\u00a0<\/p>\n
Siz de benim gibi,
G\u00fcnleri
Sevgiyle isteyerek
De\u011fil de, takvimden yaprak kopar\u0131r gibi ger\u00e7ek
Bir s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131 ve nefretle ya\u015fad\u0131n\u0131zsa, Ankara g\u00fcne\u015fi sizin de
Uyu\u015fturmu\u015fsa beyninizi. Ata’n\u0131n izinde
Gitmekten ba\u015fka bir kavram\u0131 olmayan
Cumhuriyet \u00e7ocugu olarak yayan,
Pis pis gezdinizse (o s\u0131ralarda ad\u0131 Opera Meydan\u0131 olan)
Hergele Meydan\u0131’nda bu sar\u0131 ve tozlu alan
\u0130\u011frendirmediyse sizi,
Bir ta\u015fra \u00e7ocugu s\u0131fat\u0131yla \u00f6zlemeyi bilmiyorsan\u0131z denizi,
Kaybettiniz (benim gibi)
Oysa,
Ayn\u0131 Hergele Meydan\u0131’nda
G\u00f6lgede on be\u015f, g\u00fcne\u015fte yedi bu\u00e7uga t\u0131ra\u015f eden
Berberleri g\u00f6rmeden
Yaln\u0131z renkli yan\u0131n\u0131 ya\u015fad\u0131ysan\u0131z hayat\u0131n
Ve hergele ve beygir oldu\u011funu duymad\u0131ysan\u0131z at\u0131n
Sakal\u0131 uzam\u0131\u015f seyyar sat\u0131c\u0131lara kese ka\u011f\u0131d\u0131 satmad\u0131n\u0131zsa,
\u0130\u00e7inde a\u00fct ve salebin olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 ‘donduma kaymak’tan tatmad\u0131n\u0131zsa
(Ayn\u0131 Hergele Meydan’\u0131nda)
Kazand\u0131n\u0131z. (Kimse yoktu -\u00e7irkinlikten ba\u015fka- Selim’in yan\u0131nda)
En baya\u011f\u0131 ve en m\u00fcstehcen
(Fakat fiyat\u0131 ehven)
Romanlar\u0131 kiralamak i\u00e7ingecesi be\u015f kuru\u015fa
Samanpazar\u0131’na \u00e7\u0131kan yoku\u015fa
De\u011filde sa\u011fa sap\u0131n. Etiler’in at oynatm\u0131\u015f oldugu Ankara’da
Hamallar\u0131n gitti\u011fi S\u00fcmer sinemas\u0131yla ayn\u0131 s\u0131rada,
Pardayan, Pitigrilli ve Fantoma
Ve Hayber Kalesi ve Tahir ile Z\u00fchre bir arada
Y\u0131\u011f\u0131lm\u0131\u015f bir tezgah\u0131n \u00fczerine. ‘Geceleri Okumay\u0131n\u0131z’
Orhan \u00c7ak\u0131ro\u011flu’nun maceralar\u0131n\u0131.
Selim I\u015f\u0131k, d\u00fcn\u00fc bug\u00fcn\u00fc yar\u0131n\u0131
\u0130\u015fte bu ortam i\u00e7inde \u00f6ld\u00fcrd\u00fc.
Eksiklik duygusunun ac\u0131s\u0131yla g\u00fcld\u00fcrd\u00fc.
Ucuz d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerindeki ucuz d\u00fczen, ucuz romanlar\u0131n ucuz ya\u015fant\u0131s\u0131
Ucuz huysuzluklar\u0131n ucuz saplant\u0131s\u0131
Ucuz ucuz ucuz ucuzdu.
Dalg\u0131n, sinirli, suskun huysuzdu.<\/p>\n
Alt\u0131m\u0131zda kalabal\u0131k bir aile otururdu.
Masas\u0131n\u0131n \u00fczerinde bir kuru kafa dururdu,
Ortanca o\u011fullar\u0131 t\u0131p talebesi Saffet’in
(S\u0131r\u0131tan kabustu benim i\u00e7in.)
Ne olur \u015fu kuru kafay\u0131 kald\u0131r\u0131n\u0131z
Beni korkutmaya yok hakk\u0131n\u0131z
Herkes doktor olamaz ki,
Siz bana iyisi mi
Naz\u0131m’dan \u015fiirler okuyun.
Hani \u015fu ‘Culus-u Humayun’
Diye s\u00f6zlerini pek anlamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m
Fakat m\u0131sralar\u0131n\u0131n sesini sevdigim \u015fiir,
Bir de ‘\u00d6l\u00fcme Dair’
Sonra da Liszt’in \u0130kinci Macar Kampanas\u0131n\u0131
Ve Puccini’nin Tosca Operas\u0131n\u0131
(Can\u0131m, mandolinle \u00e7ald\u0131g\u0131m arya)
\u00c7alars\u0131n\u0131z gramafonda.<\/p>\n
Bir yumu\u015fama gelir y\u00fcz\u00fcne
Kafatas\u0131 durur gene
(Fakat bir t\u00fclbentle \u00f6rt\u00fcl\u00fc)
Caruso’nun eski plakta h\u0131r\u0131lt\u0131l\u0131 sesi duyulur yaln\u0131z
Sonra t\u0131p talebesiyle kur\u015fun asker oynar\u0131z.<\/p>\n
Cranium fibula radius
Sacrum patella carpus
Nas\u0131l ezberlenir Allah\u0131m
Arap\u00e7a dua eden insan\u0131n Latince kemikleri?
