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\"\"Orada beni bekle! O yank\u0131l\u0131 vadide Mutlaka bulu\u015faca\u011f\u0131m seninle.<\/em>
\n(Chichester Piskoposu Henry King’in kar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc \u00fcst\u00fcne yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 a\u011f\u0131t.)<\/p>\n

Talihsiz ve gizemli adam! Sen ki kendi hayal g\u00fcc\u00fcn\u00fcn parlakl\u0131\u011f\u0131yla afallad\u0131n, gen\u00e7li\u011finin alevleri aras\u0131na d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcn! Hayalimde seni tekrar g\u00f6r\u00fcyorum!
\nBir kez daha \u00f6n\u00fcmde duruyor siluetin! Oldu\u011fun ah oldu\u011fun gibi de\u011fil so\u011fuk vadide ve g\u00f6lgelerin aras\u0131nda de\u011fil – olman gerekti\u011fi gibi – o bulan\u0131k hayaller \u015fehrinde, kendi Venedik’inde (o ki y\u0131ld\u0131zlar\u0131n sevgili cennetidir denizdeki, ve R\u00f6nesans tarz\u0131 saraylar\u0131n\u0131n pencereleri a\u015fa\u011f\u0131, denizin sessiz sular\u0131na derin ve ac\u0131 bir ifadeyle bakar) muhte\u015fem, derin d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerle bir \u00f6mr\u00fc harcarken.
\nEvet! Tekrarl\u0131yorum olman gerekti\u011fi gibi. Bu d\u00fcnyadan ba\u015fka d\u00fcnyalar da var \u015f\u00fcphesiz – \u00e7o\u011funlu\u011fun d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerinden ba\u015fka d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceler – sofistin spek\u00fclasyonlar\u0131ndan ba\u015fka spek\u00fclasyonlar. Senin davran\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 kim sorgulayacak peki? Kim vizyonlar i\u00e7inde ge\u00e7en saatlerinden dolay\u0131 su\u00e7layacak seni, ya da asl\u0131nda senin sonsuz enerjinin ta\u015fk\u0131nlar\u0131 olan o u\u011fra\u015flar\u0131 kim ya\u015fam\u0131n harcanmas\u0131 olarak k\u00f6t\u00fcleyecek?
\nBahsetti\u011fim ki\u015fiyle \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc ya da d\u00f6rd\u00fcnc\u00fc kez Venedik’te, Ponte di Sospiri adl\u0131 kapal\u0131, kemerli ge\u00e7itte bulu\u015ftum. O bulu\u015fman\u0131n ayr\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 iyi an\u0131msayam\u0131yorum.
\nYine de -ah! Nas\u0131l unutabilirim ki!- derin gece yar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131, i\u00e7 \u00c7eki\u015fler K\u00f6pr\u00fcs\u00fc’n\u00fc, kad\u0131n g\u00fczelli\u011fini ve dar kanal boyunca gidip gelen A\u015fk Ruhu’nu an\u0131ms\u0131yorum. Son derece kasvetli bir geceydi. Piazza’daki b\u00fcy\u00fck saat \u0130talyan ak\u015fam\u0131n\u0131n be\u015finci saatini ilan ediyordu. \u00c7an Kulesi Meydan\u0131 sessiz ve bo\u015ftu. Eski D\u00fck Saray\u0131’ndaki \u0131\u015f\u0131klar h\u0131zla s\u00f6n\u00fcyordu. Piazetta’dan B\u00fcy\u00fck Kanal yoluyla evime d\u00f6n\u00fcyordum.
\nAma gondolum San Marco kanal\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcne yakla\u015f\u0131rken i\u00e7 taraflar\u0131ndan gelen yaban\u0131l, isterik, uzun bir kad\u0131n \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131 gecenin sessizli\u011fini bozdu. Sesten irkilerek aya\u011fa f\u0131rlad\u0131m: Gondolcununsa tek k\u00fcre\u011fi elinden kayd\u0131 ve k\u00fcrek zifiri karanl\u0131kta g\u00f6zden kayboldu. Bu y\u00fczden kendimizi b\u00fcy\u00fck kanaldan k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fc\u011fe do\u011fru giden ak\u0131nt\u0131ya b\u0131rakmak zorunda kald\u0131k. \u0130\u00e7 \u00c7eki\u015fler K\u00f6pr\u00fcs\u00fc’ne do\u011fru yava\u015f\u00e7a, dev ve sivri t\u00fcyl\u00fc bir kondor gibi s\u00fcr\u00fcklenirken, D\u00fck Saray\u0131’n\u0131n pencerelerinde ve merdivenlerinde bir anda yanan bin me\u015fale b\u00fct\u00fcn o koyu karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 morumsu ve do\u011fa\u00fcst\u00fc bir g\u00fcne d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcrd\u00fc.
\nAnnesinin kollar\u0131 aras\u0131ndan kayan bir \u00e7ocuk g\u00f6rkemli binan\u0131n \u00fcst kat penceresinden derin ve lo\u015f bir kanala d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Sakin sular kurban\u0131n\u0131 usulca yutuvermi\u015fti; ve her ne kadar g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrdeki tek gondol benimki olsa da, bir\u00e7ok g\u00fcrb\u00fcz y\u00fcz\u00fcc\u00fc \u015fimdiden suya dalm\u0131\u015f y\u00fczeyde bo\u015fu bo\u015funa o hazineyi aramaktayd\u0131. Ama heyhat! O \u015fimdi ancak dipsizli\u011fin i\u00e7inde bulunabilirdi. Saray\u0131n giri\u015findeki siyah mermerden geni\u015f kald\u0131r\u0131m ta\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnde, suyun birka\u00e7 basamak yukar\u0131s\u0131nda, o s\u0131rada g\u00f6ren kimsenin asla unutamayaca\u011f\u0131 bir fig\u00fcr durmaktayd\u0131. Marchesa Aphrodite’ti bu – Venedik’teki herkesin hayran oldu\u011fu ne\u015felinin ne\u015felisi – herkesin g\u00fczel oldu\u011fu bir yerdeki en ho\u015f kad\u0131n – ama yine de ya\u015fl\u0131 ve garip Mentoni’nin kar\u0131s\u0131 ve \u015fimdi \u00e7amurlu sular\u0131n derinliklerinde, onun tatl\u0131 ok\u015famalar\u0131n\u0131 ac\u0131 ac\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnen ve minik ya\u015fam\u0131n\u0131 ona seslenme \u00e7abalar\u0131yla t\u00fcketen o g\u00fczel \u00e7ocu\u011fun, ilk ve tek \u00e7ocu\u011funun annesi.
