131m\u0131za evimize girip \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde
boerli dedenin dedesi<\/p>\n
plastik bir le\u011fende
sabun ve su i\u00e7inde
annesinin rengini az ovdu\u011fu
ben karaderili \u00e7ocuk
bantu \u00e7ocuk
senjenina m\u0131r\u0131ldan\u0131yorum
petrol lambas\u0131nda islenen
sesinden al\u0131p annemin<\/p>\n
biraz daha ov anneci\u011fim
akarnan d\u00f6rt kara \u00e7ocuk
korkmas\u0131n
bir k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck beyaz \u00e7ocuktan
biraz daha ov anneci\u011fim<\/p>\n
biraz daha<\/p>\n
her sabah \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p langatownship’ten
cilal\u0131 bir gece gibi gireyim kentlere
aln\u0131mda kara\u00e7al\u0131’n\u0131n aln\u0131
biraz daha ov anneci\u011fim biraz daha
korkulu r\u00fcyalar do\u011fursun g\u00fcpeg\u00fcnd\u00fcz<\/p>\n
beyazlar\u0131n kap\u0131 mandal\u0131<\/p>\n
robben island’da
bir duvar \u00f6temde
kayalara vurdu\u011fu yerde
y\u0131llard\u0131r kalbimi bir f\u0131nd\u0131k kabu\u011fu gibi sallayan
dalgalar kadar yak\u0131n
dalgalar kadar uzaks\u0131n bana
seni kara tenimde y\u00fcr\u00fcyen bulutlar gibi
seni \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fck
seni kurtulu\u015f gibi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum<\/p>\n
karda kalm\u0131\u015f ser\u00e7e gibi \u00fc\u015f\u00fcyorum<\/p>\n
\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyorum<\/p>\n
d\u00fc\u015f\u00fck bir sat\u0131r gibi s\u0131r\u0131t\u0131yor n\u00f6bet\u00e7i
ustura gibi \u00e7ekiyorum kendimi ranzadan<\/p>\n
beynimde bir ta\u015f\u0131n unufak olma iste\u011fi<\/p>\n
seni kimlere sormal\u0131<\/p>\n
seni
t\u0131n\u0131s\u0131na yenilgi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrmeyen \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131klara sormal\u0131<\/p>\n
nereden geldi\u011fi bilinmez bir u\u011fultu
karanl\u0131klar\u0131n yedi\u011fi
d\u00fc\u015flerimin izd\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131yordu<\/p>\n
a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131n dallar\u0131 var m\u0131yd\u0131 yok muydu<\/p>\n
h\u0131\u015f\u0131rt\u0131lar dallar\u0131n\u0131n oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcr\u00fcyordu<\/p>\n
ve asl\u0131nda
karanl\u0131k bir korkunun dallara \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131
ad\u0131mlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n kekelemesinden belliydi<\/p>\n
y\u00fcre\u011fimi a\u011fz\u0131ma getiren ku\u015f
bayku\u015f demi\u015fti k\u0131rsal bir ses
mola verdi\u011fimizde baca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 k\u0131v\u0131r\u0131p alt\u0131na alan
ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131n silueti hepimizden yukarda olan<\/p>\n
kur\u015funun ilk de\u011fece\u011fi adam<\/p>\n
y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fck sonra
evet y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc an\u0131ms\u0131yorum<\/p>\n
sen yoktun<\/p>\n
sen hi\u00e7 yoktun
gibi susuyordum
netle\u015ftirmek i\u00e7in<\/p>\n
g\u00f6vdemi<\/p>\n
