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Daha ku\u015flar bile cennetten d\u00f6nmemi\u015fken ne diye uyanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ki Bahar?<\/p>\nDaha ku\u015flar bile cennetten d\u00f6nmemi\u015fken ne diye uyanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ki Bahar?<\/p>\n
Ne yani; marifet mi san\u0131yordu bu yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131. Ama Bahar\u2019a ve onun astral uykusuna kafa tutmak bana d\u00fc\u015fmez. Hi\u00e7 d\u00fc\u015fmedi.
Y\u0131llard\u0131r ayn\u0131 yerde uyur o. Be\u015f sokak a\u015fa\u011f\u0131daki bak\u0131ms\u0131z mezarl\u0131\u011f\u0131n hemen yan\u0131ndaki \u201cSisli Orman\u201dda.
Orman, herkesin sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n aksine, b\u00fcy\u00fcl\u00fc filan de\u011fildir. Zaten bu anlat\u0131lanlar da masal de\u011fil. Orman i\u015fte, her k\u00f6ydekinin ayn\u0131s\u0131ndan. Eksi\u011fi var, fazlas\u0131 yok.
Bir milyon y\u0131l \u00f6nce, dedem kazm\u0131\u015f kendi elleriyle, Bahar\u2019\u0131n uyuyaca\u011f\u0131 yeri. O zamanlar, \u015fu kar\u015f\u0131daki Sisli Da\u011f\u2019\u0131n ete\u011fi bile ormanla kapl\u0131ym\u0131\u015f. Sonra de\u011fi\u015fmi\u015f her \u015fey; \u201dda\u011f\u201dda, \u201corman\u201dda Bahar\u2019\u0131n k\u00f6lesi olmu\u015f, etrafsa sisten g\u00f6r\u00fcnmez olmu\u015f.
Her y\u0131l bu saatlerde ku\u015flar cennetten kovulur, Sisli Orman\u2019a gelirler. Her zamanki dallar\u0131na konar, k\u00f6y\u00fcn sessizli\u011fine, tozuna \u00e7amuruna kar\u0131\u015f\u0131rlar. Ve ge\u00e7en bahar kald\u0131klar\u0131 yerden konu\u015fmalar\u0131na devam ederler;\u00a0 cennette konu\u015fmak yasakm\u0131\u015f gibi sanki. C\u0131v\u0131lt\u0131lar\u0131 gittik\u00e7e \u00f6yle baya\u011f\u0131la\u015f\u0131r, \u00f6yle can s\u0131kar ki; Bahar\u2019dan korkmasam, \u015fimdiye kadar \u00e7oktan \u201cyeter be!\u201d deyip, onlar\u0131n o g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fcc\u00fc gagalar\u0131n\u0131 topra\u011fa g\u00f6mm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm bile.
Bahar \u015fimdiye kadar hi\u00e7 k\u0131zd\u0131r\u0131lmad\u0131. Bir dedikleri iki yap\u0131lmaz zaten o \u015f\u0131mar\u0131k cennet misafirlerinin. Y\u00fczy\u0131llard\u0131r ben ve k\u00f6yl\u00fcler, o g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fcc\u00fc ku\u015flar\u0131n, her y\u0131l tiz sesleriyle, Bahar\u2019\u0131 uykusundan uyand\u0131rmak i\u00e7in cennetten g\u00f6nderildi\u011fine inand\u0131k. Ama \u00f6yle de\u011fil belki de\u2026 Ger\u00e7i bana d\u00fc\u015fmez bu ilahi misafirlerin y\u00fcce g\u00f6revlerinden \u015f\u00fcpheye d\u00fc\u015fmek. Hi\u00e7 d\u00fc\u015fmedi.
Ama yine de inanas\u0131m gelmiyor art\u0131k \u201cbu ku\u015f kafalar\u0131n\u201d bile bu d\u00fcnyada bir g\u00f6revi oldu\u011funa.
\u00d6nce Bahar, sonra ku\u015flar\u2026
Bakal\u0131m ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131za daha neler gelecek?
Hep dedemin y\u00fcz\u00fcnden. Ne vard\u0131 sanki y\u0131llar \u00f6nce\u2026
Bu y\u0131l Bahar erken uyand\u0131, ku\u015flar da gecikti.
