Arturo Massolari i\u015f\u00e7iydi, sabah alt\u0131da sona eren gece vardiyas\u0131nda \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu. Eve d\u00f6nmek i\u00e7in g\u00fczel havalarda bisikletle, ya\u011f\u0131\u015fl\u0131 aylarda ve k\u0131\u015f\u0131n da tramvayla uzun bir yol giderdi. Eve alt\u0131 k\u0131rk be\u015fle yedi aras\u0131nda, yani kar\u0131s\u0131 Elide nin \u00e7alar saatinin \u00e7almas\u0131ndan bazen az \u00f6nce, bazen de az sonra var\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n
\u0130ki g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fc: \u00e7alar saatin sesiyle, kap\u0131dan giren ayaklar\u0131n sesi \u00e7o\u011fu kez Elide nin zihninde birle\u015fir, uykusunun, y\u00fcz\u00fc yast\u0131\u011fa g\u00f6m\u00fcl\u00fc, daha birka\u00e7 saniye tad\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kartmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 t\u0131k\u0131z sabah uykusunun derinliklerinde yakalard\u0131 onu. Sonra birden yataktan f\u0131rlar, sa\u00e7lar\u0131 g\u00f6zlerinin \u00f6n\u00fcnde k\u00f6r gibi kollar\u0131n\u0131 sabahl\u0131\u011fa ge\u00e7iriverirdi. Mutfakta, i\u015fe g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc \u00e7antadan bo\u015f kaplar\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kart\u0131p sefertas\u0131n\u0131, termosu muslu\u011fun i\u00e7ine koymakta olan Arturo nun kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na b\u00f6yle \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131. Arturo oca\u011f\u0131 yakm\u0131\u015f, kahveyi koymu\u015f olurdu. Arturo ona bakar bakmaz, Elide nin i\u00e7inden bir elini sa\u00e7lar\u0131na g\u00f6t\u00fcrmek, g\u00f6zlerini iyice a\u00e7mak gelirdi, eve d\u00f6nen kocas\u0131n\u0131n kendisini hep b\u00f6yle da\u011f\u0131n\u0131k, yar\u0131 uykulu g\u00f6rmesinden sanki biraz utan\u0131rd\u0131. Birlikte uyuduklar\u0131nda b\u00f6yle olmazd\u0131, sabah ikisi birlikte uyku mahmurlu\u011funu atmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r, ayn\u0131 durumda olurlard\u0131.<\/p>\n
Bazen de \u00e7alar saatin \u00e7almas\u0131ndan bir dakika \u00f6nce elinde kahve fincan\u0131, Arturo odaya girip onu uyand\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131, bu durumda her \u015fey daha do\u011fal olurdu, uykudan s\u0131yr\u0131lma tatl\u0131 bir tembelli\u011fe b\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc, gerinmek i\u00e7in kalkan \u00e7\u0131plak kollar en sonunda onun boynuna dolan\u0131rlard\u0131. Sar\u0131l\u0131rlard\u0131 birbirlerine. Arturo nun \u00fcst\u00fcnde su ge\u00e7irmez montu olurdu, buna de\u011fince havan\u0131n nas\u0131l oldu\u011funu anlard\u0131 kad\u0131n: nemli ya da so\u011fuk olu\u015funa g\u00f6re ya\u011fmur mu ya\u011f\u0131yordu, sis mi vard\u0131, kar m\u0131 ya\u011f\u0131yordu anlard\u0131. Ama yine de sorard\u0131 ona:\u00a0 Hava nas\u0131l?\u00a0 O ise her zamanki gibi yar\u0131 alayc\u0131, anlatmaya koyulurdu, sondan ba\u015flayarak kar\u015f\u0131la\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 aksilikleri s\u0131ralard\u0131, bisikletle geli\u015fini, fabrikadan \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda havan\u0131n, bir ak\u015fam \u00f6nce fabrikaya gidi\u015fteki havadan de\u011fi\u015fik oldu\u011funu, i\u015fle ilgili sorunlar\u0131, i\u015fyerindeki dedikodular\u0131 anlat\u0131p dururdu.<\/p>\n