i\u015fkenceciyi \u00e7\u0131ld\u0131rtm\u0131\u015f olabilir
geceye \u00e7alan sakallar\u0131m\u0131n
hep ba\u015fka bir y\u00f6n\u00fc g\u00f6stermesi
yoksa ne diye yolmaya kalks\u0131n<\/p>\n
olmayan sakallar\u0131m\u0131<\/p>\n
daha d\u00fcn de\u011fil miydi
olmayan sakallar\u0131m\u0131n
gizli bir umut gibi<\/p>\n
durmas\u0131<\/p>\n
daha d\u00fcn de\u011fil miydi dedi\u011finde
\u00e7ocuk ellerimin ta\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131 karga
g\u00fcle g\u00fcle kalk\u0131yor bir a\u011fa\u00e7tan
bir a\u011faca<\/p>\n
o da kalkarsa<\/p>\n
ka\u00e7 paral\u0131k \u00f6mr\u00fcn var ki ka\u00e7 y\u0131ll\u0131k<\/p>\n
ha ha ha ha ha ha<\/p>\n
ama daha d\u00fcn de\u011fil miydi
biz onsekiz ondokuz ya\u015f\u0131ndakilerin
uykular\u0131na bas\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131nda bir \u015fafak
on y\u0131l<\/p>\n
ya\u015flanmas\u0131<\/p>\n
daha d\u00fcn<\/p>\n
an\u0131msa<\/p>\n
an\u0131ms\u0131yorum<\/p>\n
yap\u0131i\u015f\u00e7ilerinin kald\u0131klar\u0131 oda toprakt\u0131 \u0131slakt\u0131
bekarevlerinin duvarlar\u0131na s\u00fcm\u00fckl\u00fcb\u00f6cekler haritalar \u00e7izer
biz topra\u011fa \u00e7izmi\u015ftik istanbul’un b\u00fct\u00fcn sokaklar\u0131n\u0131<\/p>\n
sonra geceye y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fck<\/p>\n
sonra geceye y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fcm o gen\u00e7 ve esmer dili konu\u015fan i\u015f\u00e7ilerle<\/p>\n
iki i\u015f\u00e7i yaz\u0131 yazm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 duvarlara
ihtimal elleri kanam\u0131\u015ft\u0131
koyarken o duvarlar\u0131n harc\u0131n\u0131<\/p>\n
ta\u015f\u0131n\u0131<\/p>\n
e\u011fri b\u00fc\u011fr\u00fc yaz\u0131yorlard\u0131<\/p>\n
ne g\u00fczel yaz\u0131yorlard\u0131<\/p>\n
sonra vuruldu biri
\u00e7amura buland\u0131
elindeki<\/p>\n
f\u0131r\u00e7as\u0131<\/p>\n
ya m\u0131z\u0131kas\u0131<\/p>\n
ya<\/p>\n
m\u0131z\u0131kas\u0131<\/p>\n
bir i\u015f\u00e7inin koluna girip y\u00fcr\u00fcmek miydi
s\u00f6zlerini bulamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m o \u015fark\u0131<\/p>\n
t\u00fcfeklerin d\u00f6n\u00fcp bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131<\/p>\n
t\u00fcfeklerin d\u00f6n\u00fcp bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131
kafiye tutmaz ad\u0131n\u0131
kime sorsam
metruk yap\u0131lar gibi kapat\u0131yor<\/p>\n
kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131<\/p>\n
sic itur ad astra<\/p>\n
evet ama
\u00f6nce da\u011flara \u00e7\u0131kar<\/p>\n
bu\u011fulanm\u0131\u015f camdan burnunu \u00e7ekti adam
ayn\u0131 anda kalkt\u0131 i\u00e7imden bir s\u00fcr\u00fc vapur
vapur d\u00fcd\u00fckleri sensiz mart\u0131lar\u0131 vurur
ne kent ta\u015f\u0131yabilir kederini ne deniz
lodos y\u00fcz\u00fcnde bir tokat gibi durur<\/p>\n
adam y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc d\u00f6nd\u00fc istanbul’dan
manuel marcial federico bir de ben
bir gece gizlice ka\u00e7t\u0131k leon’dan<\/p>\n
bizi kamp yerine g\u00f6t\u00fcrecek olan campesino
yorulmak nedir bilmeyen bir deli