\nTek ba\u015f\u0131na duruyordu. K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck, \u00e7\u0131plak ve g\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f gibi beyaz ayaklan alt\u0131ndaki mermerin kara aynas\u0131nda parl\u0131yordu. Balo i\u00e7in yapt\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f ve hen\u00fcz tamamen \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fclmemi\u015f olan sa\u00e7lar\u0131 klasik bir g\u00fczelli\u011fe sahip ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131n etraf\u0131nda ter\u00fc-taze bir s\u00fcmb\u00fcl\u00fcnkine benzeyen buklelerle, bir elmas sa\u011fana\u011f\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131nda k\u0131vr\u0131m k\u0131vr\u0131m toplanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Zarif bedenini neredeyse yaln\u0131zca kar beyaz\u0131, t\u00fclbent gibi bir elbise \u00f6rt\u00fcyordu. Ama yaz ortas\u0131 ve gece yar\u0131s\u0131 havas\u0131 s\u0131cak, a\u011f\u0131r, durgundu ve o heykel gibi formun hareketleri \u00fcst\u00fcnden Niobe’nin \u00fcst\u00fcndeki a\u011f\u0131r mermer gibi sarkan, o adeta bu\u011fudan elbisenin k\u0131vr\u0131mlar\u0131n\u0131 bile k\u0131p\u0131rdatm\u0131yordu.
\nAncak -ne tuhaf!- iri, \u0131\u015f\u0131lt\u0131l\u0131 g\u00f6zleri a\u015fa\u011f\u0131, en parlak umudunun g\u00f6m\u00fcl\u00fc yatt\u0131\u011f\u0131 o mezara de\u011fil – \u00e7ok daha farkl\u0131 bir tarafa d\u00f6n\u00fckt\u00fc! Eski Cumhuriyet’in hapishanesinin t\u00fcm Venedik’teki en g\u00f6rkemli bina oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u00fcm ama bu bayan tek \u00e7ocu\u011fu a\u015fa\u011f\u0131da bo\u011fulurken ona nas\u0131l b\u00f6ylesine sabit g\u00f6zlerle bakabiliyordu? O karanl\u0131k, kasvetli yer yatak odas\u0131n\u0131n penceresinin tam kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda yer al\u0131yordu – g\u00f6lgelerinde – mimarisinde – sarma\u015f\u0131k kap\u00adl\u0131 ve muhte\u015fem pervazlar\u0131nda – Marchesa di Montini’nin daha \u00f6nce bin kez g\u00f6rmemi\u015f oldu\u011fu ne olabilirdi? Sa\u00e7ma! – B\u00f6yle bir zamanda g\u00f6z\u00fcn, \u00e7atlak bir ayna gibi, kederinin g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fclerini b\u00fcy\u00fclt\u00fcp onu yan\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131nda oldu\u011fu halde say\u0131s\u0131z uzak yerde arad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 kim an\u0131msamaz ki?
\nMarchesa’n\u0131n birka\u00e7 basamak \u00fcst\u00fcnde ve su kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n kemerinin alt\u0131nda, tamamen giyinmi\u015f halde, bir satiri and\u0131ran Mentoni durmaktayd\u0131. Bazen gitar\u0131n\u0131 t\u0131ng\u0131rdat\u0131yor, arada s\u0131rada \u00e7ocu\u011funun bulunmas\u0131 i\u00e7in talimatlar verirken \u00f6l\u00fcme kar\u015f\u0131 kay\u0131ts\u0131z gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyordu. Ben \u015fahsen sersemlemi\u015f ve deh\u015fetten donakalm\u0131\u015f haldeydim ve \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131 ilk duydu\u011fumda ge\u00e7ti\u011fim dik duru\u015fu koruyor, k\u0131m\u0131ldayam\u0131yordum. Bembeyaz kesilmi\u015f y\u00fcz\u00fcm ve kaskat\u0131 uzuvlar\u0131mla, aralar\u0131ndan o cenaze gondoluyla ge\u00e7erken heyecan i\u00e7indeki bu insanlar i\u00e7in hayaletsi ve me\u015fum bir g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fc te\u015fkil etmi\u015f olmal\u0131y\u0131m.
\nB\u00fct\u00fcn \u00e7abalar bo\u015fa \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131. Aramaya kat\u0131lanlar\u0131n en enerjiklerinden pek \u00e7o\u011fu \u00e7abalar\u0131n\u0131 azalt\u0131yor, kasvetli bir kedere yenik d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyordu. \u00c7ocuk i\u00e7in pek az umut varm\u0131\u015f gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyordu;\u00a0 \u00e7ocu\u011fun durumu anneninkinden ne kadar \u00e7ok \u00fcmitsizdi!) ama \u015fimdi, daha \u00f6nce Eski Cumhuriyet hapishanesinin bir b\u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc olu\u015fturan ve Marchesa’n\u0131n kafesli penceresinin \u00f6n\u00fcndeki o karanl\u0131k yerin i\u00e7inden, pelerine sar\u0131nm\u0131\u015f biri \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n alt\u0131na \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131, ba\u015f d\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fc y\u00fcksekli\u011fin kenar\u0131nda bir an durduktan sonra kanala dald\u0131. Bir an sonraysa kollar\u0131nda h\u00e2l\u00e2 ya\u015fayan, nefes alan \u00e7ocukla mermer kald\u0131r\u0131m ta\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnde, Marchesa’n\u0131n yan\u0131nda duruyordu. Su \u00e7ekip a\u011f\u0131rla\u015fm\u0131\u015f olan pelerini \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcl\u00fcp ayaklar\u0131n\u0131n dibine d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnce, hayretler i\u00e7inde bakan seyirciler ortaya o zamanlar Avrupa’n\u0131n b\u00fcy\u00fck k\u0131sm\u0131nda me\u015fhur olan bir delikanl\u0131n\u0131n zarif fig\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fcler.