O saatte ev yeteri kadar \u0131s\u0131t\u0131lmam\u0131\u015f olurdu hep, ama Elide soyunur, biraz \u00fcrpererek banyoda y\u0131kan\u0131rd\u0131. Arkas\u0131ndan Arturo gider, daha tela\u015fs\u0131z soyunur, o da y\u0131kan\u0131rd\u0131 a\u011f\u0131r a\u011f\u0131r, i\u015fyerinin kirini pas\u0131n\u0131 atard\u0131 \u00fcst\u00fcnden. \u0130kisi de yar\u0131 \u00e7\u0131plak, biraz \u00fc\u015f\u00fcyerek ayn\u0131 lavabonun ba\u015f\u0131nda dururlar, arada iti\u015fir, birbirlerinin elinden sabunu, di\u015f macununu kaparlar, bir yandan da birbirlerine s\u00f6yleyeceklerini s\u00f6ylemeyi s\u00fcrd\u00fcr\u00fcrlerdi, sonra yak\u0131nla\u015fma zaman\u0131 gelirdi, kimi kez s\u0131rayla s\u0131rtlar\u0131n\u0131 ovalamaya yard\u0131m ederlerken, araya ok\u015famalar girer, birbirlerine sar\u0131l\u0131rlard\u0131.<\/p>\n
Ama birden Elide,\u00a0 Saat ka\u00e7 olmu\u015f,\u00a0 der, ko\u015fup acele ayakta jartiyerini takar, etekli\u011fini giyerken, f\u0131r\u00e7ay\u0131 sa\u00e7lar\u0131nda a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 yukar\u0131 dola\u015ft\u0131r\u0131r, dudaklar\u0131 aras\u0131nda tokalar, y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc komodinin aynas\u0131na yap\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131. Arturo pe\u015finden gelirdi, bir sigara yakm\u0131\u015f olurdu, ayakta durur, sigaras\u0131n\u0131 i\u00e7erek ona bakard\u0131, her seferinde de hi\u00e7bir \u015fey yapamadan orada durman\u0131n s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc. Elide haz\u0131rd\u0131 art\u0131k, paltosunu koridorda giyerdi, \u00f6p\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrlerdi, kap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7mas\u0131yla merdivenlerden a\u015fa\u011f\u0131ya indi\u011finin duyulmas\u0131 bir olurdu.<\/p>\n
Arturo tek ba\u015f\u0131na kal\u0131rd\u0131. Elide nin topuklar\u0131n\u0131n basamaklardaki sesini dinlerdi, art\u0131k duyulmaz olunca da, h\u0131zl\u0131 ad\u0131mlar\u0131n avludan, d\u0131\u015f kap\u0131dan ge\u00e7ip kald\u0131r\u0131mdan tramvay dura\u011f\u0131na gidi\u015fini zihninden izlemeyi s\u00fcrd\u00fcr\u00fcrd\u00fc. Tramvay\u0131n g\u0131c\u0131rt\u0131s\u0131n\u0131, durmas\u0131n\u0131, her yolcu bini\u015finde basama\u011f\u0131n \u00e7\u0131kartt\u0131\u011f\u0131 sesi iyice duyard\u0131.\u00a0 Tamam bindi,\u00a0 diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr, her g\u00fcnk\u00fc gibi onu fabrikaya g\u00f6t\u00fcren\u00a0 on bir\u00a0 numaran\u0131n kad\u0131nl\u0131 erkekli i\u015f\u00e7i kalabal\u0131\u011f\u0131 aras\u0131na s\u0131k\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f kar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fc. Sigaray\u0131 s\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u00fcr, pencerenin panjurlar\u0131n\u0131 kapat\u0131rd\u0131, karanl\u0131k olurdu, yata\u011fa girerdi.<\/p>\n
