{"id":642,"date":"2009-04-16T10:26:25","date_gmt":"2009-04-16T07:26:25","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/localhost\/wordpress\/2009\/04\/16\/hayallerini-yak-evi-isit-seninle-olmeye-bile-hazirdim\/"},"modified":"2009-04-16T10:26:25","modified_gmt":"2009-04-16T07:26:25","slug":"hayallerini-yak-evi-isit-seninle-olmeye-bile-hazirdim","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/narteks.net\/index.php\/2009\/04\/16\/hayallerini-yak-evi-isit-seninle-olmeye-bile-hazirdim\/","title":{"rendered":"HAYALLER\u0130N\u0130 YAK EV\u0130 ISIT \/ SEN\u0130NLE \u00d6LMEYE B\u0130LE HAZIRDIM"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>Bu gece konu\u011fumsun. <br \/> Karanl\u0131k, y\u0131rt\u0131c\u0131 d\u00fc\u015fler ve k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck \u00f6l\u00fcmlerle dolu bir ormandan geldin bana&#8230; <br \/> Perdenin aral\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan s\u0131zan mahcup ay \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 yorgun bedenini ok\u015fuyor&#8230; <br \/> Yan\u0131mda uyuyorsun. Kollar\u0131ndaki, bacaklar\u0131ndaki izleri, yaralar\u0131 seyrediyorum. <br \/> Al\u0131ml\u0131, u\u00e7umlu bedenine, dirili\u011fine, b\u00fcy\u00fcl\u00fc gen\u00e7li\u011fine tutkuyla ba\u011fl\u0131 oldu\u011fun adamdan geliyorsun bana&#8230; <br \/> Dilsiz sevi\u015fmelerinden&#8230; <br \/> Onu ba\u015f\u0131ndan beri hi\u00e7 saklamad\u0131n benden. <br \/> Zaten ben y\u00fcz\u00fcndeki solgunluktan, d\u00fc\u015f k\u0131r\u0131kl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan, g\u00f6zlerinin s\u0131k s\u0131k bo\u015flu\u011fa d\u00fc\u015fmesinden anlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m hemen. <br \/> Zaten yalanlarla ya\u015fayamazs\u0131n sen&#8230; <br \/> Ama ger\u00e7e\u011fi anlay\u0131nca i\u00e7imdeki resim darmada\u011f\u0131n olmu\u015ftu bir anda. Resimdeki k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 ev y\u0131k\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, \u00e7i\u00e7ekler ezilmi\u015f, resimdeki bah\u00e7enin kap\u0131s\u0131 k\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131&#8230; <br \/> Neden, demi\u015ftim sana, son bir umutla ve belki bir mucize olur, bana hi\u00e7 beklemedi\u011fim bir gerek\u00e7e s\u00f6ylersin diye, t\u0131pk\u0131 \u00f6l\u00fcm mahkumlar\u0131n\u0131n son anda bir kurtulu\u015f haberi beklemeleri gibi&#8230; <br \/> G\u00f6zlerime bakt\u0131n. Evlad\u0131n\u0131 terk etmeye haz\u0131rlanan bir anne gibi bakt\u0131n bana. Bir yalan arad\u0131n, buldun belki, ama s\u00f6yleyemedin. <br \/> Yalanlarla ya\u015fayamazs\u0131n sen&#8230; <br \/> \u0130\u00e7imdeki resim tutu\u015fmaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Resimdeki k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck \u00e7elimsiz, siyah \u00f6nl\u00fckl\u00fc \u00e7ocuk a\u011fl\u0131yordu umutsuzca&#8230; <br \/> \u0130\u00e7imdeki resim yan\u0131yordu. \u00c7ocukluk sevin\u00e7leri, d\u00fc\u015fler inan\u00e7lar yan\u0131yordu. Resimdeki siyah \u00f6nl\u00fckl\u00fc \u00e7ocuk nereye ka\u00e7aca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilmiyordu&#8230; <br \/> Yakana sar\u0131ld\u0131m ve neden? diye ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131m seni sarsarak: Neden sevi\u015ftin onunla? .. <br \/> Seni sarsmam, yakana sar\u0131lmam, sana ba\u011f\u0131rmam senden g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc oldu\u011fum i\u00e7in de\u011fildi. Tam aksine u\u00e7uruma d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyordum, elimi tutup, b\u0131rakmaman i\u00e7indi&#8230; <br \/> G\u00f6zlerin yine bilinmeyen bir bo\u015flu\u011fa tak\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Bir s\u00fcre sustun. Sonra konu\u015ftun. Sesin hayat kadar yabanc\u0131yd\u0131, hayat