{"id":5008,"date":"2011-02-05T18:23:12","date_gmt":"2011-02-05T15:23:12","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/localhost\/wordpress\/2011\/02\/05\/yalniz-bir-opera\/"},"modified":"2011-02-05T18:23:12","modified_gmt":"2011-02-05T15:23:12","slug":"yalniz-bir-opera","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/narteks.net\/index.php\/2011\/02\/05\/yalniz-bir-opera\/","title":{"rendered":"YALNIZ B\u0130R OPERA"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>\u00d6l\u00fc bir y\u0131lan gibi yat\u0131yordu aram\u0131zda<br \/>Yorgun, kirli ve umutsuz ge\u00e7mi\u015fim<br \/>Oysa bilmedi\u011fin bir\u015fey vard\u0131 sevgilim<br \/>Ben sende b\u00fct\u00fcn a\u015fklar\u0131m\u0131 temize \u00e7ektim<\/p>\n<p>\u0130mrendi\u011fin, \u00f6fkelendi\u011fin<br \/>K\u0131zd\u0131\u011f\u0131n, ya da k\u0131skand\u0131\u011f\u0131n diyelim<br \/>Yani ya\u015fam\u0131\u015fl\u0131k sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n<br \/>Ge\u00e7mi\u015fim<br \/>Dile d\u00f6k\u00fclmeyenin tenhal\u0131\u011f\u0131nda<br \/>Ka\u00e7\u0131r\u0131lan bak\u0131\u015flarda<br \/>G\u00fcndeli\u011fin ba\u015f\u0131bo\u015f ayr\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131nda<br \/>Zaman zaman geri tepip duruyordu.<br \/>Ve elbet \u00fczerinde durulmuyordu.<br \/>Sense kendini hala hayat\u0131mdaki herhangi biri san\u0131yordun,<br \/>Biraz daha fazla sevdi\u011fim, biraz daha \u00f6nem verdi\u011fim.<br \/>Ba\u015flang\u0131\u00e7ta do\u011fruydu belki.<br \/>S\u0131radan bir ser\u00fcven, rastgele bir ili\u015fki gibi ba\u015flay\u0131p,<br \/>G\u00fcnden g\u00fcne hayat\u0131ma yay\u0131lan, varl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 ele ge\u00e7iren,<br \/>B\u00fcy\u00fcy\u00fcp k\u00f6k salan bir a\u015fka bedellendin.<br \/>Ve hala bilmiyordun sevgilim<br \/>Ben sende b\u00fct\u00fcn a\u015fklar\u0131m\u0131 temize \u00e7ektim<br \/>Anlad\u0131\u011f\u0131ndaysa yapacak tek \u015fey kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 sana<br \/>B\u00fct\u00fcn kazananlar gibi<br \/>Terk ettin.<\/p>\n<p>Yaz ba\u015f\u0131yd\u0131 gitti\u011finde, ard\u0131ndan,<br \/>Senin i\u00e7in \u00fc\u00e7 lirik parca yazmaya karar vermistim.<br \/>Kimsesiz bir yazd\u0131. Yoktun. Kimsesizdim.<br \/>\u00c7\u0131k\u0131lm\u0131\u015f bir yolun ilk dura\u011f\u0131nda bir mevsim bekledim durdum.<br \/>\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc ben a\u015fk\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn \u00e7a\u011flar\u0131ndan geliyordum.<br \/>San\u0131r\u0131m lirik s\u00f6zc\u00fc\u011f\u00fc en \u00e7ok y\u00fcz\u00fcne yak\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu<br \/>Y\u00fcz\u00fcndeki ku\u015fkun kedere, g\u00fcr kirpiklerinin alt\u0131ndan<br \/>K\u0131s\u0131k lambalar gibi \u0131\u015f\u0131yan g\u00f6zlerine<br \/>\u00c7er\u00e7evesine s\u0131\u011fmayan<br \/>Munis, sokulgan, h\u00fcz\u00fcnl\u00fc resimlerine<br \/>Lirik s\u00f6zc\u00fc\u011f\u00fc en \u00e7ok y\u00fcz\u00fcne yak\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n<p>Yaz ba\u015f\u0131yd\u0131 gitti\u011finde. Sersemletici bir r\u00fczgar gibi ge\u00e7mi\u015fti May\u0131s.