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Ger\u00e7ekten de \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcs\u00fczce, insafs\u0131zca yoruyorsunuz beni, can\u0131m; i\u00e7 \u00e7eki\u015finizi duyanlar, altm\u0131\u015fl\u0131k ba\u015fak\u00e7\u0131 kad\u0131nlardan, meyhane kap\u0131lar\u0131nda ekmek k\u0131r\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131 toplayan kocam\u0131\u015f di\u00adlenci kad\u0131nlardan da fazla ac\u0131 \u00e7ekiyorsunuz sanacaklar.\u00a0
“\u0130\u00e7 \u00e7eki\u015fleriniz hi\u00e7 de\u011filse pi\u015fmanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 belirtselerdi, birazc\u0131k onurland\u0131r\u0131rlard\u0131 sizi; ama ancak huzur doygunlu\u011funu, dinleni\u015f bezginli\u011fini koyuyorlar ortaya. Hem sonra ya\u00adrars\u0131z lak\u0131rd\u0131lar s\u0131ralamaktan da hi\u00e7 b\u0131km\u0131yorsunuz: “\u00c7ok sevin beni! o kadar muhtac\u0131m ki! Beni \u015f\u00f6yle avutun, beni b\u00f6yle ok\u015fay\u0131n!” Bak\u0131n, sizi iyile\u015ftirmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015faca\u011f\u0131m; belki de bir \u015fenlikte, iki kuru\u015f kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, \u00e7ok da uzaklara git\u00admeden buluruz bunun yolunu.
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“Ne olur, ard\u0131nda bir cehennemlik gibi uluyarak s\u00fcrg\u00fcnl\u00fck y\u00fcz\u00fcnden \u00e7ileden \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015f bir orangutan gibi demir \u00e7ubuklar\u0131 sarsan, bazen bir kaplan\u0131n halkams\u0131 s\u0131\u00e7ray\u0131\u015flar\u0131\u00adna, bazen ak ay\u0131n\u0131n budalaca sal\u0131nmalar\u0131na kusursuzca \u00f6y\u00adk\u00fcnen, bi\u00e7imi de olduk\u00e7a belirsiz olsa bile sizinkini and\u0131ran canavar\u0131n \u00e7abalad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015fu sa\u011flam kafese iyice bakal\u0131m.
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“Bu canavar, genellikle “mele\u011fim” dedi\u011fimiz hayvan\u00adlardand\u0131r, yani bir kad\u0131nd\u0131r. \u00d6teki canavar, elinde bir so\u00adpayla g\u0131rtla\u011f\u0131n\u0131 y\u0131rtarcas\u0131na ba\u011f\u0131ran da bir koca. Yasal ka\u00adr\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 bir hayvan gibi zincirlemi\u015f, panay\u0131r g\u00fcnlerinde, kenar mahallelerde g\u00f6steriyor, hem de, s\u00f6ylemeye ne hacet, y\u00f6neti\u00adcilerin izniyle.
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“\u0130yi dikkat edin! Bak\u0131n, bak\u0131c\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n att\u0131\u011f\u0131 canl\u0131 tav\u015fan\u00adlar\u0131, yaygaralar koparan tavuklar\u0131 nas\u0131l doymazl\u0131kla (belki hi\u00e7 de yapmac\u0131\u011fa ka\u00e7madan) par\u00e7al\u0131yor. “Yava\u015f gel, her \u015feyi bir g\u00fcnde yememeli,” diyor bak\u0131c\u0131s\u0131, bu bilge s\u00f6zden sonra da ac\u0131mas\u0131zca al\u0131yor av\u0131 elinden, bo\u015falm\u0131\u015f ba\u011f\u0131rsaklar azg\u0131n hayvan\u0131n, yani kad\u0131n\u0131n di\u015flerine bir an tak\u0131l\u0131 kal\u0131yor.