\nKurtar\u0131c\u0131 tek kelime etmedi. Ama Marchesa! \u015eimdi \u00e7ocu\u011funu alacak – ba\u011fr\u0131na basacak – minik g\u00f6vdesine tutunup ok\u015famalara bo\u011facak. Heyhat! Onu yabanc\u0131dan bir ba\u015fkas\u0131n\u0131n kollar\u0131 al\u0131yor – onu bir ba\u015fkas\u0131n\u0131n kollar\u0131 usulca uzaklara, saraya g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcyor! Ve Marchesa! Duda\u011f\u0131 – g\u00fczel duda\u011f\u0131 titriyor:
\nG\u00f6zlerinde ya\u015flar birikiyor – Pliny’nin kenger otu gibi “yumu\u015fak ve neredeyse s\u0131v\u0131” olan g\u00f6zlerinde. Evet! O g\u00f6zlerde ya\u015flar birikiyor – ve bak\u0131n! Kad\u0131n ruhuyla birlikte tepeden t\u0131rna\u011fa titriyor ve heykel canlanmaya ba\u015fl\u0131yor! O mermer \u00e7ehrenin soluklu\u011funa, mermer g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcslerin dolgunlu\u011funa, mermer ayaklar\u0131n kusursuzlu\u011funa birden kontrol edilemez, k\u0131z\u0131l bir dalgan\u0131n yay\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcyoruz. Zarif bedeni hafif\u00e7e titriyor, Napoli’de hafif bir esintinin sallad\u0131\u011f\u0131, \u00e7imenlerin aras\u0131ndaki parlak, beyaz zambaklar gibi.
\nO kad\u0131n neden k\u0131zars\u0131n! Bunun yan\u0131t\u0131 yok – bir anne kalbinin tela\u015f\u0131 ve deh\u015fetiyle yatak odas\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131karken minik ayaklar\u0131na terliklerini giymeyi ihmal etmi\u015f, o elbiseyi de Venedikli s\u0131rt\u0131na, ait oldu\u011fu yere ge\u00e7irmeyi tamamen unutmu\u015f olmas\u0131 d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda. B\u00f6yle k\u0131zarmas\u0131n\u0131n ba\u015fka ne sebebi olabilirdi? – O vah\u015fi, \u00e7ekici bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n? O h\u0131zla inip kalkan g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcsteki s\u0131rad\u0131\u015f\u0131 tela\u015f\u0131n? – O titreyen elin ihtila\u00e7l\u0131 bask\u0131s\u0131 m\u0131? – O el ki, Mentoni saraya girerken kazayla yabanc\u0131n\u0131n eline dokundu. Bayan\u0131n ona aceleyle veda ederken s\u00f6yledi\u011fi o anlams\u0131z s\u00f6zlerin al\u00e7ak – tuhaf bir \u015fekilde al\u00e7ak tonunun sebebi ne olabilirdi? “Sen kazand\u0131n-” dedi, veya sular\u0131n mini t\u0131s\u0131 beni yan\u0131ltt\u0131 – “sen kazand\u0131n – g\u00fcndo\u011fumun-dan bir saat sonra – bulu\u015faca\u011f\u0131z – \u00f6yle olsun!”
\nKarga\u015fa dindi, saray\u0131n i\u00e7indeki \u0131\u015f\u0131klar s\u00f6nd\u00fc ve \u015fimdi tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m yabanc\u0131, kald\u0131r\u0131m ta\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnde tek ba\u015f\u0131na durdu. Anla\u015f\u0131lmaz bir heyecanla titriyor ve etraf\u0131na bak\u0131p bir gondol ar\u0131yordu. Ona en az\u0131ndan benimkini sunmal\u0131yd\u0131m.
\nBu nezaketimi kabul etti. Su kap\u0131s\u0131ndan bir k\u00fcrek temin ettikten sonra birlikte evine gittik. Yolda kendisini h\u0131zla toparlad\u0131 ve daha \u00f6nceki tan\u0131\u015f\u0131kl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131zdan b\u00fcy\u00fck bir s\u0131cakl\u0131kla bahsetti.
\nBaz\u0131 konularda ayr\u0131nt\u0131c\u0131 olmay\u0131 severim. Yabanc\u0131n\u0131n v\u00fccudu -ondan b\u00f6yle bahsedeyim, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc d\u00fcnya i\u00e7in h\u00e2l\u00e2 bir yabanc\u0131yd\u0131- yabanc\u0131n\u0131n v\u00fccudu bu konulardan biri. Boy olarak uzundan \u00e7ok k\u0131sa say\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131: Ancak baz\u0131 yo\u011fun tutku anlar\u0131nda bedeni irile\u015fiyor, bu iddiay\u0131 yalanl\u0131yordu. G\u00f6vdesinin hafif, neredeyse ince simetrisi, daha tehlikeli durumlarda \u00e7abas\u0131zca sergiledi\u011fi bilinen o Her-k\u00fcl g\u00fcc\u00fcnden \u00e7ok i\u00e7 \u00c7eki\u015fler K\u00f6pr\u00fcs\u00fc’nde sergiledi\u011fi ani eyleme haz\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131 vaat ediyordu. Bir tanr\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131 ve \u00e7enesiyle – benzersiz, vah\u015fi, iri, berrak, g\u00f6lgeleri saf eladan yo\u011fun ve parlak bir siyaha kadar de\u011fi\u015fen g\u00f6zlerle – ve g\u00fcr, k\u0131v\u0131rc\u0131k siyah sa\u00e7larla, altlar\u0131nda ara s\u0131ra \u0131\u015f\u0131l \u0131\u015f\u0131l, fildi\u015fi gibi par\u0131ldayan \u00e7ok geni\u015f aln\u0131yla y\u00fcz hatlar\u0131, belki de \u0130mparator Commodus’un mermerden olanlar\u0131 d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda g\u00f6rd\u00fcklerimin en klasik anlamda muntazam olan\u0131yd\u0131. Yine de \u00e7ehresi b\u00fct\u00fcn insanlar\u0131n ya\u015famlar\u0131n\u0131n bir d\u00f6neminde g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc ve bir daha da g\u00f6rmedi\u011fi simalardand\u0131. Haf\u0131zaya yerle\u015fecek \u00f6zel – yerle\u015fik bir ifadesi yoktu. G\u00f6r\u00fcl\u00fcp hemen ard\u0131ndan unutulan bir \u00e7ehreydi – ama belirsiz ve hi\u00e7 bitmeyen bir an\u0131msama hissini uyand\u0131ran bir unutu\u015ftu bu. Her ani tutkunun ruhunun herhangi bir vakitte belirgin imgesini o y\u00fcz\u00fcn aynas\u0131na d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrmemesinden de de\u011fildi bu – o aynada, ayna benzerinde tutku kaybolunca hi\u00e7bir izin kalmamas\u0131ndand\u0131. Maceral\u0131 gecemizin sonunda ayr\u0131l\u0131rken benden, \u0131srarc\u0131 oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm bir tav\u0131rla, onu ertesi sabah\u0131n \u00e7ok erken bir saatinde ziyaret etmemi istedi.