<br \/>Seni bir \u015fiire d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fck\u00e7e<br \/>Kanat gibi, t\u00fcy gibi, dokunmak gibi<br \/>Ucucu ve yumu\u015fak \u015feyler geliyordu akl\u0131ma.<br \/>\u00d6nceki \u015fiirlerimde hi\u00e7 kullanmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m bu s\u00f6zc\u00fck<br \/>Usulca d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyordu bir ka\u011f\u0131t akl\u0131\u011f\u0131na,<br \/>Belkide ilk kez giriyordu yazd\u0131klar\u0131ma, hayat\u0131ma.<br \/>Yaz ba\u015f\u0131yd\u0131 gitti\u011finde. Bir a\u015fk\u0131n ilk g\u00fcnleriydi daha.<br \/>A\u015fk m\u0131yd\u0131, de\u011fil miydi? Bunu o g\u00fcnler kim bilebilirdi?<br \/>&#8216;Eyl\u00fcl&#8217;de ayn\u0131 yerde ve ayn\u0131 insan olmam\u0131 isteyen&#8217; notunu buldum kap\u0131mda.<br \/>Alt\u0131na saat: 16.00 diye yazm\u0131\u015ft\u0131n, ve 16.04&#8217;t\u00fc onu buldu\u011fumda.<br \/>Daha o g\u00fcn anlamal\u0131yd\u0131m bu ili\u015fkinin yazg\u0131s\u0131n\u0131<br \/>Takvim tutmazl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131<br \/>Aram\u0131zda bir d\u00fc\u015fman gibi duran zaman\u0131<br \/>Daha o g\u00fcn anlamal\u0131yd\u0131m<br \/>Benim sana erken<br \/>Senin bana ge\u00e7 kald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Gittin. Koca bir yaz girdi aram\u0131za. Yaz ve getirdikleri.<br \/>D\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde eksik, noksan bir \u015feyler ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<br \/>Sanki yaz, birbirimizi g\u00f6rmedi\u011fimiz o \u00fc\u00e7 ay,<br \/>Al\u0131p g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc bir \u015feyleri hayat\u0131m\u0131zdan, olmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131, eksik kalm\u0131st\u0131.<br \/>K\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f bir \u015feyi onar\u0131r gibi ba\u015flad\u0131k yar\u0131m kalm\u0131\u015f arkada\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131za.<br \/>Ad\u0131mlar\u0131m\u0131z tutuk, y\u00fcre\u011fimiz \u00e7ekingen, k\u00f6rler gibi tutunuyor, dilsizler gibi<br \/>bak\u0131\u015f\u0131yorduk.<br \/>Sanki ufac\u0131k bir \u015fey olsa birbirimizden ka\u00e7acakt\u0131k.<br \/>Fotoromans\u0131z, tr\u00fcks\u00fcz, hilesiz, kli\u015fesiz bir beraberlikti bizimki.<br \/>Zamanla g\u00f6zlerimiz a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131, dilimiz \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcld\u00fc g\u00fcvenle ilerledik birbirimize.<br \/>Gittin. \u015eimdi bir mevsim de\u011fil, koca bir hayat girdi aram\u0131za.<br \/>Biliyorum ne sen d\u00f6nebilirsin art\u0131k, ne de ben kap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7abilirim sana.<br \/>\u015eimdi biz neyiz biliyor musun?<br \/>Ak\u0131p giden zamana g\u00f6z k\u0131rpan yorgun y\u0131ld\u0131zlar gibiyiz.<br \/>Birbirine uzanamayan<br \/>Bo\u015flukta iki yaln\u0131z y\u0131ld\u0131z gibi<br \/>Ac\u0131 \u00e7ekiyor ve kendimize g\u00f6m\u00fcl\u00fcyoruz<br \/>Bir zaman sonra bat\u0131k bir a\u015fktan geriye kalan iki enkaz olaca\u011f\u0131z yaln\u0131zca<br \/>Kendi denizlerimizde sessiz sedas\u0131z bo\u011fulaca\u011f\u0131z<br \/>Ne kalacak bizden?