{"id":5060,"date":"2018-07-02T00:34:22","date_gmt":"2018-07-01T21:34:22","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/localhost\/wordpress\/2018\/07\/02\/guclu-olmak-artik-beni-yoruyor-olric-kahraman-tazeoglu\/"},"modified":"2018-07-02T00:34:22","modified_gmt":"2018-07-01T21:34:22","slug":"guclu-olmak-artik-beni-yoruyor-olric-kahraman-tazeoglu","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/narteks.net\/index.php\/2018\/07\/02\/guclu-olmak-artik-beni-yoruyor-olric-kahraman-tazeoglu\/","title":{"rendered":"G\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc olmak art\u0131k beni yoruyor olric | Kahraman Tazeo\u011flu"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"images\/stories\/ktazolu.jpg\" width=\"155\" height=\"205\" \/><\/p>\n<p>G\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc olmak art\u0131k beni yoruyor olric<br \/>herkese kar\u015f\u0131 dimdik olmak&#8230;<br \/>arkas\u0131nda durmak att\u0131\u011f\u0131m her ad\u0131m\u0131n yoruyor&#8230;<br \/>Ki buralarda bilmem hangi uykunun hangi k\u00f6\u015fesinde\u2026<br \/>beklemedeyim hi\u00e7 gelmeyecek olan\u0131<\/p>\n<p>uyan olric &#8230; do\u011frul&#8230; &#8230;&#8230;&#8230;.seni bekliyor&#8230;..<br \/>d\u00fc\u015f de\u011fil ger\u00e7ek<br \/>&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;..seni bekliyor&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>yan\u0131mdaym\u0131\u015fs\u0131n yalan\u0131na kendimi kand\u0131r\u0131rken<br \/>derdin tam orta yerine d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fcn fark\u0131nda de\u011fildim elbet<br \/>kimseye arka bah\u00e7elerimden ge\u00e7en katarlar\u0131n a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 duyurmad\u0131m<br \/>duymay\u0131n da art\u0131k beni&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>bir yerlerde hep yanl\u0131\u015f yapman\u0131n tela\u015fl\u0131 k\u0131p\u0131rt\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 ya\u015f\u0131yorken&#8230;<br \/>o yanl\u0131\u015f\u0131n art\u0131k sonsuza dek d\u00fczeltilemeyece\u011fini bilmenin<br \/>k\u0131st\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131 ile<br \/>pusuyorum bazen&#8230;.<br \/>uzun s\u00fcre gecelere k\u00fcs\u00fcyorum&#8230;<br \/>uzun s\u00fcre kendime k\u00fcs\u00fcyorum&#8230;<br \/>uzun s\u00fcre kaleme&#8230;ka\u011f\u0131da k\u00fcs\u00fcyorum&#8230;hayata k\u00fcs\u00fcyorum<\/p>\n<p>denizin en s\u0131\u011f yerinden ba\u015flad\u0131k yol almaya olric<br \/>\u015fimdi kara g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u00fcyor gerimizde\u2026<\/p>\n<p>bug\u00fcn mektuplar\u0131m\u0131 postalamak i\u00e7in \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131m soka\u011fa olric<br \/>en iyi kendime yazar\u0131m ben&#8230;<br \/>`k\u0131\u015f\u00b4 dedim, `hen\u00fcz gitmek i\u00e7in haz\u0131rl\u0131k yapm\u0131yor\u00b4&#8230;<br \/>hala (d)\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyorum&#8230;(mart)<\/p>\n<p>sen ac\u0131y\u0131 biriktirmeyi seversin olric\u2026<br \/>sen biriktirmeyi seversin&#8230;.hadi devam et \u015fimdi \u2026kuru yapraklar\u0131&#8230;<br \/>deniz ta\u015flar\u0131n\u0131\u2026 