\u00a0<\/p>\n
Uzundur gece,
uzundur, \u00f6lemeyen
adam i\u00e7in, uzun s\u00fcre
yalpa vurur \u00e7\u0131plak bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131
sokak lambalar\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131nda,
i\u00e7kili solu\u011fuyla k\u00f6rle\u015fen g\u00f6zleri
ve t\u0131rnaklar\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131ndaki et k\u0131r\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131n
kokular\u0131, uyu\u015fturmaz her zaman, Tanr\u0131m,
uzundur gece.<\/p>\n
Beyazla\u015fm\u0131yor sa\u00e7lar\u0131m,
\u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc ben, makinelerin rahminden \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131m
s\u00fcr\u00fcnerek, \u00e7amkatran\u0131 pembe bir \u00e7izgi
\u00e7ekmi\u015f aln\u0131ma ve sa\u00e7 \u00f6rg\u00fcs\u00fcne,
sa\u00e7larda karbeyaz\u0131 bo\u011fulmu\u015f. Ama ben,
b\u00fcy\u00fck reis, y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fcm on\u00e7arp\u0131y\u00fczbin
ruhluk kent boyunca ve ayaklar\u0131m,
on\u00e7arp\u0131y\u00fczbin so\u011fumu\u015f bar\u0131\u015f \u00e7ubu\u011funun sarkt\u0131\u011f\u0131,
deri kapl\u0131 g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn alt\u0131nda k\u0131rkayaklar gibi
kayna\u015fan ruhlara bast\u0131. \u00c7o\u011fu kez
meleklerin huzurunu istedim kendime,
bir de dostlar\u0131m\u0131n \u00e7aresizlik \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131klar\u0131yla
dolmu\u015f av b\u00f6lgelerini.<\/p>\n
Ayaklar\u0131 ve kanatlar\u0131 iki yana a\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131\u015f,
herkesin bildikleriyle havaland\u0131 gen\u00e7li\u011fim,
kirli su birikintilerinin ve yaseminlerin \u00fczerinden
u\u00e7ularak var\u0131ld\u0131, kare k\u00f6klerinin gizini saklayan gecelere,
\u015fimdi \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn s\u00f6ylencesi, sanki her saat penceremde,
kurt s\u00fct\u00fc verin bana ve g\u0131rtla\u011f\u0131ma benden \u00f6ncekilerin
kahkahalar\u0131n\u0131 ak\u0131t\u0131n, e\u011fer safalar\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnde
uyuya kal\u0131rsam, ve e\u011fer g\u00f6r\u00fcrsem utand\u0131r\u0131c\u0131 bir d\u00fc\u015fte
d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeyi beceremedi\u011fimi, ancak y\u0131lan bi\u00e7imi
sa\u00e7aklar\u0131n p\u00fcsk\u00fclleriyle oynayabildi\u011fimi.<\/p>\n
Annelerimiz de d\u00fc\u015flemi\u015flerdi
erkeklerinin gelece\u011fini,
pek etkileyiciydi g\u00f6rd\u00fckleri,
her biri devrimci ve yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131na g\u00f6m\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f,
ama bah\u00e7ede, duan\u0131n ard\u0131ndan,
yalazlanm\u0131\u015f otlar\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcne e\u011fildiklerinde,
a\u015fklar\u0131n\u0131n geveze \u00e7ocu\u011fuyla eleleydiler.
S\u00f6yle, benim kederli babac\u0131\u011f\u0131m, neden
susmu\u015ftunuz o zamanlar,
d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeyi s\u00fcrd\u00fcrecek yerde?<\/p>\n
Gecelerden birinde yitip gitti\u011finde insan,
ate\u015f etmeyen bir topun yan\u0131nda
ve ate\u015f f\u0131skiyelerinin ortas\u0131nda,
kahredesiye uzundur gece; sar\u0131l\u0131k olmu\u015f
ay\u0131n at\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n, safra rengi bir \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n alt\u0131nda,
iktidar \u00f6zlemiyle dolu bir d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn ard\u0131ndan
f\u0131rt\u0131na gibi ge\u00e7ip gitti (engelleyemedi\u011fim) k\u0131zak,
i\u00e7inde k\u00fcrklere b\u00fcr\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015f tarihle birlikte.
Uyudu\u011fumdan de\u011fil: Uyan\u0131kt\u0131m asl\u0131nda,
buz iskeletlerinin aras\u0131nda arad\u0131m yolumu,
eve d\u00f6nd\u00fcm, kollar\u0131ma sarma\u015f\u0131klar dolad\u0131m
ve bacaklar\u0131ma, g\u00fcne\u015fin kal\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131n yard\u0131m\u0131yla
y\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131 akla\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131m.
Kutlad\u0131m b\u00fcy\u00fck bayramlar\u0131,
ve ancak m\u00fcjdelendikten sonra,
ekme\u011fi ikiye ay\u0131rd\u0131m.<\/p>\n
B\u00fcy\u00fck izler b\u0131rakan bir zamanda,
\u00e7abuk gitmelidir insan, bir \u0131\u015f\u0131ktan
\u00f6tekine ya da bir \u00fclkeden bir ba\u015fkas\u0131na,
g\u00f6k ku\u015fa\u011f\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131nda, pergelin ucu y\u00fcrekte,
odak noktas\u0131 al\u0131nan ise, gece.
Alabildi\u011fine a\u00e7\u0131k. Da\u011flardan
g\u00f6ller, g\u00f6llerin i\u00e7inde da\u011flar g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr,
ve bulutlar\u0131n aras\u0131nda, \u00e7alar
birinin d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7anlar\u0131.
Kimin d\u00fcnyas\u0131 oldu\u011funu \u00f6\u011frenmek ise
bana yasaklanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r.<\/p>\n
Bir Cuma g\u00fcn\u00fc oldu
-oru\u00e7luydum ya\u015fam\u0131m ad\u0131na,
havadan sanki limon suyu damlamaktayd\u0131
ve k\u0131l\u00e7\u0131klar saplanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 dama\u011f\u0131ma-
o s\u0131rada bir y\u00fcz\u00fck \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131m
a\u00e7\u0131lan bal\u0131\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7inden, do\u011fumumda
gecenin nehrine at\u0131lm\u0131\u015f ve batm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.
Onu geceye geri verdim.<\/p>\n
Ah, ke\u015fke korkmasayd\u0131m \u00f6l\u00fcmden!
Bulabilseydim s\u00f6zc\u00fckleri,
(ka\u00e7\u0131rmasayd\u0131m),
dikenler olmasayd\u0131 y\u00fcre\u011fimde,
(g\u00fcne\u015fi vurabilseydim),
olmasayd\u0131 a\u011fz\u0131mda bu susam\u0131\u015fl\u0131k,
(vah\u015fi sular\u0131 i\u00e7meseydim),
a\u00e7masayd\u0131m kirpiklerimi,
(sicimi g\u00f6rmeseydim).<\/p>\n
G\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc m\u00fc \u00e7ekip g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fckleri?
Ta\u015f\u0131masayd\u0131 e\u011fer yery\u00fcz\u00fc beni,
\u00e7oktan uzanm\u0131\u015f yat\u0131yor olurdum,
\u00e7oktan yatard\u0131m, gecenin
olmam\u0131 istedi\u011fi yerde,
daha kabartmadan burun deliklerini,
ve aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131 kald\u0131rmadan
yeni darbeler i\u00e7in,
hep pe\u015finde yeni darbelerin.
Hep gece.
Ve g\u00fcn, hi\u00e7 yok.<\/p>\n
Ingeborg Bachmann<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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