<br \/>Bir mektup, bir kart, birka\u00e7 sat\u0131r ve benim \u015fu k\u0131r\u0131k d\u00f6k\u00fck \u015fiirim<br \/>Sessizce alacak yerini nesnelerin d\u00fcnyas\u0131nda<br \/>Ne kalacak geriye savrulmu\u015f g\u00fcnlerimizden<br \/>Bizden diyorum, ikimizden<br \/>Ne kalacak?<\/p>\n<p>\u015eimdi biz neyiz biliyor musun?<br \/>Y\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131lar aras\u0131nda yak\u0131nlar\u0131n\u0131 arayan \u00f6ks\u00fcz sava\u015f \u00e7ocuklar\u0131 gibiyiz.<br \/>Umut ve korkunun hi\u00e7bir anlam ta\u015f\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir d\u00fcnyada<br \/>Bir \u015fey buldu\u011funda neyi, ne yapaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilmeyen \u00e7ocuklar gibi<br \/>Ve elbet biz de bu a\u015fkta b\u00fcy\u00fcyecek<br \/>Her \u015feyi bir ba\u015fka a\u015fka erteleyece\u011fiz.<\/p>\n<p>K\u0131\u015f ba\u015fl\u0131yor sevgilim<br \/>Ho\u015fnutsuzlu\u011fumun k\u0131\u015f\u0131 ba\u015fl\u0131yor<br \/>Bir yaz daha ge\u00e7ti hi\u00e7bir \u015fey anlamadan<br \/>Oysa yapacak ne \u00e7ok \u015fey vard\u0131<br \/>Ve ne kadar az zaman<br \/>K\u0131\u015f ba\u015fl\u0131yor sevgilim<br \/>\u0130yi bak kendine<br \/>G\u00f6zlerindeki usul \u015fefkati<br \/>Teslim etme kimseye, hi\u00e7bir \u015feye<br \/>Upuzun bir k\u0131\u015f ba\u015fl\u0131yor sevgilim<br \/>Ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n k\u0131\u015f\u0131 ba\u015fl\u0131yor<br \/>Giriyoruz kara ve so\u011fuk bir mevsime.<\/p>\n<p>Kitaplara sar\u0131lmak, dostlarla konu\u015fmak,<br \/>Yaz\u0131ya oturup sonu gelmeyen c\u00fcmleler kurmak,<br \/>Camdan d\u0131\u015far\u0131 bak\u0131p puslu \u015fark\u0131lar m\u0131r\u0131ldanmak&#8230;.<br \/>B\u00f6yle zamanlarda her \u015fey birbirinin yerini al\u0131r<br \/>\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc her \u015fey bir o kadar anlams\u0131zd\u0131r<br \/>\u0130\u00e7imizdeki \u0131ss\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131 dolduramaz hi\u00e7bir oyun<br \/>Para etmez kendimizi avutmak i\u00e7in buldu\u011fumuz numaralar<br \/>Bir a\u015fk\u0131 ya\u015fatan ayr\u0131ntlar\u0131 nereye saklayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 bilemezsiniz<br \/>\u00c7\u0131plak bir yara gibi s\u0131zlar paylast\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z anlar,<br \/>E\u015fyalar g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcz\u00fcn \u00f6n\u00fcnde durur birlikte yaratt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z al\u0131\u015fkanl\u0131klar<br \/>Korkars\u0131n\u0131z s\u00f6zc\u00fcklerden, sessizlikten de; bakamazs\u0131n\u0131z aynalara,<br \/>\u00c7a\u011fr\u0131\u015f\u0131mlarla \u00f6de\u015femezsiniz.<\/p>\n<p>D\u0131\u015farda hayat d\u00fc\u015fmand\u0131r size<br \/>\u0130\u00e7eride odalara s\u0131\u011famazken siz, kendiniz<br \/>Bir ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n ilk g\u00fcnleridir daha<br \/>Her \u015fey as\u0131l\u0131 kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r bitkisel bir yaln\u0131zl\u0131kta<br \/>G\u00fcn boyu hi\u00e7bir \u015fey yapmadan oturup<br \/>Kulak verdi\u011finiz saat tiktaklar\u0131<br \/>Kaplar tekin olmayan