g\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131n\u0131\u2026 sorulamam\u0131\u015f sorular\u0131 \u2026<br \/>senden kalan sesleri\u2026 ya\u015fanamam\u0131\u015f payla\u015f\u0131lm\u0131\u015fl\u0131klar\u0131\u2026<br \/>birlikte harcamak \u00fczere kalbinde biriktirilmi\u015f zamanlar\u0131 ve h\u00fczn\u00fc\u2026<br \/>ve \u00f6zlemi biriktirmeye\u2026<\/p>\n<p>siyah dedim en g\u00fczel ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m renk&#8230;<br \/>ve herkesin \u00fczerinden akan renk&#8230;<br \/>\u015fimdi bunca karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcne oturup bir mektup yazmal\u0131 ilkbahara<br \/>ve yaz\u00b4a<br \/>`hadi renklerini topla da gel\u00b4 demeli&#8230;<br \/>Sen de s\u0131ca\u011f\u0131 pek sevmezsin olric\u2026<br \/>g\u00fcz\u00b4\u00fc severdin sende\u2026son bahar\u0131 severdin<br \/>bu y\u00fczden mi hep sonbaharlarda sevdik biz\u2026<\/p>\n<p>sonbahar gibi hep kaynayan bir ne\u015feyle savrulurdun hayat\u0131n i\u00e7inde<br \/>yaprak yaprak\u2026 y\u00f6n se\u00e7meden\u2026<br \/>Ben y\u00fcz\u00fcme kondurdu\u011fum h\u00fcz\u00fcnle boyard\u0131m her \u015feyi\u2026<br \/>sen hazan y\u00fczl\u00fcm olurdun olric\u2026<\/p>\n<p>Ya\u011fmur da ba\u015flad\u0131 olric\u2026 R\u00fczgar\u0131n en delisi beni buluyor yine\u2026<br \/>O an, `d\u00fcnyay\u0131 kar\u0131\u015f kar\u0131\u015f dola\u015fsam\u00b4 diyorum kendime&#8230;<br \/>G\u00fcl\u00fcms\u00fcyorsun&#8230;<br \/>ne de \u00e7ok yak\u0131\u015f\u0131yor g\u00f6zlerine tebess\u00fcm\u2026<br \/>ki g\u00f6zlerin hep g\u00fcler(di) senin\u2026<br \/>\u015fimdi D\u00fcnyay\u0131 kar\u0131\u015flamay\u0131 unutuyorum g\u00f6zlerinde&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>mart\u0131lar\u0131 da seversin sen olric\u2026G\u00fcl\u00fcms\u00fcyorsun yine..<br \/>Ne de \u00e7ok yak\u0131\u015f\u0131yor g\u00f6zlerine tebess\u00fcm\u2026<br \/>Oysa ben bug\u00fcn kendime mektuplar\u0131m\u0131 postalamak i\u00e7in \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015ft\u0131m<br \/>soka\u011fa&#8230;<br \/>mart\u0131lar dolan g\u00f6zlerinde yitiverdim&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>ya\u011fmur h\u0131zland\u0131\u2026r\u00fczgar da&#8230; `k\u0131\u015f\u00b4 dedim, `\u00e7ok azimli.\u00b4<br \/>Beni h\u0131rpalamak istiyor\u2026<br \/>az m\u0131 h\u0131rpaland\u0131m ben olric\u2026<br \/>kap\u0131y\u0131 vurup \u00e7\u0131k\u0131\u015flar\u0131m\u0131n kar\u00b4\u0131 dondurmad\u0131 m\u0131 beni\u2026<br \/>daha bir buza kesmedi mi i\u00e7im\u2026<br \/>d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015flerimdeki mora kesmi\u015f parmaklar\u0131m\u0131 hissetmeyi\u015fim<br \/>ve y\u00fcz\u00fcmde donmu\u015f g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131 m\u0131 \u0131s\u0131tmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rken sende hep<br \/>dondun &#8230;<br \/>ama ellerimde ki mektuplar\u0131 g\u00f6remedin olric\u2026<br \/>`Onlar\u0131 \u015fimdi adreslerine do\u011fru f\u0131rlat\u0131yorum\u00b4 dedim\u2026<br \/>R\u00fczgar\u0131n ya\u011fmurun \u00f6n\u00fcne savurdum bir bir&#8230; U\u00e7tular \u0131slanarak&#8230;.