\u00a0<\/p>\n
1<\/p>\n
Saat d\u00f6rt,
yoksun.
Saat be\u015f,
yok.
Alt\u0131, yedi,
ertesi g\u00fcn,
daha ertesi
ve belki
kim bilir…<\/p>\n
Hapisane avlusunda
bir bah\u00e7emiz vard\u0131.
S\u0131cak bir duvar dibinde
on be\u015f ad\u0131m kadard\u0131.
Gelirdin,
yan yana otururduk,
k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 ve kocaman
mu\u015famba torban
dizlerinde…<\/p>\n
Kelleci Memed’i hat\u0131rl\u0131yor musun?
S\u00fcbyan ko\u011fu\u015fundan.
Ba\u015f\u0131 d\u00f6rt k\u00f6\u015fe,
bacaklar\u0131 k\u0131sa ve kal\u0131n
ve elleri ayaklar\u0131ndan b\u00fcy\u00fck.
Kovan\u0131ndan bal \u00e7ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 adam\u0131n
ta\u015fla ezmi\u015f kafas\u0131n\u0131.
\u00abHan\u0131m abla\u00bb derdi sana.
Bizim bah\u00e7emizden k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir bah\u00e7esi vard\u0131,
tepemizde, yukarda,
g\u00fcne\u015fe yak\u0131n,
bir konserve kutusunun i\u00e7inde…<\/p>\n
Bir Cumartesi g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fc,
hapisane \u00e7e\u015fmesiyle \u0131slanan
bir ikindi vaktini hat\u0131rl\u0131yor musun?
Bir t\u00fcrk\u00fc s\u00f6ylediydi kalayc\u0131 \u015eaban Usta,
akl\u0131nda m\u0131 :
\u00abBeypazar\u0131 meskenimiz, ilimiz,
kim bilir nerde kal\u0131r \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcz…?\u00bb<\/p>\n
O kadar resmini yapt\u0131m senin
bana birini b\u0131rakmad\u0131n.
Bende yaln\u0131z bir foto\u011fraf\u0131n var :
bir ba\u015fka bah\u00e7ede
\u00e7ok rahat
\u00e7ok bahtiyar
yem verip tavuklara
g\u00fcl\u00fcyorsun.<\/p>\n
Hapisane bah\u00e7esinde tavuklar yoktu,
fakat pek \u00e2l\u00e2 g\u00fclebildik
ve bahtiyar olmad\u0131k de\u011fil.
Nas\u0131l haberler ald\u0131k
en g\u00fczel h\u00fcrriyete dair,
nas\u0131l dinledik ayak seslerini
yakla\u015fan m\u00fcjdelerin,
ne g\u00fczel \u015feyler konu\u015ftuk
hapisane bah\u00e7esinde…<\/p>\n
2<\/p>\n
Bir ak\u015fam\u00fcst\u00fc
oturup
hapisane kap\u0131s\u0131nda
rubailer okuduk Gazal\u00ee’den :
\u00abGece :
b\u00fcy\u00fck l\u00e2civerd\u00ee bah\u00e7e.
Alt\u0131n p\u0131r\u0131lt\u0131larla devran\u0131 rakkaselerin.
Ve tahta kutularda upuzun yatan \u00f6l\u00fcler.><\/p>\n
Bir g\u00fcn e\u011fer,
benden uzak,
karanl\u0131k bir ya\u011fmur gibi,
can\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131karsa ya\u015famak
tekrar Gazal\u00ee’yi oku.
Ve P\u00eer\u00e2yende’m benim,
ben eminim
sen sadece merhamet duyacaks\u0131n
\u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda onun
\u00fcmitsiz yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131
ve muhte\u015fem korkusuna.<\/p>\n
Bir akar su getirsin Gazal\u00ee’yi sana :
\u00ab\u00a0 Toprak bir k\u00e2sedir
\u00e7\u00f6mlek\u00e7inin raf\u0131nda t\u00e2cidar,
ve zafer yaz\u0131lar\u0131
y\u0131k\u0131lm\u0131\u015f duvarlar\u0131nda Keyh\u00fcsrevin…\u00bb<\/p>\n
Birikip s\u0131\u00e7ramalar.