\nBu y\u00fczden g\u00fcndo\u011fumundan hemen sonra, Rialto civar\u0131nda, B\u00fcy\u00fck Kanal’\u0131n sular\u0131 \u00fcst\u00fcnde y\u00fckselen o kasvetli ama fantastik g\u00f6rkeme sahip yap\u0131lardan biri olan Palazzo’suna gittim. Geni\u015f, y\u0131lankavi, mozaikli bir merdivenden \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131l\u0131p benzersiz ihti\u015fam\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131k kap\u0131dan ger\u00e7ek bir par\u0131lt\u0131yla ta\u015fan, beni hazdan k\u00f6relten, ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 d\u00f6nd\u00fcren bir daireye g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcld\u00fcm.
\nTan\u0131\u015f\u0131m\u0131n zengin oldu\u011funu biliyordum. Servetinin \u00f6yle \u00e7ok oldu\u011fu s\u00f6yleniyordu ki, bunun g\u00fcl\u00fcn\u00e7 bir abart\u0131 oldu\u011funu iddia etti\u011fim zamanlar bile olmu\u015ftu.
\nAma \u00e7evreme bakarken Avrupa’daki herhangi birinin servetinin g\u00fcc\u00fcn\u00fcn etraf\u0131mda yanan ve par\u0131ldayan, \u015fahane g\u00f6rkemi kar\u015f\u0131lamaya yetebilece\u011fini sanm\u0131yordum.
\nDedi\u011fim gibi, g\u00fcne\u015f y\u00fckselmi\u015fti, ama oda h\u00e2l\u00e2 \u0131\u015f\u0131l \u0131\u015f\u0131l ayd\u0131nlat\u0131l\u0131yordu.
\nBundan ve arkada\u015f\u0131m\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fcndeki bitkin ifadeden bir \u00f6nceki gece hi\u00e7 uyumam\u0131\u015f oldu\u011fu sonucuna var\u0131yorum. Dairenin mimarisindeki ve s\u00fcslemelerindeki a\u00e7\u0131k hedefin g\u00f6z kama\u015ft\u0131rmak ve \u015foke etmek oldu\u011fu a\u00e7\u0131kt\u0131. Teknik a\u00e7\u0131dan uyum olarak adland\u0131r\u0131lan \u015feye ya da ulusal niteliklere dekorasyonda \u00e7ok az \u00f6nem verilmi\u015fti. Nesneden nesneye bakarken insan\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fc hi\u00e7birine tak\u0131lm\u0131yordu
\n–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 ne Yunan ressamlar\u0131n grotesklerine, ne \u0130talya’n\u0131n en iyi d\u00f6neminden heykellere, ne de e\u011fitimsiz M\u0131s\u0131rl\u0131lar\u0131n dev oymalar\u0131na. Odan\u0131n her yerindeki \u015fatafatl\u0131 perdeler kayna\u011f\u0131 belirsiz, hafif, melankolik bir m\u00fczi\u011fin titre\u015fimleriyle sallan\u0131yordu. Tuhaf, k\u0131vr\u0131ml\u0131 t\u00fcts\u00fclerden y\u00fckselen karma\u015f\u0131k ve birbirine z\u0131t, ho\u015f kokular z\u00fcmr\u00fct ye\u015fili ve menek\u015fe rengi, titre\u015fen, oynayan say\u0131s\u0131z alevle birle\u015fip duyulara ak\u0131n ediyordu. Yeni do\u011fan g\u00fcne\u015fin \u0131\u015f\u0131nlar\u0131 her biri a\u00e7\u0131k k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 tek bir cam tabakas\u0131ndan olu\u015fan pencerelerden girip her \u015feyi ayd\u0131nlat\u0131yordu.
\nDo\u011fal g\u00f6rkemin \u0131\u015f\u0131klar\u0131 korni\u015flerinden erimi\u015f g\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f \u015felaleleri gibi akan perdelerden sa\u011fa sola bin bir akisle yans\u0131yarak, en sonunda yer yer yapay \u0131\u015f\u0131kla kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ve parlak, duru g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcml\u00fc, k\u0131z\u0131l alt\u0131n rengi bir hal\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnde donuk y\u0131\u011f\u0131nlar halinde a\u011fnayarak uzand\u0131.
\n“HA! HA! HA! – HA! HA! HA!” – diye g\u00fcld\u00fc ev sahibi, ben odaya girince bir koltu\u011fu g\u00f6sterip oturmam\u0131 i\u015faret ederek ve bir kanepeye uzanarak. “G\u00f6r\u00fcyorum ki,” dedi, b\u00f6ylesine tuhaf bir kar\u015f\u0131laman\u0131n faienseance’\u0131na hemen al\u0131\u015famad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6rerek – “G\u00f6r\u00fcyorum ki dairem sizi \u015fa\u015fk\u0131na \u00e7evirdi – heykellerim, tablolar\u0131m – mimari ve d\u00f6\u015femecilikteki orijinal tasar\u0131m\u0131m – sarho\u015f oldunuz, de\u011fil mi? G\u00f6rkemimden? Ama l\u00fctfen beni ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131n, (burada al\u00e7alan sesini s\u0131cakl\u0131k b\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc) zalim kahkaham\u0131 ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131n. \u00d6yle \u015fa\u015fk\u0131n g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyordunuz ki.