Cennette bilmedi\u011fimiz terslikler oluyor herhalde. Ama sevinmiyorum. Onlar ne yapar, ne eder, benim can\u0131m\u0131 s\u0131kman\u0131n bir yolunu bulurlar. Kendileri gelmeseler, v\u0131z\u0131lt\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6ndeririler.
\u00c7ok uzak de\u011filmi\u015f, ama daha giden olmad\u0131 oraya bizim buralardan. Ne bilelim; soraca\u011f\u0131m\u0131z, dan\u0131\u015faca\u011f\u0131m\u0131z kimse de yok ki. Akl\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131nda tek el\u00e7i Bahar\u2019d\u0131; oradan buraya kovulan. Ama onun da a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 b\u0131\u00e7ak a\u00e7m\u0131yor onbe\u015fbin y\u0131ld\u0131r.
Belli ki o \u201cmusibetlerle\u201d dolu oras\u0131.\u201dBen ku\u015fsuz kabini rica edeyim.\u201ddiyemezsin \u00f6yle kimseye. Pazarl\u0131\u011f\u0131 yok bu i\u015fin \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc.
Benim bu \u201cAllah\u2019\u0131n Cezas\u0131 K\u00f6y\u201dde s\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm\u00fcn \u00f6yk\u00fcs\u00fc dedemden daha eskidir.
Oysa\u201dGel\u201ddedi giderken, \u201cyok\u201d dedim.
Var\u0131lacak menzil yak\u0131n de\u011filse, \u015furada durup soluklanay\u0131m dedim,\u201dyok\u201d dediler. Onlar gittiler. Y\u00fczy\u0131llar ge\u00e7ti \u00fczerinden. Onlar gittiler beni beklemeden.
Ben hala soluklan\u0131yorum; burada, Sisli K\u00f6y\u2019de. Asl\u0131nda soluk bahane ama dinleyen yok ki\u2026 K\u00f6lesi olmu\u015flar bir kere Bahar\u2019\u0131n. Anlat anlatabilirsen.
Soramad\u0131m hi\u00e7 kimseye\u2026
Yar\u0131na daha ka\u00e7 g\u00fcn vard\u0131 ya da bir kaplumba\u011fa nas\u0131l \u00f6l\u00fcrd\u00fc, \u015fu Sisli batakl\u0131\u011f\u0131n ard\u0131ndaki mor tepelerde?
Soramad\u0131m hi\u00e7 kimseye, ne zaman ya\u011fmur ya\u011fsa akl\u0131ma tak\u0131lan onlarca sorunun hi\u00e7birini.
Maviliklerde dola\u015fan yaln\u0131z insanlar\u0131n ayak seslerini i\u015fiten yaln\u0131z Tanr\u0131 m\u0131yd\u0131, yoksa Tanr\u0131 da m\u0131 yaln\u0131zd\u0131?
Cevab\u0131 \u0130sa\u2019dan bu yana kay\u0131p olan milyarlarca soruyu sorabilece\u011fim hi\u00e7 kimseyi g\u00f6rmedim ben bu Sisli K\u00f6y\u2019de do\u011fdu\u011fumdan beri.
Agnostik y\u00fcreklerimizi \u0131s\u0131tan Tanr\u0131lar da bir g\u00fcn \u00f6l\u00fcr m\u00fcyd\u00fc kaplumba\u011falar gibi ve Bahar\u2019\u0131n bile Baharl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan s\u0131k\u0131laca\u011f\u0131 g\u00fcnler art\u0131k \u00e7ok mu gerilerde kald\u0131?
Yoksa g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc…
Herkese sordum. Sonra \u201cHerkes\u201d, \u201cHi\u00e7 kimse\u201d oldu, kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ya\u011fmura, kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131 sise. Kayboldu ku\u015f c\u0131v\u0131lt\u0131lar\u0131 aras\u0131nda.
D\u00fc\u015fmedim pe\u015flerine. Yorgundum. Daha soluk bile alamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Belki d\u00fc\u015fsem soracakt\u0131m. D\u00fc\u015fmedim. Pe\u015flerine d\u00fc\u015fmek bana d\u00fc\u015fmezdi hem\u2026 Hi\u00e7 d\u00fc\u015fmedi.
