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\u00c7ocuklu\u011fumdan beri haritaya ne zaman baksam g\u00f6z\u00fcm hemen bir ada arar; \u015fehir, vilayet, haval\u0131 isimlerinden hemen mavi sahile kayar… <\/p>\n\u00c7ocuklu\u011fumdan beri haritaya ne zaman baksam g\u00f6z\u00fcm hemen bir ada arar; \u015fehir, vilayet, haval\u0131 isimlerinden hemen mavi sahile kayar… <\/p>\n
Robenson Kruzoe’yu okumu\u015fumdur herhalde; unuttum gitti. Onun zoruyla mavi boyalar\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnde bir garip ada ismi okuyunca h\u00fclyaya dald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 sanm\u0131yorum. Romanlar y\u00fcz\u00fcnden adalar\u0131 sevdi\u011fimi pek ummuyorum ama belki de o y\u00fczdendir. Haritada ada g\u00f6rmeyeyim, i\u00e7imdeki dostluklar, sevgiler, bir kar\u0131ncalanmad\u0131r ba\u015flay\u0131verir. Hemen g\u00f6zlerimin i\u00e7ine bakan bir k\u00f6pek, hemen az konu\u015fan, hareketleri a\u011f\u0131r, elleri \u00e7abuk, abalar giymi\u015f bir bal\u0131k\u00e7\u0131, y\u0131rt\u0131k bir mu\u015famba kokusuyla beraber k\u00fcpe\u015fte tahtalar\u0131 kararm\u0131\u015f, boyas\u0131 atm\u0131\u015f, a\u011f\u0131r ve kaba bir sandal, sandal\u0131n pe\u015fini b\u0131rakmayan bir ku\u015f, a\u011f, bal\u0131k, pul, sahilde harikulade g\u00fczel \u00e7ocuklar, namuslu kul\u00fcbeler, k\u0131rlang\u0131\u00e7 ve d\u00fclger bal\u0131\u011f\u0131 ha\u015flamas\u0131, kereviz kokusu, bu\u011fusu t\u00fcten kara bir tencere, ufuklar\u0131 dar sisli bir deniz…<\/p>\n
Tabiat \u00e7o\u011funca dosttur. D\u00fc\u015fman gibi g\u00f6z\u00fckt\u00fc\u011f\u00fc zaman bile insano\u011fluna kudretini ve kuvvetini tecr\u00fcbe imk\u00e2nlar\u0131 veren, y\u00fcz vermez bir babad\u0131r; f\u0131rt\u0131nas\u0131nda kay\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bat\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 zaman y\u00fczmesini, r\u00fczg\u00e2r\u0131nda kul\u00fcbenin dam\u0131n\u0131 u\u00e7urdu\u011fu zaman daha sa\u011flam\u0131, daha h\u00fcnerliyi bulmay\u0131 \u00f6\u011fretiyor, canavar\u0131yla kar\u015f\u0131 kar\u015f\u0131ya b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 zaman adale kuvvetini s\u0131n\u0131yordur. Orada d\u00f6rt taraf\u0131 suyla \u00e7evrili yerde insanlar\u0131n b\u00fcy\u00fck, sa\u011flam dostluklar, sa\u011flam adaleler, namuslu g\u00fcnler ve gecelerle birbirlerine sokulmalar\u0131n\u0131, yard\u0131mla\u015fmalar\u0131n\u0131 buyuran r\u00fczg\u00e2rlar, f\u0131rt\u0131nalar, deniz canavarlar\u0131, kayalar\u0131 g\u00fcnlerce, haftalarca d\u00f6ven dalgalara ancak tabiat\u0131n buyurdu\u011fu \u015fekilde ya\u015fanabilece\u011fini, s\u0131k\u0131 ve sa\u011flam adalelerin \u00e7elimsizlere yard\u0131m i\u00e7in, keskin akl\u0131n daha k\u00f6r, daha m\u00fclayim, daha g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fcs\u00fcz ve yava\u015f akla, hatta ak\u0131ls\u0131za arkada\u015fl\u0131k i\u00e7in verildi\u011fini, \u00e7orban\u0131n \u00e7orbas\u0131zlarla taksim edilmek i\u00e7in mis gibi koktu\u011funu \u00f6\u011freten, belki de \u00f6\u011fretmeden \u00f6yle iyi, \u00f6yle m\u00fcbarek anadan do\u011fuldu\u011funu hayal ettiren bir d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceyle haritalardaki mavili\u011fin ortas\u0131nda, kocaman k\u0131talar\u0131n kenar\u0131ndaki b\u00fcy\u00fck denizlerin bir taraf\u0131na kondurulmu\u015f adalara bakar, kurar dururdum.<\/p>\n