g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc<br \/>Ge\u00e7ici bir dinginlik, d\u00fczmece bir erin\u00e7<br \/>Suyu bo\u015falm\u0131\u015f bir havuz, fi\u015ften \u00e7ekilmi\u015f bir alet kadar tehlikesiz<br \/>Bak\u0131n\u0131p dururken duvarlara<br \/>Bo\u015f bir \u00e7uval gibi, \u00e7almayan bir org gibi, plastik bir \u00e7icek,<br \/>Unutulmu\u015f bir oyuncak, eski bir \u00e7er\u00e7eve gibi, hani,<br \/>Unutsam e\u015fyan\u0131n g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc, nesnelerin d\u00fcnyas\u0131nda<br \/>Kendime bir yer bulsam, dedi\u011fimiz zamanlar gibi<br \/>Kendimizin i\u00e7inden yeni bir kendimiz \u00e7\u0131karmaya zorland\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z anlar gibi<br \/>Yeni bir iklime, yeni bir kente, bir tutkunluk haline, bir trafik kazas\u0131na,<br \/>Ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131za gelmi\u015f bir felakete, iskenceye \u00e7ekilmeye, ameliyata al\u0131nmaya<br \/>Kendimizi haz\u0131rlar gibi.<\/p>\n<p>Yani dayanmak ve katlanmak i\u00e7in silkelerken b\u00fct\u00fcn benli\u011fimizi<br \/>Ama \u00f6yle sessiz bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z duvarlar gibi olmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rken,<br \/>Ve kazanm\u0131\u015f g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrken derinli\u011fimizi<br \/>Ne zaman ki, yeniden canlan\u0131r ba\u011f\u0131\u015flamas\u0131z belle\u011fimizde<br \/>Bir an\u0131n, yaln\u0131zca bir an\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn bir hayat\u0131 kaplad\u0131\u011f\u0131 anlar<br \/>O tiktaklar kadar \u00f6nemsiz kal\u0131r \u015fimdi<br \/>Hayat\u0131m\u0131za verdi\u011fimiz b\u00fct\u00fcn anlamlar<br \/>G\u00f6remeseniz de, bilirsiniz<br \/>Hi\u00e7 yak\u0131n olmam\u0131\u015fs\u0131n\u0131zd\u0131r intihara bu kadar.<\/p>\n<p>Bana zamandan s\u00f6z ediyorlar<br \/>Gelip size zamandan s\u00f6z ederler<br \/>Yaralar\u0131 nas\u0131l sard\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan, ya da her \u015feye nas\u0131l iyi geldi\u011finden.<br \/>Zamanla ilgili b\u00fct\u00fcn atas\u00f6zleri g\u00fcndeme gelir yeniden.<br \/>Hepsini bilirsiniz zaten, bir i\u015fe yaramad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bildi\u011finiz gibi.<br \/>Dahas\u0131 onalar da bilirler.<br \/>Ama yine de g\u00fc\u00e7 verir baz\u0131 s\u00f6zler, s\u00f6zc\u00fckler, \u00f6yle d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrler.<br \/>Bitti\u011fine kendini inand\u0131rmak, ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n ger\u00e7e\u011fine katlanmak, s\u0131rt\u0131n\u0131zdaki<br \/>han\u00e7eri \u00e7\u0131kartmak, Y\u00fcre\u011finizin unuttu\u011funuz yerleriyle yeniden kar\u015f\u0131la\u015fmak<br \/>kolay de\u011fildir elbet.<br \/>Kolay de\u011fildir bunlarla ba\u015f etmek, u\u011fruna i\u00e7inizi \u00f6ld\u00fcrmek.<br \/>Zaman al\u0131r.<br \/>Zaman al\u0131r sizden bunlar\u0131n y\u00fck\u00fcn\u00fc<br \/>O bo\u015fluk dolar elbet, yaralar kabuk ba\u011flar, s\u0131z\u0131lar diner, a\u00e7\u0131lar dibe<br \/>\u00e7\u00f6ker.<br \/>Hayatta sevinilecek \u015feyler yeniden fark edilir.<br \/>Bir yerlerden bulunup yeni mutluluklar edinilir.