\u00a0<\/p>\n
Bahar\u0131n son g\u00fcnleri; k\u00f6m\u00fcrl\u00fckler aras\u0131nda
\u00c7ama\u015f\u0131r ipleriyle kesilen
\u00dc\u00e7 a\u011facl\u0131 bah\u00e7emizin yan\u0131ndaki papatyal\u0131 arsaya biti\u015fik
Sert kald\u0131r\u0131ml\u0131 ve yoku\u015fu dik
Yolda, ayakkab\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131n burnunu
\u00c7arpmamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015farak sekiyorum.(Becermek m\u00fcmk\u00fcn de\u011fil bunu.)
Bir sat\u0131c\u0131 e\u015fe\u011finin k\u00fcfeleriyle s\u0131\u011fmad\u0131g\u0131 dar
Bo\u011faz\u0131 a\u015f\u0131yorum
Ve servi a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131yal kasvet
Ve daha birtak\u0131m a\u011f\u0131r duygular veren
K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck meydana ula\u015f\u0131yorum.
Burada duvar\u0131 y\u0131k\u0131k
Bir mezarl\u0131k ve i\u00e7inde bir t\u00fcrbe,
(Y\u0131llar sonra g\u00f6rd\u00fcg\u00fcm Karacaahmet Mezarl\u0131k Bankas\u0131n\u0131n -t\u00f6vbe de-
Yan\u0131nda k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir hesap say\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131.)
T\u00fcrbenin parmakl\u0131klar\u0131na d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmlenmi\u015f \u00e7aputlar\u0131.
Sudan \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131lm\u0131\u015f bir \u00f6l\u00fcn\u00fcn parmaklar\u0131na tak\u0131l\u0131
Yosunlar gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fcm. Ve duvar\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcndeki kara \u00e7al\u0131,
Bana \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn ta\u015ftanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlatan bir hocayd\u0131 kara sakall\u0131.
\u00c7arp\u0131k mezar ta\u015flar\u0131 aras\u0131nda,
\u00d6l\u00fclerin besledigi \u00e7imenlerin ortas\u0131nda
T\u00fcrbedeki ta\u015f tabutlar kadar
Kay\u0131ts\u0131zsca uzanm\u0131\u015f \u00e7ocuklar.
(Korkular\u0131 ya\u015flar\u0131 kadar)<\/p>\n
Oysa,
Saffet A\u011fabeylerdeki ortanca hizmet\u00e7i G\u00fcld\u00fcm Abla,
Anlat\u0131rken ne bi\u00e7imde gidilir cehenneme
Ve bakarken namaz k\u0131lan anneme
Bir eksiklik duyard\u0131m \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn icaplar\u0131na dair
\u0130\u00e7imde. \u015eair
Ve mimar Cemil Uluer, buru\u015fuk derisi ve di\u015fsiz a\u011fz\u0131yla
G\u00fcls\u00fcm Abla daher ak\u015fam vaaz\u0131yla
Korkuturd\u0131 beni. Hayattayken sa\u011f elle burun silmenin
ve \u00f6ld\u00fckten sonra k\u0131yamette,
(Cehennemde veya cennette)
Her k\u0131l\u0131nda bir m\u0131z\u0131ka bulunan Deccal’in e\u015fe\u011fini bilmenin
G\u00fcnah oldu\u011funu \u00f6\u011fremi\u015ftim.
Zavall\u0131 Selim, zavall\u0131 Selim, :
Kendi kendimi yerdim
Ne yapmal\u0131, ne yapmal\u0131, diye
Oysa k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck hizmet\u00e7ileri Hediye.
Bo\u015f verip b\u00fct\u00fcn cezalara,
Hazreti Yusuf’un kuyuya \u00e7ektigi ezalara,
Adem’in bu\u011fday a\u011fac\u0131ndan memnu meyveyi
Yemesine -yoksa elma a\u011fac\u0131 m\u0131yd\u0131? –
K\u0131yamet g\u00fcn\u00fc yanl\u0131\u015fl\u0131kla \u00e7evirince ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131
M\u0131z\u0131kal\u0131\u0131 e\u015fe\u011fin sesine, nas\u0131l yan\u0131lacag\u0131na, ka\u015f\u0131n\u0131
Fazla alman\u0131n da ayr\u0131ca g\u00fcnah oldu\u011funa,
Sa\u011f ellle temizlenen b\u00fct\u00fcn pisliklerin cehennemde
Bo\u011faz\u0131na doldu\u011funa
Y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7ok y\u0131kayan kad\u0131n\u0131n
Bu nedenle aln\u0131n\u0131n yaz\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 okuyan kad\u0131n\u0131n
Ba\u015f\u0131na gelenlere
Ald\u0131rmazd\u0131. \u015eu kar\u015f\u0131ki apartmandaki Helen’lere
Ka\u00e7arak dudaklar\u0131n\u0131 boyard\u0131.
