Puan Ver :
Ben ne zaman yaln\u0131z kald\u0131m, bilmiyorum
Ne tuhaf, vaktim olmazd\u0131
yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131 bunca bilirken
kendimi hi\u00e7 yaln\u0131z sanmazd\u0131m
\u00e7evremde hep birileri vard\u0131,
ben hep birilerinin yan\u0131ndayd\u0131m
g\u00fcnler belirsiz bir gelecek i\u00e7in neredeyse kendili\u011finden haz\u0131rlan\u0131rd\u0131
aram\u0131zda habersiz gidip gelen g\u00fcndelik arma\u011fanlarla
kendi kendini ta\u015f\u0131yan bir \u0131rma\u011f\u0131n ak\u0131nt\u0131s\u0131nda hayat
bizi kendi sahillerimize ula\u015ft\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131
baz\u0131 evlerden ta\u015f\u0131n\u0131rd\u0131k, baz\u0131 insanlar girip \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131 hayat\u0131m\u0131za
baz\u0131 mektuplar al\u0131rd\u0131k, baz\u0131 s\u00f6zler, \u00e7i\u00e7ek selamlar\u0131
sonralar\u0131 baz\u0131 tan\u0131d\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fcmleriyle de kar\u015f\u0131la\u015ft\u0131k
elde olmayan nedenle
sudaki halkalar gibi geni\u015fleyen
k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck al\u0131nganl\u0131klardan b\u00fcy\u00fck darg\u0131nl\u0131klara
vazge\u00e7i\u015fler, unutu\u015flar, kay\u0131plar
birbirimizi \u00e7ok sevdik hep
y\u0131llarla azala azala<\/p>\n
\u015fimdi ne zaman yaln\u0131z kald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnsem,
yaln\u0131z olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 kan\u0131tlamak istiyorum kendime
eskiden iki alb\u00fcme s\u0131\u011fd\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131m hayat\u0131m,
\u015fimdi s\u0131\u011fm\u0131yor eskilenlerle \u00e7o\u011falm\u0131\u015f fotograflara
telefonun ba\u015f\u0131na ge\u00e7iyorum
alt alta dizilmi\u015f onca ad aras\u0131nda seken \u00f6m\u00fcr par\u00e7as\u0131
g\u00fcn \u00f6l\u00fcyor me\u015fgul numaralarla
\u015fimdi ne zaman yaln\u0131z oldu\u011fumu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnsem,
\u015fimdi ne kadar yaln\u0131z…
yaln\u0131z oldu\u011fumu anlamam i\u00e7in beni hi\u00e7 yaln\u0131z b\u0131rakmad\u0131n\u0131z.<\/p>\n
Ben ne zaman yaln\u0131z kald\u0131m, bilmiyorum
her zaman yaln\u0131zd\u0131m, bunu biliyorum
b\u00fcy\u00fcc\u00fc ellerimin kara sanat\u0131 yaz\u0131
en \u00e7ok ben onard\u0131m dostluklar\u0131, en \u00e7ok benim elim diki\u015f tuttu
ba\u011f\u0131\u015flamas\u0131z sanarken kendimi
en \u00e7ok ben unuttum kalbimin benden saklad\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131
t\u0131\u011fla i\u00e7eri \u00e7ektim tak\u0131lm\u0131\u015f kazaklar\u0131n ipini
denenmemi\u015f ba\u015flang\u0131\u00e7lar\u0131 g\u00f6ze ald\u0131m,
hafifletilmi\u015f hasarlar\u0131, g\u00f6rmezden gelinen enkaz\u0131
mutfa\u011f\u0131 beklemek hep bana kald\u0131
bir \u015fiirden bir romandan bir filmden \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p
her seferinde ayd\u0131nl\u0131k bir inat gibi yeniden kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131m hayata
hi\u00e7 el de\u011fmemi\u015f gibi yeniden konuk geldim
odalar\u0131n\u0131za, ruhlar\u0131n\u0131za
buraya<\/p>\n
eski a\u015fklar\u0131m neredesiniz? Hepinizi \u00e7ok \u00f6zledim.