hay dinine yand\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131n az yava\u015f y\u00fcr\u00fcsen olmaz m\u0131
bu campesino ke\u00e7i soyundan be federico
kur\u015fun s\u0131ksan yeti\u015fmez arkas\u0131ndan
seni beni bulursa kur\u015fun kampa varmadan
companerolar\u0131 bulmadan
da\u011fadam\u0131 olmadan
federico
yaz\u0131k olur bize<\/p>\n
patria libre o morir<\/p>\n
federico s\u00f6yle
hangimizin y\u00fcz\u00fcnde<\/p>\n
\u00f6l\u00fcm<\/p>\n
bug\u00fcn yan\u0131nda olan yar\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fcr
omuz ba\u015f\u0131nda hayali y\u00fcr\u00fcr<\/p>\n
tello’yu an\u0131ms\u0131yor musun federico
k\u0131\u015fa d\u00f6nen bir ak\u015fam gibi as\u0131kt\u0131 surat\u0131
\u00e7evik y\u0131rt\u0131c\u0131 bir hayvand\u0131 ormanda
fena kur\u015fun atard\u0131 d\u00fc\u015fmana
bu adam asla \u00f6lmez derdin<\/p>\n
kur\u015fundan \u00f6nce bulur k\u00f6t\u00fc haber adam\u0131
da\u011fa \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n ilk ay\u0131 dolmadan
terketmi\u015f sevdi\u011fi kad\u0131n onu
federico a\u00e7ma \u015fu kad\u0131n meselesini<\/p>\n
a\u011flatma tello’yu<\/p>\n
da\u011fda bir a\u011fa\u00e7t\u0131k suda bal\u0131k a\u011fa\u00e7ta maymun
\u00e7orbas\u0131n\u0131 yap\u0131p i\u00e7ti\u011fimiz bir maymunduk biz
irile\u015fti \u00e7enelerimiz di\u015flerimizi kenetlemekten
bir patika gibi tehlikeyle inceldi ka\u015flar\u0131m\u0131z
m\u00fcmk\u00fcn\u00fc yok tan\u0131yamazd\u0131n
da\u011fda ormanda birer hayvand\u0131k biz
buz gibi sulara girerdik sabah\u0131n k\u00f6r\u00fcnde
iti atsan durmaz iki dakika
tek bir \u00e7\u0131t\u0131rt\u0131 ka\u00e7maz n\u00f6bette
ve \u00fcstelik biliriz bu neyin \u00e7\u0131t\u0131rt\u0131s\u0131
hangi a\u011fac\u0131n dal\u0131 titredi
hangi hayvan h\u0131\u015f\u0131rdatt\u0131 yapra\u011f\u0131
da\u011fda ormanda birer hayvand\u0131k biz<\/p>\n
ve yaln\u0131zd\u0131k onlar kadar<\/p>\n
subtiava’da bir k\u0131z\u0131lderili vard\u0131
akraband\u0131 senin iyi adamd\u0131
adiac’\u0131n torunlar\u0131 der saklard\u0131 bizi
onun kulubesinde ba\u015flad\u0131 ilk
ellerimizin ve kalbimizin
b\u00fcy\u00fck maceras\u0131<\/p>\n
y\u0131ld\u0131zlara \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131k damdaki aral\u0131ktan<\/p>\n
damdaki aral\u0131ktan<\/p>\n
ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011fa \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131k<\/p>\n
ayr\u0131l\u0131k i\u00e7imi macheteyle bi\u00e7er
kalbimin kuytular\u0131 titredi de da\u011flarda<\/p>\n
ge\u00e7medi senden tek bir haber<\/p>\n
ad\u0131 neydi o k\u0131z\u0131lderilinin
iyi adamd\u0131 akraband\u0131 senin
atabal\u0131n\u0131 al\u0131p \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131 barrioya
barangan-bangaran
bu ak\u015fam yedide meydanda<\/p>\n
barangan-bangaran
bu ak\u015fam yedide meydanda<\/p>\n
ak\u015fam g\u00f6sterilerinde yakt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z mumlar
\u00e7obanate\u015fleri oldu barriolarda
her barrioda da\u011fate\u015fleri g\u00fcl\u00fcm
sizinkiler y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc
adiac’\u0131n torunlar\u0131<\/p>\n
bak\u0131r ve kalay madenleri y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc
kau\u00e7uk plantasyonlar\u0131 andlar
b\u00fct\u00fcn latin amerika y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc<\/p>\n
kalbimin kuytular\u0131 titredi de
ge\u00e7medi senden tek bir haber<\/p>\n
devrim kentlere y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc<\/p>\n
prio reis
ya\u015fl\u0131 kurt
jesus christ’i dinletirdin bize
dipteki masada ikimiz
a\u011f\u0131za\u011f\u0131za verir konu\u015furduk
as\u0131msad\u0131n m\u0131
bira paras\u0131 de\u011fil
\u015fiir verirmi\u015f sana ruben dario
\u00e7ok y\u0131llar ge\u00e7ti reis
kald\u0131 m\u0131 bilmem
dipteki masada<\/p>\n
izimiz<\/p>\n
sana da\u011f\u0131 ve hapishaneyi getirdim
\u015fiiri bir de
mutlaka gelmi\u015ftir
sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 kestiyse bir o\u011flan \u00e7ocu\u011fu gibi
kara bir g\u00f6zl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn ard\u0131na gizlediyse g\u00f6zlerini
y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fc ne yaps\u0131n reis<\/p>\n
g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fc<\/p>\n
g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fc bir r\u00fczgard\u0131
ku\u015flar\u0131n kanad\u0131na binip giden
ku\u015flar\u0131n u\u00e7ma merak\u0131na
onun r\u00fczgarlar\u0131 neden<\/p>\n
b\u0131\u00e7aklar\u0131mla keserim g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fcy\u00fc
eski plaklardan koy
\u00fc\u00e7 de bira getir reis
sen
ben
bir de onun hayali<\/p>\n
kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131kl\u0131 i\u00e7eriz<\/p>\n
kollar\u0131m ba\u011fl\u0131
de\u011fildi
bunu
anlad\u0131m<\/p>\n
oyunhavalar\u0131
klarnet
darbuka<\/p>\n
rak\u0131<\/p>\n
rak\u0131l\u0131
uzun masalarda insan kendini e\u011fri \u00e7akar<\/p>\n
benim i\u00e7imde zenci bir ak\u015fam vard\u0131
pastoral bir ay utanmas\u0131z soyunuyordu
\u00e7obank\u00f6pekleri kal\u0131n havlad\u0131
ku\u015fluk vakti sokuldum ranzama
oyunhavalar\u0131 klarnet darbuka rak\u0131
benim i\u00e7imde zenci bir ak\u015fam vard\u0131<\/p>\n
\u00e7ingeneler k\u00fcst\u00fc<\/p>\n
oyunhavalar\u0131
klarnet
darbuka<\/p>\n
k\u00fcst\u00fc<\/p>\n
saksofona d\u00f6nd\u00fcm y\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc<\/p>\n
ipince girdi geceye soprano saksofon
\u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fclenler ambrosia i\u00e7er dedi
\u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fclenlerin \u00f6lmedi\u011fini saksofon s\u00f6yledi
o dere bu dere miydi diye sordum k\u0131z\u0131l
dere miydi kalbimin ufkuna k\u0131vr\u0131larak yatm\u0131\u015f
her k\u0131vr\u0131m\u0131 bir ba\u015fka t\u00fcrl\u00fc baruta batm\u0131\u015f<\/p>\n
allegro dedi i\u00e7imdeki maystro<\/p>\n
allegro be<\/p>\n
bacaklar\u0131m uzad\u0131 da<\/p>\n
sokaklara s\u0131\u011famad\u0131m<\/p>\n
sokaklarda<\/p>\n
sen<\/p>\n
yoktun<\/p>\n
ben kederimi ellerinden tuttum<\/p>\n
arananlar listesinde afi\u015fe olmu\u015f y\u00fcz\u00fcn
