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\u015eu s\u0131rada d\u00fcnyay\u0131 ele ge\u00e7irmek isteyenler\u00a0 var-g\u00fc\u00e7leriyle \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorlar. Belirli mezheplerce s\u00fcrd\u00fcr\u00fclen bu ak\u0131l almaz sava\u015fa ben, yak\u0131ndan tan\u0131k oldum; hemen hemen otuz y\u0131ld\u0131r da bu sava\u015f\u0131n uzaktan ta\u00adn\u0131\u011f\u0131y\u0131m; yani 1915 y\u0131l\u0131n\u0131n, bir ilkyaz g\u00fcn\u00fcnden bu yana. <\/p>\n
O g\u00fcn, beni, iki m\u00fcrit, Protestan kilisesinin \u00f6n\u00fcnde s\u0131rt\u0131mdan b\u0131\u00e7aklam\u0131\u015flard\u0131. On dokuz ya\u015f\u0131n\u00addayd\u0131m. Madeleine Bulvar\u0131\u2019n\u0131n sonunda, eczanenin \u00f6n\u00fcnden ge\u00e7iyordum ki ‘k\u00f6t\u00fcl\u00fckleri y\u00fczlerine vur\u00admu\u015f iki adam\u0131n \u00e7evremde gezindiklerini g\u00f6rd\u00fcm; g\u00f6\u00adr\u00fcr g\u00f6rmez de bu adamlar\u0131n beni vuracaklar\u0131, i\u00e7ime do\u011fdu. \u0130kisini de tan\u0131m\u0131yordum. \u0130\u00e7lerinden biri bana g\u00fcl\u00fcmsedi, sanki \u015funu demek istiyordu: \u00abHay\u0131r,bizden korkmana gerek yok. Arad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z sen de\u011fil\u00adsin.\u00bb Sonra y\u00fcz\u00fcndeki anlam de\u011fi\u015fti; bana g\u00fcl\u00fcm\u00adseyen o y\u00fcz, bir hayvan maskesine d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Afalla\u00add\u0131m. <\/p>\n
Bu y\u00fcz\u00fcn, o adam\u0131n oldu\u011funa inanam\u0131yordum Ama y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn buru\u015fmakta, bozulmakta oldu\u011funu da g\u00f6r\u00fcyordum. Sanki birdenbire \u015f\u00f6yle m\u0131r\u0131ldanmaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131: \u00abKimim ben, ne istiyorum? Bu adam be\u00adnim d\u00fc\u015fman\u0131m de\u011fil; onu tan\u0131m\u0131yorum, vurmayaca\u00ad\u011f\u0131m. B\u00f6ylece \u00e7ekip gitti. Ben de yoluma devam edecektim ki arkamda havan\u0131n, y\u0131rt\u0131l\u0131yormu\u015fcas\u0131na sars\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 duyumsad\u0131m. <\/p>\n
Akl\u0131ma gelen, \u015fu oldu : \u00abBir pezevengin ruhudur, bu y\u0131rt\u0131lan.\u00bb Ama daha arkama d\u00f6nmeden, bir b\u0131\u00e7a\u011f\u0131n s\u0131rt\u0131m\u0131 y\u0131rtt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 duy\u00addum; y\u00fcre\u011fimin gerisine, omurgam\u0131n iki santim ya\u00adk\u0131n\u0131na saplanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Arkamda bir bedenin yere d\u00fc\u015f\u00adt\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc duymama kalmadan, ben kendim yere devriliverdim, bir yandan da d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyordum son saatimin daha gelmedi\u011fini, kan\u0131m\u0131n akaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131, sonra duraca\u011f\u0131n\u0131. Bu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceyle yerden kalkt\u0131m; korkun\u00e7 ac\u0131m, hafifliyordu. Yere