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Hepsinin g\u00f6zleri g\u00fczeldir. Hepsinin canl\u0131yken pullar\u0131 kad\u0131n elbiselerine, kad\u0131n kulaklar\u0131na, kad\u0131n g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcslerine tak\u0131lma\u011fa de\u011fer. Nedir o elmaslar, yakutlar, akikler, z\u00fcmr\u00fctler, \u015funlar bunlar?…<\/p>\n
M\u00fcmk\u00fcn olsayd\u0131 da balolara canl\u0131 bal\u0131k s\u0131rtlar\u0131n\u0131n yanar d\u00f6ner renkleriyle gidebilselerdi bayanlar; bal\u0131k\u00e7\u0131lar milyon, bal\u0131klar \u015fan \u00fc \u015feref kazan\u0131rd\u0131. Ne yaz\u0131k ki soluverir \u00f6l\u00fcr \u00f6lmez, \u00f6yle ki, b\u00fcz\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f b\u00f6ceklere d\u00f6ner bal\u0131k s\u0131rt\u0131n\u0131n p\u0131r\u0131lt\u0131lar\u0131. Benim, size \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc hik\u00e2ye edece\u011fim bal\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u00f6yle par\u0131lt\u0131l\u0131, yanar d\u00f6ner pullar\u0131 yoktur. Pulu da yoktur ya zavall\u0131n\u0131n. Hafif\u00e7e, belirsiz bir ye\u015fil renkle esmerdir. Bal\u0131klar\u0131n en \u00e7irkinidir. Kocaman, di\u015fsiz, ak ve \u015feffaf naylondan bir a\u011fz\u0131 vard\u0131r: Sudan \u00e7\u0131kar \u00e7\u0131kmaz bir kar\u0131\u015f a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131r. A\u00e7\u0131l\u0131r da bir daha kapanmaz.<\/p>\n
V\u00fccudu kirlice, esmer renkte demi\u015f miydim?<\/p>\n
Rum bal\u0131k\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131n hrisopsaros -Hristos bal\u0131\u011f\u0131- dedikleri bu bal\u0131k, vaktiyle korkun\u00e7 bir deniz canavar\u0131 imi\u015f. \u0130sa do\u011fmadan evvel, Akdeniz’de deh\u015fet salm\u0131\u015f. Bir Finikeli denize d\u00fc\u015fmeye g\u00f6rs\u00fcn! Devirdi\u011fi Kartacal\u0131 \u00e7ektirmesinin, Beni \u0130srail, bal\u0131k\u00e7\u0131 kay\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n say\u0131s\u0131 say\u0131lamam\u0131\u015f. Keser, bi\u00e7er; do\u011frar, mahmuzlar; takar, y\u0131rtar; koparar\u0131r atar; \u00e7eker, par\u00e7alarm\u0131\u015f. Akdeniz’in en g\u00f6z\u00fc pek; insandan, hayvandan, f\u0131rt\u0131nadan, y\u0131ld\u0131r\u0131mdan, bel\u00e2dan, i\u015fkenceden y\u0131lmaz korsan\u0131, d\u00fclger bal\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n ad\u0131ndan bembeyaz kesilirmi\u015f.<\/p>\n
\u0130sa, g\u00fcnlerden bir g\u00fcn, deniz kenar\u0131nda gezinirken sandallar\u0131n\u0131 b\u00fcy\u00fck bir korkuyla b\u0131rak\u0131p ka\u00e7an bal\u0131k\u00e7\u0131lar g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f. “Ne oluyorsunuz?” diye sorunca bal\u0131k\u00e7\u0131lara; “Aman” demi\u015fler bal\u0131k\u00e7\u0131lar, “el \u00e2man! El \u00e2man bu canavardan! Sandal\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 k\u0131rd\u0131, arkada\u015flar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 par\u00e7alad\u0131. Hepsinden k\u00f6t\u00fcs\u00fc, bal\u0131k tutamaz olduk, a\u00e7l\u0131ktan k\u0131r\u0131l\u0131r\u0131z.”<\/p>\n