Yatak odama da bir tane asm\u0131\u015f\u0131md\u0131r; geceleyin yatmadan \u00f6nce okudu\u011fum kitaba inanmazsam, can\u0131m s\u0131k\u0131l\u0131r da g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc kitaptan kald\u0131r\u0131rsam haritaya g\u00f6z\u00fcm ili\u015fsin diye. Haritay\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnce bir nokta ada, ada g\u00f6r\u00fcnce de hemen f\u0131rt\u0131nalar\u0131, r\u00fczg\u00e2rlar\u0131, u\u011fultular\u0131, k\u00f6pekbal\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131, sonra birdenbire adan\u0131n namuslu insanlar\u0131n\u0131 hat\u0131rlay\u0131veririm. Haritada herhangi kargac\u0131k burgac\u0131k \u015fekil alm\u0131\u015f adalara kara sevdal\u0131ya kur\u015fun d\u00f6ken bir ihtiyar kocakar\u0131n\u0131n akl\u0131 veya sezi\u015fleriyle dalar, bir \u015feyler bulup \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131r\u0131m , daha \u00e7ok \u015fekilsiz, ancak bir nokta gibi g\u00f6z\u00fcken adalar merak\u0131m\u0131 \u00e7eker.
Bir gece ans\u0131z\u0131n bir motor katranl\u0131 bir iskeleye yana\u015f\u0131r. I\u015f\u0131klar\u0131 kan portakal\u0131 k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131nda yanan haritadaki nokta adaya \u00e7\u0131k\u0131veririm. Hemen \u00fc\u00e7 g\u00fcnl\u00fck sakal\u0131 p\u0131r\u0131l p\u0131r\u0131l beyaz, orta ya\u015fl\u0131 bir adam yakalar\u0131 kalk\u0131k, gocuklu bir paltoya g\u00f6m\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f y\u00fcz\u00fcyle g\u00fclerek yan\u0131ma yakla\u015f\u0131r:<\/p>\n
“Geldin mi, karde\u015f?” der.
“Geldim, a\u011fam,” derim.
“Art\u0131k gitmeyeceksin ya?”
“Aaah,” derim. “Bir daha m\u0131?.. Bir daha m\u0131?..”
“Adam\u0131zdan iyi yoktur.”
“Yokmu\u015f, a\u011fabey,” derim.
“Babam sizlere \u00f6m\u00fcr…”<\/p>\n
G\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz bulanm\u0131\u015f, tahta havalisinden hi\u00e7 g\u00f6z\u00fckmeyen bah\u00e7eli bir eve gireriz. Bir asma \u00e7arda\u011f\u0131 alt\u0131ndan ge\u00e7eriz.<\/p>\n
“Ben bir elimi y\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc y\u0131kayay\u0131m hele…” derim.<\/p>\n
Eve girmeden sa\u011f kolda bir \u00e7e\u015fme vard\u0131r, hat\u0131rlay\u0131verir, y\u00f6nelirim. Heyecandan, \u00fcz\u00fcnt\u00fcden, utan\u00e7tan, titreye titreye, y\u00fcz\u00fcme suyu \u00e7arpa \u00e7arpa y\u0131kan\u0131r\u0131m. \u0130ki \u00fc\u00e7 ki\u015fi boynuma sar\u0131l\u0131r. Kom\u015fular seslenir. \u00dcrk\u00fct\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f tavuklar ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131r, anam a\u011flar, a\u011fam ekmek keser, bac\u0131m barda\u011f\u0131 doldurur, ben duvardaki a\u011flar\u0131 seyre dalar\u0131m.<\/p>\n
“Hava bug\u00fcn lodos muydu, a\u011fabey?” derim.