kadar ac\u0131mas\u0131z, hayat kadar ger\u00e7ekti&#8230; <br \/> \u0130\u00e7imde tan\u0131yamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir ba\u015fka kad\u0131n daha var, dedin. Ve o kad\u0131n onun \u00e7ekicili\u011fine kar\u015f\u0131 koyam\u0131yor&#8230; \u00d6ylesine b\u00fcy\u00fcl\u00fc bir yak\u0131\u015f\u0131kl\u0131\u011f\u0131, \u00f6ylesine k\u00fcstah bir kendini be\u011fenmi\u015fli\u011fi var ki kendime engel olam\u0131yorum&#8230; <br \/> Bu gece konu\u011fumsun&#8230; <br \/> Karanl\u0131k, y\u0131rt\u0131c\u0131 d\u00fc\u015fler, k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck \u00f6l\u00fcmlerle dolu bir ormandan geldin yan\u0131ma&#8230; <br \/> Perdenin aral\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan s\u0131zan mahcup ay \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 yorgun bedenini ok\u015fuyor&#8230; <br \/> Kollar\u0131ndaki, bacaklar\u0131ndaki yaralar\u0131, izleri seyrediyorum&#8230; <br \/> Yan\u0131mda, \u00f6ylesine masum uyuyorsun ki&#8230; Bu masumiyetinin arkas\u0131nda nelerin sakl\u0131 oldu\u011funu, i\u00e7inde, sana da yabanc\u0131 olan o kad\u0131n\u0131 bilmeyi \u00f6yle \u00e7ok isterdim ki&#8230; <br \/> Sahi, kimdi o kad\u0131n? G\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc, yak\u0131\u015f\u0131kl\u0131, k\u0131skan\u00e7, sahiplenen, hatta k\u00fcstah, seni inciten, \u00fczen ve kendini be\u011fenmi\u015f erkeklere bu denli \u00e7eken neydi onu&#8230; O kad\u0131n\u0131 bu par\u00e7alanm\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011fa s\u00fcr\u00fckleyen kirli ve hastal\u0131kl\u0131 merak neydi? .. <br \/> \u0130\u00e7indeki o bin y\u0131ll\u0131k ezilmi\u015flik bu ezilmi\u015fli\u011fin hastal\u0131kl\u0131 hazz\u0131 m\u0131yd\u0131 kar\u015f\u0131 koyamad\u0131\u011f\u0131&#8230; <br \/> Ki\u015fili\u011fini par\u00e7alayan, iradeni felce u\u011fratan, gururunu tamamen teslim alan bu ruhsuz sevi\u015fmelere onu hangi derin eksiklik \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131yordu&#8230; <br \/> Sahi, kimdi o i\u00e7indeki senin bile tan\u0131yamad\u0131\u011f\u0131n kad\u0131n? &#8230; <br \/> Bana \u00e7ekicili\u011fine kar\u015f\u0131 koyamad\u0131\u011f\u0131n bir ba\u015fkas\u0131yla sevi\u015fti\u011fini s\u00f6yledi\u011fin g\u00fcnden sonra haftalarca g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fmemi\u015ftik. <br \/> A\u015fk\u0131nla \u00e7ok derinlere g\u00f6md\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fc sand\u0131\u011f\u0131m g\u00fcvensizliklerim, komplekslerim, korkular\u0131m g\u00f6m\u00fcld\u00fckleri yerden hi\u00e7 olmad\u0131klar\u0131 kadar g\u00fc\u00e7lenmi\u015f ve ac\u0131mas\u0131z inatlar\u0131yla ortaya \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015flard\u0131 yeniden&#8230; <br \/> Hakl\u0131 olman\u0131n, bir su\u00e7lu bulup yarg\u0131laman\u0131n rahatl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hi\u00e7 tatmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m ki&#8230; <br \/> Ortada bir y\u0131k\u0131m, bir ihanet, bir su\u00e7 varsa kimsede de\u011fil, hep kendimde arard\u0131m ben&#8230; <br \/> G\u00fcnlerce seni de\u011fil, kendimi yarg\u0131lay\u0131p durmu\u015ftum. <br \/> Bedenimi a\u015fa\u011f\u0131lam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m ac\u0131mas\u0131zca. <br \/> Neden ben de i\u00e7indeki kad\u0131n\u0131 b\u00fcy\u00fcleyen o adam gibi yak\u0131\u015f\u0131kl\u0131, g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc, g\u00f6steri\u015fli bir bedene sahip de\u011fildim? &#8230; <br \/> Neden ba\u011fland\u0131\u011f\u0131n o gen\u00e7 adam gibi seni s\u0131n\u0131rlay\u0131p sahiplenmiyor, \u00fcz\u00fcp incitmiyor, i\u00e7indeki o bin y\u0131ll\u0131k ezilmi\u015fli\u011fi tahrik etmiyordum? &#8230; <br \/> Neden benim