\u00a0<\/p>\n
“BANA DO\u011eRU GELEN K\u0130M?”YA DA
\u015e\u0130MD\u0130K\u0130 ZAMANDA
B\u0130R MOB\u0130L, B\u0130R\u0130NC\u0130 TEK\u0130L \u015eAHIS<\/p>\n
D\u00f6k\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f bedenim kimyas\u0131na pirincin, yokedilerek kalsiyumun b\u00fcy\u00fcs\u00fc yazg\u0131m belirlenmi\u015f.Her an, ho\u015f geldin diyorum bana do\u011fru gelene, dalgalanan duygular\u0131mla. Sark\u0131yorum tavandan (bir tavan varm\u0131\u015f\u00e7as\u0131na) yery\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn (varoldu\u011funu umarak) renklerini bilmeme kar\u015f\u0131n – lal rengi, \u00e7ivit mavisi ve sar\u0131 – ve onlar\u0131n yalanlamalar\u0131n\u0131 – tutku, dinginlik ve \u00f6l\u00fcm – kendimle i\u015faretliyorum yan\u0131, y\u00f6reyi – bir a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 bir yukar\u0131, bir yukar\u0131 bir a\u015fa\u011f\u0131, sa\u011f sol, sa\u011f sol.
Y\u00f6nlerin bulan\u0131kl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda bir sorumluluk bu! Uluma geri tepiliyor b\u00f6ylece, bana do\u011fru gelene kar\u015f\u0131! Bir iskeletler zinciri tutuyor beni havada, uzay konusunda bir unutkanl\u0131k y\u00fcklemeye ve devindi\u011fim c\u0131l\u0131z \u00f6nlemleri y\u0131kmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015farak. So\u011fukkanl\u0131 bir \u00e7aba! Ben, kusursuz bir porte olmay\u0131 ye\u011flerdim, oysa. \u0130\u015fte \u015furac\u0131kta, \u00f6zl\u00fcyorum sol anahtar\u0131m\u0131 ve notalar\u0131m\u0131. Umursamam,
nereye da\u011f\u0131l\u0131rlarsa da\u011f\u0131ls\u0131nlar, daha sonra…<\/p>\n
\u015eimdilik, hava ak\u0131m\u0131n\u0131n istencine boyun e\u011fmi\u015fim, sinekler \u0131rz\u0131na ge\u00e7erken uzant\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131n, s\u00fcrd\u00fcr\u00fcyorum dans\u0131m\u0131 bu dikey tabut i\u00e7re, g\u00fcnden geceye, geceden g\u00fcne, ben t\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc ezip ge\u00e7inceye ve “Bana do\u011fru giden kim?” in yatay bilgisine ula\u015f\u0131ncaya dek!<\/p>\n
\u00a0<\/p>\n
Nilg\u00fcn MARMARA<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
\u00a0 “BANA DO\u011eRU GELEN K\u0130M?”YA DA\u015e\u0130MD\u0130K\u0130 ZAMANDAB\u0130R MOB\u0130L, B\u0130R\u0130NC\u0130 TEK\u0130L \u015eAHIS D\u00f6k\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f bedenim kimyas\u0131na pirincin, yokedilerek kalsiyumun b\u00fcy\u00fcs\u00fc yazg\u0131m belirlenmi\u015f.Her an, ho\u015f geldin diyorum bana do\u011fru gelene, dalgalanan duygular\u0131mla. Sark\u0131yorum tavandan (bir tavan varm\u0131\u015f\u00e7as\u0131na) yery\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn (varoldu\u011funu umarak) renklerini bilmeme kar\u015f\u0131n – lal rengi, \u00e7ivit mavisi ve sar\u0131 – ve onlar\u0131n yalanlamalar\u0131n\u0131 – tutku, dinginlik ve […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[165],"tags":[],"class_list":{"0":"post-5226","1":"post","2":"type-post","3":"status-publish","4":"format-standard","6":"category-nilgun-marmara"},"yoast_head":"\n