“Ba\u015flarken lodos ba\u015flad\u0131. \u0130kindiye do\u011fru bat\u0131ya \u00e7evirdi. \u015eimdi bat\u0131 karayelden esiyor, ama \u00e7evirecek, karayele \u00e7evirecek.”
“Sonu kar m\u0131d\u0131r, a\u011fabey, karayelin?”
“Geldi\u011fin yerlere kar amma bize pek ya\u011fmaz… Sen nas\u0131ls\u0131n bakal\u0131m? Rengin iyi ma\u015fallah!”
“\u00c7ok \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr, a\u011fabey!.. K\u00f6y nas\u0131l?”
“Bildi\u011fin gibi.garda\u015f! Hep \u00f6yle… \u00c7ocuklar iskambile dadand\u0131; ba\u015fka bir kusurcuklar\u0131 yok.”
“Paras\u0131na m\u0131 oynarlar ki?”
“Yok be anam! Para nerede ki paras\u0131na oynas\u0131nlar. Bal\u0131\u011f\u0131na oynarlar, misinas\u0131na oynarlar, \u00e7aparas\u0131na oynarlar, olta i\u011fneci\u011fine oynarlar. Hele bir oynaya g\u00f6rs\u00fcnler paras\u0131na da…”<\/p>\n
Hani frenklerin “Penfant prodigue” dedikleri bir o\u011flan vard\u0131r. Ben o \u00e7ocukmu\u015fum; israftan, delilikten, serserilikten d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm gibi olurum yata\u011f\u0131m\u0131n i\u00e7inde. I\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 s\u00f6nd\u00fcrmemle uykumun ba\u015flang\u0131c\u0131 aras\u0131na g\u00fcne\u015fli bir sabah, kay\u0131klar, b\u00fct\u00fcn bir bal\u0131k\u00e7\u0131 k\u00f6y\u00fc halk\u0131 dolar. Kalk\u0131k u\u00e7lar\u0131 \u00e7i\u00e7ekle bal\u0131k resimli \u00e7ifte kay\u0131klar bir anda uzakla\u015f\u0131r.<\/p>\n
Bug\u00fcn deniz y\u00fcz veren bir anne gibidir. Bu kadar naz etmemeli, bu kadar y\u00fcz vermemeli, bu kadar \u0131\u015f\u0131kl\u0131, bu kadar sakin, bu kadar lastik \u00e7izme gibi p\u0131r\u0131l p\u0131r\u0131l olmamal\u0131 deniz. Bunun yar\u0131n\u0131 var. Dalga k\u0131r\u0131k cam par\u00e7alar\u0131 gibi keskin ve so\u011fuk vurdu\u011fu zaman olacak, o canavar su ba\u015ftan girip k\u0131\u00e7tan \u00e7\u0131kacak…<\/p>\n
\u0130\u015fte \u00e7ocuklu\u011fumun ve ilk gen\u00e7li\u011fimin haritalar\u0131ndaki adalar beni, sonunda bir g\u00fcn \u00f6zledi\u011fim gibi bir adaya tesad\u00fcfen b\u0131rak\u0131verdiler. Ya\u015f\u0131m orta ya\u015f\u0131 bulmu\u015ftu ama nihayet as\u0131l yuvama d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm. Sanki on d\u00f6rt ya\u015f\u0131nda sar\u0131\u015f\u0131n bir o\u011flanken bas\u0131p gitmi\u015ftim. Bir motor beni al\u0131p b\u00fcy\u00fck \u015fehirlere g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Ya\u015fam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Cebim para g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Kad\u0131n g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm. \u015eehvet tatm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Kumar g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm. H\u0131rs\u0131zl\u0131k, mahpusane g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm. Kerhane g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm. Yankesicilerle, h\u0131rs\u0131zlarla arkada\u015fl\u0131k etmi\u015ftim. Sulanm\u0131\u015flar, sulanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. A\u00e7 yatm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Para \u00e7alm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Irza ge\u00e7mi\u015ftim. Sevmi\u015f sevilmemi\u015ftim. \u0130\u015fte bitkin, i\u015fte yorgun, i\u015fte hepsini hepsini yitirmi\u015f; gitti\u011fim motorla yeni geri d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm.<\/p>\n