Saffet kulun anatomiden \u00e7akt\u0131,
Selim kulunla oynamay\u0131 b\u0131rakt\u0131.
Alt katta bir kirac\u0131 daha: Ecmel Karaka\u015f
Ve gar\u0131 me\u015fru kar\u0131s\u0131 (yava\u015f
S\u00f6yle duymas\u0131nlar) . Bana y\u00fcz vermiyor bah\u00e7ede g\u00fczel k\u0131z\u0131
(Oysa bah\u00e7ede ge\u00e7irdim b\u00fct\u00fcn yaz\u0131)
Dut a\u011fac\u0131na \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yor benden ka\u00e7arak,
‘Sen de arkas\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131ksana ahmak! ‘
Daha daha: p\u0131s\u0131r\u0131k, beceriksiz, korkak.<\/p>\n
En \u00fcst katta, karr\u015f\u0131m\u0131zda, Airf Beyin refikas\u0131
Laima Han\u0131m ut \u00e7alard\u0131 (Sarahaten acaba s\u00f6ylesem dar\u0131lmaz m\u0131?)
\u0130ster ta\u015frada ister \u0130stanbul’da olsun
\u0130ster burnunuza mangal duman\u0131 dolsun
\u0130ster merdiven sahanl\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131zda
Kalorifer dairesinden gelen linyit kokusu,
Hepsinden daha kuvvetli ve etkilidir dokusu
\u0130\u00e7inize i\u015fleyen ‘alaturka’n\u0131n. K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck ya\u015fta i\u00e7irilir yava\u015f\u00e7a
Derinin alt\u0131na (\u00e7i\u00e7ek a\u015f\u0131s\u0131 gibi) . Arkada\u015f\u00e7a
Sokulur ok\u015fayarak,
‘Sine-i suzan\u0131m\u0131’ eder helak
Pek tesiri duyulmasada g\u00fcnd\u00fcz
(\u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc o saatlerde ya kahvede vakit \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcr\u00fcz,
Ya da paydos zilini bekleriz dairede)
Saat be\u015f oldu mu, bin alt\u0131 y\u00fcz k\u0131rk sekiz metrede
Ve bilmem ka\u00e7 kilos\u0131klda ba\u015flad\u0131 m\u0131 yay\u0131na T\u00fcrkiye Postalar\u0131,<\/p>\n
Yata\u011f\u0131nda zevkle inletir hastalar\u0131
Hemen fas\u0131l heyeti,
Duyulur d\u00f6rt bucag\u0131nda yurdun. Ak\u015fam n\u00f6beti
Tutan s\u0131nrdaki erden,
\u0130ki kere mars oldu \u00fcst\u00fcste diye, terden
Pantolonu iskemleye yap\u0131\u015fan pi\u015fpirik \u0130smail’e kadar
Herkesin cigerine mikroplu havayla birlikte dolar.<\/p>\n
S\u0131rt\u0131 hafif kamburla\u015fm\u0131\u015f ve dar g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcsl\u00fc
Tamburlardan yava\u015f\u00e7a yay\u0131l\u0131r havaya, ak\u015fam\u00fcst\u00fc.
Efendiyi ve u\u015fag\u0131 birlikte mesteden
Makamdan makama ve besteden
Besteye ge\u00e7erekten
‘Tek tek ataraktan bade s\u00fczerekten’
‘\u00c7\u0131kmam Allah etmesin meyhaneden’
\u00c7\u0131kmam korkusuyla alaturkas\u0131yla beni kahreden
\u0130\u00e7ki Evinden, \u00f6lmeden \u00f6nce.
Bence
Alyuvar, akyuvar, bir de alaturkadan m\u00fcrekkeptir kan\u0131m\u0131z’
Dinlerken s\u0131k\u0131lsada can\u0131m\u0131z,
Nas\u0131l bir\u015feydir (acaba g\u00fczel midir?)
Kim bilir.<\/p>\n
Benim kan\u0131ma giren ba\u015fka bir sanat:
Dar\u00fclbedayi’de tuluat.
(Ta\u015f\u0131r\u0131m bug\u00fcne izlerini.)
Annem, \u00f6l\u00fc do\u011furduktan sonra ikizlerini,
Bana gebe kald\u0131g\u0131n\u0131n yedinci ay\u0131nda,
Tepeba\u015f\u0131’nda, tiyaronun sala\u015f saray\u0131nda
(Dar\u00fclbedayi’de) Haz\u0131m’\u0131n ‘L\u00fck\u00fcs Hayat’ oyunuda,
O kadar g\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f, o kadar g\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f ki, sonuda
Korkmu\u015f, bir\u015fey olacak diye karn\u0131ndaki Selim.
Oysa Selim, bildiginiz gibi, elim
Olmak isterken g\u00fcl\u00fcn\u00e7 oldu bu sayede
B\u00fcy\u00fck bir inhiraf oldu gayede.<\/p>\n
O\u011fuz ATAY<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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