<br \/>bug\u00fcn kendime mektuplar\u0131m\u0131 postalamak i\u00e7in \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131m soka\u011fa\u2026<br \/>ben de tak\u0131ld\u0131m k\u00f6\u015felerine\u2026<br \/>biliyorsun ya En g\u00fczeli senin hi\u00e7 gitmeyece\u011fini bilmek (di) olric&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>\u00e7ekilip i\u00e7imin kuytular\u0131na her ne varsa birikmi\u015f i\u00e7eride<br \/>d\u00f6kmek var akl\u0131mda yeni mektup sayfalar\u0131na\u2026<br \/>tut beni olric\u2026 beni her \u015feye ra\u011fmen tut\u2026<br \/>yoksa karanl\u0131klarda yok olaca\u011f\u0131m\u2026<\/p>\n<p>Ki A\u015fk; ac\u0131tan\u2026 kanayan yaran\u0131n yan\u0131nda g\u00f6zlerinin \u00f6zlemi\u2026<br \/>g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n tuzlu tad\u0131\u2026karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n g\u00f6lgesinin ayak izi \u2026<br \/>belki sen\u2026 belki ben\u2026belki biz olamay\u0131\u015f\u0131m\u0131z\u2026<br \/>belki a\u015fk\u00b4\u0131n korkuya galip gelemedi\u011fi meydan\u2026<br \/>Ki a\u015fk hep sahip oldu\u011fum da hi\u00e7 fark edemedi\u011fim olric!&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Belki ben etiketimi serseri may\u0131n yap\u0131\u015ft\u0131rm\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131mdan\u2026<br \/>belki korkusuzlu\u011fumdan bir o kadar adam gibi olu\u015fumdan\u2026<br \/>belki de sivri topuk giyip sal\u0131namay\u0131\u015f\u0131mdan b\u00f6yleyim\u2026<br \/>i\u00e7imde ki g\u00fc\u00e7 uzun zamand\u0131r beni havaland\u0131ramayacak kadar \u0131\u015f\u0131ks\u0131z\u2026<br \/>kanatlar\u0131msa hi\u00e7 olmad\u0131 melek de\u011filim\u2026yada var\u2026<br \/>olsam olsam \u015feytan\u2026ama \u015feytanda bir melek di de\u011fil mi &#8230;<br \/>kullanma k\u0131lavuzum yok sorun beklide bu olric\u2026<br \/>yan\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir ger\u00e7ek<\/p>\n<p>\u00d6nce bir \u015feyleri resmetmenin zorlu\u011funu fark ettim&#8230;<br \/>Sen ki resmedilemeyecek kadar gizlere b\u00fcr\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015fs\u00fcn..<br \/>ne kadar kaz\u0131sam hep pentimento olric..!.<br \/>\u0130\u00e7imin sakl\u0131s\u0131na b\u00f6yle bitimsiz bir ac\u0131 yerle\u015fmi\u015fken nas\u0131l s\u00f6ylemeli\u2026<br \/>kime ne anlatmal\u0131\u2026 kimden ummal\u0131 bir \u00e7\u0131k\u0131\u015f&#8230;<br \/>ki Yusuf \u00e7\u0131k o kuyudan \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131klar\u0131yla \u00fcrperirken ruhum\u2026<br \/>Olmayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bile bile&#8230;<br \/>seni inad\u0131na kirletmeyen\u2026seni b\u00fcy\u00fcten\u2026<br \/>seni allayan pullayan\u2026<br \/>seni bir ba\u015fka raftan al\u0131p bir ba\u015fka rafa koyan<br \/>ve bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc en uygun mekan\u0131 bulamayan\u2026<br \/>sana ki hi\u00e7bir mekan\u0131 yak\u0131\u015ft\u0131ramayan a\u015fk\u00b4t\u0131<\/p>\n<p>Ben\u2026A\u015fk belki&#8230; diyerek \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131m yola\u2026<br \/>A\u015fk belki\u2026 her bitenle ba\u015flayand\u0131\u2026<br \/>Ba\u015flayamad\u0131m olric!