Benimse \u00e7ok daha ciddi niyetlerim vard\u0131.<\/p>\n
T\u00fcrbenin hemen yan\u0131nda, gene dar bir sokakta,
Kerpi\u00e7 bir evde, fakir arkada\u015f\u0131m Sabri’yle, s\u0131cakta,
Ter ve y\u0131kanm\u0131\u015f kilim kokan odas\u0131nda konu\u015fuyoruz.
Pencereden giren g\u00fcne\u015f sefaleti keskinle\u015ftiriyor.Temmuz
Ay\u0131n\u0131n bitkinli\u011fi ve \u00f6l\u00fcm korkusu
Kelimeleri a\u011f\u0131rla\u015ft\u0131r\u0131rken, terimi siliyorum
Dinsel bir korkuyla. Daha. ‘E\u00fcz\u00fc min\u015f\u015feytan\u0131racim’i bilmiyorum
Ba\u015flamak i\u00e7in duaya. Sabri bir din adam\u0131n\u0131n yava\u015f
Hareketlerini taklit ediyor. Bende sayg\u0131l\u0131 bir tela\u015f,
Namaz surelerini ezberlemekle ge\u00e7iriyoruz
Bizi \u00f6l\u00fcme yakla\u015ft\u0131ran zaman\u0131. Y\u0131l bin dokuz y\u00fcz k\u0131rk dokuz.<\/p>\n
Ankara’n\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck kubbeli camilerini
Ve kararm\u0131\u015f kiremitli mescitlerini dola\u015ft\u0131k.’\u0130nna ateyni
Kelkevser, Fesalli lirabbike… h\u00fcvel ebter.’
K\u00f6rpe dizlerde derman biter
Yats\u0131 namaz\u0131nda, yanl\u0131\u015f m\u0131r\u0131ldan\u0131lan kelimeler s\u0131ras\u0131nda
Palab\u0131y\u0131kl\u0131, sakall\u0131 ve y\u0131rt\u0131k \u00e7orapl\u0131 cemaat aras\u0131nda
Dini b\u00fct\u00fcn iki T\u00fcrk \u00e7ocu\u011fu yatar kalkar.
S\u00fcrekli (kendine amans\u0131z.) \u0130lahiler, dualar…
Allah\u0131m pe\u015finde
Yirmi bin fersah. Temmuz g\u00fcne\u015finde, a\u011fustos g\u00fcne\u015finde,
Kirli \u015fad\u0131rvanlar\u0131n \u00e7amurlu ta\u015flar\u0131na
Uzat\u0131rlar ayaklar\u0131n\u0131 yaln\u0131z ba\u015flar\u0131na.
Tozlu ayaklar\u0131 \u00e7amurla\u015ft\u0131ran sular,
Avu\u00e7 i\u00e7inden bileklere, dirseklere kayar.
Hangi elimle y\u0131kayacakt\u0131m hangi kulag\u0131m\u0131?
Ne tarafa d\u00f6necektim ‘Selamlasana sa\u011f\u0131n\u0131! ‘
Pabu\u00e7lar\u0131 \u00e7alarlar m\u0131 dersin Sabri?
Duydun mu gazetedeki haberi
Pabu\u00e7 h\u0131rs\u0131zlar\u0131na dair?
‘Haydi Selim, herkesle brlikte \u00e7evir
Sola ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131.’ Neden Sabri bu ilahiyi \u00f6\u011fretmedi bana?
Hi\u00e7 olmazsa biraz dudaklar\u0131n\u0131 oynatsana!
\u015eol cennetin \u0131rmaklar\u0131 akar Allah deyu deyu.
\u00d6\u011fle namaz\u0131nda g\u00fcne\u015f yakar Allah deyu deyu.
Ge\u00e7 kat\u0131ld\u0131 bu kervana, Allah\u0131m yak\u0131nd\u0131r sana,
Bir o yana bir bu yana, bakar Allah deyu deyu.
Buras\u0131 Allah yap\u0131s\u0131, a\u00e7\u0131ls\u0131n cennet kap\u0131s\u0131,
Bu imtihansa hepisi \u00e7akar Allah deyu deyu.
Bu kervanda herkes yaya, rastlanmaz beye, a\u011faya,
\u0130nsan akl\u0131n\u0131 duaya, takar Allah deyu deyu.
Dualar ba\u011fl\u0131 topra\u011fa, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnce sapl\u0131 bata\u011fa,
Gene camiden \u00e7\u0131kar soka\u011fa Allah deyu deyu.<\/p>\n
Selim I\u015f\u0131k yaz dindar\u0131, yetti ona bu kadar\u0131
Cemaat k\u0131\u015f\u0131n ne yapar, bilmez art\u0131k o kadar\u0131
Hac\u0131 Bayram Camisi’nin \u00e7evresindeki k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck evlerden birinde.
