kar ya\u011f\u0131yor
kesik kesik
bir durup
bir ilerleyerek<\/p>\n
yerin karbeyaz mendiline
kanl\u0131 balgam\u0131n\u0131 silip ay
y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc
sendeleyerek<\/p>\n
gar \u0131ss\u0131z
bek\u00e7iler uyukluyor<\/p>\n
monolog \u00e7eviriyor telsiz<\/p>\n
karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u00f6\u015f\u00fcnde \u015feytan
kendi \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n\u0131 s……
yapacak i\u015f bulamad\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan<\/p>\n
duvar saati \u00e7ekilmi\u015f maun kab\u0131na
akrebini emziriyor<\/p>\n
\u0131s\u0131tmak i\u00e7in pasl\u0131 ayaklar\u0131n\u0131 trenler
raylar\u0131n oksitli a\u011f\u0131zlar\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6p\u00fcyorlar<\/p>\n
boyuna kar ya\u011f\u0131yor
enine kar ya\u011f\u0131yor<\/p>\n
anla\u015f\u0131lan a\u011f\u0131r olacak k\u0131\u015f
uzun s\u00fcrecek
kanama<\/p>\n
garday\u0131m
ay ayakta!<\/p>\n
parmaklar\u0131mda havalanan heyecan\u0131
bir kente ba\u015flaman\u0131n<\/p>\n
ay sendeledi geldi
s\u0131rt\u0131n\u0131 yaslad\u0131
s\u0131rt\u0131ma<\/p>\n
i \u00e7 t i k. t\u00fct\u00fcn sard\u0131k birlikte
anlatt\u0131 bin y\u0131ll\u0131k ezgisini<\/p>\n
i \u00e7 t i k. t\u00fct\u00fcn sard\u0131k
a\u011flad\u0131
g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcmde<\/p>\n
samanyoluna d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc atk\u0131s\u0131<\/p>\n
i \u00e7 t i k. s\u00f6nd\u00fcrd\u00fck sigaralar\u0131<\/p>\n
s\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f sigaralar gibi
durduk bir zaman<\/p>\n
parmaklar\u0131 aras\u0131nda
g \u00f6 k ile y e r i n<\/p>\n
dedi: yer ile g\u00f6k aras\u0131 b\u00fcy\u00fck
sa\u011f\u0131r fabrika
bir semah-\u0131 cehennem
kan\u0131n\u0131zla d\u00f6nen<\/p>\n
dedim: \u00e7avdar yedim, ekin bi\u00e7tim
\u00f6\u011f\u00fctt\u00fcm gen\u00e7li\u011fimi aras\u0131nda
hi\u00e7 durmad\u0131 de\u011firmen<\/p>\n
ata bindim, attan indim, at de\u011fi\u015ftirdim
sevi\u015fip \u00fcredim, sava\u015flar g\u00f6rd\u00fcm<\/p>\n
terkimde hep g\u00f6lgeydi \u00f6l\u00fcm<\/p>\n
dedi: i \u00e7 e l i m…<\/p>\n
dedim: ka\u00e7\u0131nc\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fckten sonra bilemem
ka\u00e7\u0131nc\u0131 deprem ve metalden sonrad\u0131r
a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131n g\u00f6lgeleri uzun muydu boylar\u0131ndan
y\u0131ld\u0131zlar ters mi giyerlerdi simli kazaklar\u0131n\u0131
a\u011f\u0131ra m\u0131 maloldum tanr\u0131lara
a\u011fa\u00e7 kovuklar\u0131na bedavaya t\u00fcnerken<\/p>\n
dedi: i \u00e7 e l i m…<\/p>\n
dedim: ay ayya\u015f bilici
i\u015fte \u015farab\u0131n t\u00fct\u00fcn\u00fcn!<\/p>\n
su i\u00e7er, ekmek yer, sevi\u015fir gibi direndim
ta\u015f yonttum, m\u0131zrak d\u00fczd\u00fcm, can verdim demire<\/p>\n
can\u0131m\u0131 verdim ellerimin g\u00f6lgesinde!<\/p>\n
r\u00fczgar\u0131 d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmleyip sa\u00e7lar\u0131ma
sular\u0131 arklara ak\u0131tt\u0131m<\/p>\n
\u00e7ark \u00e7evirdim buhar\u0131n \u0131sl\u0131\u011f\u0131yla!<\/p>\n
g\u00f6klere kafa tuttum
\u00fcfledim duman\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6zlerine<\/p>\n
neden hala \u00f6zg\u00fcr de\u011filim?<\/p>\n
(g\u00fcle oyarken \u00e7ok mu kan\u0131rtt\u0131m \u00e7ok mu incittim ki zaman\u0131
dizelerimde bile sesimi tebdil dola\u015f\u0131r g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u00fcm?!..)<\/p>\n
dedi: evlat!
suya sor ya\u015fam\u0131n k\u00f6klerini
a\u011f\u0131rba\u015fl\u0131d\u0131r su.
