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Biliyorum, \u00e7ok k\u00f6t\u00fc \u015feyler s\u00f6yl\u00fcyorlar benim i\u00e7in; ister benden ya\u00adna \u00e7\u0131k\u0131n, ister onlardan, oras\u0131 kendi bilece\u011finiz i\u015f. Ben sadece Eunice ile Olivia-Ann’a kar\u015f\u0131 s\u00f6yleyeceklerimi yaz\u0131yorum; iki sa\u011flam g\u00f6z\u00fc olan herkes kimin ak\u0131ll\u0131, kimin deli oldu\u011funu kolayca g\u00f6r\u00fcr san\u0131r\u0131m. Benim istedi\u011fim ABD halk\u0131n\u0131n olan biteni bilmesi, o kadar.<\/p>\n
Olan biten: Pazar g\u00fcn\u00fc, 12 A\u011fustos, bu y\u0131l, Eunice babas\u0131n\u0131n \u0130\u00e7 Sava\u015f’tan kalma k\u0131l\u0131c\u0131yla beni \u00f6ld\u00fcrmeye kalkt\u0131, Olivia-Ann da otuz santimlik bir domuz b\u0131\u00e7a\u011f\u0131yla \u00f6n\u00fcne gelen her \u015feyi kesti, do\u011frad\u0131. Buna gelene kadar daha neler neler var.<\/p>\n
Talihsizli\u011fim alt\u0131 ay \u00f6nce Marge’la evlendi\u011fim zaman ba\u015flad\u0131. Yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m ilk yanl\u0131\u015f hareket de budur zaten. Mobile’de, d\u00f6rt g\u00fcnl\u00fck bir arkada\u015fl\u0131ktan sonra evlenmi\u015ftik. \u0130kimiz de on alt\u0131 ya\u015f\u0131ndayd\u0131k; Marge, amcam\u0131n k\u0131z\u0131 Georgia’ya konuk gelmi\u015fti. \u015eimdi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum da, \u00f6yle bir k\u0131z\u0131 nas\u0131l be\u011fenmi\u015fim, sevmi\u015fim, akl\u0131m alm\u0131yor. G\u00fczel de\u011fil, v\u00fccut yok, \u00fcstelik de kafas\u0131z m\u0131 kafas\u0131z. Ama Marge sar\u0131\u015f\u0131nd\u0131r, do\u011fu\u015ftan sar\u0131\u015f\u0131n, herhalde buna, sar\u0131\u015f\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131na kap\u0131lm\u0131\u015f olaca\u011f\u0131m. Evet, evlenmemizin \u00fcst\u00fcnden \u00fc\u00e7 ay ge\u00e7ti ge\u00e7medi, bir de bakt\u0131m, Marge \u00fcfr\u00fcl\u00fcverdi; gebe; yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m ikinci yanl\u0131\u015f hareket. Sonra ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131p \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rmaya, eve, annemin yan\u0131na gidece\u011fim diye diretmeye ba\u015flad\u0131 – ama annesi yoktu, yaln\u0131z bu iki halas\u0131 vard\u0131, Eunice ile Olivia-Ann. Sonunda beni Cash and Carry’deki g\u00fczelim i\u015fimden \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131p buraya, Admiral’s Mill’e, bu k\u00f6t\u00fc, pis yere getirdi.<\/p>\n
L-N istasyonunda trenden indi\u011fimiz g\u00fcn bardaktan bo\u015fan\u0131rcas\u0131na ya\u011fmur ya\u011f\u0131yordu; bizi kar\u015f\u0131lamaya \u00e7\u0131kan oldu mu san\u0131yorsunuz? \u00dcstelik k\u0131rk bir sent verip bir de telgraf \u00e7ekmi\u015ftim. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcn: Kar\u0131m gebe, ya\u011fmur alt\u0131nda tam on kilometre yol y\u00fcr\u00fcmek zorunday\u0131z.<\/p>\n
