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Saat sabah\u0131n onuydu, Patrice Mersault d\u00fczenli ad\u0131mlarla Zagreus \u2018un villas\u0131na do\u011fru y\u00fcr\u00fcyordu, O saatte hastabak\u0131c\u0131 pazara \u00e7\u0131kar, villa \u0131ss\u0131z olurdu. Nisan ay\u0131yd\u0131; p\u0131r\u0131l p\u0131r\u0131l, so\u011fuk, duru, donuk, mavi ve g\u00fczel bir ilkbahar sabah\u0131yd\u0131, g\u00f6z kama\u015ft\u0131r\u0131c\u0131, ama \u0131s\u0131tmayan bir g\u00fcne\u015f vard\u0131.<\/p>\n
Villan\u0131n yan\u0131ndaki k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck yama\u00e7lar\u0131 s\u00fcsleyen \u00e7amlar\u0131n aras\u0131ndan a\u011fa\u00e7 g\u00f6vdeleri boyunca duru bir \u0131\u015f\u0131k ak\u0131yordu. Yol \u0131ss\u0131zd\u0131. Y\u00fckseliyordu biraz. Mersault \u2018nun elinde bir valiz vard\u0131; so\u011fuk yol \u00fczerindeki sert ad\u0131m sesleriyle valizinin kulpunun \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131\u011f\u0131 d\u00fczenli g\u0131c\u0131rt\u0131 aras\u0131nda, bu d\u00fcnyan\u0131n sabah\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6rkemi i\u00e7inde ilerliyordu.<\/p>\n
Yol, villaya varmadan az \u00f6nce banklar ve bah\u00e7elerle dolu bir alana a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131yordu. K\u00fclrengi sar\u0131sab\u0131rlar\u0131n ortas\u0131ndaki erkenci k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 sardunyalar, g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn mavili\u011fi, kire\u00e7 badanal\u0131 beyaz bah\u00e7e duvarlar\u0131, b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar, \u00f6yle ho\u015f, \u00f6yle \u00e7ocuksuydu ki, Mersault, alandan Zagreus \u2018un villas\u0131na inen yola koyulmadan \u00f6nce bir an durdu. E\u015fi\u011fe gelince yeniden durdu ve eldivenlerini giydi. Sakat adam\u0131n aral\u0131k tuttu\u011fu kap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131 ve rastgele kapatt\u0131. Koridorda ilerledi, soldan \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc kap\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcne var\u0131nca kap\u0131y\u0131 \u00e7ald\u0131, i\u00e7eri girdi. Zagreus oradayd\u0131, \u015f\u00f6minenin yan\u0131ndaki koltukta, tam Mersault \u2018nun iki g\u00fcn \u00f6nce oturdu\u011fu yerde; kesik bacaklar\u0131n\u0131n \u00fczerinde bir \u0130sko\u00e7 battaniyesi vard\u0131. <\/p>\n
Kitap okumaktayd\u0131; hi\u00e7 bir \u015fa\u015fk\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131n okunmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 yuvarlak g\u00f6zlerini, \u015fimdi, kapal\u0131 kap\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131nda durmakta olan Mersault \u2019ya dikti\u011finde, kitab\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6rt\u00fcye day\u0131yordu. Pencerelerin perdeleri \u00e7ekilmi\u015fti; yerde, mobilyalar\u0131n \u00fczerinde, e\u015fyalar\u0131n oras\u0131nda buras\u0131nda, g\u00fcne\u015f birikintileri vard\u0131. Camlar\u0131n arkas\u0131ndaki sabah, yald\u0131zl\u0131 ve so\u011fuk topra\u011f\u0131n \u00fczerinde g\u00fcl\u00fcyordu. <\/p>\n