\u0130sa, yal\u0131nayak, ba\u015f\u0131 kabak, d\u00fclger bal\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131n y\u00fczlercesinin kayna\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 denize do\u011fru y\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f. En kocaman\u0131n\u0131, uzun parmakl\u0131 elleriyle tutup sudan \u00e7\u0131karm\u0131\u015f. \u0130ki elinin ba\u015fparma\u011f\u0131 aras\u0131nda s\u0131ms\u0131k\u0131 tutmu\u015f, e\u011filmi\u015f, kula\u011f\u0131na bir \u015feyler s\u00f6ylemi\u015f…<\/p>\n
O g\u00fcn bu g\u00fcnd\u00fcr d\u00fclger bal\u0131\u011f\u0131, denizlerin g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fc\u015f\u00fc pek deh\u015fetli, fakat huyu pek uysal, pek zavall\u0131 bir yarat\u0131\u011f\u0131d\u0131r. Bir\u00e7ok yerlerinde \u00e7iviye, kesere, e\u011friye, kerpetene, destereye, e\u011feye benzer \u00e7\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131, kemikle k\u0131l\u00e7\u0131k aras\u0131 dikenleri vard\u0131r. D\u00fclger bal\u0131\u011f\u0131 ad\u0131 ona bunlardan \u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fc tak\u0131lm\u0131\u015f olmal\u0131.<\/p>\n
B\u00fct\u00fcn bu alat \u00fc edavat\u0131n d\u00f6rt yan\u0131n\u0131, \u015feffaf naylondan diyebilece\u011fimiz i\u015flemeli bir zar \u00e7evirmi\u015ftir. Kuyru\u011fa do\u011fru bu incecik zar az\u0131c\u0131k kal\u0131nla\u015f\u0131r, rengi koyula\u015f\u0131r, bir bal\u0131k kuyru\u011funun bi\u00e7imini al\u0131r.<\/p>\n
Oltaya tutuldu muydu d\u00fcnyas\u0131na, sulara k\u00fcs\u00fcverir. Nas\u0131l bir korku i\u00e7ine d\u00fc\u015fer kimbilir? Onun i\u00e7in d\u00fcnya bombo\u015ftur art\u0131k. Oltadan kurtulsa da fayda yoktur. Suyun y\u00fcz\u00fcne yamyass\u0131 serilir. Kocaman g\u00f6zleriyle insana mahzun mahzun bakar durur. Sandala ald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z zaman dakikalarca onun sesini i\u015fitirsiniz. Ya, sesini! Bir o, bir de k\u0131rlang\u0131\u00e7 bal\u0131\u011f\u0131 sandalda \u00f6l\u00fcnceye kadar ikide bir feryada benzer, solu\u011fa benzer ac\u0131 bir ses \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131r. \u0130nce zardan a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 bir kere a\u011flara vurmas\u0131n, k\u00fcst\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fcn resmidir d\u00fclger bal\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n.<\/p>\n
Bir g\u00fcn, bal\u0131k\u00e7\u0131 kahvesinin \u00f6n\u00fcndeki; yar\u0131s\u0131 k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131, yar\u0131s\u0131 beyaz \u00e7i\u00e7ek a\u00e7an akasyan\u0131n dal\u0131na as\u0131lm\u0131\u015f bir d\u00fclger bal\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Rengi denizden \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131 zamand\u0131. Yaln\u0131z aletlerinin etraf\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7eviren incecik, ipekten bile yumu\u015fak zarlar\u0131 titreyip duruyordu. B\u00f6yle bir oynama hi\u00e7 g\u00f6rmemi\u015ftim. Evet, bu bir oyundu. Bir g\u00f6r\u00fcnmez i\u00e7 r\u00fczg\u00e2r\u0131n\u0131n oyunuydu. V\u00fccutta, g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fc\u015fte hi\u00e7bir titreme