\nHem baz\u0131 \u015feyler \u00f6yle komiktir ki insan ya g\u00fclmeli, ya da \u00f6lmelidir. \u00d6lerek g\u00fclmek g\u00f6rkemli \u00f6l\u00fcmlerin en g\u00f6rkemlisi olsa gerek! Sor Thomas More -m\u00fckemmel bir adamd\u0131 Sor Thomas More- S\u00f6r Thomas More g\u00fclerek \u00f6ld\u00fc, an\u0131msars\u0131n\u0131z. Ravisius Textor’un Abs\u00fcrdl\u00fckhr’iinde de hayatlar\u0131 ayn\u0131 muhte\u015fem \u015fekilde son bulan karakterlerin uzun bir listesi vard\u0131r. Ama biliyor musunuz,” dedi kendisini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelere kapt\u0131rarak, “Sparta’da (\u015fimdiki Palaeochori’de), Sparta’da, hisar\u0131n bat\u0131s\u0131nda, ay\u0131rt etmesi g\u00fc\u00e7 bir y\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131lar kaosunun ortas\u0131nda bir t\u00fcr socle vard\u0131r ve \u00fcst\u00fcndeki yaz\u0131s\u0131 h\u00e2l\u00e2 okunabilmektedir. rEAAZMA’n\u0131n par\u00e7as\u0131 olduklar\u0131 \u015f\u00fcphesizdir. Sparta’da binlerce farkl\u0131 tanr\u0131ya adanm\u0131\u015f binlerce tap\u0131nak ve mabet vard\u0131. Di\u011ferleri y\u0131k\u0131lm\u0131\u015fken Kahkaha suna\u011f\u0131n\u0131n ayakta kalm\u0131\u015f olmas\u0131 ne tuhaf! Ama \u015fu andaki durumda,” diye devam etti, sesini ve tavr\u0131n\u0131 tuhaf bir \u015fekilde de\u011fi\u015ftirerek, “sizinle e\u011flenmeye hakk\u0131m yok. \u015ea\u015f\u0131rmakta hakl\u0131s\u0131n\u0131z. Avrupa bunun kadar; k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck, muhte\u015fem, \u00f6zel odam kadar g\u00fczel bir \u015fey \u00fcretemez. Di\u011fer odalar\u0131m kesinlikle buna benzemez; yavan modan\u0131n abart\u0131lm\u0131\u015f halleridirler o kadar. Bu modadan daha iyi, de\u011fil mi? Ama bunun g\u00f6r\u00fclmesi bile \u00f6fkelendirmeye yeter – buna ancak babalar\u0131ndan kalma t\u00fcm miras\u0131 harcayarak sahip olabilecek ki\u015fileri. Ancak b\u00f6yle bir k\u00fcstahl\u0131\u011fa kar\u015f\u0131 tedbirimi ald\u0131m. Benimle u\u015fa\u011f\u0131m\u0131n d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda, tek bir istisna haricinde, g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fcz \u015fekilde d\u00f6\u015fendi\u011finden beri bu g\u00f6rkemli dairenin gizemlerinin i\u00e7ine ayak basmas\u0131na izin verilen tek insan sizsiniz!”
\nBa\u015f\u0131m\u0131 e\u011fip anlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 belirttim; \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc g\u00f6rkemin, ho\u015f kokular\u0131n ve m\u00fczi\u011fin yo\u011funlu\u011fu, beklenmedik hitap tarz\u0131 ve tavr\u0131yla da birle\u015fince, takdirimi bir iltifata d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015febilecek bir \u015fekilde ifade etmekten al\u0131koyuyordu beni.
\n“Burada,” diye devam etti, kalk\u0131p koluma girerek ve dairenin i\u00e7inde gezinerek, “burada Yunanl\u0131lardan Cimabuelilere ve Cimabuelilerden g\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fcze dek ressamlar\u0131n tablolar\u0131 var. G\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fcz gibi \u00e7o\u011fu sanatsal bir zevk anlay\u0131\u015f\u0131na ba\u011fl\u0131 kal\u0131nmadan se\u00e7ildi. Ancak hepsi de b\u00f6yle bir odaya uygun resimler. Burada ad\u0131 bilinmeyen dahilerin baz\u0131 ba\u015fyap\u0131tlar\u0131 da var – burada zamanlar\u0131nda \u00fcnlenmi\u015f, akademisyenlerin keskin zekas\u0131n\u0131n sessizli\u011fe ve bana terk etti\u011fi insanlar\u0131n bitmemi\u015f taslaklar\u0131 var.
\nNe d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorsunuz,” dedi, konu\u015furken ans\u0131z\u0131n bana d\u00f6nerek -“Bu Madonna della Piet\u00e2 hakk\u0131nda ne d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorsunuz?”
\n“Bu Guido’nun!” dedim mizac\u0131m\u0131n t\u00fcm heyecan\u0131yla, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc \u00fcst\u00fcn g\u00fczelli\u011fini dikkatle incelemekteydim. “Bu Guido’nun! – Bunu nas\u0131l ele ge\u00e7irebildiniz? – Ven\u00fcs heykel i\u00e7in neyse bu da hi\u00e7 tart\u0131\u015fmas\u0131z resim i\u00e7in odur.”
\n“Ha!” dedi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceli bir sesle, “Ven\u00fcs m\u00fc – g\u00fczel Ven\u00fcs m\u00fc? – Medicili Ven\u00fcs m\u00fc? Minik kafal\u0131 ve sa\u00e7\u0131 yald\u0131zl\u0131 Ven\u00fcs m\u00fc? Sol kolun bir k\u0131sm\u0131 ve sag kolun tamam\u0131 (burada sesi \u00f6yle al\u00e7ald\u0131 ki, g\u00fc\u00e7 duyulur oldu) restorasyon. Bence o sa\u011f kolun i\u015fvesinde t\u00fcm yapmac\u0131kl\u0131klar\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fc yat\u0131yor. Bana Canova’y\u0131 verin! Apollo’yu da! – Bu bir kopya – buna \u015f\u00fcphe yok – Apollo’nun \u00f6v\u00fcngen ilham\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6remeyen, k\u00f6r bir aptal\u0131m ben! Antonius’u ye\u011flemekten – yard\u0131m edin bana, Antonius’u ye\u011flemekten kendimi alam\u0131yorum. Heykelt\u0131ra\u015f\u0131n heykelini mermer blo\u011funun i\u00e7inde buldu\u011funu s\u00f6yleyen Socrates de\u011fil miydi? O halde Michelangelo’nun \u015fu beyti kesinlikle orijinal de\u011fil-
\nNon ha l’ottimo artista alcun concetto Che un marmo solo in se non circonscriva.