<br \/>O bo\u015fluk doldu san\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z<br \/>Oysa o bo\u015flu\u011fu dolduran eksilmenizdir.<\/p>\n<p>G\u00fcn gelir bir g\u00fcn<br \/>Ba\u015fka bir mevsim, ba\u015fka bir takvim, ba\u015fka bir ili\u015fkide<br \/>O eski a\u011fr\u0131<br \/>Ans\u0131z\u0131n geri teper.<br \/>Dilerim geri teper.<br \/>Yoksa ger\u00e7ekten bitmissinizdir.<\/p>\n<p>Zamanla yerle\u015fir ya\u015fad\u0131klar\u0131n, yeniden konumlan\u0131r, \u00e7o\u011fal\u0131r anlamlar\u0131, \u00f6nemi<br \/>kavran\u0131r.<br \/>Bir zamanlar anlamadan ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u015fey, \u00e7ok sonra de\u011ferini kazan\u0131r.<br \/>Yoklu\u011fu derin ve s\u00fcrekli bir s\u0131z\u0131 halini al\u0131r.<br \/>Oysa yapacak hi\u00e7bir \u015fey kalmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131r art\u0131k<br \/>Mutluluk ge\u00e7ip gitmi\u015ftir yan\u0131n\u0131zdan<br \/>Her \u015feye iyi gelen zaman sizi kanat\u0131r<br \/>\u00d6lmu\u015f saadeti kar\u015f\u0131la\u015ft\u0131r ya\u015fayan mutsuzlukla<br \/>G\u00fcnlerin d\u00f6k\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc yap<br \/>Benim senden, senin benden habersiz al\u0131p verdiklerini<br \/>Kim bilebilir ikimizden ba\u015fka?<br \/>S\u00f6zc\u00fcklerin ve sessizliklerin yeri iyi ayarlanm\u0131\u015f<br \/>Bir ili\u015fkiyi, duygular\u0131n birli\u011fini,<br \/>Bir a\u015fk\u0131 beraberlik haline getiren kendili\u011findenli\u011fi<br \/>Yani g\u00fcnlerimiz ayd\u0131nl\u0131kken ka\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z her \u015feyi bir d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn<br \/>Emek ve a\u015fkla g\u00fczelle\u015ftirilmi\u015f bir d\u00fcnya<br \/>\u015eimdi a\u011f\u0131r a\u011f\u0131r bat\u0131yor ve yoklu\u011fa kar\u0131\u015f\u0131yor<br \/>Orada olmu\u015f saadeti kar\u015f\u0131la\u015ft\u0131r ya\u015fayan mutsuzlukla<br \/>Bunlar da bir i\u015fe yaramad\u0131ysa<br \/>Demek yang\u0131ndan kurtar\u0131lacak hi\u00e7bir \u015fey kalmam\u0131\u015f aram\u0131zda.<\/p>\n<p>Bu \u015fiire ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131mda nerde,<br \/>\u015eimdi nerdeyim?<br \/>Solgun yollardan ge\u00e7tim.<br \/>Bak\u0131\u015f\u0131ml\u0131 mevsimlerden<br \/>\u0130kindi ya\u011fmurlar\u0131n\u0131 bekleyen<br \/>Yaz sonu h\u00fcz\u00fcnlerinden<br \/>G\u00fcn g\u00fcnden puslu pencerelere benzeyen g\u00f6zlerim<br \/>Ge\u00e7ti her ca\u011f\u0131n bitki \u00f6rt\u00fcs\u00fcnden<br \/>Oysa \u015fimdi i\u00e7imin y\u0131kanm\u0131\u015f ta\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan<br \/>Bakarken d\u00fcnyaya<br \/>Yang\u0131nlarla bay\u0131nd\u0131r kentler gibiyim:<br \/>\u00c7icek adlar\u0131n\u0131 ezberlemekten geldim<br \/>Eski \u015fark\u0131lar\u0131, sarho\u015flar\u0131n ve su\u00e7lular\u0131n<br \/>Unuttuklar\u0131n\u0131 hat\u0131rlamaktan<br \/>Uzun uzak yollar\u0131 tarif etmekten<br \/>Haydutluktan ve melankoliden<br \/>Giderken ya da d\u00f6nerken atlanan esiklerden<br \/>Duyarl\u0131\u011f\u0131n gece mekteplerinden geldim<br \/>B\u00fct\u00fcnlemeli \u00e7ocukluklar\u0131yla ge\u00e7ti<br \/>Gen\u00e7li\u011fimin r\u00fczgara verdi\u011fim y\u0131llar\u0131<br \/>G\u00f6kummalar\u0131n ve i\u00e7d\u00f6kmelerin vaktinden geldim.