Marge’\u0131n can\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc s\u0131rt\u0131m a\u011fr\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in ben pek az \u015fey ta\u015f\u0131ya\u00adbiliyordum. Bu evi ilk g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm zaman \u00e7ok be\u011fenmi\u015ftim do\u011frusu; saklayacak de\u011filim. Kocaman, sar\u0131 bir ev, \u00f6n\u00fcnde s\u0131ra s\u0131ra s\u00fctunlar, bah\u00e7eyi \u00e7evreleyen, k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 beyazl\u0131 japong\u00fclleri, b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar g\u00f6z al\u0131c\u0131 \u015feylerdi.<\/p>\n
Eunice ile Olivia-Ann geldi\u011fimizi g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f, bizi kar\u015f\u0131lamak i\u00e7in hole \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015flard\u0131. Ah, bir kerecik olsun g\u00f6rebilseydiniz onlar\u0131. \u0130nan\u0131n \u015fakkadak d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcp \u00f6l\u00fcrd\u00fcn\u00fcz! Eunice \u015f\u00f6yle koskocaman, ya\u015fl\u0131, \u015fi\u015fman bir \u015fey, yaln\u0131z poposu y\u00fcz kilo gelir. Hava ya\u011fmurlu da olsa, a\u00e7\u0131k da olsa, evin i\u00e7inde hep eski moda bir gecelikle dola\u015f\u0131r, ad\u0131n\u0131 kimono takm\u0131\u015f onun, ama pis bir fanile gecelikten ba\u015fka bir \u015fey de\u011fil. Sonra t\u00fct\u00fcn \u00e7i\u011fner, \u00f6te yandan kibarl\u0131\u011fa da pek d\u00fc\u015fk\u00fcn oldu\u011fu i\u00e7in a\u011fz\u0131n\u00addaki t\u00fct\u00fcnleri kimseye g\u00f6stermeden t\u00fck\u00fcrmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r. \u0130kide bir oku\u00admu\u015flu\u011fundan, bilgeli\u011finden s\u00f6z a\u00e7ar, beni k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrmek, \u00fczmek iste\u011fiyle yapar bunu, ama ben hi\u00e7 ald\u0131rmam, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc onun her s\u00f6zc\u00fc\u011f\u00fc teker teker hecelemeden \u00e7ocuk dergilerini bile okuyamad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 pek iyi bilirim. Yaln\u0131z \u015funu da s\u00f6ylemeli: \u00c7\u0131karma toplama yapmakta, para saymakta kimse yan\u015famaz Eunice’le; Washington’un D.C. b\u00f6l\u00adgesindeki i\u015fyerlerinde \u00e7al\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f bir insan\u0131n ba\u015fka t\u00fcrl\u00fc olmas\u0131 da bek\u00adlenemez zaten. \u00c7ok paras\u0131 yoktur demek istemiyorum bu s\u00f6zle! Ken\u00addisi yok der, ama var, biliyorum, iyice biliyorum, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc bir g\u00fcn yan verandadaki \u00e7i\u00e7ek saks\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131n birinde bin dolara yak\u0131n para buldum, oraya saklam\u0131\u015f. Bir sentine bile dokunmad\u0131m, ama Eunice y\u00fcz dolar \u00e7alm\u0131\u015f oldu\u011fumu s\u00f6yl\u00fcyor; yalan, hem de kuyruklu yalan. Admiral’s Mill’de herkes Eunice’in a\u011fz\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131kan s\u00f6zleri tepeden gelen birer emir gibi kar\u015f\u0131lar, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc herkes ona bor\u00e7ludur; Eunice tutup Charlie Carson’un (g\u00f6zleri k\u00f6r, doksanl\u0131k, yatalak bir adam, 1896’dan beri yerinden k\u0131p\u0131rdayam\u0131yor) kendisini s\u0131rt\u00fcst\u00fc yere y\u0131k\u0131p bilmem ne halt etti\u011fim s\u00f6ylese, b\u00fct\u00fcn kasabal\u0131lar \u0130ncil’e el bas\u0131p Eunice’in do\u011fru s\u00f6yledi\u011fine yemin ederler.<\/p>\n