yoktu. Yaln\u0131z bu zarlar zevkli bir \u00fcrperi\u015fle tatl\u0131 tatl\u0131 titriyorlard\u0131. \u0130lk bak\u0131\u015fta insana zevkli, e\u011flenceli bir \u015feymi\u015f gibi gelen bu titreme, hakikatte bir \u00f6l\u00fcm dans\u0131yd\u0131. Sanki d\u00fclger bal\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n ruhu, r\u00fczg\u00e2r r\u00fczg\u00e2r, bu incecik zarlardan \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p gidiyordu; bir dirhem kalmam\u0131\u015fcas\u0131na.<\/p>\n
Hani baz\u0131 yaz g\u00fcnleri hi\u00e7 r\u00fczg\u00e2r yokken, deniz \u00fcst\u00fcnde bir menevi\u015f peydahlan\u0131r. \u0130\u015fte b\u00f6yle bir cazip titremeydi bu. \u0130nsan\u0131n i\u00e7ini zevkle, saadetle dolduruyordu. Ancak, bal\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u00f6lmek \u00fczere oldu\u011fu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcl\u00fcrse, bu titremenin anlam\u0131 hafif\u00e7e ac\u0131ya yorulabilirdi. Ama insan, yine de bu anlam\u2019a almamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu. Belki de bu, harikul\u00e2de tatl\u0131 bir \u00f6l\u00fcmd\u00fcr. Belki de bal\u0131k, h\u00e2l\u00e2 suda, derinliklerde bulundu\u011funu san\u0131yordur. Karn\u0131 tok, s\u0131rt\u0131 pektir. Ak\u015fam olmu\u015ftur. Denizin dibinin kumlar\u0131 g\u0131d\u0131klay\u0131c\u0131d\u0131r. Altta, di\u015fi yumurtalar\u0131, \u00fcstte erkek tohumlar\u0131 sallan\u0131yor, sallan\u0131yor, sallan\u0131yordu. V\u00fccudunu bir \u015fehvet an\u0131 sarm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u2026 Birdenbire deh\u015fetli bir \u015fey g\u00f6rd\u00fcm: Bal\u0131k tuhaf bir \u015fekilde, a\u011f\u0131r a\u011f\u0131r a\u011farma\u011fa, rengini atma\u011fa, hem de beyaz kesilme\u011fe giden bir hal alma\u011fa ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Acaba bana m\u0131 \u00f6yle geliyor? Sahiden rengini mi at\u0131yor? Deme\u011fe, dikkatli bakma\u011fa l\u00fczum kalmadan, yan\u0131lmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 anlad\u0131m.<\/p>\n
Kenarlar\u0131 s\u00fcsleyen zarlar\u0131n oyunu \u00e7abukla\u015fmaya, bal\u0131k da, git gide, saniyeden saniyeye pek belli bir halde beyazla\u015fmaya ba\u015flad\u0131. \u0130\u00e7imde d\u00fclger bal\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n y\u00fcre\u011fini dolduran korkuyu duydum. Bu, hepimizin bildi\u011fi bir korku idi: \u00d6l\u00fcm korkusu.<\/p>\n
Art\u0131k her \u015feyi anlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Denizlerin dibi \u00e2lemi bitmi\u015fti.. Ne ak\u0131nt\u0131lara yass\u0131 v\u00fccudunu b\u0131rakmak, ne karanl\u0131k sulara, koyu ye\u015fil yosunlara g\u00f6m\u00fclmek\u2026 Ne sabahlar\u0131 birdenbire, yukar\u0131lardan derinlere inen, serin ayd\u0131nl\u0131kta uyan\u0131vermek, g\u00fcn\u00fcn mavi ve ye\u015fil oyunlar\u0131 i\u00e7inde kuyruk oynatmak, habbeler \u00e7\u0131karmak, y\u00fcze do\u011fru f\u0131rlamak\u2026 Ne yosunlara, canl\u0131 yosunlara yatmak, ne ak\u0131nt\u0131larla \u00e2letlerini yakamozlara takarak y\u0131kanmak vard\u0131. Her \u015fey bitmi\u015fti:<\/p>\n