<\/p>\n<p>Bu \u015fiire ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131mda nerde,<br \/>\u015eimdi nerdeyim?<br \/>Yaram vard\u0131, bir de s\u00f6zc\u00fckler<br \/>Sonra vaat edilmi\u015f topraklar gibi<br \/>Sayfalar ve g\u00fcnler<br \/>I\u015f\u0131k istiyordu yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131m<br \/>K\u00f6t\u00fcl\u00fckler imparatorlu\u011funda bir tek \u015fiir yazmay\u0131 biliyordum<br \/>\u0130lerledik\u00e7e&#8230;Kaybolup gittin bu \u015fiirin derinliklerinde<br \/>A\u015fk ve 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Soldu \u015fiir.<\/p>\n<p>B\u00fcy\u00fck bir \u015fa\u015fk\u0131nl\u0131k kald\u0131 o f\u0131rt\u0131nal\u0131 g\u00fcnlerden<br \/>Daha \u00f6nce de ba\u015fka \u015fiirlerde konaklam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m<br \/>A\u011f\u0131r s\u0131navlar vermi\u015ftim de\u011fi\u015fen ruh iklimlerinde<br \/>Ask yaln\u0131z bir operad\u0131r, biliyordum:<br \/>Operada bir gece uyudum, hi\u00e7 uyanmad\u0131m.<br \/>Barbarlar\u0131n seyretti\u011fi trapezlerden ge\u00e7tim<br \/>Her ad\u0131mda boynumdan bir fular d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyordu<br \/>El kadar g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc mendil kadar ufuk<br \/>Birlikte \u00e7\u0131kalan yollar\u0131n yazg\u0131s\u0131d\u0131r:<br \/>Eksiliyorduk<br \/>Mataramda tuzlu suyla, oteller kentinden geldim<br \/>Her otelde biraz eksilip, biraz artarak<br \/>Yani \u00e7o\u011falarak<br \/>Tahvil ve senetlerini intiharlarla de\u011fi\u015ftirenlerin<br \/>Birahaneler ve bankalar \u00fczerine kurulu hayatlar\u0131nda<br \/>A\u011f\u0131r ve ac\u0131 tan\u0131kl\u0131klardan<br \/>Ge\u00e7erek geldim. Terli ve kirliydim.<br \/>Sonra t\u0131marhanelerde t\u0131mar edilen ruhum<br \/>Maskeler ve \u00e7i\u00e7ekler biriktiriyordu<br \/>Lin\u00e7 edilerek \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fclenlerin hayat hikayelerini de&#8230;<br \/>Korsan yaz\u0131lar\u0131, kara \u015fiirleri, gizli kitaplar\u0131<br \/>Ve a\u00e7\u0131k hayatlar\u0131 seviyordu.<br \/>Buraya gelirken<br \/>Uzun uzak yollar i\u00e7in her menzilde at de\u011fi\u015ftirdim<br \/>Atlarla birlikte terledim yollar\u0131 ve geceleri<br \/>\u00d6d\u00fcn\u00e7 almad\u0131m hi\u00e7 kimseden hicbir \u015feyi<br \/>\u00c7\u0131plak ve sahici ya\u015fay\u0131p \u00e7\u0131plak ve sahici \u00f6lmek i\u00e7in panay\u0131r yerleri&#8230;<br \/>panay\u0131r yerleri&#8230;<br \/>\u00d6l\u00fc kelebekler&#8230;<br \/>\u00d6l\u00fc kelebekler&#8230;<br \/>Sonra d\u00fcnyan\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn sinemalar\u0131nda b\u00fct\u00fcn filmleri seyrettim.<\/p>\n<p>Ad\u0131m onlar\u0131n ad\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131na yaz\u0131lmas\u0131n diye<br \/>Ac\u0131 \u00e7ekecek yerlerimi yok etmeden<br \/>Ac\u0131yla ba\u015f etmeyi \u00f6\u011frendim.<br \/>Yoksa bu kadar konu\u015fabilir miydim?