\u015eimdi namuslu insanlar\u0131n aras\u0131nda ba\u015f\u0131m \u00f6n\u00fcme e\u011filmi\u015f, g\u00fclmeden, e\u011flenmeden, ho\u015fg\u00f6r\u00fc dolu, k\u00f6t\u00fcl\u00fc\u011f\u00fc g\u00f6z k\u0131rp\u0131\u015f\u0131ndan anlay\u0131nca cesaretten canavar kesilecek bir insan haliyle sessiz, sakin, a\u011fz\u0131na vur lokmas\u0131n\u0131 al bir halde bal\u0131\u011fa \u00e7\u0131kacak, iyiliklere hasret duya duya \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fcn sonunu burada kesik bir son nefesle bahtiyar bitirecektim.<\/p>\n
Sonbahar uzun ve g\u00fczel ge\u00e7ti. \u00c7ardaklardaki yapraklar k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n en son haline do\u011fru a\u011f\u0131r a\u011f\u0131r k\u0131zara k\u0131zara, k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n renk oyunlar\u0131 i\u00e7inde, d\u00fc\u015fmeden \u00f6nce ne kadar sallan\u0131p durdular.<\/p>\n
\u0130nsanlara a\u011f\u0131r a\u011f\u0131r sokulmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordum. Babadan kalma ev, anam\u0131n sayesinde g\u00fcr\u00fcl g\u00fcr\u00fcl i\u015fliyordu. Bense, orada kafam\u0131 kuma sokmu\u015f deveku\u015fu gibi oldum \u00f6nce. Art\u0131k b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fc ve gecemi burada ge\u00e7irecektim. Etraf\u0131m\u0131 \u00e7eviren insanlar\u0131n hepsini kendimden \u00e7ok iyi, \u00e7ok namuslu, hani demin s\u00f6yledi\u011fim evine d\u00f6nen “m\u00fcsrif \u00e7ocuk” ruhuyla seyrediyordum. Niyetim, yaz\u0131 yazmak bile de\u011fildi. Bal\u0131\u011fa \u00e7\u0131kacakt\u0131m. On kuru\u015fa kahve, yirmi kuru\u015fluk k\u00f6yl\u00fc sigaras\u0131 i\u00e7ecektim. Kaybetti\u011fim her \u015feyi; insanl\u0131\u011f\u0131, cesareti, s\u0131hhati, iyili\u011fi, saffeti, dostlu\u011fu, al\u0131nterini, sessizli\u011fi yeniden bulacak, belki yeniden bir adam olmasam bile bir temiz hayat\u0131n i\u00e7inde hayran, meyus ve mahcup \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc bekleyecektim. Akl\u0131ma aras\u0131ra esen yaz\u0131 yazmak arzusunu, arzusunu de\u011fil k\u00f6t\u00fc huyunu, bu tek k\u00f6t\u00fc huyu ba\u015far\u0131lar, \u015f\u00f6hretler d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeden, “d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrsem Allah can\u0131m\u0131 als\u0131n!” d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncesiyle yeniden bulabilirsem kalemsiz ka\u011f\u0131ts\u0131z da\u011flara f\u0131rlayacak, bal\u0131\u011fa \u00e7\u0131kacakt\u0131m. Yazmayacakt\u0131m. Biliyordum ki, insanlar beni pek sevmeyeceklerdi. Bir adam ki, onlar gibi de\u011fildir. Bal\u0131\u011fa \u00e7\u0131kacak olsam, “Koca evi bark\u0131 var. Ne bok yemeye bal\u0131\u011fa \u00e7\u0131kar? Deli midir nedir? Pay da almaz,” diyeceklerdi. “Baba f\u0131r\u0131n\u0131 has \u00e7\u0131karan enayi, \u00e7al\u0131\u015fm\u0131yor, bereket ki, anas\u0131 var, yoksa satar savar s\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fcr,” diyeceklerdi. Hi\u00e7bir zaman yeniden damla damla, dakikalar\u0131 duya duya, s\u0131k\u0131la patlaya; r\u00fczg\u00e2r\u0131, bal\u0131\u011f\u0131, denizi, a\u011f\u0131 seve seve \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc bekledi\u011fimi bilemeyeceklerdi.<\/p>\n
Ne zarar\u0131 vard\u0131. Ben onlar\u0131 hayalimde adan\u0131n insanlar\u0131yla \u00f6l\u00e7e \u00f6l\u00e7e, en b\u00fcy\u00fck kusurlar\u0131n\u0131 ho\u015fg\u00f6r\u00fcs\u00fczl\u00fcklerinde bularak mah\u00e7up sevecek; bir sigara, bir ada\u00e7ay\u0131, bir k\u00e2\u011f\u0131t oyunuyla r\u00fczg\u00e2rl\u0131 g\u00fcn\u00fc bitirdikten sonra yata\u011f\u0131ma yeni do\u011fmu\u015f\u00e7as\u0131na g\u00fcnahs\u0131z, hat\u0131ralar\u0131 kova kova; iyileri, kahramanlar\u0131, namuslular\u0131, hak yemezleri, al\u0131nteriyle sert tabiattan kavga ve dostlukla ekme\u011fini \u00e7\u0131kararak, birbirlerine fedak\u00e2rl\u0131klar ederek ya\u015fayanlar\u0131 seyirden duydu\u011fum hazla derin ve r\u00fcyas\u0131z bir uykuya dalacakt\u0131m. Sabahleyin yine r\u00fczg\u00e2rla, ya\u011fmurla uyanacakt\u0131m. Camlar\u0131 bu\u011fulu bir kahvenin i\u00e7inde elleri nas\u0131rl\u0131, y\u00fczleri g\u00fcne\u015f ve r\u00fczg\u00e2rla \u00e7izgili insanlar\u0131n aras\u0131nda bug\u00fcn\u00fc de bir g\u00fcnah, daha do\u011frusu bir k\u00f6t\u00fcl\u00fck i\u015flemeden bitirecektim.<\/p>\n
Onlar\u0131n aras\u0131na seyirci s\u0131fat\u0131yla sessizce kar\u0131\u015farak olduk\u00e7a mesut ya\u015fad\u0131m. \u015eehire bile inmiyordum. Her \u015fey tahayy\u00fcl etti\u011fim gibiydi. Yaln\u0131z pay meselesinde \u00e7irkin hadiseler ge\u00e7ti\u011fini i\u015fitiyor, onu da duymamazl\u0131\u011fa geliyordum.<\/p>\n
Bir sabaht\u0131. Kay\u0131k h\u00fclyalar\u0131mdaki gibi bal\u0131ktan d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. \u00c7evaleler vapura verilmi\u015fti. \u015eimdi a\u011flar\u0131 denize \u00e7arpa \u00e7arpa y\u0131k\u0131yorlard\u0131.<\/p>\n
Bal\u0131khanede hi\u00e7 tutmayan, fiyat bile verilmeyen on, onbe\u015f d\u00fclger bal\u0131\u011f\u0131 kay\u0131\u011f\u0131n k\u00fcpe\u015ftesinde h\u00e2l\u00e2 canl\u0131, ince, zar gibi kanatlar\u0131yla titre\u015fiyorlard\u0131. Biraz sonra i\u015flerini bitirmi\u015f olacaklar, hepsi orta parmaklar\u0131na birer d\u00fclger bal\u0131\u011f\u0131 takarak \u00e7ekip gideceklerdi. Umdu\u011fum gibi d\u00fclger bal\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00e7orbas\u0131 \u00e7ok evlerde t\u00fctecekti.<\/p>\n
Kay\u0131\u011f\u0131 temizleyenler sekiz ki\u015fiydi. Yedisi bizim adadand\u0131. Sekizincisi zay\u0131f, sar\u0131, hastal\u0131kl\u0131 adam\u0131 hi\u00e7 g\u00f6rmemi\u015ftim. Ne kadar dost\u00e7a, ne kadar i\u00e7ten bir sevgiyle \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n