Donuk, b\u00fcy\u00fck bir sevin\u00e7, g\u00fcvensiz ku\u015flar\u0131n keskin \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131klar\u0131, ac\u0131mak bilmez bir \u0131\u015f\u0131k ta\u015fk\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131, sabaha, masum ve ger\u00e7ek\u00e7i bir g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcm veriyordu. Bo\u011faz\u0131 ve kulaklar\u0131 odan\u0131n bo\u011fucu s\u0131cakl\u0131\u011f\u0131yla t\u0131kanm\u0131\u015f olan Mersault, durmu\u015ftu. Mevsim de\u011fi\u015fimine kar\u015f\u0131n, Zagreus b\u00fcy\u00fck bir ate\u015f yakt\u0131rm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Mersault, kan\u0131n\u0131n \u015fakaklar\u0131na y\u00fckseldi\u011fini, kulaklar\u0131n\u0131n \u015fiddetle zonklad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hissediyordu. \u00d6teki, s\u00fcrekli sessiz, g\u00f6zleriyle onu izliyordu. <\/p>\n
Patrice \u015f\u00f6minenin \u00f6b\u00fcr yan\u0131ndaki sand\u0131\u011fa do\u011fru y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc, sakat adama bakmadan, valizini masan\u0131n \u00fczerine b\u0131rakt\u0131. Oraya var\u0131nca ayak bileklerinde hafif bir titreme hissetti. Durdu, a\u011fz\u0131na bir sigara ald\u0131, eldivenli elleri y\u00fcz\u00fcnden sigaray\u0131 zorlukla yakt\u0131. Ard\u0131nda hafif bir ses. Sigara dudaklar\u0131nda geriye d\u00f6nd\u00fc. S\u00fcr ekli kendisine bakmakta olan Zagreus kitab\u0131n\u0131 yeni kapat\u0131yordu. Mersault, ate\u015fin ac\u0131 verecek kadar dizlerini yakt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hissederken, ba\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131 tersinden okudu: Saray Adam\u0131, Baltasar Gracian\u2019\u0131n kitab\u0131. Duraksamadan sand\u0131\u011fa e\u011fildi ve a\u00e7t\u0131. Beyaz \u00fczerinde siyah tabanca, bak\u0131ml\u0131 bir kedi gibi t\u00fcm e\u011fri \u00e7izgileriyle parl\u0131yor, Zagreus \u2018un mektubunun \u00fczerinde durup duruyordu. Mersault sol eline mektubu, sa\u011f\u0131na tabancay\u0131 ald\u0131. Bir duraksamadan sonra, sil\u00e2h\u0131 sol kolunun alt\u0131na k\u0131st\u0131r\u0131p mektubu a\u00e7t\u0131. \u0130\u00e7inden, Zagreus \u2018un k\u00f6\u015feli, iri el yaz\u0131s\u0131yla yaln\u0131zca birka\u00e7 sat\u0131r yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015f b\u00fcy\u00fck boy, tek bir k\u00e2\u011f\u0131t \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131:<\/p>\n
“Ortadan kald\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131m yar\u0131m bir adamdan ba\u015fkas\u0131 de\u011fil. Bana bundan \u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fc k\u0131z\u0131lmamas\u0131n\u0131 dilerim, zaten sand\u0131kta \u015fimdiye dek hizmetimi g\u00f6renlere borcumu \u00f6demek i\u00e7in gerekenden fazlas\u0131 bulunmakta. Artan\u0131n, idam mahk\u00fbmlar\u0131n\u0131n ko\u015fullar\u0131n\u0131n iyile\u015ftirilmesine ayr\u0131lmas\u0131n\u0131 istiyorum. Ama bunun, \u00e7ok \u015fey istemek oldu\u011funun da bilincindeyim.”<\/p>\n
Mersault, anla\u015f\u0131lmaz bir y\u00fczle mektubu katlad\u0131, zarf\u0131n \u00fczerine k\u00fcl d\u00fc\u015ferken, tam o anda sigaras\u0131n\u0131n duman\u0131 g\u00f6z\u00fcne ka\u00e7t\u0131. K\u00e2\u011f\u0131d\u0131 sallad\u0131, masan\u0131n \u00fczerine g\u00f6r\u00fcl\u00fcr bir yere koydu, Zagreus \u2019a d\u00f6nd\u00fc. Beriki, \u015fimdi zarfa bak\u0131yordu, adaleli, k\u0131sa elleri kitab\u0131n \u00e7evresinde kalakalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n