Y\u00fczy\u0131l \u00f6nce akl\u0131m\u0131 \u00f6ld\u00fcrd\u00fcm. Ya\u015f\u0131m bir \u0131\u015f\u0131k y\u0131l\u0131 kadar oldu daha \u015fimdiden. Y\u00fcre\u011fim, her y\u0131l cennetten kovulan o lanet olas\u0131 ku\u015flardan bile daha su\u00e7lu sanki\u2026
G\u00f6zlerimin ya\u011fmur gibi koktu\u011funu, g\u00f6zlerimin toprak rengi oldu\u011funu s\u00f6ylerdi 1800\u2019l\u00fc y\u0131llarda susan annem. Oysa kimsenin g\u00f6zleri kokmaz burada. Kimsenin g\u00f6zlerinin rengi toprak olmaz buralarda. Sis alm\u0131\u015f y\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcr mor tepeye kadar. G\u00f6z g\u00f6z\u00fc g\u00f6rmez, s\u00f6z s\u00f6z\u00fc duymaz olmu\u015ftur. Ben bilirdim g\u00f6zlerimin toprak, g\u00f6zlerimin ya\u011fmur olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131. Bilirdim de, hi\u00e7 vurmazd\u0131m bu ger\u00e7e\u011fi, 1800\u2019l\u00fc y\u0131llarda uykuya dalan annemin y\u00fcz\u00fcne.
Sustu annem, sustu s\u00f6zleri. Ses uykuya dald\u0131,\u00a0 s\u00f6z su oldu akt\u0131 g\u00f6zlerimden, kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131 topra\u011fa.
Ben kazd\u0131m annemin uyuyaca\u011f\u0131 yeri \u00f6zenle. Bizim burada;\u00a0 be\u015f sokak a\u015fa\u011f\u0131daki bak\u0131ms\u0131z mezarl\u0131kta uyur herkes. Bahar\u0131n yan\u0131na yat\u0131rd\u0131m onu. Sand\u0131m ku\u015f c\u0131v\u0131lt\u0131lar\u0131 onu da uyand\u0131racak, Bahar\u2019la birlikte ovalayacaklar g\u00f6zlerini sisli k\u00f6y\u00fcn humuslu yata\u011f\u0131nda.
Bilmem, ka\u00e7 y\u0131l oldu, annem uyanmad\u0131. Oysa cennet ku\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n o tiz \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131klar\u0131, bir \u00f6l\u00fcy\u00fc bile mezar\u0131ndan kald\u0131racak \u00e7irkinliktedir. Uykusu a\u011f\u0131r olmal\u0131. Zaten buralarda her uykucunun uykusu a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131r.
Annem sustu\u011fu zaman, ben k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir \u00e7ocuktum. Oysa miyarlarca kez uykusundan uyand\u0131 Bahar\u2026 Annem sustu\u011fundan beri yaln\u0131z\u0131m ve hala \u00e7ok \u00fc\u015f\u00fcyorum.
Ya\u015f\u0131 bir \u0131\u015f\u0131k y\u0131l\u0131 olan bir \u00e7ocuk\u2026
Oysa sadece baharlar\u0131 ya\u015far\u0131m ben, her bahar \u00f6lmek isterken.
Milyarlarca y\u0131l \u00f6nce akl\u0131m\u0131 susturdum, sonra\u2026
Akl\u0131m\u0131 susturdu\u011fumdan beri yaln\u0131z\u0131m.
Burada, Sisli K\u00f6yde, beni ancak k\u00fcf kokan, karanl\u0131k sesli ya\u015fl\u0131lar tan\u0131rlar. Ben do\u011fmadan \u00f6nce do\u011fanlar bile var aralar\u0131nda. Oysa onlar \u00e7ok ya\u015fl\u0131, bense hala gen\u00e7. Onlar k\u00fcf kokar, bense ya\u011fmur ve toprak. En \u00e7ok da annem kokar\u0131m. Annemse, sestir, sessizlik kokar.