\u015fark\u0131lar\u0131n ve polisin bilmedi\u011fi ad\u0131n\u0131
kafiye d\u00fc\u015fmez ad\u0131n\u0131
ba\u011f\u0131rsam<\/p>\n
ba\u011f\u0131rsam<\/p>\n
duvarlarda y\u00fcz\u00fcn kalm\u0131\u015f
gidip g\u00f6rd\u00fcm
kimseler g\u00f6rmedi<\/p>\n
ellerimi y\u00fcz\u00fcme s\u00fcrd\u00fcm<\/p>\n
ellerim y\u00fcz\u00fcmde geziyorum<\/p>\n
ya\u011fmurlar ya\u011fmazd\u0131 eskiden b\u00f6yle<\/p>\n
g\u00fcnlerdir y\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fcn \u0131slakl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ya\u011fmura yordum<\/p>\n
sen yoktun
belki ya\u011fmur<\/p>\n
ben kederimi ellerinden tuttum<\/p>\n
kalk\u0131p oynayabildi\u011fime g\u00f6re despina’da
oyunhavalar\u0131 da bilmem \u00fcstelik
kollar\u0131m ba\u011fl\u0131 de\u011fildi bunu anlad\u0131m
\u00e7ingeneler klarnet darbuka rak\u0131
kalk\u0131p oynayabildi\u011fime g\u00f6re despina’da
kollar\u0131m ba\u011fl\u0131 de\u011fildi<\/p>\n
bunu anlad\u0131m<\/p>\n
yan\u0131mdaki kad\u0131n kimdi<\/p>\n
sen de\u011fildin buna eminim
senin ellerinden elleri vard\u0131
belki bu y\u00fczden vard\u0131
ve hatta g\u00f6zlerinden g\u00f6zleri vard\u0131
belki bu y\u00fczden vard\u0131
ama sen de\u011fildin<\/p>\n
buna eminim<\/p>\n
g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn bir r\u00fczgard\u0131 senin
ku\u015flar\u0131n kanad\u0131na binip giden
ku\u015flar\u0131n u\u00e7ma merak\u0131na
senin r\u00fczgarlar\u0131n neden<\/p>\n
nerdesin<\/p>\n
muslu\u011fu a\u00e7an ellerinde
belli de\u011fil
su mu akard\u0131<\/p>\n
g\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f m\u00fc<\/p>\n
nerdesin<\/p>\n
yoruldu kalbim
kad\u0131nlarda
aramaktan
seni<\/p>\n
t\u00fcketiyorum onlar\u0131<\/p>\n
kendimi<\/p>\n
nerdesin<\/p>\n
bir ak\u015fam vakti zifiri d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm<\/p>\n
bir tuhaf dursa da kadifeler<\/p>\n
hatmiler<\/p>\n
cudi da\u011f\u0131’n\u0131n cay\u0131rt\u0131s\u0131na sar\u0131n\u0131p y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fcm<\/p>\n
kolu kanad\u0131 k\u0131r\u0131k bir \u00e7\u0131kr\u0131k gibi duruyor evin
az \u00f6tede suluboya bir dere ak\u0131yor gibi
akm\u0131yor gibi
\u00e7ocuklar\u0131n \u00e7ite yaslanm\u0131\u015f hayali bak\u0131yor gibi
bakm\u0131yor gibi<\/p>\n
duvarlardaki kur\u015fun oyuklar\u0131na bat\u0131yor
uzayan g\u00f6lgeleri<\/p>\n
f\u0131s\u0131lt\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n<\/p>\n
baban
o dev gibi adam
varla yok
aras\u0131<\/p>\n
kendi dilinde gizlice b\u00fcy\u00fcyor k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck karde\u015fin
\u00f6r\u00fcp \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcyor
\u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcp \u00f6r\u00fcyor sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 annen
g\u00f6lgesi geceden kara
bir g\u00fclebilse
nar gibi sa\u00e7\u0131lacak odaya<\/p>\n
kahkahan<\/p>\n
\u015filan
muhtar fena adam
ihbar edecek beni
korucu d\u00fcd\u00fckleri
y\u0131rt\u0131yor geceyi<\/p>\n
korkudan<\/p>\n
