an\u0131ms\u0131yor musun?
bir \u00e7etemiz vard\u0131: Vah\u015fi Siyah Atlar
\u0131smarlama serserilikler ya\u015fard\u0131k
kimseden bir \u015fey demeden ka\u00e7\u0131p gitmeler gibi
sokaklarda sabahlamak, parklarda yatmak
yabanc\u0131lar\u0131 mahalleye sokmamak gibi
Ve bir g\u00fcn gidece\u011fimiz bir Amerika vard\u0131
herkesin bir Amerika’s\u0131 vard\u0131 o zamanlar
herkes gece istasyonlar\u0131nda
kendi Amerika’s\u0131n\u0131 arad\u0131<\/p>\n
k\u0131s\u0131k \u0131\u015f\u0131kl\u0131 arkada\u015f odalar\u0131
pla\u011f\u0131n bir y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc kaplayan uzun par\u00e7alar e\u015fli\u011finde
kendi r\u00fcyalar\u0131m\u0131za dalar, da\u011f\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131k
okyanuslar, gemi yolculuklar\u0131, kanayan \u0131sl\u0131klar
ve d\u00fcnyan\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn limanlar\u0131
\u00f6n\u00fcm\u00fczdeki sessizce uzard\u0131<\/p>\n
B\u0130TERD\u0130 PLAK, D\u0130SK BO\u015eA D\u00d6NERD\u0130.
D\u00dc\u015eLER\u0130M\u0130Z \u00c7ARPIP GER\u0130 D\u00d6NEN SULARDI \u015e\u0130MD\u0130
B\u00d6YLE ZAMANLARDA \u0130LK S\u00d6Z\u00dc S\u00d6YLEMEKTEN
KA\u00c7INIRDI HERKES
SONRA B\u0130R USULCA KALKAR, HERKESE \u00c7AY KOYARDI
ANIMSIYOR MUSUN?<\/p>\n
vah\u015fi siyah atlard\u0131k
kentin \u0131\u015f\u0131kl\u0131 \u00e7\u00f6llerinde kendi izini arayan
deri ceketlerimize s\u0131\u011fd\u0131ramad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z d\u00fc\u015flerimiz kadar
as\u0131k ve d\u00fc\u015fmand\u0131k
d\u00fcnya ac\u0131t\u0131rd\u0131 bizi. her \u015fey kanat\u0131r, her \u015fey yaralard\u0131
sevi\u015fmek \u00e7ekip \u00e7\u0131karmazd\u0131 bizi derinli\u011fimizden
\u00f6fkemizi dindirmezdi hi\u00e7bir \u015fey
geceleri uyuyamayan \u00e7ocuklard\u0131k,
otob\u00fcs garlar\u0131nda uzun maceralara umar
apans\u0131z yolculuklara \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131k<\/p>\n
uykulu kentlere girerdik gece yar\u0131lar\u0131
\u0131ss\u0131z a\u011fa\u00e7lar olurdu yol kenarlar\u0131nda
g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcnde parlak y\u0131ld\u0131zlar, her yere ayn\u0131 uzakl\u0131kta
sarho\u015f bindi\u011fimiz otob\u00fcs\u00fcn penceresinden
sanki bamba\u015fka bir d\u00fcnyaya bakard\u0131k
sonra saklayarak y\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc birbirimizden
yumruklar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 s\u0131kar sessizce a\u011flard\u0131k
\u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131k kalm\u0131\u015f pencerelere, kepen\u011fi \u00f6rt\u00fcl\u00fc d\u00fckkanlara,
yaz bah\u00e7elerinden ta\u015fan \u00e7i\u00e7eklere,
ad\u0131n\u0131 bile bilmedi\u011fimiz bu kente
neye oldu\u011funu bile bilmedi\u011fimiz bir hasretle
uzun uzun bakard\u0131k
an\u0131ms\u0131yor musun?<\/p>\n
ahh o gece yolculuklar\u0131
bir ba\u015fka kentte, bir ba\u015fka insan olman\u0131n umutlar\u0131
ka\u00e7 yol arkada\u015f\u0131 kald\u0131 \u015fimdi geriye
gen\u00e7li\u011fin ilk ac\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 birlikte ke\u015ffetti\u011fimiz
ka\u00e7 yol arkada\u015f\u0131?
s\u00fcr\u00fcyerek g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fcz darg\u0131n beraberlikleri saymazsak
ne kal\u0131yor elimizde?
\u00f6lenler,
terk edenler,
bir de telefonlar\u0131, adresleri, kendileri de\u011fi\u015fenler<\/p>\n
vah\u015fi, siyah atlard\u0131k; y\u0131lk\u0131ya b\u0131rak\u0131ld\u0131k
i\u00e7imizden kimse gidemedi Amerika’ya
kendi Amerika’s\u0131 da olmad\u0131 hi\u00e7birimizin
ya\u011fmur ald\u0131
r\u00fczgar ald\u0131
zaman ald\u0131
o vah\u015fi siyah atlar\u0131
her\u015fey o eski r\u00fcya da kald\u0131<\/p>\n
\u00e7arp\u0131p geri d\u00f6nen d\u00fc\u015flerimizin \u00fcst\u00fcnde
\u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f cesetleri y\u00fcz\u00fcyor \u015fimdi vah\u015fi siyah atlar\u0131n
\u00f6ld\u00fckleri sahilleri kendileri de bilmiyorlar
peki sen an\u0131ms\u0131yor musun? <\/p>\n
Murathan MUNGAN<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
an\u0131ms\u0131yor musun?bir \u00e7etemiz vard\u0131: Vah\u015fi Siyah Atlar\u0131smarlama serserilikler ya\u015fard\u0131kkimseden bir \u015fey demeden ka\u00e7\u0131p gitmeler gibisokaklarda sabahlamak, parklarda yatmakyabanc\u0131lar\u0131 mahalleye sokmamak gibiVe bir g\u00fcn gidece\u011fimiz bir Amerika vard\u0131herkesin bir Amerika’s\u0131 vard\u0131 o zamanlarherkes gece istasyonlar\u0131ndakendi Amerika’s\u0131n\u0131 arad\u0131 k\u0131s\u0131k \u0131\u015f\u0131kl\u0131 arkada\u015f odalar\u0131pla\u011f\u0131n bir y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc kaplayan uzun par\u00e7alar e\u015fli\u011findekendi r\u00fcyalar\u0131m\u0131za dalar, da\u011f\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131kokyanuslar, gemi yolculuklar\u0131, kanayan \u0131sl\u0131klarve d\u00fcnyan\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[154],"tags":[],"class_list":{"0":"post-4878","1":"post","2":"type-post","3":"status-publish","4":"format-standard","6":"category-murathan-mungan"},"yoast_head":"\n