Olivia-Ann daha da k\u00f6t\u00fc; bu bir ger\u00e7ek! Yaln\u0131z, Eunice kadar si\u00adnirli de\u011fil; anadan do\u011fma aptal \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc, tavan aras\u0131na kapat\u0131l\u0131p \u00fcst\u00fcne kilit vurulacak yar\u0131m ak\u0131ll\u0131lardan. Soluk renkli, s\u0131ska m\u0131 s\u0131ska, \u00fcstelik b\u0131y\u0131kl\u0131 bir kad\u0131n. \u00c7o\u011fu zaman bir kenara oturup elindeki otuz san\u00adtimlik domuz b\u0131\u00e7a\u011f\u0131yla sopa yontar, ya da birine bir h\u0131nz\u0131rl\u0131k eder, Mrs. Harry Steller Smith’e yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 gibi. Bunu kimseye s\u00f6ylemeyece\u00ad\u011fime s\u00f6z vermi\u015ftim, ama insan\u0131n hayat\u0131 tehlikeye girince s\u00f6z\u00fcn filan bir de\u011feri kalm\u0131yor.<\/p>\n
Mrs. Harry Steller Smith, Eunice’in kanaryas\u0131yd\u0131; ad\u0131, kocakar\u0131 ila\u00e7lar\u0131 yap\u0131p satan Pensacola’l\u0131 bir kad\u0131ndan geliyordu; Eunice her hastal\u0131\u011f\u0131 ge\u00e7iren bir ila\u00e7 al\u0131rd\u0131 ondan. Bir g\u00fcn oturma odas\u0131nda bir g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fc duydum, kap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131p bakt\u0131m, ne g\u00f6reyim istersiniz. Olivia- Ann eline koca bir tavan s\u00fcp\u00fcrgesi alm\u0131\u015f, Mrs. Harry Steller Smith’i pencereden d\u0131\u015far\u0131 k\u0131\u015fk\u0131\u015fl\u0131yor, kafesin kap\u0131s\u0131 ise ard\u0131na kadar a\u00e7\u0131k. O anda i\u00e7eri girmemi\u015f olsayd\u0131m, bu i\u015fi onun yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 kimse bilmeye\u00adcekti. Eunice’e s\u00f6yleyece\u011fimden korkarak iyice a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131 bana, zavall\u0131 bir hayvan\u0131 b\u00f6yle kafese t\u0131kmak ho\u015f bir \u015fey de\u011filmi\u015f, \u00fcstelik Mrs. Harry Steller Smith’in \u00f6t\u00fc\u015f\u00fc de sinirine dokunuyormu\u015f. Sonunda ben onun haline ac\u0131d\u0131m, o da bana iki dolar verdi; ikimiz bir olup Eunice’e s\u00f6yleyecek bir yalan uydurduk. Paray\u0131 kabul etmezdim ama, bakt\u0131m, almazsam i\u00e7i rahat etmeyecek, \u00fcz\u00fclecek, eh, ne yapay\u0131m, ister istemez ald\u0131m.<\/p>\n
Bu eve geldi\u011fim g\u00fcn Eunice’in s\u00f6yledi\u011fi ilk s\u00f6zc\u00fckler \u015funlar ol\u00admu\u015ftu: “Demek bununla evlenmek i\u00e7in ka\u00e7t\u0131n bizden, ha, Marge?”
\nMarge \u015f\u00f6yle dedi: “\u00c7ok yak\u0131\u015f\u0131kl\u0131, hem de g\u00fczel, de\u011fil mi, Eunice Hala?”
\nEunice beni tepeden t\u0131rna\u011fa bir s\u00fczd\u00fc: “S\u00f6yle, arkas\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6ns\u00fcn.”
\nBen arkam d\u00f6n\u00fck dururken, Eunice, “Yaz\u0131k,” dedi, “s\u00fcpr\u00fcnt\u00fcn\u00fcn en k\u00f6t\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc se\u00e7mi\u015fsin. Buna erkek bile denmez.”
\nHayat\u0131mda kimse beni bu kadar a\u015fa\u011f\u0131lamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131! Do\u011frusu pek sa\u011flam yap\u0131l\u0131, etli canl\u0131 bir insan say\u0131lmazd\u0131m, ama daha iyice b\u00fcy\u00fc\u00adm\u00fc\u015f, geli\u015fmi\u015f de\u011fildim ki.