&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>a\u015fk dedi\u011fim benden do\u011fand\u0131&#8230;<br \/>gidi\u015fimin en b\u00fcy\u00fck nedeni Uzaklar\u0131na \u00e7ekilip\u2026 uzaklar\u0131ndan bakmak\u2026<br \/>seni yeniden do\u011furmakt\u0131\u2026<br \/>Kim bilirdi ki gitmeye karar verenin\u2026<br \/>gitmek i\u00e7in hangi s\u00f6z\u00fcn ard\u0131na gizlendi\u011fini?<br \/>D\u00f6nmek i\u00e7in elbet gitmek gerekir ama sen fazla a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131n k\u0131y\u0131ndan\u2026<br \/>\u00c7ek k\u00fcrekleri olric&#8230; \u00e7ek k\u00fcrekleri &#8230;<br \/>biliyorsun ki ne kadar \u00e7eksen asla k\u0131y\u0131lara ula\u015famayaca\u011f\u0131z!<\/p>\n<p>K\u0131\u015f y\u00fcklenmi\u015fken beyaz dallar\u0131na a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131n..<br \/>ocak\u00b4t\u0131 \u015fubat\u00b4t\u0131 en son mart\u00b4t\u0131\u2026<br \/>K\u0131\u015f a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ta\u015f\u0131t\u0131yorken kalplere\u2026 buza kestiriyorken y\u00fcrekleri\u2026<br \/>bana d\u00f6n\u00fck ad\u0131mlar\u0131n\u0131n yava\u015flamas\u0131<br \/>havan\u0131n so\u011fuklu\u011fundad\u0131r kand\u0131rmacas\u0131nday\u0131m\u2026<br \/>Oysa a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131 veren\u2026<br \/>i\u00e7imdeki H\u00fczn\u00fcn \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda ellerimi s\u0131k\u0131\u015f\u0131mla avu\u00e7lar\u0131ma dolan kan\u2026<br \/>ac\u0131s\u0131yla burkulan y\u00fcz\u00fcmdeki g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131\u2026<br \/>ve hi\u00e7 bitmeyece\u011fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n orta yeri&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>E\u011fer yeniden gelseydim hayata deyip kalakal\u0131yorum\u2026<br \/>&#8220;E\u011fer yeniden gelme \u015fans\u0131m olsayd\u0131 hayata&#8230;<br \/>t\u00fcm hatalar\u0131m\u0131 yeniden ya\u015fard\u0131m&#8221; diyen \u015fairin<br \/>dibe vurmu\u015f umutsuzlu\u011fuyla kar\u015f\u0131 kar\u015f\u0131yay\u0131m\u2026<br \/>Bir daha d\u00f6nemeyecek olmak&#8230; bir daha ba\u015flayamayacak olmak&#8230;<br \/>bir daha gelmeyecek olmak\u2026bir dahas\u0131 olmayacak olric&#8230;<br \/>bir dahas\u0131 hi\u00e7 olmayacak &#8230;<\/p>\n<p>En keskin can al\u0131c\u0131 virajlar\u0131n\u0131 takipteyim \u015fimdi d\u00f6n\u00fclesi yollar\u0131n&#8230;<br \/>K\u0131\u015f h\u00e2l\u00e2 duruyor oldu\u011fu yerde&#8230; Ben duruyorum\u2026<br \/>sen yan\u0131mdan h\u0131zla ge\u00e7iyorsun uzaklara \u2026.<br \/>Oysa bilmiyorsun ben Uzaklara yollanacak bir mektubu ta\u015f\u0131yorum i\u00e7imde\u2026<br \/>Yaz\u0131lanlar \u00e7oktan yaz\u0131ld\u0131&#8230; ya\u015fand\u0131 ve bitti olric&#8230;<br \/>yaz\u0131lanlar \u00e7oktan yaz\u0131ld\u0131 bitti&#8230;<br \/>asla yinelemeyece\u011fiz bir daha!