\u015eimdi birdenbire bir k\u00f6\u015feden \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p bana,
yaln\u0131zca, Merhaba, deseniz,
o zamanlar hi\u00e7 mutlu etmedi\u011finiz kadar mutlu edersiniz,
bir zamanlar b\u00fct\u00fcn a\u011flad\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131 geri verebilirim size
sa\u011f olun demenk isterim, sa\u011f olun, sa\u011f olun
sanki beni yeniden sevdiniz
ama biliyorum, pis bir ya\u011fmur ba\u015fl\u0131yor, \u015femsiyem yok yan\u0131mda,
ya\u011fmurda y\u00fcr\u00fcmekten nefret ederken, y\u00fcr\u00fcmekte \u0131srarl\u0131y\u0131m gene de
isterseniz, kederdeki b\u00fct\u00fcnl\u00fck, diyelim buna
ne kadar \u0131slansam, o kadar \u00e7\u0131kaca\u011f\u0131m sanki
bir zamanlar \u00e7ok daha b\u00fct\u00fcn oldu\u011fumu sand\u0131\u011f\u0131m
o y\u0131kanm\u0131\u015f zamanlara…<\/p>\n
yeni de\u011fil ke\u015ffine gen\u00e7lik verilmi\u015f ger\u00e7ekler
her zaman yaln\u0131zd\u0131m
kitaplar kadar yaln\u0131z
yaln\u0131zca yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131mdan g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fcc\u00fc bir kalabal\u0131k yapt\u0131m
herkes i\u00e7in farkl\u0131 aldan\u0131\u015flar kurtar\u0131lm\u0131\u015f hayatlar yok pahas\u0131na<\/p>\n
her zaman yaln\u0131zd\u0131m
yanarda\u011flar kadar yaln\u0131z
ey kafiye sevenler,
\u015fimdi beni g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcnde bir y\u0131ld\u0131z sananlar, yan\u0131ld\u0131n\u0131z!<\/p>\n
nank\u00f6rl\u00fck etmeyeyim gene de,
yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 daha az hissetti\u011fim anlar\u0131m oldu yaln\u0131z<\/p>\n
evimde hep ayn\u0131 anda \u00e7alar telefonla kap\u0131
gene \u00f6yle oluyor; hi\u00e7 yaln\u0131z b\u0131rakmazlar beni
yaln\u0131zl\u0131k bilgisiyle \u00e7at\u0131lm\u0131\u015f arkada\u015fl\u0131klar\u0131n korunakl\u0131 g\u00f6lgesinde
yaln\u0131zl\u0131k i\u00e7in \u00e7alar telefonlar kap\u0131lar
\u0130stersen bana u\u011fra, ya da, Ak\u015fama bulu\u015fal\u0131m, \u00f6lmeden yapacak \u00e7ok
i\u015f var <\/p>\n
Murathan MUNGAN<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Puan Ver :Ben ne zaman yaln\u0131z kald\u0131m, bilmiyorumNe tuhaf, vaktim olmazd\u0131yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131 bunca bilirkenkendimi hi\u00e7 yaln\u0131z sanmazd\u0131m\u00e7evremde hep birileri vard\u0131,ben hep birilerinin yan\u0131ndayd\u0131mg\u00fcnler belirsiz bir gelecek i\u00e7in neredeyse kendili\u011finden haz\u0131rlan\u0131rd\u0131aram\u0131zda habersiz gidip gelen g\u00fcndelik arma\u011fanlarlakendi kendini ta\u015f\u0131yan bir \u0131rma\u011f\u0131n ak\u0131nt\u0131s\u0131nda hayatbizi kendi sahillerimize ula\u015ft\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131baz\u0131 evlerden ta\u015f\u0131n\u0131rd\u0131k, baz\u0131 insanlar girip \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131 hayat\u0131m\u0131zabaz\u0131 mektuplar al\u0131rd\u0131k, baz\u0131 s\u00f6zler, \u00e7i\u00e7ek […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[154],"tags":[],"class_list":{"0":"post-5009","1":"post","2":"type-post","3":"status-publish","4":"format-standard","6":"category-murathan-mungan"},"yoast_head":"\n