\n“Neden denmesin! Elbette erkek,” dedi Marge.
\nOlivia-Ann’\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131 bir kar\u0131\u015f a\u00e7\u0131kt\u0131, neredeyse sinek ka\u00e7acakt\u0131 i\u00e7i\u00adne; birden canlan\u0131p at\u0131ld\u0131: “Ablam\u0131n s\u00f6yledi\u011fini duydun. Erkek bile denmez buna. \u015eu s\u00fcpr\u00fcnt\u00fcye bak, erke\u011fim diye dola\u015f\u0131yor! Ne erke\u011fi! Di\u015fi bu, di\u015fi!”
\nMarge \u015f\u00f6yle dedi: “Unutuyorsunuz, Olivia-Ann Hala, bu benim kocam, do\u011facak \u00e7ocu\u011fumun babas\u0131.”
\nEunice \u00e7irkin bir ses \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131, sonra, “\u0130yi,” dedi, “iyi ya, ben senin yerinde olsam, b\u00f6yle bir kocayla hi\u00e7 de \u00f6v\u00fcnmezdim.”
\nNe ho\u015f bir kar\u015f\u0131lama, de\u011fil mi? Hem de Cash and Carry\u2019deki g\u00fc\u00adzelim i\u015fimi b\u0131rakm\u0131\u015f gelmi\u015fim!<\/p>\n
Ama o ak\u015fam olanlar\u0131n yan\u0131nda bunun s\u00f6z\u00fc bile edilmez. Blue- bell sofray\u0131 toplad\u0131ktan sonra, Marge sesini elinden geldi\u011fince tatl\u0131\u00adla\u015ft\u0131rarak, otomobili al\u0131p Phoenix City’ye sinemaya gidip gidemeye\u00adce\u011fimizi sordu.
\n“Sen akl\u0131n\u0131 ka\u00e7\u0131rm\u0131\u015f olmal\u0131s\u0131n,” dedi Eunice; sanki s\u0131rt\u0131ndaki ki\u00admonoyu istemi\u015ftik.
\n“Sen akl\u0131n\u0131 ka\u00e7\u0131rm\u0131\u015f olmal\u0131s\u0131n,” dedi Olivia-Ann.
\n“Saat alt\u0131,” dedi Eunice, “hem sen benim bu erkek bozmas\u0131na, bu s\u00fcpr\u00fcnt\u00fcye, yepyeni gibi elden d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm 34 model Chevrolet’mi kulland\u0131raca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 san\u0131yorsan, iyice akl\u0131n\u0131 ka\u00e7\u0131rm\u0131\u015f olmal\u0131s\u0131n.”
\nBu gibi s\u00f6zler Marge’\u0131 hemen a\u011flat\u0131r.
\n“\u00dcz\u00fclme, \u015fekerim,” dedim, “ald\u0131rma, ben zaman\u0131nda ne Cadillac’lar kulland\u0131m.”
\n“H\u0131h,” dedi Eunice.
\n“Elbette,” dedim.
\n“De\u011fil otomobil kullanmak,” dedi Eunice, “bir saban\u0131n ucundan tuttuysa bu s\u00fcpr\u00fcnt\u00fc, ben oturup tam bir d\u00fczine, neft ya\u011f\u0131nda k\u0131zar\u00adt\u0131lm\u0131\u015f fare yerim.”
\n“Kocam i\u00e7in b\u00f6yle s\u00f6zler s\u00f6ylemenize g\u00f6z yumamam,” dedi Marge. “\u00c7ok ay\u0131p ediyorsunuz! Biliyorum, b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar yabanc\u0131 bir yerde, yabanc\u0131 bir adamla evlendim diye.”
\n“Sana uygun zaten, tam sana g\u00f6re,” dedi Eunice.
\n“B\u00f6yle \u015feyler s\u00f6yleyerek akl\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 \u00e7elece\u011fim sanma, iki\u015fer tane g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz var bizim,” dedi Olivia-Ann; sesi t\u0131pk\u0131 \u00e7iftle\u015fmeye haz\u0131rla\u00adnan e\u015feklerin an\u0131rt\u0131s\u0131na benziyordu.
