A\u015fk\u0131 konu\u015fmak i\u00e7in dudaklar\u0131m\u0131 kutsanm\u0131\u015f ate\u015fle temizledim,ama hi\u00e7bir s\u00f6zc\u00fck bulamad\u0131m.
A\u015fktan haberdar oldu\u011fumda s\u00f6zler c\u0131l\u0131z bir h\u0131\u00e7k\u0131r\u0131\u011fa d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc,y\u00fcre\u011fimdeki \u015fark\u0131 derin bir sessizli\u011fe g\u00f6m\u00fcld\u00fc.
Ey bana gizlerinin ve mucizelerinin varl\u0131\u011f\u0131na inand\u0131\u011f\u0131m A\u015fk ‘\u0131 soran sizler,
A\u015fk pe\u00e7esiyle beni ku\u015fatt\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan beri ben size a\u015fk\u0131n gidi\u015fini ve de\u011ferini sormaya geliyorum.
Sorular\u0131m\u0131 kim yan\u0131tlayabilir? Sorular\u0131m kendi i\u00e7imdeki i\u00e7in;kendi kendime cevaplamak istiyorum.
\u0130\u00e7inizden kim i\u00e7imdeki benli\u011fi bana ve ruhumu ruhuma a\u00e7\u0131klayabilir ?
A\u015fk ad\u0131na s\u00f6yleyin,y\u00fcre\u011fimde yanan, g\u00fcc\u00fcm\u00fc t\u00fcketen ve isteklerimi yok eden bu ate\u015f nedir ?
Ruhumu kavrayan bu yumu\u015fak ve kaba gizli eller nedir; y\u00fcre\u011fimi kaplayan bu ac\u0131 sevin\u00e7 ve tatl\u0131 keder \u015farab\u0131 nedir ?
Bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131m bu g\u00f6r\u00fcnmeyen,merak etti\u011fim a\u00e7\u0131klanamayan,hissetti\u011fim hissedilemeyen \u015fey nedir ? H\u0131\u00e7k\u0131r\u0131klar\u0131mda kahkahan\u0131n yank\u0131s\u0131ndan daha g\u00fczel,sevin\u00e7ten daha mutluluk verici bir keder var.
Neden kendimi beni \u00f6ld\u00fcren ve sonra \u015fafak s\u00f6kene kadar tekrar dirilten, h\u00fccremi \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011fa bo\u011fan bu bilinmeyen g\u00fcce veriyorum ?
Uyan\u0131kl\u0131k hayaletleri kurumu\u015f g\u00f6zkapaklar\u0131m\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnde titre\u015fiyor ve ta\u015ftan yata\u011f\u0131m\u0131n etraf\u0131nda d\u00fc\u015f g\u00f6lgeleri u\u00e7u\u015fuyor.
A\u015fk diye seslendi\u011fimiz \u015fey nedir ? S\u00f6yleyin bana, b\u00fct\u00fcn anlay\u0131\u015flara s\u0131zan ve \u00e7a\u011flarda gizli olan o s\u0131r nedir ?
Ba\u015flang\u0131\u00e7ta olan ve her\u015feyle sonu\u00e7lanan bu anlay\u0131\u015f nedir ?
Ya\u015fam ‘dan ve \u00d6l\u00fcm ‘den, Ya\u015fam ‘dan daha acayip , \u00d6l\u00fcm ‘den daha derin bir d\u00fc\u015f olu\u015fturan bu uyan\u0131kl\u0131k nedir ?
S\u00f6yleyin bana dostlar, i\u00e7inizde Ya\u015fam ‘\u0131n parmaklar\u0131 ruhuna dokundu\u011funda Ya\u015fam uykusundan uyanmayan biri var m\u0131 ?
Y\u00fcre\u011finin sevdi\u011finin \u00e7a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131yla babas\u0131ndan ve annesinden vazge\u00e7meyecek kimse var m\u0131?
\u0130\u00e7inizden kim ruhunun se\u00e7ti\u011fi ki\u015fiyi bulmak i\u00e7in uzak denizlere a\u00e7\u0131lmaz, \u00e7\u00f6lleri a\u015fmaz, da\u011flar\u0131n doru\u011funa t\u0131rmanmaz ?
Hangi gencin y\u00fcre\u011fi tatl\u0131 nefesli, g\u00fczel sesi ve b\u00fcy\u00fcl\u00fc dokunu\u015flu elleriyle ruhunu kendinden ge\u00e7iren k\u0131z\u0131n pe\u015finden d\u00fcnyan\u0131n sonuna gitmez ?
Hangi varl\u0131k dualar\u0131n\u0131 bir yakar\u0131\u015f ve ba\u011f\u0131\u015f olarak dinleyen bir Tanr\u0131 ‘n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde y\u00fcre\u011fini t\u00fcts\u00fc diye yakmaz ?
D\u00fcn kap\u0131s\u0131ndan ge\u00e7enlere A\u015fk’\u0131n s\u0131rlar\u0131 ve de\u011feri sorulan tap\u0131na\u011f\u0131n giri\u015finde durmu\u015ftum. Ve \u00f6n\u00fcmden \u00e7ok zay\u0131flam\u0131\u015f, y\u00fcz\u00fc h\u00fcz\u00fcnl\u00fc ya\u015fl\u0131 bir adam i\u00e7 \u00e7ekerek ge\u00e7ti ve \u015f\u00f6yle dedi :
“A\u015fk bize ilk insandan beri ba\u011f\u0131\u015flanm\u0131\u015f bir g\u00fc\u00e7s\u00fczl\u00fckt\u00fcr.”
