Ayn\u0131 terasa a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131yordu yan yanayd\u0131 kap\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131z kald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z pansiyonda.Ak\u015fam \u00fczerleri ka\u015f\u0131la\u015f\u0131yorduk, ortak du\u015f, ortak mutfak, \u00e7ekingen bir selamla\u015fma.Ayn\u0131 terasta yan yana kuruyordu \u00e7ama\u015f\u0131rlar\u0131m\u0131z, bu \u00fcrpertiyordu beni; acemi, tutuk bir ka\u00e7 s\u00f6zl\u00fck e\u015fli\u011finde beyaz \u015farap i\u00e7erek ayn\u0131 terasta seyrediyorduk g\u00fcnbat\u0131m\u0131n\u0131, bu da \u00fcrpertiyordu beni.I\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n azalan \u015fiddetinde yan yanayd\u0131 terasa vuran g\u00f6lgelerimiz ve kar\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu birbirine.
Elimizde olmadan g\u00fcl\u00fcmsemi\u015ftik bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131m\u0131z \u00e7arp\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, sahildeydik ve ayn\u0131 kitab\u0131 okuyorduk ilk kar\u015f\u0131la\u015fmam\u0131zda.
Sezon a\u00e7\u0131lmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131, seyrekti sahiller, daha erken yaz g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u00fcyordu.
Pansiyon \u00f6n\u00fcndeki sandallar\u0131n k\u0131p\u0131rt\u0131s\u0131, \u00e7i\u00e7eklerin \u00e7ekingen dirimi, g\u00fcnbat\u0131m\u0131yla g\u00f6lgelenmi\u015f alanlar\u0131n rengi kalm\u0131\u015f akl\u0131mda.\u0130kimizde yaln\u0131zd\u0131k ve birbirimize ili\u015fmemeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorduk ad\u0131n\u0131 kimselerin bilmedi\u011fi o uzak sahil kasabas\u0131nda.
Oysa g\u00fcne\u015fin bat\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131 izlemek gibi kendili\u011finden bir birlikteli\u011fe d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc payla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z \u015feyler.
Birbirinden kama\u015fmaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 tenlerimiz dokunmasan da yan\u0131ndaki g\u00f6vdeyi duyman\u0131n \u015fiddetine d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc aram\u0131zdaki \u00e7ekim.
Tenin \u00e7a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131 haz\u0131rd\u0131 kendine kurulan b\u00fct\u00fcn tuzaklara.
O ak\u015fam terastayd\u0131k gene.G\u00fcn \u00e7oktan batm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u00c7ama\u015f\u0131rlar as\u0131l\u0131yd\u0131 uzaktan \u015fark\u0131lar geliyordu ve kekik kokular\u0131.Nedense her zamankinden ba\u015fka bak\u0131yordun bana.
Sonra uzulca dedin ki:
‘\u0130lk kez bir erke\u011fin tenine dokunma iste\u011fi duyuyorum i\u00e7imde.’
Benim i\u00e7in yaz ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.
‘Dokun \u00f6yleyse,’ dedim.
Sustun.Uzun uzun bakt\u0131k birbirimize.Kendine nas\u0131l kar\u015f\u0131 koydu\u011fun okunuyordu y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn derinliklerinde.Sonra hi\u00e7bir\u015fey s\u00f6ylemeden usulca kalkt\u0131n, odana gittin, yava\u015f\u00e7a \u00f6rtt\u00fcn kap\u0131n\u0131.Saatlerce orada, gecede ve o terasta kald\u0131m.
Sabah uyand\u0131\u011f\u0131mda odan\u0131n kap\u0131s\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131kt\u0131, e\u015fyalar\u0131n\u0131 toplay\u0131p gitmi\u015ftin bakt\u0131m.Yaln\u0131zca terasta unuttu\u011fun havlu \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131n\u0131yordu r\u00fczg\u00e2rda.
Bir daha hi\u00e7 rastlamad\u0131m sana, hirbir yerde hi\u00e7bir yazda.D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum aradan tam on \u00fc\u00e7 y\u0131l ge\u00e7mi\u015f.On \u00fc\u00e7 y\u0131l \u00f6nce i\u00e7inde uyanan iste\u011fin an\u0131s\u0131 sakl\u0131 duruyor mu sende?
Birden ad\u0131n\u0131 hat\u0131rlamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 farkettim bu \u015fiiri yazarken, ama terasta \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131nan havlunun rengi h\u00e2l\u00e2 g\u00f6zlerimin
\u00f6n\u00fcnde.
On \u00fc\u00e7 y\u0131l sonra \u015fimdi sevgilimden ayr\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131m bu derin, bu kavurucu g\u00fcnlerde neden ans\u0131z\u0131n akl\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc sordum kendi kendime.Sonra anlad\u0131m:
Bir a\u015fk bir\u00e7ok a\u015fktan yap\u0131l\u0131yor ve ayr\u0131l\u0131nm\u0131yor hi\u00e7bir seferinde. <\/p>\n
Murathan MUNGAN<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Ayn\u0131 terasa a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131yordu yan yanayd\u0131 kap\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131z kald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z pansiyonda.Ak\u015fam \u00fczerleri ka\u015f\u0131la\u015f\u0131yorduk, ortak du\u015f, ortak mutfak, \u00e7ekingen bir selamla\u015fma.Ayn\u0131 terasta yan yana kuruyordu \u00e7ama\u015f\u0131rlar\u0131m\u0131z, bu \u00fcrpertiyordu beni; acemi, tutuk bir ka\u00e7 s\u00f6zl\u00fck e\u015fli\u011finde beyaz \u015farap i\u00e7erek ayn\u0131 terasta seyrediyorduk g\u00fcnbat\u0131m\u0131n\u0131, bu da \u00fcrpertiyordu beni.I\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n azalan \u015fiddetinde yan yanayd\u0131 terasa vuran g\u00f6lgelerimiz ve kar\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu birbirine.Elimizde olmadan g\u00fcl\u00fcmsemi\u015ftik bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131m\u0131z […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[154],"tags":[],"class_list":{"0":"post-4999","1":"post","2":"type-post","3":"status-publish","4":"format-standard","6":"category-murathan-mungan"},"yoast_head":"\n