\n“Biz \u00f6yle kolay kolay kand\u0131r\u0131lacaklardan de\u011filiz,” dedi Eunice.
\n“Ben sadece \u015funu anlaman\u0131z\u0131 istiyorum,” dedi Marge, “bu adam\u00adla, \u00f6l\u00fcnceye kadar ayr\u0131lmamak \u00fczere evlendim, tam \u00fc\u00e7 bu\u00e7uk ay \u00f6n\u00adce. Kime isterseniz sorun. Sonra, Eunice Hala, kar\u015f\u0131n\u0131zdaki \u00f6zg\u00fcr bir insan, bir beyaz, \u00fcstelik daha on alt\u0131 ya\u015f\u0131nda. Sonra George Far Sylvester babas\u0131 i\u00e7in bu gibi s\u00f6zler s\u00f6ylenmesinden hi\u00e7 de ho\u015flanmaz san\u0131r\u0131m.”<\/p>\n
George Far Sylvester do\u011facak \u00e7ocu\u011fumuzun ad\u0131yd\u0131. Yaman bir ad, de\u011fil mi? Ama \u015fu anda hi\u00e7birine ilgi duymuyorum, hi\u00e7biri yok g\u00f6z\u00fcmde.
\n“Bir k\u0131z\u0131n ba\u015fka bir k\u0131zdan \u00e7ocu\u011fu olur mu?” dedi Olivia-Ann; a\u00e7\u0131k\u00e7a hakaret ediyordu bana, erkeklik gururumla oynuyordu. “Her g\u00fcn yeni yeni \u015feyler g\u00f6r\u00fcyor insan hayatta.”
\n“Ah, sus art\u0131k,” dedi Eunice. “Sinemadan da Phoenix City’ye git\u00admekten de umudunuzu kesin, bo\u015funa \u00e7ene yormayal\u0131m.” Marge h\u0131\u00e7k\u0131rd\u0131: “Oh-h-h, ama Judy Garland oynuyor.” “\u00dcz\u00fclme \u015fekerim,” dedim, “ald\u0131rma, ben o filmi on y\u0131l \u00f6nce g\u00f6rd\u00fcm, Mobile’de.”
\n“Yalan\u0131n daniskas\u0131 denir buna,” diye ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131 Olivia-Ann. “Ah, sen ne ahlaks\u0131zs\u0131n, sen. Judy film \u00e7evirmeye ba\u015flayal\u0131 on y\u0131l olmad\u0131 daha.” Olivia-Ann elli iki y\u0131ll\u0131k hayat\u0131 boyunca (kendisi ka\u00e7 ya\u015f\u0131nda oldu\u011funu kimseye s\u00f6ylemez, ben Montgomery’deki n\u00fcfus memurlu\u00ad\u011fundan mektupla edindim bu bilgiyi), bir tek film g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f de\u011fildir, ama tam sekiz sinema dergisine abone. Postanede \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan Mrs. De- lancey’nin dedi\u011fine g\u00f6re, Sears and Roebuck firmas\u0131ndan postayla yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 al\u0131\u015fveri\u015f bir yana b\u0131rak\u0131l\u0131rsa, Olivia-Ann’a sinema dergilerin\u00adden ba\u015fka hi\u00e7bir \u015fey gelmezmi\u015f. Gary Cooper’\u0131n hayran\u0131d\u0131r; hayranl\u0131k ama ne hayranl\u0131k, hastal\u0131k gibi; yaln\u0131z bu artistin foto\u011fraflar\u0131yla dolu bir sand\u0131\u011f\u0131, iki de bavulu var odas\u0131nda.<\/p>\n
Masadan kalkt\u0131k; Eunice yuvarlana yuvarlana pencereye gidip bah\u00e7edeki tespiha\u011fac\u0131na bakt\u0131: “Ku\u015flar t\u00fcnemeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015f – yatma zaman\u0131m\u0131z geldi demektir. Sen odana \u00e7\u0131k, Marge, bu centilmenin ya\u00adta\u011f\u0131 arka verandada.”