\nGer\u00e7ek centilmenlerin tavr\u0131nda, bu fark\u0131n nerede oldu\u011funu bir \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131da tam olarak belirleyemesek de, baya\u011f\u0131l\u0131k ta\u015f\u0131yandan farkl\u0131 bir y\u00f6n oldu\u011funun her zaman ay\u0131rd\u0131nda oldu\u011fumuz s\u00f6ylenegelmi\u015ftir veya s\u00f6ylenmelidir. Bu s\u00f6z\u00fcn i\u00e7eri\u011fini tan\u0131\u015f\u0131m\u0131n tav\u0131rlar\u0131na t\u00fcm g\u00fcc\u00fcyle uygularken, o olayl\u0131 sabahta ahlaki mizac\u0131na ve karakterine daha da uygun oldu\u011funu hissettim. Onu temelde di\u011fer b\u00fct\u00fcn insanlardan ay\u0131r\u0131r g\u00f6r\u00fcnen o ruh tuhafl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 da en iyi \u015fekilde – Persepolis’in tap\u0131naklar\u0131n\u0131n korni\u015flerindeki maskelerin g\u00f6zlerinden k\u0131vr\u0131larak d\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kan engerekleri and\u0131ran – en k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck eylemine bile etki eden – bo\u015f vakitlerini elinden alan – onun mutluluk patlamalar\u0131yla iyice karma\u015f\u0131kla\u015fan yo\u011fun ve s\u00fcrekli bir d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnce al\u0131\u015fkanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 olarak tan\u0131mlayabilirim.
\nAncak \u00f6nemsiz konular\u0131 \u00e7abuk \u00e7abuk, uzun uzad\u0131ya a\u00e7\u0131klarken kulland\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7 i\u00e7e ge\u00e7mi\u015f \u015fakac\u0131 ve a\u011f\u0131rba\u015fl\u0131 tondaki belli bir tela\u015f havas\u0131n\u0131 – eylemlerindeki ve konu\u015fmas\u0131ndaki sinirli bir a\u015f\u0131r\u0131 tatl\u0131 dillilik halini – bana hep anla\u015f\u0131lmaz gelen ve bazen de endi\u015felendiren huzursuz, heyecanl\u0131 tav\u0131rlar\u0131n\u0131 ister istemez fark ediyordum. Ayr\u0131ca s\u0131k s\u0131k belli ki ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 unuttu\u011fu bir c\u00fcmlenin ortas\u0131nda durup b\u00fcy\u00fck bir dikkatle, ya bir ziyaret\u00e7inin geldi\u011fi beklentisiyle ya da hayali seslere kulak kabart\u0131yordu.
\nBu hayallerin ya da zahiri dalg\u0131nl\u0131k duraksamalar\u0131n\u0131n birinde, yan\u0131mdaki bir kanepenin \u00fcst\u00fcnde duran, \u015fair ve bilgin Politian’\u0131n g\u00fczel trajedisi “Orfeo”nun (ilk yerli \u0130talyan trajedisi) bir sayfas\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7evirirken kur\u015funkalemle alt\u0131 \u00e7izili bir pasaja rastlad\u0131m. \u00dc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc perdenin sonlar\u0131nda yer alan bir pasajd\u0131 bu – son derece heyecanland\u0131r\u0131n bir pasajd\u0131 – saf de\u011fil lekeli bile olsa, hi\u00e7bir erke\u011fin yepyeni bir hissin heyecan\u0131n\u0131 hissetmeden – hi\u00e7bir kad\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7 ge\u00e7irmeden okuyamayaca\u011f\u0131 bir pasajd\u0131. B\u00fct\u00fcn sayfa taze g\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131 lekeleriyle doluydu ve kar\u015f\u0131 sayfada a\u015fa\u011f\u0131daki \u0130ngilizce dizeler vard\u0131. Bunlar tan\u0131\u015f\u0131m\u0131n karakterine \u00f6yle ters d\u00fc\u015fen bir yaz\u0131yla yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ki, onun taraf\u0131ndan yaz\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlamakta zorland\u0131m.
\nSen benim i\u00e7in her \u015feydin, a\u015fk\u0131m,
\nRuhum yanard\u0131 \u00f6zleminle-Sen denizde ye\u015fil bir adayd\u0131n, a\u015fk\u0131m,
\nBir mabet ve bir \u00e7e\u015fme,
\nPeri meyveleri ve \u00e7i\u00e7eklerle bezeli;
\nVe t\u00fcm \u00e7i\u00e7ekler benimdi.
\nAh, uzun s\u00fcrmeyecek kadar g\u00fczel r\u00fcya;
\nAh, y\u0131ld\u0131zl\u0131 Umut Kararmak i\u00e7in do\u011fmu\u015fsa!
\nGelecekten bir ses hayk\u0131rsa da
\n“\u0130leri!” diye – ge\u00e7mi\u015fin (o lo\u015f, derin kanyonun!) \u00fcst\u00fcnde Ruhum teredd\u00fctle uzan\u0131yor,
\nDilsiz, hareketsiz, donakalm\u0131\u015f halde!
\n\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc heyhat! Heyhat! t\u00fckendi.
\nBenim i\u00e7in ya\u015fam\u0131n \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131.
\n“Bitti – bitti – bitti,” (B\u00f6yle diyor yasl\u0131 denizin sesi K\u0131y\u0131daki kumlara,)
\nY\u0131ld\u0131r\u0131m\u0131 yiyen a\u011fa\u00e7 gonca vermez bir daha,
\nVurulan kartal s\u00fcz\u00fclmez g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcnde asla!