Hayret! Allah\u2019\u0131n y\u0131llar \u00f6nce kahredip, sonra da \u00e7ekip gitti\u011fi bu k\u00f6yde en \u00f6nce do\u011fan ki\u015finin ben oldu\u011funu san\u0131rd\u0131m hep… Annemden bile \u00f6nce\u2026 Herkesten\u2026
Ne kadar yaz\u0131k; bu Sisli K\u00f6yde, insan inand\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 bile bilmiyor. \u0130nan\u0131lanlar yalan oluyor bir g\u00fcn, uyumas\u0131 i\u00e7in can\u0131 ac\u0131t\u0131lmadan yat\u0131r\u0131l\u0131yor boylu boyunca bak\u0131ms\u0131z mezarl\u0131\u011fa. T\u00fcm san\u0131lanlar yalan olunca, t\u00fcm yalanlar sus oluyor birdenbire. Ses susturuluyor, ak\u0131l sesin yan\u0131na g\u00f6m\u00fcl\u00fcyor ve bir g\u00fcn Sisli K\u00f6y\u2019\u00fc Bahar ve Adamlar\u0131 i\u015fgal ediyor. Ya\u011fmura gerek kalm\u0131yor, Bahar suyun yerine ya\u011f\u0131yor, d\u00fc\u015fe gerek kalm\u0131yor, o bizim yerimize d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyor, d\u00fc\u015fl\u00fcyor\u2026 Ak\u0131l g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcne y\u00fckseliyor, bahar\u0131n i\u00e7ine \u00e7ekti\u011fi nefes oluyor, kar\u0131\u015f\u0131yor buluta. Su oluyor, \u0131slat\u0131yor \u00e7\u0131plak bedenlerimizi ku\u015fluk vakti ya da tan yeri a\u011far\u0131rken. Bahar bizi en yaln\u0131z yerimizden vuruyor her defas\u0131nda. \u00dc\u015f\u00fcyoruz ya, \u00fc\u015f\u00fcmek bahane\u2026
Bilmem ka\u00e7 y\u0131l oldu, unuttum ad\u0131m\u0131. Bir tek annem s\u00f6ylerdi ismimi. Annem ve ismim sustular\u2026 Sonra bir daha kimse hat\u0131rlamad\u0131 ne g\u00f6zlerimin ya\u011fmur kokusunu, ne de ismimin sesini.
Yolun sonu \u00e7\u0131kmaz olan sokaklardaki k\u00fcf kokan ihtiyarlar bile benim ben oldu\u011fumu bilmezler.
G\u00fcne\u015fin Tanr\u0131\u2019ya kar\u015f\u0131 geldi\u011fi o eski g\u00fcnlerden bu yana hi\u00e7 g\u00f6rmediler y\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc. Merhabalara k\u00fcs oldu dilim, nas\u0131ls\u0131nlar sa\u011f\u0131r etti kulaklar\u0131m\u0131. Deli bellediler beni, varmad\u0131m \u00fcstlerine\u2026 Belki konu\u015furuz dedim, Dolunay\u2019\u0131n katilleri yery\u00fcz\u00fcne indi\u011fi g\u00fcn. O zaman anlatabilirim belki. Oysa anlatacak bir \u015feyim kalmad\u0131 benim Dolunay \u00f6ld\u00fcrd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnden beri. Ne kadar yaz\u0131k, insan ac\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 bile anlatam\u0131yor, bu Allah\u2019\u0131n cezas\u0131 Sisli K\u00f6y\u2019de.
Bekleyin\u2026 Beklemek su\u00e7 de\u011filse e\u011fer\u2026
Bekleyin, sab\u0131r uykuya dalana dek.
Ben sa\u011f\u0131r oldu\u011fumdan beri, o k\u00fcf kokulu Tanr\u0131 yalakalar\u0131 benden konu\u015fur olmu\u015flar ku\u015fluk vakti, tan yeri a\u011far\u0131rken. Ben onlara g\u00f6re pis bir \u015feytan sava\u015f\u00e7\u0131s\u0131ym\u0131\u015f\u0131m. Geceleri k\u00f6t\u00fcl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn dilinden konu\u015fur, Dolunay\u2019\u0131n katilleriyle dost olurmu\u015fum.