Mersault e\u011fildi, kasan\u0131n anahtar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7evirdi, sar\u0131ld\u0131klar\u0131 gazete k\u00e2\u011f\u0131d\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131ndan yaln\u0131zca yan kenarlar\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fclen tomarlar\u0131 ald\u0131. Sil\u00e2h\u0131 koltu\u011funun alt\u0131nda, tek eliyle onlar\u0131 d\u00fczenli bir bi\u00e7imde valizine doldurdu. Yirmi kadar y\u00fczl\u00fck paket vard\u0131, Mersault \u00e7ok b\u00fcy\u00fck bir valiz alm\u0131\u015f oldu\u011funu anlad\u0131. Kasada y\u00fczl\u00fck k\u00e2\u011f\u0131t paralardan bir tomar b\u0131rakt\u0131.<\/p>\n
Valizi kapat\u0131nca, yar\u0131s\u0131 i\u00e7ilmi\u015f sigaray\u0131 ate\u015fe f\u0131rlatt\u0131, tabancay\u0131 sa\u011f eline alarak, sakat adama yakla\u015ft\u0131. Zagreus \u015fimdi pencereye bak\u0131yordu. Hafif bir ezme sesiyle birlikte: kap\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnden yava\u015f\u00e7a bir otomobilin ge\u00e7ti\u011fi duyuldu. Zagreus, k\u0131m\u0131ldamaks\u0131z\u0131n, bu nisan sabah\u0131n\u0131n insans\u0131z g\u00fczelli\u011fini seyre dalm\u0131\u015f gibiydi. Tabancan\u0131n namlusunu sa\u011f \u015faka\u011f\u0131n\u0131n \u00fczerinde hissetti\u011finde, g\u00f6zlerini d\u0131\u015far\u0131dan ay\u0131rmad\u0131. Ama ona bakan Patrice, g\u00f6zlerinin ya\u015flarla doldu\u011funu g\u00f6rd\u00fc. G\u00f6zlerini yuman o oldu. Geriye bir ad\u0131m att\u0131 ve ate\u015f etti. Bir an duvara dayand\u0131, g\u00f6zleri s\u00fcrekli kapal\u0131, kan\u0131n\u0131n yeniden kulaklar\u0131n\u0131 zonklatt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hissetti. Bakt\u0131. Ba\u015f, sol omzun \u00fczerine d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f, g\u00f6vde hafif\u00e7e yan yatm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. <\/p>\n
\u00d6yle ki, art\u0131k Zagreus de\u011fil; beyin, kemik, kan kabart\u0131s\u0131 i\u00e7inde b\u00fcy\u00fck bir yara g\u00f6r\u00fcl\u00fcyordu yaln\u0131zca. Mersault titremeye ba\u015flad\u0131. Koltu\u011fun \u00f6b\u00fcr yan\u0131na ge\u00e7ti, el- yordam\u0131yla sa\u011f eli ald\u0131, ona tabancay\u0131 tutu\u015fturdu, \u015faka\u011f\u0131n hizas\u0131na kald\u0131rd\u0131 ve d\u00fc\u015fmesi i\u00e7in b\u0131rakt\u0131. Tabanca koltu\u011fun koluna, oradan da Zagreus \u2018un dizlerinin \u00fcst\u00fcne d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Bu davran\u0131\u015f s\u0131ras\u0131nda Mersault sakat adam\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 ve \u00e7enesini fark etti. Pencereye bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 zamanki ayn\u0131 a\u011f\u0131rba\u015fl\u0131 ve h\u00fcz\u00fcnl\u00fc havay\u0131 ta\u015f\u0131yordu adam. O anda kap\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde keskin bir boru sesi \u00e7\u0131nlad\u0131. Ger\u00e7ekd\u0131\u015f\u0131 \u00e7a\u011fr\u0131, ikinci bir kez kendini duyurdu. Mersault, koltu\u011fun \u00fczerine e\u011filmi\u015f kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131, k\u0131p\u0131rdamadan durdu. <\/p>\n