\n\u015eimdi b\u00fct\u00fcn saatlerim translarla ge\u00e7iyor;
\nB\u00fct\u00fcn gece d\u00fc\u015flerimde Kara g\u00f6zlerin bak\u0131yor, Ve ad\u0131mlar\u0131n parl\u0131yor,
\nSemavi danslarla,
\n\u0130talyan deresinin yan\u0131nda.
\nYaz\u0131klar olsun! O lanetli zamana Seni b\u00fcy\u00fck dalgan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcne koyduklar\u0131,
\nA\u015fktan \u00e7ekip ald\u0131klar\u0131 \u00fcnvanl\u0131 ya\u015fa ve su\u00e7a,
\nVe u\u011fursuz bir yast\u0131ga-
\nBenden ald\u0131lar seni, benden ve sisli diyar\u0131m\u0131zdan,
\nG\u00fcm\u00fc\u015fi s\u00f6\u011f\u00fct a\u011fl\u0131yor orada!
\nBu dizelerin \u0130ngilizce yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015f olmas\u0131 -yazar\u0131n bildi\u011fini sanmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir dildi bu- beni pek \u015fa\u015f\u0131rtmad\u0131. Ba\u015far\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131n ve onlar\u0131 g\u00f6zlerden gizlemekten ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 tuhaf hazz\u0131n \u00e7ok iyi bilincinde oldu\u011fumdan b\u00f6yle bir ke\u015fif beni hayrete d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcremezdi. Ama \u015fiirin yaz\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 yer, itiraf etmeliyim ki, beni epey \u015fa\u015f\u0131rtt\u0131. Orijinal olarak Londra’da yaz\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 belirtilmi\u015f, sonra bunun \u00fcst\u00fc karalanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 – ancak dikkatli bir g\u00f6z\u00fcn okumas\u0131n\u0131 engelleyecek kadar de\u011fil. S\u00f6yledi\u011fim gibi, bu beni epey \u015fa\u015f\u0131rtt\u0131; \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc arkada\u015f\u0131mla yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m daha \u00f6nceki bir konu\u015fmada Londra’da herhangi bir zamanda Marchesa di Mentoni’yle (kendisi evlili\u011finden birka\u00e7 sene \u00f6nce bu \u015fehirde oturmu\u015ftu) tan\u0131\u015f\u0131p tan\u0131\u015fmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6zellikle sordu\u011fumu \u00e7ok iyi an\u0131ms\u0131yorum; ve yan\u0131lm\u0131yorsam bana verdi\u011fi cevaptan B\u00fcy\u00fck Britanya’n\u0131n ba\u015fkentine hi\u00e7 ayak basmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Burada bahsetti\u011fim ki\u015finin \u0130ngiltere’de yaln\u0131zca do\u011fmakla kalmay\u0131p, e\u011fitimini de orada g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc birden fazla ki\u015fiden i\u015fitti\u011fimi de belirteyim (ihtimal d\u0131\u015f\u0131 bu kadar y\u00f6n i\u00e7eren bir habere inanmad\u0131m elbette).
\n“Bir tablo var ki,” dedi, benim trajediyi fark etmi\u015f oldu\u011fumu anlamadan -“bir tablo var ki onu hen\u00fcz g\u00f6rmediniz.” Ve bir \u00f6rt\u00fcy\u00fc \u00e7ekerek Marchesa Aphrodite’in tam boy bir portresini g\u00f6zler \u00f6n\u00fcne serdi.
\n\u0130nsan sanat\u0131 onun insan\u00fcst\u00fc g\u00fczelli\u011fini ancak bu kadar betimleyebilirdi. Bir \u00f6nceki gece D\u00fck Saray\u0131’n\u0131n merdivenlerinde, \u00f6n\u00fcmde durmu\u015f olan o g\u00f6ksel fig\u00fcr tekrar kar\u015f\u0131mdayd\u0131. Ama g\u00fcl\u00fcmsemeyle \u0131\u015f\u0131l \u0131\u015f\u0131l ayd\u0131nlanm\u0131\u015f y\u00fcz\u00fcnde yine de g\u00fczellerin kusursuzlu\u011funun ayr\u0131lmaz bir par\u00e7as\u0131 olan (anla\u015f\u0131lmaz bir anormallik!) bir melankoli gizliydi yer yer. Sa\u011f kolu g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00fcst\u00fcnde k\u0131vr\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.
\nSol koluyla a\u015fa\u011f\u0131ya, tuhaf \u015fekilli bir vazoya i\u015faret ediyordu. Tek bir k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck peri aya\u011f\u0131 yere ancak dokunuyordu. G\u00fczelli\u011fini \u00e7evreler ve y\u00fcceltir gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcnen parlak bir atmosferde hayal edilebilecek en narininden bir \u00e7ift kanat havada belli belirsiz se\u00e7ilmekteydi. Bak\u0131\u015f\u0131m\u0131 tablodan arkada\u015f\u0131ma \u00e7evirdim ve Chapman’in Bussy D’Ambois’inin enerjik s\u00f6zleri i\u00e7g\u00fcd\u00fcsel olarak dudaklar\u0131mda titre\u015fti:
\n“Ayakta duruyor
\nOrada bir Latin heykeli gibi! Ayakta duracak Mermere d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcrene dek \u00f6l\u00fcm kendisini!”
\n“Gelin!” dedi en sonunda, \u00fcst\u00fcnde fantastik lekeli kadehler ve portrenin \u00f6n\u00fcndekinin ayn\u0131s\u0131, Johannisbergerle dolu oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm iki s\u0131rad\u0131\u015f\u0131 b\u00fcy\u00fck Etr\u00fcsk vazosunun durdu\u011fu bol emayeli, som g\u00fcm\u00fc\u015ften bir masaya d\u00f6nerek. “Gelin!” dedi birden, “i\u00e7elim! Vakit erken – ama i\u00e7elim. Ger\u00e7ekten de erken,” diye devam etti d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceli bir \u015fekilde, a\u011f\u0131r alt\u0131n \u00e7eki\u00e7li bir melaike daireyi g\u00fcndo\u011fumundan sonraki ilk saatle \u00e7\u0131nlat\u0131rken. – “Ger\u00e7ekten de erken, ama ne \u00f6nemi var ki? \u0130\u00e7elim! Bu \u00e7i\u011f \u0131\u015f\u0131kl\u0131 lambalar\u0131n ve t\u00fcts\u00fcl\u00fcklerin bast\u0131rmaya can att\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015fu vakur g\u00fcne\u015fi selamlayal\u0131m!” Ve, benimle kadeh kald\u0131rd\u0131ktan sonra, birka\u00e7 kadeh \u015farab\u0131 arka arkaya \u00e7abucak i\u00e7ti.