So\u011fuk
s\u0131cak
serin.<\/p>\n
Ve b\u00fcy\u00fck l\u00e2civerdi bah\u00e7ede
ba\u015fs\u0131z ve sonsuz
ve durup dinlenmeden
devran\u0131 rakkaselerin…<\/p>\n
Bilmiyorum, neden
akl\u0131mda hep
ilk\u00f6nce senden duydu\u011fum
\u00c7ank\u0131r\u0131l\u0131 bir c\u00fcmle var :
\u00abPamuklad\u0131 m\u0131yd\u0131 kavaklar
kiraz gelir ard\u0131ndan.\u00bb
Kavaklar pamukluyor Gazal\u00ee’de,
fakat
g\u00f6rm\u00fcyor, \u00fcstat,
kiraz\u0131n geldi\u011fini.
\u00d6l\u00fcme ibadeti bundand\u0131r.<\/p>\n
\u015eeker Ali yukarda, ko\u011fu\u015fta ba\u011flama \u00e7al\u0131yor.
Ak\u015fam.
D\u0131\u015farda \u00e7ocuklar ba\u011fr\u0131\u015f\u0131yorlar.
\u00c7e\u015fmeden ak\u0131yor su.
Ve jandarma karakolunun \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131nda
akasyalara ba\u011fl\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7 kurt yavrusu.
A\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131 demirlerin d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda
b\u00fcy\u00fck, l\u00e2civerd\u00ee bah\u00e7em.
A s l o l a n\u00a0\u00a0 h a y a t t \u0131 r …<\/p>\n
Beni unutma Hat\u00e7em…<\/p>\n
3<\/p>\n
Bug\u00fcn \u00e7ar\u015famba :
biliyorsun\u00a0
\u00c7ank\u0131r\u0131’n\u0131n pazar\u0131.
Demir kap\u0131m\u0131zdan ge\u00e7ip
kam\u0131\u015f sepetimizde bize kadar gelecek
yumurtas\u0131, bulguru,
yald\u0131zl\u0131, mor patl\u0131canlar\u0131…<\/p>\n
D\u00fcn k\u00f6ylerden inenleri seyrettim :
yorgundular,
kurnaz
ve \u015f\u00fcpheli,
ve ka\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131nda keder.
Erkekler e\u015feklerde,
kad\u0131nlar \u00e7\u0131plak ayaklar\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnde ge\u00e7tiler.
Herhalde i\u00e7lerinde senin bildiklerin vard\u0131r.
Herhalde iki \u00e7ar\u015fambad\u0131r pazarda :
k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 ba\u015f\u00f6rt\u00fcl\u00fc
\u00abkibirsiz\u00bb \u0130stanbulluyu aram\u0131\u015flard\u0131r…<\/p>\n
20.7.1940<\/p>\n
4<\/p>\n
S\u0131caklar bildi\u011fin gibi de\u011fil
ve ben ki yal\u0131 u\u015fa\u011f\u0131y\u0131m,
deniz ne kadar uzak…<\/p>\n
\u0130kiyle be\u015f aras\u0131
cibinli\u011fin alt\u0131na uzanarak
ter i\u00e7inde
k\u0131m\u0131ldanmadan
g\u00f6zlerim a\u00e7\u0131k
dinliyorum sineklerin u\u011fultusunu.
Biliyorum :
\u015fimdi avluda
duvarlara \u00e7arp\u0131yorlard\u0131r suyu,
k\u0131zg\u0131n, k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 ta\u015flar t\u00fct\u00fcyordur.
Ve d\u0131\u015farda, otlar\u0131 yanm\u0131\u015f kalenin ete\u011finde
bir kezzap ayd\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7indedir
simsiyah kiremitleriyle \u015fehir…<\/p>\n
Geceleri birdenbire r\u00fczg\u00e2r \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yor.
sonra kayboluyor birdenbire.