<\/p>\n<p>Nereye gitsem yabanc\u0131y\u0131m\u2026<br \/>ve yabanc\u0131 dedi\u011fim g\u00fcz hep ba\u015fka\u2026hazan ba\u015fka\u2026<br \/>Havada dolanan ya\u011fmur y\u00fckl\u00fc bulutun tad\u0131 ba\u015fka\u2026<br \/>ye\u015filine aldand\u0131\u011f\u0131m sonbaharda solan yapra\u011f\u0131n izi ba\u015fka\u2026<br \/>bilmiyorsun\u2026<br \/>ka\u00e7 gece intihar sehpalar\u0131na kendim vurdum tekmeyi<br \/>ka\u00e7 gece giyotin alt\u0131nda kesildim<br \/>ka\u00e7 gece namludan bakt\u0131m dolunaya\u2026<br \/>ka\u00e7 gece senden bittim\u2026u\u00e7urumundan d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm ka\u00e7 kere bilmiyorsun olric\u2026<\/p>\n<p>seni aram\u0131yorum uzun zamand\u0131r\u2026seni bulmuyorum\u2026<br \/>seni yabanc\u0131la\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u2026 kaybetti\u011fim \u2026<br \/>bulamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m kendimde bile aram\u0131yorum \u2026<br \/>ki buldu\u011fum yerde yitirme kesinli\u011fi kar\u015f\u0131mda apa\u00e7\u0131k duruyor\u2026<br \/>bile bile sokuyor kendini akrep\u2026<br \/>bile bile gizli \u00f6l\u00fcmlere mezar kaz\u0131yorum\u2026<br \/>bo\u011faz\u0131ma dayal\u0131 b\u0131\u00e7a\u011f\u0131n sanc\u0131s\u0131 kanad\u0131k\u00e7a biraz daha \u00f6l\u00fcyorum\u2026<br \/>bundan sonras\u0131 hissizlik\u2026 \u00f6tesi ise silikle\u015fecek\u2026<br \/>sus olric\u2026<br \/>sus sonsuza kadar\u2026 ne sesini duymak istiyorum ne sessizli\u011fini&#8230;<br \/>hi\u00e7 bilmedin i\u00e7imde kanayan sanc\u0131n\u0131n derinli\u011fini<\/p>\n<p>Art\u0131k hi\u00e7bir \u015feyine d\u00f6nmeyece\u011fim g\u00f6zlerimin \u0131\u015f\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131 s\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f y\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc<br \/>Ki seni her sabah suskunlu\u011fumla b\u0131raksayd\u0131m<br \/>bu kadar yok olmayacak bu kadar tiz\u00b4le\u015fmeyecektin\u2026<br \/>y\u00fcrek at\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n &#8220;dursun art\u0131k&#8221; istemiyle bakakalacaks\u0131n\u2026<br \/>nafile&#8230; nafile&#8230;<br \/>bir kere ba\u015flad\u0131n m\u0131 art\u0131k &#8220;bitmek&#8221; denen kayboluyor\u2026<br \/>s\u00fcrekli ba\u015fl\u0131yorsun\u2026<br \/>s\u00fcrekli ard\u0131 ard\u0131na ba\u011flanm\u0131\u015f ip gibi as\u0131l\u0131 kal\u0131yorsun zamana\u2026<br \/>dursa ne \u00e7\u0131kar\u2026 ba\u015flad\u0131 ve bitmeyecek\u2026sadece y\u00f6n de\u011fi\u015ftirecek\u2026<br \/>g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fc de\u011fi\u015ftirecek\u2026isim de\u011fi\u015ftirecek\u2026renk&#8230; mekan&#8230; dil&#8230;<br \/>ama bitmeyecek hi\u00e7 olric\u2026<br \/>ki her \u015feye bir s\u00f6zleri var olric\u2026<br \/>ben ne kadar her \u015feye susuyorsam<br \/>onlar o kadar her \u015feye \u00e7ok tan\u0131d\u0131km\u0131\u015f gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyorlar\u2026<\/p>\n<p>kim olric kim \u2026.<br \/>kim sendeki senden &#8230;ba\u015fka bir sen olu\u015fturmadan<br \/>seni kabul etmeyi &#8230;ta ba\u015ftan kendine s\u00f6ylemi\u015f<br \/>ta ba\u015ftan g\u00f6ze alabilmi\u015fti ki\u2026<\/p>\n<p>k\u0131\u015f\u0131n dondurucu so\u011fu\u011fu kadar dayan\u0131lmazd\u0131 zaman\u2026<br \/>kitap raflar\u0131na kafam\u0131 g\u00f6m\u00fcp arad\u0131\u011f\u0131m as\u0131l bulmak istedi\u011fimdi\u2026<br \/>arad\u0131\u011f\u0131m neydi olric\u2026<\/p>\n<p>k\u0131\u015f ki \u00f6n\u00fcm\u00fc kesmeyi sevdi hep\u2026<br \/>ama ben k\u0131\u015f\u00b4a inat bir c\u00fcmleyle a\u00e7t\u0131m yollar\u0131 bildin hep!