Bir araba sesi kasab\u0131n yola \u00e7\u0131k\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131 haber verdi. Mersault valizini ald\u0131, bir g\u00fcne\u015f \u0131\u015f\u0131na alt\u0131nda mandal\u0131 parlayan kap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131, zonklayan ba\u015f\u0131 ve kuruyan diliyle d\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131. Sofan\u0131n kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 ge\u00e7ti, h\u0131zl\u0131 ad\u0131mlarla y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc. K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck alan\u0131n k\u0131y\u0131s\u0131ndaki bir k\u00fcme \u00e7ocuk d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda, ortal\u0131kta kimseler yoktu. Uzakla\u015ft\u0131. Alana gelirken so\u011fu\u011fun bilincine vard\u0131 ve ince ceketinin alt\u0131nda titredi. \u0130ki kez aks\u0131rd\u0131 ve k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck koyak, g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcn durulu\u011funun iyice art\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 belirgin, alayc\u0131 yank\u0131larla doldu. Biraz karars\u0131zl\u0131k ge\u00e7irdiyse de, durdu, derin derin solukland\u0131. Mavi g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcnden milyonlarca k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck, beyaz g\u00fcl\u00fcc\u00fck iniyordu. G\u00fcl\u00fcc\u00fckler; ya\u011fmur dolu yapraklarla, bah\u00e7e yollar\u0131n\u0131n \u0131slak t\u00fcfleri \u00fczerinde oynuyor, taze kan rengi kiremitli evlere do\u011fru u\u00e7uyor; kanat \u00e7\u0131rparak, havayla g\u00fcne\u015f g\u00f6llerine do\u011fru y\u00fckseliyor ve birdenbire, oradan da ta\u015f\u0131yorlard\u0131. G\u00f6kten, yol alan k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir u\u00e7a\u011f\u0131n hafif m\u0131r\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131 iniyordu yere. Havan\u0131n bu \u0131\u015f\u0131l \u0131\u015f\u0131ll\u0131\u011f\u0131, g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcn bu verimlili\u011fi alt\u0131nda, insanlar\u0131n tek \u00f6devi, ya\u015famak ve mutlu olmak gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyordu.<\/p>\n
Mersault \u2018nun i\u00e7inde her \u015fey susuyordu. \u00dc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc bir aks\u0131r\u0131kla sars\u0131ld\u0131, ate\u015ften titredi\u011fini hissetti. Bunun \u00fczerine \u00e7evresine bakmadan, valizinin g\u0131c\u0131rt\u0131s\u0131yla ad\u0131mlar\u0131n\u0131n sesi aras\u0131nda h\u0131zla uzakla\u015ft\u0131. Evine var\u0131nca, valizini bir k\u00f6\u015feye b\u0131rak\u0131p yatt\u0131, \u00f6\u011fle sonunun ortalar\u0131na kadar uyudu.<\/p>\n
Mutlu \u00d6l\u00fcm | Do\u011fal \u00d6l\u00fcm (AnaB\u00f6l\u00fcm) 1.B\u00f6l\u00fcm – Albert Camus<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Saat sabah\u0131n onuydu, Patrice Mersault d\u00fczenli ad\u0131mlarla Zagreus \u2018un villas\u0131na do\u011fru y\u00fcr\u00fcyordu, O saatte hastabak\u0131c\u0131 pazara \u00e7\u0131kar, villa \u0131ss\u0131z olurdu. Nisan ay\u0131yd\u0131; p\u0131r\u0131l p\u0131r\u0131l, so\u011fuk, duru, donuk, mavi ve g\u00fczel bir ilkbahar sabah\u0131yd\u0131, g\u00f6z kama\u015ft\u0131r\u0131c\u0131, ama \u0131s\u0131tmayan bir g\u00fcne\u015f vard\u0131. Villan\u0131n yan\u0131ndaki k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck yama\u00e7lar\u0131 s\u00fcsleyen \u00e7amlar\u0131n aras\u0131ndan a\u011fa\u00e7 g\u00f6vdeleri boyunca duru bir \u0131\u015f\u0131k ak\u0131yordu. Yol […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[138],"tags":[],"class_list":{"0":"post-6901","1":"post","2":"type-post","3":"status-publish","4":"format-standard","6":"category-edebiyat-dunya"},"yoast_head":"\n