kimseleri istemiyorum
d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerimde yola \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131m vakit
ger\u00e7e\u011fin beni bunaltt\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00fcnlerde
dilimden d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrmedi\u011fim bir \u015fark\u0131 gibi
sen ol sesimin konak yerlerinde
yeter…<\/p>\n
ii
y\u00fcz\u00fcn de olmasayd\u0131
d\u00fcnyay\u0131 yumu\u015fatan o yaz bulutu g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn
g\u00fcnlerim neye benzerdi, ya \u00f6mr\u00fcm?
karanl\u0131k bir mahzende soluk bir resim
rutubet, toz ve k\u00fcf kokular\u0131 i\u00e7inde
eskir eskir eskirdi.<\/p>\n
iii<\/p>\n
insan kendini duymad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir g\u00fcn\u00fc
nereye kadar ta\u015f\u0131yabilir
al\u0131n \u00e7izgisinin s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131 \u00e7ukurunda
sesinde senin ad\u0131n
ufkunda y\u00fcz\u00fcn yoksa..<\/p>\n
iv
bir salk\u0131m s\u00f6\u011f\u00fcde benzetiyorum seni
uzak, \u00e7ok uzak k\u0131y\u0131lar\u0131 s\u00fcsleyen
kendimi unutulmu\u015f bir \u0131rma\u011fa
yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n ufuklar\u0131n\u0131 b\u00fct\u00fcnleyen
d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcyor b\u00fcr g\u00fcn olsun
sular\u0131ma g\u00f6lgen..<\/p>\n
v
\u0131l\u0131k bir esinti gibi incecik
s\u00fcz\u00fclen bulutundan parmaklar\u0131n\u0131n
\u00f6ks\u00fcz bir bo\u015fluk kald\u0131 avucumda
i\u00e7inde \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fcn yaral\u0131 y\u0131llar\u0131
ve yeni yeni g\u00fczelle\u015fmeye ba\u015flayan\u00a0
ankara \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131nan..<\/p>\n
vi
senin bana geli\u015fin g\u00fcnler i\u00e7inde
bir su serinli\u011fidir olsa olsa
ince k\u0131r\u0131l\u0131\u015flarla g\u00fcne\u015fin alt\u0131n kanatlar\u0131ndan
a\u011fustos topraklar\u0131na d\u00f6k\u00fclen
i\u00e7tik\u00e7e susuzlu\u011fumu artt\u0131r\u0131r g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn.<\/p>\n
vii
yanl\u0131\u015f bir kap\u0131y\u0131m ben
\u00f6n\u00fcnde yan\u0131lm\u0131\u015f bir \u00e7ocu\u011fun durdu\u011fu
a\u00e7\u0131lsam ac\u0131lara de\u011fer kanatlar\u0131m
a\u00e7\u0131lmasam
simsiyah bir mutsuzluktur duru\u015fum<\/p>\n
viii
sabah y\u00fcz\u00fcnd\u00fcr, ak\u015fam y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn
gece, b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131n bo\u015fluktur ard\u0131na
ve \u015fiir
o ince hilaldir lacivert yaln\u0131zl\u0131klarda
sar\u0131n\u0131p s\u00fczg\u00fcn \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131na
katlanman\u0131n t\u00fcrk\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc s\u00f6yledi\u011fin..<\/p>\n
ix
“de\u011fi\u015fme” diyen sesin kald\u0131 geride
terk edilmi\u015f evlerde hayal gibi yank\u0131lanan
“sen b\u00f6yle g\u00fczelsin…”
de\u011fi\u015femezdim. de\u011fi\u015fmedim.
\u00f6m\u00fcr s\u00fcr\u00fcyor yine y\u0131rtarak y\u00fcrek zar\u0131n\u0131
ayk\u0131r\u0131 sorular\u0131n o bildik seyrinde
k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcc\u00fck bir incelikle \u0131\u015f\u0131klan\u0131p
d\u00fc\u015ferek g\u00f6lgeler i\u00e7inde
aldan\u0131\u015f\u0131n i\u00e7ed\u00f6n\u00fck o g\u00fccenik \u00fclkesine.<\/p>\n
x
seni koruyaca\u011f\u0131m sana bile sezdirmeden
g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc gibi uzaktan ve beklentisiz
gerece\u011fim y\u00fcre\u011fimi \u00fczerine.
– sevmek biraz da bu de\u011fil midir? –
\u0131slatmasa da sesini bir daha
bir isyan t\u00fcrk\u00fcs\u00fc gibi s\u00fcrd\u00fcrece\u011fim ya\u011fmurunu
d\u00fc\u015flere \u00f6m\u00fcrler veren o duygu bulutunun..<\/p>\n
\u015e\u00fckr\u00fc ERBA\u015e<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
kimseleri istemiyorumd\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerimde yola \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131m vakitger\u00e7e\u011fin beni bunaltt\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00fcnlerdedilimden d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrmedi\u011fim bir \u015fark\u0131 gibisen ol sesimin konak yerlerindeyeter… iiy\u00fcz\u00fcn de olmasayd\u0131d\u00fcnyay\u0131 yumu\u015fatan o yaz bulutu g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcng\u00fcnlerim neye benzerdi, ya \u00f6mr\u00fcm?karanl\u0131k bir mahzende soluk bir resimrutubet, toz ve k\u00fcf kokular\u0131 i\u00e7indeeskir eskir eskirdi. iii insan kendini duymad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir g\u00fcn\u00fcnereye kadar ta\u015f\u0131yabiliral\u0131n \u00e7izgisinin s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131 \u00e7ukurundasesinde senin ad\u0131nufkunda y\u00fcz\u00fcn yoksa.. […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[214],"tags":[],"class_list":{"0":"post-6995","1":"post","2":"type-post","3":"status-publish","4":"format-standard","6":"category-sukru-erbas"},"yoast_head":"\n