&#8230;<br \/>ahh i\u015fte\u2026<br \/>&#8220;hep olmayacaklar\u0131 m\u0131 ister insan\u2026 hep olmayaca\u011fa m\u0131 y\u00f6nlendirir<br \/>yoksa olaylar\u0131&#8221;<br \/>i\u00e7imdekiler eyl\u00fcl dans\u0131ndan geri kalanlar ver elini olric\u2026<br \/>a\u015fk\u00b4\u0131n bizi b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 sahilden ba\u015flay\u0131p b\u0131rakal\u0131m i\u00e7imizdeki<br \/>t\u00fcm gereksiz cam k\u0131r\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n<p>ben elime bez bebe\u011fimi al\u0131p oturay\u0131m cam pervazlar\u0131nda\u2026<br \/>ben u\u00e7uray\u0131m u\u00e7urtmam\u0131\u2026sen bilyelerini yuvarla yoku\u015f a\u015fa\u011f\u0131<br \/>ver elini olric..<br \/>&#8220;her \u015fey g\u00fczel olacak \u2026buda ge\u00e7ecek\u2026<br \/>sen g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fcs\u00fcn&#8221; diye diye yolu yar\u0131lad\u0131k bak!&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Az\u00b4\u0131m olric&#8230;az\u0131msan\u0131yorum&#8230;az\u0131m san\u0131yorum!&#8230;<br \/>gidip bir k\u00f6\u015fede biriktirme zaman\u0131m geldide ge\u00e7ti bile\u2026<br \/>ki az zamanda ne \u015fiirler biriktirmi\u015ftim i\u00e7imde\u2026<br \/>sen \u015fiirleri bilir misin olric? Ben bildi\u011fini bilirim\u2026<br \/>yorgunlu\u011fumun kimsesizli\u011finde titredi\u011fin her gece \u2026<br \/>olric bir tek sendin omzunda dinlendi\u011fim&#8230;<br \/>Sen ile ben olric\u2026<br \/>\u00f6\u011frenmeliydik yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n ka\u00e7 bucak oldu\u011funu&#8230;<br \/>ve bir ve iki ve \u00fc\u00e7 olric\u2026d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f yok\u2026<br \/>Sen ve ben\u2026t\u00fckendi\u011finde yitti\u011finde her \u015fey &#8220;ya\u015fand\u0131 bitti&#8221;<br \/>diyebilecek g\u00fcc\u00fc \u015fimdiden toplamal\u0131yd\u0131k\u2026<br \/>Ge\u00e7 mi kald\u0131k? Olric\u2026<br \/>Ge\u00e7 kald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 anlamak i\u00e7in bile mi \u00e7ok ge\u00e7 kald\u0131k yoksa<br \/>Do\u011fruya\u2026<br \/>ne varsa beklenen.. aras\u0131 kapat\u0131lamayacak mesafelerce ge\u00e7 kald\u0131k\u2026<br \/>Bitmek varsa e\u011fer\u2026 ge\u00e7mi\u015fi ak sayfalara kaydedecek \u2026<br \/>silmeyecek beyaza boyayacak zaman bitti olric&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Bir an da\u2026 hi\u00e7 olmayacak bir zamanda\u2026<br \/>nedir bu kalabal\u0131k bu kurtlar sofras\u0131? Ellerinde pankartlar\u2026<br \/>`A\u015fk bir ihtil\u00e2ldir!\u00b4 \u2013 `A\u015fk bir ba\u015fkala\u015f\u0131md\u0131r!\u00b4 \u2013<\/p>\n<p>`A\u015fk bir yiti\u015ftir!\u00b4 \u2013 A\u015fk bir ihanettir!<br \/>Semender ate\u015fiyle etraf\u0131m\u0131 sarm\u0131\u015flar elini uzat olric\u2026<br \/>uzat elini&#8230; ben kendi ihtil\u00e2limden endi\u015feliyim\u2026..<br \/>ben her dokundu\u011fumu inciten\u2026<br \/>ben her uzand\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 yok edecek bir felaket kadar felaket!