kalbimin haritalar\u0131 kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131
birbirine \u00e7\u0131km\u0131yor yollar\u0131
ne izin var y\u0131rt\u0131lan gecede
ne kederimde tutunacak bir dal<\/p>\n
ho\u015f\u00e7akal \u015filan’\u0131n annesi
babas\u0131 karde\u015fi<\/p>\n
\u00fclkesi<\/p>\n
ho\u015f\u00e7akal<\/p>\n
dedesi b\u0131rakm\u0131yor yatmaya
mart\u0131lar\u0131 kanats\u0131z d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmek<\/p>\n
g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc a\u00e7\u0131yorum turuncudan k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131ya<\/p>\n
\u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc yakamozlar akl\u0131m\u0131 \u00e7eliyor<\/p>\n
bu ba\u011f\u0131rmak ne ay\u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131<\/p>\n
Ocak 1988 – Mart 1990<\/p>\n
NOTLAR<\/p>\n
lalezar caddesi
Tahran’da bir cadde ; sinemalar\u0131, tiyatrolar\u0131 ve e\u011flence yerleriyle \u00fcnl\u00fc.<\/p>\n
furu\u011f farrohzad (1934 – 1966)
\u015eiirleri bir \u00e7ok dile \u00e7evrilen \u00fcnl\u00fc kad\u0131n \u015fair. \u00c7a\u011fda\u015f \u0130ran \u015eiiri’nin \u00f6nde gelen adlar\u0131ndan. Ayn\u0131 zamanda sinemac\u0131d\u0131r.<\/p>\n
Said soltanpur
\u0130ranl\u0131 \u015fair Soltanpur. \u015eah’\u0131n devrilmesinden sonra \u00fclkesine d\u00f6n\u00fcyor ve politik i\u00e7erikli sokak tiyatrosu yap\u0131yor. 19 Haziran 1981’de, Humeyni iktidar\u0131 taraf\u0131ndan idam ediliyor.<\/p>\n
ya merg ya azadi
Ya \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fck ya \u00f6l\u00fcm.<\/p>\n
zendan-e evin
Tahran’\u0131n kuzeyinde, infazlar\u0131 ve i\u015fkenceleriyle \u00fcnl\u00fc olan cezaevi.<\/p>\n
cub
Tahran’da ve kimi ba\u015fka kentlerde, caddelerin her iki yan\u0131ndan akan su kanallar\u0131.<\/p>\n
pasdar
Devrim muhaf\u0131z\u0131.<\/p>\n
boer
Afrikaaner.<\/p>\n
bantu
Siyah.<\/p>\n
senjenina
G\u00fcney Afrika’da, e\u015fleri cezaevine d\u00fc\u015fen kad\u0131nlar\u0131n \u00e7ocuklar\u0131na okuduklar\u0131 bir t\u00fcr a\u011f\u0131tninni.<\/p>\n
akarnan
Hen\u00fcz \u00e7ocukken, babas\u0131, Arkadya kral\u0131 Phegeus taraf\u0131ndan \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fclen Akarnan’\u0131n annesi, tanr\u0131 Zeus’tan o\u011flunun \u00e7abuk b\u00fcy\u00fcmesini dilemi\u015f. Akarnan, bir ka\u00e7 ay i\u00e7inde ergenlik \u00e7a\u011f\u0131na ermi\u015f ve babas\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6c\u00fcn\u00fc alm\u0131\u015f.<\/p>\n
kara\u00e7al\u0131
The Black Pimpernal
Mandela’ya halk\u0131n takt\u0131\u011f\u0131 ad. Bu da mandela’y\u0131 G\u00fcney Afrika efsanesinin ba\u015f kahraman\u0131 yap\u0131yor.<\/p>\n
langatownship
B\u00fcy\u00fck kentlerin yak\u0131nlar\u0131nda kurulan ve siyahlar\u0131n oturmak zorunda olduklar\u0131 gettolar.<\/p>\n
robben island
Capetown a\u00e7\u0131klar\u0131ndaki bir adaya yap\u0131lm\u0131\u015f ve Mandela’n\u0131n da uzun y\u0131llar yatt\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir zindan.<\/p>\n
sic itur ad astra
Bu kap\u0131lardan insan y\u0131ld\u0131zlara \u00e7\u0131kar.