de dudaklar\u0131m\u0131n kenar\u0131nda kendini be\u011fenmi\u015f ve k\u00fcst\u00e2h bir g\u00fcl\u00fcmseyi\u015f yoktu onun gibi&#8230; <br \/> O g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc de, neden ben seninle onca y\u0131l beraber oldu\u011fum halde i\u00e7indeki sana yabanc\u0131 oldu\u011funu s\u00f6yledi\u011fin kad\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rmemi\u015ftim&#8230; <br \/> Sa\u00e7ma, rezil, karanl\u0131k d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerdi, ama ne yaz\u0131k ki ger\u00e7ekti&#8230; <br \/> Ama en \u00e7ok neyini k\u0131skand\u0131m biliyor musun? Onun \u00f6n\u00fcnde elbiselerini \u00e7\u0131kart\u0131p soyunman\u0131, sevi\u015firken adeta say\u0131klar gibi s\u00f6yledi\u011fin ve bana d\u00fcnyan\u0131n en masum s\u00f6zleri gibi gelen o ay\u0131p s\u00f6zc\u00fckleri ona da s\u00f6yl\u00fcyor olman\u0131 ve bir de onun yan\u0131nda uykuya dal\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131 k\u0131skand\u0131m&#8230; <br \/> Ama as\u0131l ac\u0131 olan bir g\u00fcn ans\u0131z\u0131n seni k\u0131skanmaktan vazge\u00e7i\u015fimdi&#8230; <br \/> Bir g\u00fcn ans\u0131z\u0131n \u00f6yle b\u00fcy\u00fck bir yoklu\u011fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm ki, bu yoklukta her \u015feye olan inanc\u0131m\u0131 yitirmi\u015ftim&#8230; <br \/> \u0130nsan ancak birine inan\u0131yorsa onu k\u0131skan\u0131rd\u0131&#8230; <br \/> Sen yokken her sabah d\u00fcnyaya g\u00f6zlerimi a\u00e7\u0131p, etraf\u0131ma bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda, buras\u0131 neresi, diyordum, kimim ben, kim bu insanlar, \u015fimdi ben bu koca g\u00fcn ne yapaca\u011f\u0131m? diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyordum. Sanki bu hayatla ilgili bildi\u011fim her \u015feyi unutmu\u015ftum&#8230; <br \/> Ta ki sen bir gece vakti g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131yla kap\u0131m\u0131 \u00e7al\u0131ncaya kadar&#8230; <br \/> \u00d6ylesine ba\u011fl\u0131l\u0131kla, \u00f6ylesine susam\u0131\u015fl\u0131kla sar\u0131l\u0131yordun ki bana, sanki birden rollerimiz de\u011fi\u015fmi\u015fti, \u015fimdi sen u\u00e7urumun kenar\u0131ndayd\u0131n, seni tutmas\u0131, korumas\u0131 gereken annen bendim senin&#8230; <br \/> Sana, senin bana sar\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n gibi sar\u0131lmasam senin resmin da\u011f\u0131lacakt\u0131&#8230; <br \/> \u0130\u00e7indeki kad\u0131n sana b\u00fcy\u00fck bir tuzak haz\u0131rlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Bedenin, ezilmi\u015fli\u011fin, karanl\u0131k \u00f6nyarg\u0131larla ko\u015fullanm\u0131\u015f g\u00fcd\u00fclerin doyuyordu, ama ruhun \u00f6ylesine susuz kalm\u0131\u015f, ki\u015fili\u011fin \u00f6ylesine par\u00e7alanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ki&#8230; <br \/> \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc yak\u0131\u015f\u0131kl\u0131 bedenine vuruldu\u011fun, duda\u011f\u0131n\u0131n kenar\u0131ndaki o k\u00fcstah ve kendini be\u011fenmi\u015f g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcne hayran oldu\u011fun gen\u00e7 adamla ruhunla, duygular\u0131nla ilgili konu\u015facak, payla\u015facak hi\u00e7bir \u015feyin yoktu&#8230; <br \/> Bedeninin onu \u00f6zl\u00fcyordu, ruhun beni&#8230; <br \/> \u0130\u00e7indeki, o yabanc\u0131n olan kad\u0131n, arzulad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda gen\u00e7 adama, onun iri, g\u00f6steri\u015fli bedenine, ipeksi, gergin kaslar\u0131na, bitip t\u00fckenmek bilmeyen cinsel enerjisine, seni k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcmseyen, ac\u0131tan o k\u00fcstah yak\u0131\u015f\u0131kl\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131na gidiyor, susuz kalan ruhun i\u00e7inse bana geliyordun&#8230; <br \/> Peki, beni seninle birlikte