<\/p>\n<p>A\u015fk belki\u2026 a\u011flamakt\u0131r&#8230;a\u011flad\u0131k\u00e7a anlars\u0131n\u2026anlad\u0131k\u00e7a a\u011flars\u0131n\u2026<br \/>Nas\u0131l da eritir g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131 insan\u0131\u2026Gel seninle bir daha a\u011flayal\u0131m \u2026<br \/>Ya\u015fanm\u0131\u015flara\u2026 ya\u015fanmam\u0131\u015flara\u2026 bir de hi\u00e7 ya\u015fanamayacaklara<br \/>A\u011flamak g\u00fczeldir olric\u2026 a\u011flamak ki y\u00fcre\u011fin temizlik eylemi derler\u2026<br \/>Ama bilmezmisin cam k\u0131r\u0131klar\u0131 temizlenmiyor olric!<\/p>\n<p>Her g\u00fcn bir \u015feyler de\u011fi\u015fiyor\u2026<br \/>ard\u0131mda B\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131m hi\u00e7bir \u015feyin b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131m gibi kalmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 biliyorum\u2026<br \/>kendimin bile o k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck \u015fehirdeki gibi olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilmek<br \/>her defas\u0131nda i\u00e7imi bir par\u00e7a daha ac\u0131t\u0131yor\u2026<br \/>kalan sadece benden ufak tefek par\u00e7alar\u2026<br \/>\u00e7ocuklu\u011fumu g\u00f6mm\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm o \u015fehre\u2026k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck mutluluklar\u0131m\u0131&#8230;<br \/>zamansa inad\u0131na tepeleyip ge\u00e7iyor her \u015feyi\u2026<br \/>beni\u2026 seni\u2026 an\u0131lar\u0131n her an\u0131n\u0131&#8230;<br \/>zaman ilerledik\u00e7e silinece\u011fine netle\u015fiyor ge\u00e7mi\u015f\u2026<br \/>sat\u0131r aralar\u0131 canlan\u0131veriyor<br \/>isimler y\u00fcz hatlar\u0131na b\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fcp \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yorlar kar\u015f\u0131ma\u2026<br \/>Ne desem az\u2026 ne desem \u00e7ok\u2026<br \/>ne desem bo\u015f\u2026ne desem yersiz ve yetersiz<br \/>A\u015fk\u00b4\u0131na vurdum ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131\u2026 iflah olmam\u2026BEN ADAM OLMAM\u2026<br \/>ne kadar su verirsen ver\u2026art\u0131k susuzlu\u011fumu gideremezsin<br \/>ne kadar \u0131\u015f\u0131k tutarsan tut\u2026 art\u0131k karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 \u0131\u015f\u0131tamazs\u0131n<br \/>i\u00e7imde hi\u00e7 dinmeyen bir f\u0131s\u0131lt\u0131 olarak kalacaks\u0131n<br \/>olric!&#8230; seni kaybetmek bir daha bulamamak demekti\u2026<br \/>ge\u00e7 anlad\u0131m!<\/p>\n<p>\u015eimdi g\u00f6lgemize gitmeleri yerle\u015ftirip `uzak\u00b4 dedikleri yeri<br \/>hedefleyelim gel seninle Olric&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>seninle konu\u015fmal\u0131yd\u0131m olric<br \/>\u00e7ok \u00e7ok \u00f6nceleri ilk kar\u015f\u0131la\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131mda\u2026k\u0131r\u0131lmam\u0131\u015fken\u2026incinmemi\u015fken..<br \/>hen\u00fcz bu kadar yorulmam\u0131\u015fken\u2026<br \/>\u015fimdi ne kadar konu\u015fsam g\u00f6zlerindeki o pus hi\u00e7 gitmiyor&#8230;<br \/>hi\u00e7 gitmeyecek&#8230; anl\u0131yorum\u2026<br \/>Neden bu kadar \u00fczg\u00fcn suskunlu\u011funa anlat\u0131yordun ac\u0131n\u0131?