Mutsuz olandan korkaklar, onlar \u00e7\u0131ld\u0131ras\u0131ya ka\u00e7arlar deli gibi, annesi uykuya dalanlardan\u2026 Bir zamanlar, sisli k\u00f6y\u00fcn efendisiymi\u015f karanl\u0131klar prensi \u015feytan\u2026 Bense onun sa\u011f\u0131r ve dilsiz o\u011fluymu\u015fum\u2026 \u00c7ok mutsuzmu\u015fum o y\u00fczden d\u00fc\u015fmanm\u0131\u015f\u0131m bahara ve onun astral uykusuna. Cennet ku\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n kanlar\u0131yla sularm\u0131\u015f\u0131m her g\u00fcn annemin yata\u011f\u0131n\u0131n hemen yan\u0131nda y\u00fckselen bin y\u0131ll\u0131k taze akasya tomurcuklar\u0131n\u0131…
H\u00e2lbuki kar\u015f\u0131daki mor tepelerde ya\u015fayan, daha ge\u00e7en g\u00fcn do\u011fan gen\u00e7 bahar k\u00f6lelerinin hi\u00e7 bir \u015feyden haberi yoktur. Annemi ve dedemi tan\u0131mazlar o saf cennet yalakalar\u0131. Sisli K\u00f6y\u2019de ilk d\u00fcnyaya gelen \u00e7ocuk olan beni bile tan\u0131mazlar.
O y\u0131l May\u0131s ay\u0131 8 g\u00fcn s\u00fcrd\u00fc ve bir y\u00fczy\u0131l daha ya\u015fland\u0131 yolun sonu \u00e7\u0131kmaz olan k\u00fcf kokulu mahallelerdeki t\u00fcm ya\u015fl\u0131lar\u2026 Bahar\u0131n bile baharl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan usand\u0131\u011f\u0131, Tanr\u0131\u2019n\u0131n bile Tanr\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan utand\u0131\u011f\u0131, \u00f6ld\u00fcresiye s\u0131cak g\u00fcnlerdi. Mor tepelerde ya\u015fayan saf k\u00f6yl\u00fclerin \u00e7ocuklar\u0131 \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcl\u00fcyordu o g\u00fcnlerde\u2026 Yava\u015f yava\u015f\u2026
Sisli k\u00f6y\u00fcn tepelerinden, taze kan kokusu y\u00fckseliyordu cennete do\u011fru.
Dolunay\u2019\u0131n \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnden bu yana, biz Sisli K\u00f6y sakinlerinden hi\u00e7 kimsenin ci\u011ferlerinde dola\u015fmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn kan kokulu nefesi. \u00d6l\u00fcm, buralara u\u011framayan, ba\u015f\u0131bo\u015f ve zalim bir Tanr\u0131yd\u0131 oysaki.
Y\u0131llar sonra bir gece, a\u011fz\u0131mda, \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fclen k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n kanlar\u0131n\u0131n k\u00f6t\u00fc kokusuyla uyand\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131m.
Bu tuzlu ve s\u0131cak katil, a\u011fz\u0131mdan bo\u015fan\u0131p, i\u00e7 organlar\u0131m\u0131 par\u00e7alad\u0131, yay\u0131ld\u0131 t\u00fcm damarlar\u0131ma. Kan kokusu sa\u011f\u0131r etti kulaklar\u0131m\u0131, a\u011fz\u0131mda taze ve tuzlu kan tad\u0131, kulaklar\u0131mda \u00f6l\u00fcm sessizli\u011fi\u2026 Ne kadar zaman \u00f6ylece donakald\u0131m bilmiyorum\u2026
O gece yalan akt\u0131 g\u00f6zlerimden. Yaland\u0131 \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc t\u00fcm ba\u015f\u0131ma gelenler. Anneme gidip s\u00f6yledim hemen, yalan diye a\u011flad\u0131m. Yalan diye yalvard\u0131m. Yalan g\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131 oldu, akt\u0131 g\u00f6zlerimden \u0131slatt\u0131, annemin ba\u015fucunda cennete do\u011fru y\u00fckselen taze akasya tomurcuklar\u0131n\u0131. Oysa o budala bahar bozuntusu bile inanmazd\u0131 de\u011fil mi bu k\u00fcf kokulu masallara? Peki, seni nas\u0131l kand\u0131rd\u0131lar? Ben ben olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m zaman sevmekten vaz m\u0131 ge\u00e7ecektin yoksa beni? Sen; ismimi s\u00f6yleyen tek ki\u015fi. Sen ku\u015flardan neden nefret etti\u011fimi bilen tek ki\u015fi\u2026 Sen de mi yoksa cennet merakl\u0131s\u0131\u2026\u00a0 Sen de mi Tanr\u0131 yalakas\u0131\u2026
O y\u0131l \u00e7ok \u00fc\u015f\u00fcd\u00fcm\u2026 Geceleri Dolunay\u2019\u0131n cans\u0131z bedenini kollar\u0131m\u0131n aras\u0131na al\u0131p, a\u011flad\u0131m. A\u011flay\u0131\u015f\u0131m g\u00f6k g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fcs\u00fc oldu. Ya\u011fmur bardaktan bo\u015fand\u0131, akt\u0131 bahar\u0131n g\u00fcne\u015f kokulu y\u00fcz\u00fcne. \u015e\u0131mar\u0131k cennet ku\u015flar\u0131 bile \u00f6tmekten vazge\u00e7tiler bir s\u00fcreli\u011fine. Bahar y\u00fczy\u0131ll\u0131k uykusundan zamans\u0131z uyand\u0131r\u0131lman\u0131n verdi\u011fi k\u0131zg\u0131nl\u0131kla, aralad\u0131 \u00e7i\u00e7ek ve b\u00f6cek desenli yorgan\u0131n\u0131, bakt\u0131 y\u00fcz\u00fcme.