\nEunice’in ne demek istedi\u011fini anlayabilmem i\u00e7in tam bir dakika d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmem gerekti.
\nSonra \u015f\u00f6yle sordum: “Yani beni kar\u0131mla bir odada yat\u0131rmayacak m\u0131s\u0131n\u0131z \u015fimdi?”
\nBunun \u00fczerine ikisi birden hayk\u0131rmaya ba\u015flad\u0131lar.
\nDerken Marge\u2019\u0131n sinirleri bozuldu, bast\u0131 \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131: “Susun, susun, susun! Daha fazlas\u0131na dayanamam art\u0131k. Haydi, benim k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck sevgi\u00adlim – haydi, git, nerede derlerse orada yat. Yar\u0131n bir \u015feyler d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fc\u00adr\u00fcz…”
\n“Anla\u015f\u0131lan,” dedi Eunice, “hi\u00e7 ak\u0131l kalmam\u0131\u015f bu k\u0131zca\u011f\u0131zda, iyice oynatm\u0131\u015f.”
\n“Zavall\u0131 yavrucak,” dedi Olivia-Ann; kolunu Marge’\u0131n beline do\u00adlad\u0131, sonra k\u0131z\u0131 kap\u0131ya do\u011fru g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc; “zavall\u0131 yavrucak, b\u00f6ylesine gen\u00e7, b\u00f6ylesine g\u00fcnahs\u0131z. Haydi, gidelim de, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcme dayay\u0131p doya doya bir a\u011fla.”<\/p>\n
May\u0131s, haziran, temmuz aylar\u0131n\u0131, a\u011fustosun da a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 yukar\u0131 ilk yar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131, arka verandada, a\u00e7\u0131kta ge\u00e7irdim, ne bir cibinlik, ne bir \u015fey. Marge derseniz – bir kerecik bile a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131p da beni odas\u0131na istedi\u011fini s\u00f6ylemedi! Alabama’n\u0131n bu yanlar\u0131 batakl\u0131k; bir soku\u015fta manday\u0131 \u00f6ld\u00fcrecek sivrisinekler var; ya b\u00f6cekler, kanatl\u0131 hamam b\u00f6cekleri; ya koca koca tarla fareleri, hani i\u00e7lerinden birini tutup bir mar\u015fandizin \u00f6n\u00fcne ba\u011flasan\u0131z, \u00e7ekti\u011fi gibi g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcr; buradan ta Timbuctoo’ya kadar. Ah, o k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck, do\u011fmam\u0131\u015f George olmasayd\u0131 arada, ben \u00e7oktan ka\u00e7m\u0131\u015f gitmi\u015ftim bu evden. \u0130lk geceden bug\u00fcne dek \u015f\u00f6yle be\u015f saniye yaln\u0131z kalamad\u0131m Marge’la. Birinden biri hemen ko\u015far yan\u0131m\u0131za; ge\u00e7en hafta az kald\u0131 sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 ba\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 yolacaklard\u0131; Marge odas\u0131na kapan\u0131p kap\u0131y\u0131 kilitlemi\u015f, beni de ortalarda g\u00f6rememi\u015fler, \u00e7\u0131lg\u0131n gibi sald\u0131rd\u0131lar sa\u011fa sola. Oysa ben a\u015fa\u011f\u0131da pamuk balyalar\u0131n\u0131 haz\u0131rlayan zencileri seyrediyordum, ama inad\u0131ma sesimi \u00e7\u0131karmad\u0131m, Eunice kilitli odada Marge’la ikimizin bir i\u015fler becerdi\u011fimizi san\u0131p sinirinden \u00e7atlas\u0131n patlas\u0131n diye. O g\u00fcnden sonra g\u00f6zc\u00fcler kadrosuna Blue-bell’i de katt\u0131lar.<\/p>\n