Bal\u0131\u011f\u0131n bol \u00e7\u0131kmaya ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131 duyuldu\u011fu zaman d\u0131\u015fardan da insanlar gelirdi. D\u0131\u015fardan \u0131r\u0131ba kat\u0131lanlar pay almazlard\u0131. \u0130rip tayfas\u0131yla reis, g\u00f6n\u00fcllerinden ne koparsa o kadar bal\u0131k verirdi kendilerine.<\/p>\n
O adam da bir d\u00fclger alabilmek, bu bal\u0131\u011f\u0131 hak edebilmek i\u00e7in elinden geleni yap\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n
Nihayet i\u015f bitti. \u0130ki b\u00fcy\u00fck d\u00fclger bal\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 reis k\u0131\u00e7 alt\u0131na att\u0131. Tayfalardan birine, “Bunu bize g\u00f6t\u00fcr sonra,” dedi. “\u00d6tekilerini pay yap.”<\/p>\n
\u00dc\u00e7er tane alanlar oldu. D\u0131\u015fardan gelen bir tane versinler diye bekledi. Y\u00fcz\u00fcnde tatl\u0131 bir g\u00fcl\u00fcmseme ve \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmaktan do\u011fabilmi\u015f hafif bir k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131l\u0131k vard\u0131. Bu k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131l\u0131k pay da\u011f\u0131tan adam\u0131n elinde tek bal\u0131k kal\u0131ncaya kadar adam\u0131n yana\u011f\u0131nda durdu. Sonra birdenbire u\u00e7tu. Y\u00fcz\u00fcndeki g\u00fcl\u00fcmseme \u00f6nce tehlikeli bir halde dondu. Sand\u0131m ki, b\u00f6yle, b\u00fct\u00fcn \u00f6mr\u00fcnce b\u00f6yle donuk bir tebess\u00fcmle kal\u0131verecek adam. Etraf\u0131na bak\u0131nd\u0131. Kendine bakan birini g\u00f6rd\u00fc. G\u00fcl\u00fcmseme birdenbire y\u00fcz\u00fcnde bir meyve gibi \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fcverdi. G\u00f6zleri hayretle b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fc. Son bal\u0131\u011f\u0131 kay\u0131ktaki adam r\u0131ht\u0131ma f\u0131rlatm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Adam\u0131n y\u00fcz ifadeleri neredeyse yine eski temiz, memnun halini, taze meyve halini al\u0131verecekti. \u0130ki ad\u0131m att\u0131. Elini bal\u0131\u011fa do\u011fru uzatmak \u00fczere e\u011fildi. Ama \u00f6tekilerden, ba\u015fparma\u011f\u0131na irisinden bir tane d\u00fclger bal\u0131\u011f\u0131 takm\u0131\u015f birisi, kocaman \u00e7izmeli aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fclger bal\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n s\u0131rt\u0131na bast\u0131.<\/p>\n
“Ne o, hem\u015ferim?” dedi. “Dur bakal\u0131m. Da\u011fdan gelip ba\u011f’dakini kovmayal\u0131m.”<\/p>\n
Adam elini \u00e7ekti. Bir \u015fey s\u00f6ylemedi. S\u00f6yleyemezdi. S\u00f6yleyecek halde de\u011fildi. R\u0131ht\u0131m kahvesine do\u011fru y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc. D\u0131\u015fardan kahvenin \u00f6n\u00fcndeki seyircilerden biri seslendi.<\/p>\n
“B\u0131rak yahu! O adam da \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Veriver bir tane, ne olur? Kalkm\u0131\u015f nerelerden gelmi\u015f i\u015fte.”<\/p>\n