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“Hadi! bir de zorlu sopa vur ki yat\u0131\u015fs\u0131n! \u00f6yle ya, ta\u00admahtan korkun\u00e7la\u015fm\u0131\u015f g\u00f6zlerle bak\u0131yor al\u0131nan yiyece\u011fe. Aman Tanr\u0131m! Sopa da oyun sopas\u0131 de\u011fil \u00f6yle, takma postu\u00adna kar\u015f\u0131n et nas\u0131l \u015faklad\u0131, i\u015fittiniz mi? Bunun i\u00e7in g\u00f6zleri yu\u00advalar\u0131ndan f\u0131rl\u0131yor, bunun i\u00e7in daha do\u011fal uluyor… Tepeden t\u0131rna\u011fa k\u0131v\u0131lc\u0131m sa\u00e7\u0131yor \u00f6fkeden, d\u00f6v\u00fclen demirler gibi.
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“Adem ile Havva’n\u0131n bu iki torununun, elinizden \u00e7\u0131\u00adkan bu yap\u0131tlar\u0131n evlilik ya\u015fam\u0131 b\u00f6yle ge\u00e7iyor, ey Tanr\u0131m! \u00dcn\u00fcn \u015fan\u0131n g\u0131d\u0131klay\u0131c\u0131 ergilerini bilmez olmasa bile mutsuz bir kad\u0131n, buras\u0131 kesin. Daha \u00e7aresiz, \u00fcstelik bir \u00f6dencesi de bulunmayan dertler vard\u0131r. Ama o, \u015fu d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u011f\u00fc d\u00fcnyada ka\u00add\u0131n\u0131n ba\u015fka t\u00fcrl\u00fc bir yazg\u0131ya da hakk\u0131 oldu\u011funa hi\u00e7bir za\u00adman inanmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131r.
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“\u015eimdi biz bizeyiz, sevgili \u00e7\u0131tk\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131m! D\u00fcnyay\u0131 doldu\u00adran cehennemleri g\u00f6rd\u00fckten sonra, sizin, yaln\u0131z teni kadar yumu\u015fak kuma\u015flar \u00fcst\u00fcnde dinlenen, yaln\u0131z pi\u015fmi\u015f et yiyen, uz elli hizmet\u00e7isinin g\u00f6revi de kendisi i\u00e7in par\u00e7alar\u0131 kesmek olan sizin g\u00fczel cehenneminiz \u00fczerinde ne d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcneyim istiyor\u00adsunuz?
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“Ho\u015f kokulu g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcn\u00fcz\u00fc kabartan b\u00fct\u00fcn bu hafif i\u00e7\u00ad \u00e7ekmelerin ne anlam\u0131 olabilir benim i\u00e7in, g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc yosma? Ya b\u00fct\u00fcn bu kitaplardan \u00f6\u011frenilmi\u015f yapmac\u0131klar, seyreden de ac\u0131madan \u00e7ok daha ba\u015fka bir duygu uyand\u0131rmak i\u00e7in yara\u00adt\u0131lm\u0131\u015f bu yorulmaz h\u00fcz\u00fcn? Do\u011frusu ya, baz\u0131 baz\u0131 size ger\u00e7ek derdin ne oldu\u011funu \u00f6\u011fretmek geliyor i\u00e7imden.
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“G\u00fczel kibar\u0131m, sizi b\u00f6yle ayaklar\u0131 \u00e7amurda, g\u00f6zleri bir kral istercesine, dumanl\u0131 dumanl\u0131 g\u00f6\u011fe d\u00f6n\u00fck g\u00f6r\u00fcnce, \u00fclk\u00fcy\u00fc yard\u0131ma \u00e7a\u011f\u0131ran bir gen\u00e7 kurba\u011fa diyece\u011fi geliyor in\u00adsan\u0131n. Odunu (siz de biliyorsunuz, ben \u015fimdi buyum) k\u00fc\u00ad\u00e7\u00fcmserseniz, sizi k\u0131t\u0131r k\u0131t\u0131r yiyecek, \u00e7i\u011fnemeden yutacak, g\u00f6nl\u00fcnce \u00f6ld\u00fcrecek budaladan sak\u0131n\u0131n.
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“Ne kadar ozan olursam olay\u0131m, umdu\u011funuz kadar al\u00addanm\u0131yorum, o yapmac\u0131kl\u0131 a\u011flamalar\u0131n\u0131zla beni fazla yorars\u0131n\u0131z, yaban\u0131l kad\u0131nm\u0131\u015fs\u0131n\u0131z gibi davranaca\u011f\u0131m size, ya da sizi bo\u015f bir \u015fi\u015fe gibi f\u0131rlat\u0131verece\u011fim pencereden.”<\/p>\n