\n“D\u00fc\u015flemek,” diye devam etti, t\u00fcts\u00fcl\u00fcklerden birini kald\u0131r\u0131p yo\u011fun \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131yla o muhte\u015fem vazolardan birini ayd\u0131nlat\u0131rken \u2014 ba\u011flant\u0131s\u0131z konu\u015fmas\u0131n\u0131n tonunu tekrar benimseyerek – “d\u00fc\u015flemek hayat\u0131m\u0131n u\u011fra\u015f\u0131 oldu. Bu y\u00fczden g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fcz gibi kendime bir d\u00fc\u015fler \u00e7arda\u011f\u0131 yapt\u0131m. Venedik’in g\u00f6be\u011finde daha iyisini yapabilir miydim? Evet, etraf\u0131n\u0131zda karmakar\u0131\u015f\u0131k mimari s\u00fcslemeler g\u00f6r\u00fcyorsunuz. Tufan \u00f6ncesi motifleri lonya’n\u0131n iffetine ters d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyor ve M\u0131s\u0131r’\u0131n sfenksleri alt\u0131n hal\u0131lar\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnde uzan\u0131yor. Ama bu etki yaln\u0131zca \u00fcrkekler i\u00e7in ba\u011fda\u015fmazl\u0131k i\u00e7eriyor. Yerlere ve \u00f6zellikle de mekanlara uygunluk insanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n g\u00f6rkem \u00fcst\u00fcne d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmekten \u00f6d\u00fcn\u00fcn kopmas\u0131na sebep olan umac\u0131lard\u0131r. Ben bir zamanlar bir dekorat\u00f6rd\u00fcm: Ama o delilik y\u00fcceltisi ruhumu kara bir tabut \u00f6rt\u00fcs\u00fcyle \u00f6rtt\u00fc. \u015eimdi b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar hedefime daha uygun. Bu arabesk t\u00fcts\u00fcler gibi, ruhum da alevler i\u00e7inde k\u0131vran\u0131yor ve bu sahnenin deliryumu beni \u015fimdi h\u0131zla gitmekte oldu\u011fum o ger\u00e7ek d\u00fc\u015fler diyar\u0131n\u0131n daha \u00e7\u0131lg\u0131nca vizyonlar\u0131na haz\u0131rl\u0131yor.” Burada birden duraksad\u0131, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcne e\u011fdi ve duyamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir sesi dinler g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fc. En sonunda do\u011frularak yukar\u0131 bakt\u0131 ve a\u011fz\u0131ndan Chichester Piskoposu’nun dizeleri d\u00f6k\u00fcld\u00fc:- “Orada beni bekle! O yank\u0131l\u0131 vadide Mutlaka bulu\u015faca\u011f\u0131m seninle.”
\nArd\u0131ndan \u015farab\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcndeki etkisini itiraf ederek bir kanepeye boylu boyunca uzand\u0131.
\n\u015eimdi merdivenden gelen h\u0131zl\u0131 ayak sesleri duyuluyordu ve bunu kap\u0131n\u0131n g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fcyle \u00e7al\u0131nmas\u0131 izledi. Tam ikinci bir karga\u015fa beklerken Mentoni’nin evinden bir u\u015fak odaya dald\u0131 ve, duygu yo\u011funlu\u011fundan dolay\u0131 bo\u011fuk \u00e7\u0131kan titrek bir sesle, \u015fu tutars\u0131z s\u00f6zleri s\u00f6yledi: “Han\u0131m\u0131m! – Han\u0131m\u0131m! – Zehirlendi!
\n–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Zehirlendi! Ah g\u00fczel – ah g\u00fczel Aphrodite!”
\n\u015ea\u015fk\u0131nl\u0131kla kanepeye ko\u015fup uyuyan adam\u0131 uyand\u0131rmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Ama uzuvlar\u0131 kaskat\u0131yd\u0131 – dudaklar\u0131 mosmordu – az \u00f6nce \u0131\u015f\u0131lt\u0131lar sa\u00e7an g\u00f6zleri \u00f6l\u00fcme m\u0131hlanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Sendeleyerek masaya do\u011fru geriledim – elim \u00e7atlak ve kararm\u0131\u015f bir kadehe de\u011fdi – ve korkun\u00e7 ger\u00e7ek ruhumda bir anda, bir \u015fim\u015fek gibi \u00e7akt\u0131.<\/p>\n

Randevu – Adger Allen Poe<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Orada beni bekle! O yank\u0131l\u0131 vadide Mutlaka bulu\u015faca\u011f\u0131m seninle. (Chichester Piskoposu Henry King’in kar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc \u00fcst\u00fcne yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 a\u011f\u0131t.) Talihsiz ve gizemli adam! Sen ki kendi hayal g\u00fcc\u00fcn\u00fcn parlakl\u0131\u011f\u0131yla afallad\u0131n, gen\u00e7li\u011finin alevleri aras\u0131na d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcn! Hayalimde seni tekrar g\u00f6r\u00fcyorum! Bir kez daha \u00f6n\u00fcmde duruyor siluetin! Oldu\u011fun ah oldu\u011fun gibi de\u011fil so\u011fuk vadide ve g\u00f6lgelerin aras\u0131nda de\u011fil – […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[115],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-7118","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","category-ceviri-oykuler"],"yoast_head":"\nRandevu | Adger Allen Poe - narteks.net<\/title>\n<meta name=\"robots\" content=\"index, follow, max-snippet:-1, max-image-preview:large, max-video-preview:-1\" \/>\n<link rel=\"canonical\" href=\"https:\/\/narteks.net\/index.php\/2018\/08\/06\/randevu-adger-allen-poe\/\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:locale\" content=\"tr_TR\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:type\" content=\"article\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:title\" content=\"Randevu | Adger Allen Poe\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:description\" content=\"Orada beni bekle! 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