“Ne yapal\u0131m, gelmesinler. K\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 g\u00f6tl\u00fcyle davet mi ettik biz bunlar\u0131? O bal\u0131\u011f\u0131n bir iki bu\u00e7uklu\u011fu var. Bal\u0131k \u00e7\u0131kmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 zaman yana\u015fm\u0131yorlar a\u011f\u0131 temizlemeye hi\u00e7. Ya\u011fma yok, hem\u015ferim!”<\/p>\n
Kay\u0131ktakilerden hi\u00e7biri kalk\u0131p da, “Ay\u0131pt\u0131r yahu, ver adama,” demedi.<\/p>\n
Bir ikisi, en umduklar\u0131m konu\u015facak gibi oldular. Bekliyordum. \u015eimdi umduklar\u0131mdan birisi pay\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fen bal\u0131ktan birini, en k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc adama do\u011fru f\u0131rlatacak diye bekledim. Reis kahvenin \u00f6n\u00fcnde kahvesini \u00f6tt\u00fcr\u00fcyor, kay\u0131\u011f\u0131n as\u0131l tayfas\u0131na keyifle bak\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n
Hadiseye kar\u0131\u015fan adam, “Ay\u0131p yahu,” dedi. “Ay\u0131p!”<\/p>\n
Bu sefer konu\u015facaklar\u0131n\u0131, hatta paylar\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fen bal\u0131klardan en k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc f\u0131rlatacaklar\u0131n\u0131 sand\u0131klar\u0131mdan biri, “Sen kar\u0131\u015fma bakal\u0131m, babal\u0131k! Fazla s\u00f6ylenmeye ba\u015flad\u0131n. Ay\u0131p ne demek? Ay\u0131p yorgan alt\u0131nda.”<\/p>\n
“Baban\u0131z\u0131n mal\u0131 m\u0131 bu deniz sizin?”
“Onun babas\u0131n\u0131n mal\u0131 m\u0131?”
“De\u011fil ama, gelmi\u015f kay\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131zda \u00e7al\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f bir kere.”
“Kim gel de \u00e7al\u0131\u015f demi\u015f ona, gelmeseydi.”
Bal\u0131k verilmemi\u015f adam, kahvenin bir iskemlesine \u00e7\u00f6km\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Kahveci ba\u015f\u0131na dikilmi\u015fti.
“Kalkaca\u011f\u0131z, kalkaca\u011f\u0131z,” dedi kahveciye.<\/p>\n
Aya\u011fa kalkt\u0131. Kendisi i\u00e7in laf i\u015fitmi\u015f adama, “Zarar\u0131 yok, hem\u015ferim,” dedi. “Zarar\u0131 yok. Vermesinler, istemez.”<\/p>\n
G\u00f6z\u00fcken vapura do\u011fru y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc. K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck ad\u0131mlarla bir \u015earlo gibi se\u011firterek uzakla\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n
S\u00f6z vermi\u015ftim kendi kendime: Yaz\u0131 bile yazmayacakt\u0131m. Yaz\u0131 yazmak da bir h\u0131rstan ba\u015fka neydi? Burada namuslu insanlar aras\u0131nda sakin \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc bekleyecektim. H\u0131rs, hiddet neme gerekti? Yapamad\u0131m. Ko\u015ftum t\u00fct\u00fcnc\u00fcye, kalem k\u00e2\u011f\u0131t ald\u0131m. Oturdum. Adan\u0131n tenha yollar\u0131nda gezerken can\u0131m s\u0131k\u0131l\u0131rsa k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck de\u011fnekler yontmak i\u00e7in cebimde ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u00e7ak\u0131m\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131m. Kalemi yonttum. Yonttuktan sonra tuttum \u00f6pt\u00fcm. Yazmasam deli olacakt\u0131m.<\/p>\n
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