Y\u00fcz\u00fcnde bin y\u0131ll\u0131k bir keder gizliydi ve k\u00fcf kokuyordu g\u00f6zleri\u2026
Tanr\u0131\u2019dan sonra Bahar\u2019\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6ren ilk ki\u015fi bendim. Dedem bile\u2026 Dedem bile bilmezken Bahar\u2019\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc\u2026
Soluklar\u0131m s\u0131kla\u015ft\u0131, h\u0131zl\u0131 h\u0131zl\u0131 solumaya ba\u015flad\u0131m\u2026 K\u00fcf kokuyordu sisli k\u00f6y\u00fcn efendisi cennetten kovulan d\u00fcnyan\u0131n tek tan\u0131\u011f\u0131 Bahar ve su\u00e7lu g\u00f6zleri. Ba\u015fka hi\u00e7bir \u015fey gelmedi akl\u0131ma. Bahar\u0131n k\u00fcf kokusu sard\u0131, sarmalad\u0131 t\u00fcm bedenimi\u2026 Bahar bile k\u00fcf kokuyordu\u2026
Sisli k\u00f6yden cennete do\u011fru y\u00fckselen kan, k\u00fcf ve \u00f6l\u00fcm kokusunu \u00e7ektim son bir kez par\u00e7alanm\u0131\u015f ci\u011ferlerime\u2026
Ve bir daha geri vermedim ci\u011ferlerime dolan cennetin ger\u00e7ek kokusunu. \u00d6lmek istedim, do\u011fdu\u011fumdan beri ilk kez, bu kadar ger\u00e7ek bu kadar yalans\u0131zca.
Burada, Sisli K\u00f6yde insan kendi iste\u011fi ile bile \u00f6lemiyor, ne kadar yaz\u0131k\u2026
Ne kadar yaz\u0131k, Allah\u2019\u0131n kahretti\u011fi baz\u0131 Sisli K\u00f6ylerde insan\u201d Kendi gibi\u201d bile olam\u0131yor.<\/p>\n
Bahar ve Adamlar\u0131 – Seda Yat\u00e7\u0131<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Daha ku\u015flar bile cennetten d\u00f6nmemi\u015fken ne diye uyanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ki Bahar? Ne yani; marifet mi san\u0131yordu bu yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131. Ama Bahar\u2019a ve onun astral uykusuna kafa tutmak bana d\u00fc\u015fmez. Hi\u00e7 d\u00fc\u015fmedi.Y\u0131llard\u0131r ayn\u0131 yerde uyur o. Be\u015f sokak a\u015fa\u011f\u0131daki bak\u0131ms\u0131z mezarl\u0131\u011f\u0131n hemen yan\u0131ndaki \u201cSisli Orman\u201dda.Orman, herkesin sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n aksine, b\u00fcy\u00fcl\u00fc filan de\u011fildir. Zaten bu anlat\u0131lanlar da masal de\u011fil. Orman […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[114],"tags":[],"class_list":{"0":"post-4832","1":"post","2":"type-post","3":"status-publish","4":"format-standard","6":"category-turkiye-den-oykuler"},"yoast_head":"\n