olmaya iten neydi? Neden b\u0131rak\u0131p gidemiyordum seni? .. <br \/> A\u015fkta yasak olana, imkans\u0131zl\u0131\u011fa, mutsuzlu\u011fa duydu\u011fum merak m\u0131 \u00e7ekiyordu \u015fimdi seni bana&#8230; <br \/> Yoksa ne ondan, ne de benden vazge\u00e7emedi\u011fin i\u00e7in ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131n ac\u0131ya, par\u00e7alanm\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011fa duydu\u011fum merhamet i\u00e7in mi b\u0131rakam\u0131yordum seni&#8230; <br \/> Art\u0131k benimle o bir zamanlar tutkuyla ba\u011fland\u0131\u011f\u0131m bedenini payla\u015fam\u0131yordun. <br \/> Art\u0131k sevi\u015fmiyorduk seninle. En az\u0131ndan d\u00fcr\u00fcstt\u00fck bu kadar kendimize ve bir ba\u015fkas\u0131na&#8230; <br \/> Ama \u00e7\u0131plak bedeninden \u00e7ok daha mahrem ve sahici olan d\u00fc\u015flerini, duygular\u0131n\u0131, ac\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 payla\u015f\u0131yordun benimle&#8230; <br \/> \u00c7ok k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fckken, day\u0131n\u0131n sana yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 cinsel tacizi mesela. Bug\u00fcne dek kimselere anlatamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131n bunu&#8230; <br \/> Aram\u0131zda cinsellik olmay\u0131nca art\u0131k ben de seninle her \u015feyimi korusuzca konu\u015fabiliyordum&#8230; D\u00fc\u015flerimi, annemi nas\u0131l derin bir sevgiyle sevdi\u011fimi, r\u00fcyalar\u0131mda onunla nas\u0131l sevi\u015fti\u011fimi, o b\u00fcy\u00fck utanc\u0131m\u0131, karanl\u0131k i\u00e7 d\u00fcnyam\u0131, doyumsuzluklar\u0131m\u0131 hasta, yaral\u0131 ruhumu&#8230; <br \/> Aram\u0131zda cinsellik olmay\u0131nca art\u0131k \u00fczerinde iktidar kurmay\u0131 asla d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fcyor, seni denetlemiyor, seninle gizliden gizliye rekabet etmiyordum&#8230; <br \/> Olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcnmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015fm\u0131yor, g\u00fcvensizlikten kaynaklanan sahte \u00fcst\u00fcnl\u00fck duygular\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 tatmin etmek i\u00e7in birbirimize kapris yapm\u0131yorduk. <br \/> S\u0131radanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n o b\u00fcy\u00fcl\u00fc i\u00e7tenli\u011fini yakalam\u0131\u015ft\u0131k&#8230; <br \/> Kendimizle, hayatla, her \u015feyle alay ediyorduk&#8230; <br \/> Karanl\u0131k orman\u0131ndan bana geldi\u011fin bir geceydi, hi\u00e7 unutmuyorum. Yatak odas\u0131na girecektim ki, i\u00e7erden, \u00e7ocuksu ve adeta mahcup bir sesle: Soyunuyorum, i\u00e7eri gelme, demi\u015ftin&#8230; <br \/> \u00d6nce, b\u00f6yle deyi\u015fine \u00e7ok \u015fa\u015f\u0131rm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Sen benim y\u0131llard\u0131r birlikte oldu\u011fum bir insand\u0131n. \u0130lk anda mahcubiyetine bir anlam verememi\u015ftim. \u0130\u00e7eri salona ge\u00e7tim. Sonra bir sigara yak\u0131p d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm&#8230; D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm&#8230; Bu mahcubiyetin, soyunuyorum, i\u00e7eri gelme deyi\u015fin, bana \u00e7ok anlaml\u0131 geldi birden&#8230; \u0130\u00e7im sevin\u00e7le, umutla doldu&#8230; Ve o an seninle her \u015feye yeniden ba\u015flamaya karar verdim&#8230; <br \/> Buna haz\u0131rd\u0131m&#8230; <br \/> Seninle \u00f6lmeye bile haz\u0131rd\u0131m&#8230; <br \/> Soyunuyorum, i\u00e7eri gelme, deyi\u015fin, bir kez daha a\u015f\u0131k etmi\u015fti beni sana&#8230; \u0130lk kez gibi&#8230; Ve b\u00fct\u00fcn ilkler gibi sonsuz bir arzuyla&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Cezmi ERS\u00d6Z<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>\u00a0 Bu gece konu\u011fumsun. 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