<br \/>neden hep denizin kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na \u2026 ayn\u0131 yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7inde kayboluyordun?<br \/>neden hep susuyordun?<br \/>neden hep susuyorduk?<br \/>neden hep&#8230;<br \/>seninle konu\u015fmal\u0131yd\u0131m olric<br \/>ne kadar da benden oldu\u011funu anlatmal\u0131yd\u0131m\u2026.<br \/>kendini art\u0131k dinlemek zorunda oldu\u011funu bir \u015fekilde anlatmal\u0131yd\u0131m sana<br \/>bo\u015f bo\u015f bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131n kalabal\u0131klardan de\u011fil\u2026 kendinden medet&#8230;<br \/>o&#8230;benim evet&#8230; yani sen<br \/>ben olric, sen olric&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>seninle konu\u015fmal\u0131yd\u0131m olric<br \/>zaman akt\u0131 ge\u00e7ti yan\u0131ndan\u2026 durdun hep\u2026bir \u015feyler ge\u00e7ip giderken<br \/>senden \u00e7ok \u015fey al\u0131p g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc bile bile durdun\u2026<br \/>sevgililer hep gider olric&#8230;biz kal\u0131r\u0131z artakalan onlardan<br \/>ve bize b\u0131rakt\u0131klar\u0131 cam k\u0131r\u0131klar\u0131&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>bir g\u00fcn yar\u0131n diye bir \u015fey olmayacak olric\u2026<br \/>yar\u0131n\u00b4\u0131m\u0131z bize varmadan ne m\u00fcmk\u00fcnse ya yapmal\u0131y\u0131z beraberce<br \/>yada \u00f6lmeliyiz olric\u2026ya tut elimden..yada b\u0131rak \u00f6lelim\u2026<br \/>ki r\u00fcyalar\u0131m kabusa d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcp bizi kirletiyor olric\u2026<\/p>\n<p>D\u00fc\u015flerin en g\u00fczelinde \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131n kar\u015f\u0131ma olric&#8230;<br \/>D\u00fc\u015flerin en g\u00fczelini en g\u00fczel yapan\u2026 senin duru\u015fun&#8230;<br \/>bak\u0131\u015f\u0131n&#8230; ve suskunlu\u011fundu.<br \/>Kendine &#8220;Y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc d\u00f6kme k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck k\u0131z&#8221; dedirtecek kadar hazand\u0131n..<br \/>S\u00f6ylesene olric bu defa susma &#8230;Bir dahas\u0131 olur mu d\u00fc\u015flerin?<br \/>\u015eimdi Al yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 \u00f6rt \u00fczerine olric&#8230;<br \/>Belki o vakit b\u0131rak\u0131p her \u015feyi\u2026<br \/>gelirim bir yerlerden ba\u015flamak i\u00e7in yeniden\u2026<br \/>evet korkularla inan\u00e7s\u0131zl\u0131klarla\u2026k\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015fl\u0131klarla\u2026kar\u015f\u0131 kar\u015f\u0131yay\u0131z\u2026<br \/>ama bil ki korkular ille de sebepli olric&#8230;<br \/>&#8220;Sevdi\u011fini incitir insan&#8221; diyenleri hakl\u0131 \u00e7\u0131karacak kadar ac\u0131yla<br \/>yan\u0131\u015f\u0131m.<br \/>Ne ekersen onu bi\u00e7ersin diyen r\u00fczgar\u0131m sonras\u0131ndaki f\u0131rt\u0131nalar\u0131m\u2026<br \/>Bir \u015fiire vurulup da hi\u00e7bir \u015fiir olamay\u0131\u015f\u0131m&#8230;<br \/>ve nerede\u2026 nas\u0131l\u2026<br \/>ne zaman sonlanaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 art\u0131k 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