<br \/>\u0130pek yollar\u0131nda kuzey y\u0131ld\u0131z\u0131<br \/>A\u015fk\u0131n kuzey y\u0131ld\u0131z\u0131<br \/>San\u0131rs\u0131n durdu\u011fun yerde<br \/>Ya da yol \u00fcst\u00fcndedir<br \/>Oysa \u00e7ocukluktan kalma g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcnde hileli zar<br \/>\u00d6l\u00fc yanarda\u011flar, \u00f6l\u00fc y\u0131ld\u0131zlar<br \/>Ve toy ya\u015f\u0131n bilmedi\u011fi hesap: \u0131\u015f\u0131k h\u0131z\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>A\u015fk\u0131n bir yolu vard\u0131r<br \/>Her ya\u015fta ba\u015fka t\u00fcrl\u00fc ge\u00e7ilen<br \/>A\u015fk\u0131n bir yolu vard\u0131r<br \/>Her ya\u015fta biraz gecikilen<br \/>G\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcnde yaln\u0131z bir y\u0131ld\u0131z arar g\u00f6zler<br \/>G\u00f6zlerim<br \/>A\u015fk\u0131n kuzey y\u0131ld\u0131z\u0131d\u0131r bu<br \/>Yazlar\u0131 daha iyi g\u00f6r\u00fclen<br \/>Ben, \u00f6teki, bir di\u011feri ona do\u011fru ilerler<br \/>\u0130lerlerim<br \/>Zamanla anlars\u0131n bu bir yan\u0131lsama<br \/>\u00d6l\u00fc \u015fairlerin imgelerinden kalma<br \/>Sen de de\u011filsin. O da de\u011fil<br \/>Kuzey y\u0131ld\u0131z\u0131 daha uzakta<br \/>Yeniden yollara d\u00fc\u015ferler<br \/>D\u00fc\u015ferim<br \/>Bir \u015fiir ya\u015fat\u0131r her \u015feyi ya\u015fam\u0131n anlam\u0131 soldu\u011funda<br \/>Ben yoluma devam ederim. Bitmemi\u015f bir \u015fiirin ortas\u0131nda<br \/>Darmada\u011f\u0131n\u0131k imgeler, s\u00f6zc\u00fckler ve kafiyeler<br \/>Ya\u015famsa yerli yerinde<br \/>Yerli yerinde her \u015fey<br \/>\u015eimdi her \u015fey doludizgin ve \u00e7o\u011ful<br \/>\u015eimdi her \u015fey kesintisiz ve s\u00fcrekli bir devrim gibi<br \/>\u015eimdi her \u015fey yeniden<br \/>Y\u00fcre\u011fim, o eski a\u015fk kalesi<br \/>Yepyeni bir mazi yaratt\u0131 s\u00f6zc\u00fcklerin g\u00fcc\u00fcnden<br \/>D\u00f6n\u00fcp ard\u0131ma bak\u0131yorum<br \/>Yoksun sen<br \/>Ey Sanat! Her \u015feyi hayata d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcren. <\/p>\n<p>Murathan MUNGAN<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>\u00d6l\u00fc bir y\u0131lan gibi yat\u0131yordu aram\u0131zdaYorgun, kirli ve umutsuz ge\u00e7mi\u015fimOysa bilmedi\u011fin bir\u015fey vard\u0131 sevgilimBen sende b\u00fct\u00fcn a\u015fklar\u0131m\u0131 temize \u00e7ektim \u0130mrendi\u011fin, \u00f6fkelendi\u011finK\u0131zd\u0131\u011f\u0131n, ya da k\u0131skand\u0131\u011f\u0131n diyelimYani ya\u015fam\u0131\u015fl\u0131k sand\u0131\u011f\u0131nGe\u00e7mi\u015fimDile d\u00f6k\u00fclmeyenin tenhal\u0131\u011f\u0131ndaKa\u00e7\u0131r\u0131lan bak\u0131\u015flardaG\u00fcndeli\u011fin ba\u015f\u0131bo\u015f ayr\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131ndaZaman zaman geri tepip duruyordu.Ve elbet \u00fczerinde durulmuyordu.Sense kendini hala hayat\u0131mdaki herhangi biri san\u0131yordun,Biraz daha fazla sevdi\u011fim, biraz daha \u00f6nem verdi\u011fim.Ba\u015flang\u0131\u00e7ta do\u011fruydu belki.S\u0131radan bir [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[154],"tags":[],"class_list":{"0":"post-5008","1":"post","2":"type-post","3":"status-publish","4":"format-standard","6":"category-murathan-mungan"},"yoast_head":"<!-- This site is optimized with the Yoast SEO Premium plugin v24.9 (Yoast SEO v24.9) - 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