zaman\u0131 y\u0131llarla tartanlar
yan\u0131l\u0131rlar
hi\u00e7bir \u015fey tart\u0131lmaz ba\u015fka bir \u015feyle
hatta \u00e7o\u011fu zaman kendiyle bile
ya\u015fan\u0131r, i\u00e7ini tohuma b\u0131rak\u0131r
ge\u00e7er gider
ge\u00e7mez sand\u0131klar\u0131n bile<\/p>\n
hi\u00e7bir ge\u00e7en tart\u0131lmaz kalanla
neyin kald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7o\u011fu kez kendi de bilmezken insan
kimse kimse kimse
sahi kimse
ya da hi\u00e7 kimse
s\u00f6ylediklerimden \u00e7ok
sustuklar\u0131m
se\u00e7tiklerimden \u00e7ok
reddedilmek i\u00e7in
ne kadar varsam
o kadar kimseyim kendime<\/p>\n
g\u00fc\u00e7 k\u00f6t\u00fc bir \u015fey
kaderken de
kald\u0131ramazken de
g\u00fc\u00e7 k\u00f6t\u00fc bir \u015fey
g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fcyken de
g\u00fc\u00e7s\u00fczken de
kald\u0131\u011f\u0131n yerden devam etmenin karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131
benzemiyor hi\u00e7bir \u00e7aresizli\u011fe
kimin kald\u0131\u011f\u0131 yer var ki d\u00fcnyada
kald\u0131m sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n yer
bizden ge\u00e7endir \u00e7o\u011funlukla
i\u00e7imizi par\u00e7alaya \u00e7o\u011falta
h\u00e2l\u00e2 gitti\u011fim sona aceleci ad\u0131mlarla
b\u00fct\u00fcn i\u015f birinin dedi\u011fi gibi,
yava\u015f\u00e7a acele etmek asl\u0131nda<\/p>\n
\u00f6lene kadar yava\u015fla i\u015fte
\u00f6lene kadar yava\u015fla
ne ba\u015fkala\u015ft\u0131r\u0131rsan o kadars\u0131n
ba\u015fkalar\u0131n\u0131n imtihanlar\u0131ndan b\u00fcy\u00fck gelecekler umma<\/p>\n
\u00e7aresizlik bile bizden bir ba\u015fkas\u0131 yapmaya yetmez
bize bi\u00e7ilmi\u015f d\u00f6ng\u00fcye katlan\u0131r\u0131z yaln\u0131zca
bir bak\u0131ma hi\u00e7bir yerdeyiz
bir bak\u0131ma yaln\u0131zca buraday\u0131z
var olu\u015fumuzun a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131 alt\u0131nda ezilirken yapayaln\u0131z
ait oldu\u011funu sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn gruplar\u0131n i\u00e7inde yapayaln\u0131z
reddin imk\u00e2nlar\u0131 say\u0131m kay\u0131plar\u0131 yoklama ka\u00e7aklar\u0131
sanma ki hayat bizi bekler ba\u015fka k\u0131y\u0131larda
oysa biz buraday\u0131z
halsiz, kan\u0131ts\u0131z
y\u0131llar\u0131n neyi tartt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bile bilmeden
kendi g\u00fcc\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fcn alt\u0131nda azala azala<\/p>\n
kollar\u0131m\u0131z kadar kula\u00e7 kalplerimiz kadar sahil
hi\u00e7bir adan\u0131n almad\u0131\u011f\u0131 yaln\u0131zlar\u0131z,
tamamlanmam\u0131\u015f haritas\u0131nda
define ve varl\u0131k
gelece\u011fin tarihe da\u011f\u0131tt\u0131\u011f\u0131 kay\u0131plar
bir g\u00fcn birbirini bulman\u0131n umuduyla<\/p>\n
g\u00f6lgemizle bar\u0131\u015fman\u0131n uzun yolculu\u011fu: b\u00fcy\u00fcmek
kendiyle tan\u0131\u015fmay\u0131 erteler insan \u00e7o\u011fu zaman
hayat yanl\u0131\u015flarla k\u0131sal\u0131r
ba\u015fka biri olarak girdi\u011fimiz bir kap\u0131dan
bir di\u011feri olarak \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131z
g\u00fcndeli\u011fe katlanmak i\u00e7in ba\u015fkalar\u0131n\u0131 kand\u0131r\u0131rken kendimizi yan\u0131lt\u0131r\u0131z
i\u00e7imizi denerken y\u00fczeriz farkl\u0131 y\u00fczlerle kendi i\u00e7imizde bile
bu y\u00fczden a\u015fk yaln\u0131zca bir fikirdir
bu sefer ger\u00e7ekle\u015ftirdi\u011fini sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n bir fikir
hep \u00f6yle oldu bende
hep sakl\u0131 kald\u0131 i\u00e7imdeki anahtar
ve hep ayn\u0131 kilitte k\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131<\/p>\n
fikirler de zamanla de\u011fi\u015fir
k\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131klar\u0131 yerde
k\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131klar\u0131 yer her \u015feyi de\u011fi\u015ftirir<\/p>\n
zamanla bir \u015fey s\u00f6ylemez art\u0131k k\u0131r\u0131lmak bile
sonra ba\u015fka bir ba\u015flang\u0131c\u0131n kap\u0131s\u0131nda
ayn\u0131 korkularla kalakal\u0131r\u0131z
daha \u00f6nce de s\u00f6ylemi\u015ftim:
kimse yoktur kimsenin kimsesizli\u011fine
her \u015fiirin gizi ba\u015fka bir \u015fiirle
a\u00e7\u0131klar kendini
demi\u015ftim ya, hep \u00f6yle oldu bende
b\u00f6yle katland\u0131m kimsesizli\u011fe
o birini ararken bile biliyordum
hi\u00e7 kimse hi\u00e7 kimse hi\u00e7 kimse <\/p>\n
Murathan MUNGAN<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
zaman\u0131 y\u0131llarla tartanlaryan\u0131l\u0131rlarhi\u00e7bir \u015fey tart\u0131lmaz ba\u015fka bir \u015feylehatta \u00e7o\u011fu zaman kendiyle bileya\u015fan\u0131r, i\u00e7ini tohuma b\u0131rak\u0131rge\u00e7er giderge\u00e7mez sand\u0131klar\u0131n bile hi\u00e7bir ge\u00e7en tart\u0131lmaz kalanlaneyin kald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7o\u011fu kez kendi de bilmezken insankimse kimse kimsesahi kimseya da hi\u00e7 kimses\u00f6ylediklerimden \u00e7oksustuklar\u0131mse\u00e7tiklerimden \u00e7okreddedilmek i\u00e7inne kadar varsamo kadar kimseyim kendime g\u00fc\u00e7 k\u00f6t\u00fc bir \u015feykaderken dekald\u0131ramazken deg\u00fc\u00e7 k\u00f6t\u00fc bir \u015feyg\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fcyken deg\u00fc\u00e7s\u00fczken dekald\u0131\u011f\u0131n yerden […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[154],"tags":[],"class_list":{"0":"post-4948","1":"post","2":"type-post","3":"status-publish","4":"format-standard","6":"category-murathan-mungan"},"yoast_head":"\n