Yatak Elide nin kalkt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 gibi olurdu, ama onun, Arturo nun taraf\u0131 neredeyse bozulmam\u0131\u015f, sanki yeni yap\u0131lm\u0131\u015f gibi olurdu. Arturo \u00f6nce kendi taraf\u0131na iyice uzan\u0131r, ama sonra bir baca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6teye, kar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n s\u0131cakl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n kald\u0131\u011f\u0131 yere uzat\u0131rd\u0131, sonra \u00f6b\u00fcr aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131 da uzat\u0131rd\u0131 oraya, b\u00f6ylece yava\u015f yava\u015f Elide nin taraf\u0131na, hala kar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n bedeninin bi\u00e7imini koruyan o \u0131l\u0131k \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcnt\u00fcye ge\u00e7er, y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc onun yast\u0131\u011f\u0131na, kokusuna g\u00f6mer, uykuya dalard\u0131.<\/p>\n
Ak\u015fam Elide d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde, Arturo bir s\u00fcredir odalarda dola\u015f\u0131yor olurdu, oca\u011f\u0131 yakar, pi\u015fmesi i\u00e7in bir \u015fey koyard\u0131. Yata\u011f\u0131 d\u00fczeltmek, biraz ortal\u0131\u011f\u0131 s\u00fcp\u00fcrmek, y\u0131kanacak kirlileri banyoya g\u00f6t\u00fcrmek gibi kimi i\u015fleri, yemekten \u00f6nceki bir iki saat i\u00e7inde o yapard\u0131. Elide hi\u00e7birini be\u011fenmezdi, ama do\u011frusunu s\u00f6ylemek gerekirse bu nedenle daha fazla \u00e7aba g\u00f6stermezdi o; onun yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir t\u00fcr bekleme t\u00f6reniydi, evin duvarlar\u0131 aras\u0131nda kalsa da, d\u0131\u015far\u0131da \u0131\u015f\u0131klar yan\u0131nca, kad\u0131nlar\u0131n ak\u015famlar\u0131 al\u0131\u015fveri\u015f yapt\u0131klar\u0131 mahallelerin o saatle ba\u011fda\u015fmayan kalabal\u0131\u011f\u0131na kar\u0131\u015farak d\u00fckkanlara u\u011framakta olan kar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131, bir t\u00fcr kar\u015f\u0131lamayd\u0131.<\/p>\n
Sonunda merdivende ayak sesini duyard\u0131, sabahkine benzemezdi, daha a\u011f\u0131r olurdu, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc g\u00fcn boyunca \u00e7al\u0131\u015fman\u0131n yorgunlu\u011fu i\u00e7indeki Elide, eli kolu paket y\u00fckl\u00fc t\u0131rman\u0131rd\u0131 merdiveni. Arturo sahanl\u0131\u011fa \u00e7\u0131kar, elinden paketleri al\u0131r, konu\u015farak i\u00e7eri girerlerdi. O paketleri a\u00e7arken, kad\u0131n paltosunu \u00e7\u0131kartmadan kendini mutfaktaki bir iskemlenin \u00fcst\u00fcne atard\u0131. Sonra,\u00a0 Hadi bakal\u0131m i\u015f ba\u015f\u0131na,\u00a0 deyip yerinden kalkar, paltosunu \u00e7\u0131kart\u0131r, ev entarisini giyerdi. Yeme\u011fi haz\u0131rlamaya koyulurlard\u0131: ikisi i\u00e7in ak\u015fam yeme\u011fini, gece yar\u0131s\u0131ndan sonra bir paydosu i\u00e7in erke\u011fin g\u00f6t\u00fcrece\u011fi kahvalt\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131, kad\u0131n\u0131n ertesi g\u00fcn fabrikaya g\u00f6t\u00fcrece\u011fi \u00f6\u011fle yeme\u011fini, ertesi sabah erkek kalkt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda haz\u0131r olmas\u0131 gerekenleri.<\/p>\n
Kad\u0131n biraz i\u015f g\u00f6r\u00fcr, biraz has\u0131r iskemlede oturur, erke\u011fe ne yapmas\u0131 gerekti\u011fini s\u00f6ylerdi. Erkek o saatte dinlenmi\u015f olurdu, d\u00f6rt d\u00f6ner, hatta her i\u015fi yapmak isterdi, ama hep biraz dalg\u0131n, akl\u0131 ba\u015fka yerde olurdu. Bu s\u0131ralarda, zaman zaman \u00e7at\u0131\u015fmalar\u0131na, a\u011f\u0131zlar\u0131ndan \u00e7irkin bir s\u00f6zc\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn \u00e7\u0131kmas\u0131na ramak kal\u0131rd\u0131, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc kad\u0131n erke\u011fin yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u015fe daha dikkat etmesini, daha \u00f6zen g\u00f6stermesini ya da kendisine daha ba\u011fl\u0131, daha yak\u0131n, daha destek olmas\u0131n\u0131 isterdi. Onun ise, kad\u0131n\u0131n d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f olmas\u0131n\u0131n ilk co\u015fkusu ge\u00e7tikten sonra akl\u0131 evin d\u0131\u015f\u0131na kayar, gidece\u011fi, acele etmesi gerekti\u011fi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncesine tak\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n
Masa haz\u0131rland\u0131ktan, her \u015fey, bir daha kalk\u0131lmayacak bi\u00e7imde yerine koyulduktan sonra, ikisini de, bu kadar az bir arada olabilmenin y\u0131k\u0131m\u0131 kaplar, el ele tutu\u015fmak iste\u011fi, ka\u015f\u0131klar\u0131 a\u011f\u0131zlar\u0131na g\u00f6t\u00fcrmelerini neredeyse engellerdi.<\/p>\n
Ama daha kahvenin hepsi bitmeden erkek, her \u015feyin yerli yerinde olup olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131na bakmak i\u00e7in bisikletin arkas\u0131nda olurdu. Kucakla\u015f\u0131rlard\u0131. Arturo ancak o zaman anlard\u0131 sanki, kar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n nas\u0131l yumu\u015fak, \u0131l\u0131k oldu\u011funu. Ama bisikletin borusunu omzuna y\u00fcklenip dikkatle merdivenlerden inmeye ba\u015flard\u0131.<\/p>\n
Elide bula\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 y\u0131kar, evi tepeden t\u0131rna\u011fa g\u00f6zden ge\u00e7irip kocas\u0131n\u0131n yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u015flere ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sallayarak bakard\u0131. \u015eimdi o, az say\u0131da lamban\u0131n bulundu\u011fu karanl\u0131k sokaklarda yol al\u0131yordu, belki de havagaz\u0131 deposunu ge\u00e7mi\u015fti bile. Elide yata\u011fa gider, \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 s\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u00fcrd\u00fc. Kendi taraf\u0131na uzan\u0131rd\u0131, bir aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131 kocas\u0131n\u0131n yerine do\u011fru uzat\u0131rd\u0131 onun s\u0131cakl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 duymak i\u00e7in, ama her seferinde kendisinin yatmakta oldu\u011fu yerin daha s\u0131cak oldu\u011funu fark ederdi, Arturo nun da burada yatm\u0131\u015f oldu\u011funu anlard\u0131 ve b\u00fcy\u00fck bir sevecenlik kaplard\u0131 i\u00e7ini.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Arturo Massolari i\u015f\u00e7iydi, sabah alt\u0131da sona eren gece vardiyas\u0131nda \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu. Eve d\u00f6nmek i\u00e7in g\u00fczel havalarda bisikletle, ya\u011f\u0131\u015fl\u0131 aylarda ve k\u0131\u015f\u0131n da tramvayla uzun bir yol giderdi. Eve alt\u0131 k\u0131rk be\u015fle yedi aras\u0131nda, yani kar\u0131s\u0131 Elide nin \u00e7alar saatinin \u00e7almas\u0131ndan bazen az \u00f6nce, bazen de az sonra var\u0131rd\u0131. \u0130ki g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fc: \u00e7alar saatin sesiyle, kap\u0131dan giren ayaklar\u0131n […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[115],"tags":[],"class_list":{"0":"post-4815","1":"post","2":"type-post","3":"status-publish","4":"format-standard","6":"category-ceviri-oykuler"},"yoast_head":"\n