serilmi\u015f olan pezevenk, bana \u015f\u00f6y\u00adle dedi: \u00abBen yapmad\u0131m. D\u00fcnyada hi\u00e7bir \u015fey de\u011fmez seni vurmama. Seni tan\u0131yorum, sen beni unuttuysan da; kim oldu\u011funu biliyorum. Seni vurmam\u0131 istediler ama ben bundan ka\u00e7\u0131nd\u0131m; ger\u00e7i bedenim, t\u00fcm\u00fcyle ka\u00e7\u0131namad\u0131 bundan, seni vurdu az\u0131c\u0131k, \u00e7\u00fcn\u00adk\u00fc birden denetimimi yitirmi\u015ftim; ama ruhum de\u00ad\u011fildir seni vuran. Onu bedenimden kurtarmak i\u00e7in yere d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm ben.\u00bb <\/p>\n
Adama dedim ki : Beni vurmak isteyenin kim oldu\u011funu biliyorum; bir melek o, sen de\u011filsin. Bu \u00e7ok eski bir \u00f6yk\u00fcd\u00fcr, tarihin derinlik\u00adlerinden bu yana s\u00fcrer gelir. Anlatt\u0131k\u00e7a kendimi buluyordum bu unutulmu\u015f cinayet \u00f6yk\u00fcs\u00fcnde; \u0130sa\u2019 n\u0131n bir \u015famar o\u011flan\u0131 haline getirildi\u011fi, \u015eeytan\u0131n da Tanr\u0131\u2019n\u0131n kutsay\u0131c\u0131s\u0131 oldu\u011fu bu \u00f6yk\u00fcde. Dedim ki: Bu \u00f6yk\u00fc, bizi uzaklara g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcyor, daha bitmi\u015f de\u011fil; beni Rodez s\u0131\u011f\u0131na\u011f\u0131na s\u00fcr\u00fckleyen, bu ser\u00fcven\u00addir. <\/p>\n
Burada, d\u00fcnyan\u0131n bu en katolik katedralinin karan\u00adl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda kendimi, g\u00f6zlerden g\u00f6n\u00fcllerden \u0131rak hissediyorum; gece g\u00fcnd\u00fcz, dinmeyen b\u00fcy\u00fcl\u00fc dalgalar\u0131n\u0131 \u00fczerime g\u00f6nderen o d\u00fcnyadan uzakta. Otuz ya\u015f\u0131m\u00addan beri, s\u0131rt\u0131mda bu b\u0131\u00e7ak yaras\u0131n\u0131 ta\u015f\u0131yorum; ya\u00adray\u0131 tazeleyip duran bu b\u0131\u00e7ak, sulara g\u00f6m\u00fcyor adam\u0131 ki beden\u00eeyle ta\u015f\u0131makta yaras\u0131n\u0131, ruhuyla de\u00ad\u011fil.<\/p>\n
S\u0131rt\u0131mdaki B\u0131\u00e7ak Yaras\u0131 | Ya\u015fayan Mumya – Antonin Artaud<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" \u015eu s\u0131rada d\u00fcnyay\u0131 ele ge\u00e7irmek isteyenler\u00a0 var-g\u00fc\u00e7leriyle \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorlar. Belirli mezheplerce s\u00fcrd\u00fcr\u00fclen bu ak\u0131l almaz sava\u015fa ben, yak\u0131ndan tan\u0131k oldum; hemen hemen otuz y\u0131ld\u0131r da bu sava\u015f\u0131n uzaktan ta\u00adn\u0131\u011f\u0131y\u0131m; yani 1915 y\u0131l\u0131n\u0131n, bir ilkyaz g\u00fcn\u00fcnden bu yana. O g\u00fcn, beni, iki m\u00fcrit, Protestan kilisesinin \u00f6n\u00fcnde s\u0131rt\u0131mdan b\u0131\u00e7aklam\u0131\u015flard\u0131. On dokuz ya\u015f\u0131n\u00addayd\u0131m. Madeleine Bulvar\u0131\u2019n\u0131n sonunda, eczanenin \u00f6n\u00fcnden ge\u00e7iyordum […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[64],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-6951","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","category-tiyatro-uzerine"],"yoast_head":"\n