D\u00fclger bal\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fcm hali uzun s\u00fcr\u00fcyor. Sanki bal\u0131k su hava dedi\u011fimiz gaz suya al\u0131\u015fmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmaktad\u0131r. Hani biraz di\u015fini s\u0131ksa, al\u0131\u015fmas\u0131 m\u00fcmk\u00fcnd\u00fcr gibime geldi.<\/p>\n
Bu iki saat s\u00fcren \u00f6l\u00fcm halini, d\u00f6rt saate, d\u00f6rt saati sekiz saate, sekiz saati yirmi d\u00f6rde \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131k m\u0131yd\u0131; d\u00fclger bal\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 aram\u0131zda bir i\u015fle u\u011fra\u015f\u0131rken g\u00f6r\u00fcverece\u011fiz san\u0131yorum.<\/p>\n
Onu atmosferimize, suyumuza al\u0131\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z g\u00fcn, bayramlar edece\u011fiz. Elimize g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fc\u015f\u00fc deh\u015fetli, korkun\u00e7, \u00e7irkin ama, asl\u0131nda k\u00fcser huylu, pek sakin, pek korkak, pek hassas, iyi y\u00fcrekli, tatl\u0131 ve korkak bak\u0131\u015fl\u0131 bir yarat\u0131k ge\u00e7irdi\u011fimizden b\u00f6b\u00fcrlenerek onu \u00fczmek i\u00e7in elimizden geleni yapaca\u011f\u0131z. \u015ea\u015f\u0131racak, \u00f6nce katlanacak. Onu \u015fair, k\u00fcsk\u00fcn, anla\u015f\u0131lmayan biri yapaca\u011f\u0131z. Bir g\u00fcn hassasl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, ertesi g\u00fcn sevgisini, \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc g\u00fcn korkakl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, s\u00fck\u00fbnunu k\u00f6t\u00fcleyecek, can\u0131ndan bezdirece\u011fiz. \u0130\u00e7inde ne kadar g\u00fczel \u015fey varsa hepsini, birer birer s\u00f6k\u00fcp atacak. Ac\u0131 ac\u0131 s\u0131r\u0131tarak \u0130sa\u2019n\u0131n tuttu\u011fu belinin ortas\u0131ndaki parmak izi yerlerini, mahmuzlar\u0131, kerpeteni, e\u011fesi, testeresi ve baltas\u0131yla kaz\u0131yacak. \u0130lk \u00e7a\u011flardaki canavar halini bulacak.<\/p>\n
Bir kere suyumuza al\u0131\u015fmaya g\u00f6rs\u00fcn. Onu canavar haline getirmek i\u00e7in hi\u00e7 bir f\u0131rsat\u0131 ka\u00e7\u0131rmayaca\u011f\u0131z.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Hepsinin g\u00f6zleri g\u00fczeldir. Hepsinin canl\u0131yken pullar\u0131 kad\u0131n elbiselerine, kad\u0131n kulaklar\u0131na, kad\u0131n g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcslerine tak\u0131lma\u011fa de\u011fer. Nedir o elmaslar, yakutlar, akikler, z\u00fcmr\u00fctler, \u015funlar bunlar?… M\u00fcmk\u00fcn olsayd\u0131 da balolara canl\u0131 bal\u0131k s\u0131rtlar\u0131n\u0131n yanar d\u00f6ner renkleriyle gidebilselerdi bayanlar; bal\u0131k\u00e7\u0131lar milyon, bal\u0131klar \u015fan \u00fc \u015feref kazan\u0131rd\u0131. Ne yaz\u0131k ki soluverir \u00f6l\u00fcr \u00f6lmez, \u00f6yle ki, b\u00fcz\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f b\u00f6ceklere d\u00f6ner bal\u0131k s\u0131rt\u0131n\u0131n p\u0131r\u0131lt\u0131lar\u0131. […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[137],"tags":[],"class_list":{"0":"post-5059","1":"post","2":"type-post","3":"status-publish","4":"format-standard","6":"category-edebiyat-turkiye"},"yoast_head":"\n