\u00dcstelik bu \u00fc\u00e7 bu\u00e7uk ay\u0131 be\u015f paras\u0131z ge\u00e7ildim; \u015fu anda sigara ala\u00adcak param bile yok cebimde.<\/p>\n
Eunice i\u015fe girmemi istedi\u011fi i\u00e7in her g\u00fcn ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131n etini yedi, s\u00f6y\u00adlendi durdu, bir g\u00fcn olsun b\u0131rakmad\u0131 arkam\u0131. “Bu s\u00fcpr\u00fcnt\u00fc neden gi\u00addip kendisine \u015f\u00f6yle do\u011fru d\u00fcr\u00fcst bir i\u015f bulmuyor?” Siz de dikkat et\u00admi\u015fsinizdir herhalde, bana hi\u00e7 do\u011frudan do\u011fruya s\u00f6z s\u00f6ylemez, y\u00fck\u00adsek huzurlar\u0131nda yaln\u0131z bile olsam, o gene yan\u0131m\u0131zda \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc bir insan varm\u0131\u015f da onunla konu\u015fuyormu\u015f gibi davran\u0131r. “Erkekli\u011fin k\u0131y\u0131s\u0131ndan ge\u00e7mi\u015fse, gidip kar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n ekme\u011fini kazanmaya baks\u0131n, s\u0131rt\u0131n\u0131 bana dayay\u0131p yan gelmeye utanm\u0131yor, bir de onu besliyorum.” S\u0131ras\u0131 gelmi\u015fken \u015funu da s\u00f6yleyeyim bari: Tam \u00fc\u00e7 ay on \u00fc\u00e7 g\u00fcnd\u00fcr ha\u015flama patatesle, yemek art\u0131klar\u0131yla ya\u015f\u0131yorum; iki kere Dr. A. N. Carter’a gittim. \u0130skorpit hastal\u0131\u011f\u0131na yakalanm\u0131\u015f olup olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131, o da kestiremedi bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc.<\/p>\n
\u00c7al\u0131\u015fmama gelince, sorar\u0131m size, benim gibi yetenekli bir adam, Cash and Carry\u2019de \u00e7al\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f, ba\u015far\u0131 g\u00f6stermi\u015f bir adam, Admiral’s Mili gibi bir yerde ne i\u015f tutabilir? Tek, bir tek d\u00fckk\u00e2n var burada, onun da sahibi Mr. Tubberville ad\u0131nda, tembel mi tembel, mal\u0131n\u0131 sat\u00admaya bile \u00fc\u015fenen bir herif. Moming Star Baptist Kilisesi’nin papazl\u0131\u011f\u0131 da bo\u015f de\u011fil aksi gibi, i\u011fren\u00e7, moruk bir papazlar\u0131 var, ad\u0131 Shell; ge\u00e7enlerde Eunice ona u\u011fray\u0131p benim ne zaman \u00f6lece\u011fimi sordu. Kulaklar\u0131mla duydum verdi\u011fi cevab\u0131, \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fcn \u00e7o\u011funu ya\u015fam\u0131\u015f\u0131m, \u00f6yle dedi.<\/p>\n
Ama beni en fazla \u00fczen \u015fey, Eunice’in Marge’\u0131 kand\u0131rm\u0131\u015f olmas\u0131. K\u0131z\u0131 baya\u011f\u0131 d\u00fc\u015fman etti bana, hem de s\u00f6zc\u00fcklerle anlat\u0131lamayacak bir d\u00fc\u015fmanl\u0131k. \u00d6yle ki yan\u0131na gitti\u011fim zaman beni itelemeye filan ba\u015flad\u0131, ama \u015f\u00f6yle bir-iki tokat yiyince, akl\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131na geldi. Kar\u0131m bana sayg\u0131s\u0131zl\u0131k, terbiyesizlik edecek de, ben hi\u00e7 sesimi \u00e7\u0131karmay\u0131p \u00f6ylece duraca\u011f\u0131m, olacak \u015fey mi!<\/p>\n
D\u00fc\u015fmanlar d\u00f6rt bir yan\u0131 \u00e7evirmi\u015f: Bluebell, Olivia-Ann, Eunice, Marge, sonra b\u00fct\u00fcn Admiral’s Mili halk\u0131 (342 ki\u015fi). Dost: hi\u00e7 yok. \u0130\u015fte d\u00fcn, 19 A\u011fustos, Pazar g\u00fcn\u00fc, beni \u00f6ld\u00fcrmeye kalkt\u0131klar\u0131nda durum b\u00f6yleydi.<\/p>\n