Yi\u011fit bir gen\u00e7 kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131k verdi :
“A\u015fk bug\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc ge\u00e7mi\u015fe ve gelece\u011fe ba\u011flar.”
Ard\u0131ndan kederli y\u00fczl\u00fc bir kad\u0131n h\u0131\u00e7k\u0131rarak \u015f\u00f6yle dedi :
“A\u015fk cehennem ma\u011faralar\u0131nda s\u00fcr\u00fcnen kara engereklerin \u00f6l\u00fcmc\u00fcl zehiridir.
Zehir \u00e7iy gibi taze g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr, susuz ruhlar aceleyle i\u00e7er onu ; ama bir kere zehirlenince hastalan\u0131r ve yava\u015f yava\u015f \u00f6l\u00fcrler.”
Sonra g\u00fcl yanakl\u0131 bir k\u0131z g\u00fcl\u00fcmseyerek dedi ki :
“A\u015fk \u015eafak ‘\u0131n k\u0131zlar\u0131 taraf\u0131ndan sunulan ve g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc ruhlara g\u00fc\u00e7 kat\u0131p onlar\u0131 y\u0131ld\u0131zlara \u00e7\u0131karan bir \u015farapt\u0131r.”
Ard\u0131ndan \u00e7at\u0131k ka\u015fl\u0131, kara giysili, sakall\u0131 bir adam geldi :
“A\u015fk gen\u00e7likte ba\u015flay\u0131p biten k\u00f6r cahilliktir.”
Bir ba\u015fkas\u0131 g\u00fcl\u00fcmseyerek a\u00e7\u0131klad\u0131:
“A\u015fk insan\u0131n tanr\u0131lar\u0131 m\u00fcmk\u00fcn oldu\u011funca fazla g\u00f6rmesini sa\u011flayan kutsal bir bilgidir.”
Sonra yolunu asas\u0131yla bulan k\u00f6r bir adam konu\u015ftu :
“A\u015fk ruhlardan varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n s\u0131rlar\u0131n\u0131 gizleyen k\u00f6r edici bir sistir;
y\u00fcrek tepeler aras\u0131nda sadece titre\u015fen arzu hayaletlerini g\u00f6r\u00fcr ve sessiz vadilerin \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131n yank\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 duyar.”
\u00c7alg\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7alan gen\u00e7 bir adam \u015fark\u0131 s\u00f6yledi :
“A\u015fk ruhun \u00e7ekirde\u011findeki yang\u0131ndan sa\u00e7\u0131lan ve d\u00fcnyay\u0131 ayd\u0131nlatan bir \u0131\u015f\u0131kt\u0131r.
Ya\u015fam ‘\u0131 bir uyan\u0131\u015fla di\u011feri aras\u0131ndaki g\u00fczel bir d\u00fc\u015f olarak g\u00f6rmemizi sa\u011flar.”
Ve pa\u00e7avraya d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f ayaklar\u0131n\u0131n \u00fczerinde s\u00fcr\u00fcklenen g\u00fc\u00e7s\u00fcz d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f \u00e7ok ya\u015fl\u0131 bir adam titrek bir sesle \u015funlar\u0131 s\u00f6yledi :
“A\u015fk mezar\u0131n sessizli\u011finde bedenin dinlenmesi, Sonsuzluk ‘un derinliklerinde ruhun huzura ermesidir.”
Ve onun ard\u0131ndan gelen be\u015f ya\u015f\u0131ndaki bir \u00e7ocuk g\u00fclerek dedi ki:
“A\u015fk annemle babamd\u0131r, onlardan ba\u015fka kimse bilmez a\u015fk\u0131.”
Ve b\u00f6ylece A\u015fk’\u0131 tarif eden herkes kendi umutlar\u0131n\u0131 ve korkular\u0131n\u0131 b\u0131rakt\u0131 \u00f6n\u00fcme s\u0131r olarak.
O anda tap\u0131na\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7inden gelen bir ses duydum:
“Ya\u015fam iki yar\u0131ya ayr\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r: biri donar, biri yanar; yanan yar\u0131, A\u015fk ‘t\u0131r.”
Bunun \u00fczerine tap\u0131na\u011fa girdim , sevin\u00e7le diz \u00e7\u00f6kerek dua ettim :
“Tanr\u0131m, beni yanan alevin besleyicisi yap …
Tanr\u0131m beni kutsal ate\u015fine at …” <\/p>\n
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A\u015fk\u0131 konu\u015fmak i\u00e7in dudaklar\u0131m\u0131 kutsanm\u0131\u015f ate\u015fle temizledim,ama hi\u00e7bir s\u00f6zc\u00fck bulamad\u0131m.A\u015fktan haberdar oldu\u011fumda s\u00f6zler c\u0131l\u0131z bir h\u0131\u00e7k\u0131r\u0131\u011fa d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc,y\u00fcre\u011fimdeki \u015fark\u0131 derin bir sessizli\u011fe g\u00f6m\u00fcld\u00fc.Ey bana gizlerinin ve mucizelerinin varl\u0131\u011f\u0131na inand\u0131\u011f\u0131m A\u015fk ‘\u0131 soran sizler,A\u015fk pe\u00e7esiyle beni ku\u015fatt\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan beri ben size a\u015fk\u0131n gidi\u015fini ve de\u011ferini sormaya geliyorum.Sorular\u0131m\u0131 kim yan\u0131tlayabilir? Sorular\u0131m kendi i\u00e7imdeki i\u00e7in;kendi kendime cevaplamak istiyorum.\u0130\u00e7inizden kim i\u00e7imdeki […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[180],"tags":[],"class_list":{"0":"post-5786","1":"post","2":"type-post","3":"status-publish","4":"format-standard","6":"category-halil-cibran"},"yoast_head":"\n