Yeni bir r\u00fczgar esti (Olumsuzluk r\u00fczgar\u0131) . Yokluk Tanr\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 emrinde.
Yeni bir sava\u015fa kat\u0131ld\u0131 b\u00fct\u00fcn kavgalar\u0131n yedek neferi Selim
(Ben neyim, ne de\u011filim?)<\/p>\n
Herkes mutlu ve sorumsuz
Herkes olumlu, ben olumsuz.
Ya\u015f\u0131tlar\u0131m art\u0131k uzun pantolon giymenin
ba\u011f\u0131ms\u0131zl\u0131g\u0131n\u0131 ya\u015farken
Okulun paydos ziliyle hemen sokaga ta\u015farken
Y\u0131k\u0131c\u0131 fikirleriyle akl\u0131m\u0131n ince \u00f6rg\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131ran
Otuz \u00fc\u00e7 ya\u015f\u0131nda benimle s\u00f6z yar\u0131\u015ft\u0131ran
Nihat A\u011fabeyin yan\u0131nda i\u015fim neydi?
Gene b\u00f6yle y\u0131ld\u0131zl\u0131 ve \u0131l\u0131k bir geceydi
Karde\u015fim S\u00fcleyman; ‘Hi\u00e7, ama hi\u00e7bir\u015fey yapmad\u0131k, ‘ derken
Kar\u015f\u0131mda, bardak bardak koyu \u00e7ay ve paket paket ucuz sigara i\u00e7erken
\u00c7\u0131rp\u0131n\u0131yordum: Dumlup\u0131nar, Sakarya
\u0130stanbul’un fethi, Kosova
Birden ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 kald\u0131r\u0131p g\u00fcl\u00fcmseyiverdi
Kara b\u0131y\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131ndan \u0131\u015f\u0131yan beyaz di\u015fleri
B\u00fct\u00fcn inan\u00e7lar\u0131m\u0131 eritti.
Anl\u0131yorsun, bilin\u00e7, inan\u00e7, bug\u00fcn\u00fcn s\u00f6zc\u00fckleri
O, \u015fuur ve tahripten bahsederdi.
Bunca T\u00fcrk b\u00fcy\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fcn -bir kitaba g\u00f6re elli kadard\u0131-
Kazand\u0131\u011f\u0131 b\u00fct\u00fcn sava\u015flar\u0131 kaybettim orada,
(Ah\u015fap evin beyaz perdeli odas\u0131nda)
Ne Moha\u00e7, ne Mercidab\u0131k, ne yeni, ne sab\u0131k
Zaferlerimiz dayanamad\u0131. Yaln\u0131z kromda ve g\u00fcre\u015fte birinciydik art\u0131k.
Eski kahramanlklardan ba\u015fka
\u0130leri s\u00fcrecek neyimiz kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 dokuz y\u00fcz k\u0131rk dokuzda.
Selim I\u015f\u0131k yenilmi\u015fti, bitmi\u015fti.
Neyse tam o s\u0131rada, Mar\u015fal Amca yeti\u015fti. <\/p>\n
O\u011fuz ATAY<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
\u00a0 Bahar\u0131n son g\u00fcnleri; k\u00f6m\u00fcrl\u00fckler aras\u0131nda\u00c7ama\u015f\u0131r ipleriyle kesilen\u00dc\u00e7 a\u011facl\u0131 bah\u00e7emizin yan\u0131ndaki papatyal\u0131 arsaya biti\u015fikSert kald\u0131r\u0131ml\u0131 ve yoku\u015fu dikYolda, ayakkab\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131n burnunu\u00c7arpmamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015farak sekiyorum.(Becermek m\u00fcmk\u00fcn de\u011fil bunu.)Bir sat\u0131c\u0131 e\u015fe\u011finin k\u00fcfeleriyle s\u0131\u011fmad\u0131g\u0131 darBo\u011faz\u0131 a\u015f\u0131yorumVe servi a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131yal kasvetVe daha birtak\u0131m a\u011f\u0131r duygular verenK\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck meydana ula\u015f\u0131yorum.Burada duvar\u0131 y\u0131k\u0131kBir mezarl\u0131k ve i\u00e7inde bir t\u00fcrbe,(Y\u0131llar sonra g\u00f6rd\u00fcg\u00fcm Karacaahmet Mezarl\u0131k Bankas\u0131n\u0131n -t\u00f6vbe de-Yan\u0131nda […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[187],"tags":[],"class_list":{"0":"post-5941","1":"post","2":"type-post","3":"status-publish","4":"format-standard","6":"category-oguz-atay"},"yoast_head":"\n