Nikaragua’da, Hukuk Fak\u00fcltesi’nin kap\u0131s\u0131nda yaz\u0131l\u0131 olan bir \u00f6zdeyi\u015f.<\/p>\n
leon
Kent.<\/p>\n
campesino
K\u0131rsal kesimde ya\u015fayan erkek. K\u00f6yl\u00fc erkek.<\/p>\n
companero
Yolda\u015f.<\/p>\n
patria libre o morir
Ya \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fck ya \u00f6l\u00fcm.<\/p>\n
subtiava
FSLN’nin kuruldu\u011fu ve \u00f6rg\u00fctl\u00fc m\u00fccadeleye ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131 ilk y\u0131llarda en g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc oldu\u011fu b\u00f6lge.<\/p>\n
adiac
Efsanevi bir k\u0131z\u0131lderili lideri.<\/p>\n
machete
Kam\u0131\u015f kesmekte kullan\u0131lan b\u00fcy\u00fck ve a\u011f\u0131r pala.<\/p>\n
atabal
Alt\u0131 bak\u0131r ya da pirin\u00e7 olan b\u00fcy\u00fck bir davul.<\/p>\n
barrio
Mahalle.<\/p>\n
ruben dario (1867 – 1916)
Nikaragual\u0131 bir \u015fair.<\/p>\n
tacho
Somoza’ya tak\u0131lan bir ad.<\/p>\n
ambrosia
B\u00fcy\u00fcl\u00fc bal.
Olympos tanr\u0131lar\u0131 bu balla beslenirlermi\u015f. \u00d6l\u00fcms\u00fcz anlam\u0131na geliyor. Bu bal insanlara i\u00e7irildi\u011finde, onlara gen\u00e7lik, mutluluk ve \u00f6l\u00fcms\u00fczl\u00fck sa\u011flarm\u0131\u015f.<\/p>\n
Nevzat \u00c7EL\u0130K<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
\u00a0 \u00f6nce ya\u011fmur vard\u0131 adam i\u00e7erden kekeme ad\u0131mlarla \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131burnunun ucuna d\u00fc\u015fen g\u00f6zl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc d\u00fczelttiarkadan ba\u011fl\u0131 de\u011fildi kollar\u0131ama o bunu farketmedibakt\u0131 bir ufka yat\u0131p bakar gibi bir ufkag\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00e7\u00fclerin aras\u0131na kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131moysa ben de\u011fildim arad\u0131\u011f\u0131 sar\u0131ld\u0131lar boynuna adam\u0131nsar\u0131lanlar\u0131 tan\u0131yordum \u00e7ok iyi tan\u0131yordum adam \u00f6pt\u00fc onlar\u0131 koklad\u0131adam birini arad\u0131 durmadanben de\u011fildim arad\u0131\u011f\u0131sendinusulca ellerimi tutan seni ya\u011fmurlar\u0131n ald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 biliyordubelki bilmiyorduadam durmadan […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[25],"tags":[],"class_list":{"0":"post-2790","1":"post","2":"type-post","3":"status-publish","4":"format-standard","6":"category-nevzat-celik"},"yoast_head":"\n