Ve karanl\u0131kta canl\u0131 bir mahluk gibi soluyup,
yumu\u015fak, t\u00fcyl\u00fc ayaklar\u0131yla dola\u015farak
bizi bir \u015feylerle tehdit ediyor s\u0131cak.
Ve zaman zaman
\u00fcrpermelerle duyuyoruz derimizin \u00fcst\u00fcnde
bir korku halinde tabiat\u0131…<\/p>\n
Bir zelzele olabilir.
Zaten \u00fc\u00e7 g\u00fcnl\u00fck yere geldi,
sallad\u0131 \u00e7apano\u011flu Yozgad’\u0131.
Ve yerlilerin kavlince :
alt\u0131 tekmil tuz madeni oldu\u011fundan
y\u0131k\u0131lacak \u00c7ank\u0131r\u0131 \u015fehri
k\u0131yametten k\u0131rk g\u00fcn \u00f6nce.
Yat\u0131p bir gece
ba\u015f\u0131n bir kalasla ezilmi\u015f,
\u00e7\u0131kmamak sabaha…
\u00d6l\u00fcm\u00fcn bu kadar k\u00f6r\u00fc ve mendeburu…
Ben ya\u015famak istiyorum biraz daha,
daha bir hayli ya\u015famak.
Bunu bir\u00e7ok \u015fey i\u00e7in istiyorum,
bir\u00e7ok
\u00e7ok m\u00fchim \u015feyler.<\/p>\n
12.8.1940<\/p>\n
5<\/p>\n
Saat be\u015fte ak\u015fam oluyor :
insan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcne do\u011fru y\u00fcr\u00fcyen bulutlarla.
Ya\u011fmur ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131klar\u0131 belli.
Bir\u00e7o\u011fu
elle tutulacak kadar al\u00e7aktan ge\u00e7iyorlar…
Bizim odan\u0131n y\u00fcz mumlu\u011fu,
terzilerin gaz lambas\u0131 yand\u0131.
Terziler \u0131hlamur i\u00e7iyorlar…
K\u0131\u015f geldi demektir…
\u00dc\u015f\u00fcyorum.
Fakat kederli de\u011filim.
Yaln\u0131z bize mahsus bir imtiyazd\u0131r :
k\u0131\u015f g\u00fcnleri hapisanede,
sade hapisanede de\u011fil,
bu kocaman
bu \u0131s\u0131nas\u0131
bu \u0131s\u0131nacak d\u00fcnyada
\u00fc\u015f\u00fcy\u00fcp
kederli olmamak…<\/p>\n
26.10.1940<\/p>\n
Naz\u0131m Hikmet RAN<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
\u00a0 1 Saat d\u00f6rt, yoksun.Saat be\u015f, yok.Alt\u0131, yedi,ertesi g\u00fcn,daha ertesive belki kim bilir… Hapisane avlusunda bir bah\u00e7emiz vard\u0131.S\u0131cak bir duvar dibinde on be\u015f ad\u0131m kadard\u0131.Gelirdin,yan yana otururduk,k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 ve kocaman mu\u015famba torban dizlerinde… Kelleci Memed’i hat\u0131rl\u0131yor musun?S\u00fcbyan ko\u011fu\u015fundan.Ba\u015f\u0131 d\u00f6rt k\u00f6\u015fe,bacaklar\u0131 k\u0131sa ve kal\u0131nve elleri ayaklar\u0131ndan b\u00fcy\u00fck.Kovan\u0131ndan bal \u00e7ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 adam\u0131n ta\u015fla ezmi\u015f kafas\u0131n\u0131.\u00abHan\u0131m abla\u00bb derdi sana.Bizim bah\u00e7emizden […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[59],"tags":[],"class_list":{"0":"post-6351","1":"post","2":"type-post","3":"status-publish","4":"format-standard","6":"category-nazim-hikmet-ran"},"yoast_head":"\n