\u00e7\u00f6zer senin i\u00e7in sevdal\u0131 mavi sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131<\/p>\n
uyanan g\u00fcn\u00fcn gemisine bin
sulara b\u0131rak sesini.
\u015fi\u015firirse deli r\u00fczgar yelkenlerini,
sak\u0131n b\u0131rakma k\u00fcrekleri<\/p>\n
kulaklar\u0131n\u0131 y\u0131rtsa da g\u00f6vdenden y\u00fckselen
m\u00fczik!<\/p>\n
(g\u00fcn keder f\u0131\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 yar\u0131p
isyan \u015farab\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6kerken sular\u0131n g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcne
k\u00f6leler suyun tuzlu dudaklar\u0131nda dinlendirirlerdi
k\u0131rba\u00e7 yar\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6vdelerini. g\u00f6vde de\u011fil
yan\u0131k bir g\u00fcld\u00fc ak\u015fam alacas\u0131nda sularda titreyen<\/p>\n
g\u00f6vdede g\u00fcl g\u00fclde g\u00f6vdeydi
isyan!..)<\/p>\n
dedim: unut hemen \u015fimdi
o b\u00fcy\u00fcl\u00fc s\u00f6zleri -melih cevdet’in
\u0130taki i\u00e7in odysseus’a s\u00f6yletti\u011fi-
ne kulaklar\u0131m\u0131 t\u0131kar\u0131m
ne de ba\u011flar\u0131m k\u00fcrek\u00e7ileri<\/p>\n
kendimi ge\u00e7mek de yetmeyecek \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc bana!<\/p>\n
dedi: i \u00e7 e l i m…<\/p>\n
(dedi: senin ihtilal dedi\u011fin evlat
elmas damar\u0131d\u0131r tarihin
par\u0131ldamaz asla
halk\u0131n g\u00f6zlerine de\u011fmeyince<\/p>\n
dedim: insan\u0131n zaman\u0131na
\u00e7ok var m\u0131 daha?<\/p>\n
dedi: i \u00e7 e l i m…)<\/p>\n
karda
se\u00e7ilmiyor \u015fimdi
harfleri gecenin
buz tutmu\u015f
b\u00fct\u00fcn heceleri
kentin<\/p>\n
anla\u015f\u0131lan
a\u011f\u0131r olacak k\u0131\u015f
uzun s\u00fcrecek
kanama<\/p>\n
y\u00fczlerimize
t\u00fck\u00fcr\u00fcr gibi
kar\u0131
vuruyor fabrikalara r\u00fczgar<\/p>\n
\u00e7\u0131lg\u0131nca yarat\u0131rken
kan ter i\u00e7inde hayat\u0131
bald\u0131r\u0131 \u00e7\u0131plak
ger\u00e7ek tanr\u0131lar
gebe bir r\u00fczgar gibi hayk\u0131r\u0131yorlar:<\/p>\n
– evet yenildik,
ama \u015fenlik bitmedi daha baylar!
kavalyesini bulur bulmaz
dansa kalkar yine
yumruklar!<\/p>\n
Fettah K\u00d6LEL\u0130<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
kar ya\u011f\u0131yorkesik kesikbir durupbir ilerleyerek yerin karbeyaz mendilinekanl\u0131 balgam\u0131n\u0131 silip ayy\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fcsendeleyerek gar \u0131ss\u0131zbek\u00e7iler uyukluyor monolog \u00e7eviriyor telsiz karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u00f6\u015f\u00fcnde \u015feytankendi \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n\u0131 s……yapacak i\u015f bulamad\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan duvar saati \u00e7ekilmi\u015f maun kab\u0131naakrebini emziriyor \u0131s\u0131tmak i\u00e7in pasl\u0131 ayaklar\u0131n\u0131 trenlerraylar\u0131n oksitli a\u011f\u0131zlar\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6p\u00fcyorlar boyuna kar ya\u011f\u0131yorenine kar ya\u011f\u0131yor anla\u015f\u0131lan a\u011f\u0131r olacak k\u0131\u015fuzun s\u00fcrecekkanama garday\u0131may ayakta! parmaklar\u0131mda havalanan heyecan\u0131bir kente ba\u015flaman\u0131n […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[215],"tags":[],"class_list":{"0":"post-7060","1":"post","2":"type-post","3":"status-publish","4":"format-standard","6":"category-fettah-koleli"},"yoast_head":"\n