Her yan\u0131 bo\u011fucu bir sessizlik sarm\u0131\u015ft\u0131, hava son derece s\u0131cakt\u0131. Kavga tam saat ikide ba\u015flad\u0131. Bunu iyice biliyorum, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc Eunice’in bir guguklu saati var, her \u00f6t\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnde akl\u0131m\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131mdan al\u0131yor. Oturma odas\u0131ndaki piyanoda bir \u015fark\u0131 bestelemekteydim, kimseye bir zarar\u0131m dokunmuyordu; bu piyanoyu Olivia-Ann i\u00e7in sat\u0131n alm\u0131\u015f Eunice, bir de \u00f6\u011fretmen tutmu\u015flar, her hafta ta Georgia’dan, Columbus’dan gelir\u00admi\u015f adam. Benimle arkada\u015fl\u0131k etmenin kendisi i\u00e7in tehlikeli olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hissetti\u011fi g\u00fcne kadar, postanedeki Mrs. Delancey ile pek iyiydi aram\u0131z; onun anlatt\u0131\u011f\u0131na g\u00f6re, bu Georgia’l\u0131 piyano \u00f6\u011fretmeni, derse geldi\u011fi g\u00fcnlerden birinde, sanki arkas\u0131ndan Adolf Hitler koval\u0131yormu\u015f gibi, bir f\u0131rlam\u0131\u015f bu evden d\u0131\u015far\u0131, atlam\u0131\u015f Ford’una, ka\u00e7m\u0131\u015f gitmi\u015f, gidi\u015f o gidi\u015f, bir daha hi\u00e7 g\u00f6r\u00fcnmemi\u015f Admiral’s Mill’de. Dedi\u011fim gibi, oturma odas\u0131nda, kimseye bir zarar vermeden, kendi kendime serin\u00adlemeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordum; birden Olivia-Ann dald\u0131 i\u00e7eri; sa\u00e7lar\u0131na bigudi\u00adler sarm\u0131\u015ft\u0131; ba\u011f\u0131rmaya ba\u015flad\u0131: “Kes \u015fu g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fcy\u00fc! Bir dakika rahat b\u0131rakmaz m\u0131s\u0131n sen insan\u0131? Hem kalk benim piyanomun ba\u015f\u0131ndan. Senin piyanon de\u011fil ya, benim piyanom, \u015fu anda kalkmazsan, eyl\u00fcl ay\u0131n\u0131n ilk pazartesi g\u00fcn\u00fc kendini yarg\u0131c\u0131n kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda bulursun.”<\/p>\n
Ne olacak, k\u0131skan\u0131yor i\u015fte, anadan do\u011fma m\u00fczisyenim diye, biri\u00adbirinden g\u00fczel \u015fark\u0131lar uyduruyorum diye, k\u0131skan\u0131yor beni, \u00e7ekemi\u00adyor.
\n“Bak, ne hale sokmu\u015fsun fildi\u015fi tu\u015flar\u0131m\u0131, Mr. Sylvester,” diyerek piyanoya do\u011fru at\u0131ld\u0131, “hepsi gev\u015femi\u015f, yerlerinden oynam\u0131\u015f, g\u00fcm g\u00fcm vuruyorsun sersem gibi, be\u011fendin mi yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u015fimdi!”
\nBen bu eve geldi\u011fim zaman piyano \u00e7oktan k\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bulmu\u015ftu, o da bunu pek iyi bilirdi ya, neyse.
\n\u015e\u00f6yle dedim: “Bak\u0131yorum da sizden hi\u00e7bir \u015fey gizlenmiyor, Miss Olivia-Ann, ama hani benim de, kendime g\u00f6re, bildi\u011fim baz\u0131 \u015feyler var da, tuhaf de\u011fil mi, bana onlar\u0131 hat\u0131rlat\u0131yorsunuz. Belki de o benim bildi\u011fim \u015feyleri ba\u015fkalar\u0131 pek merak ediyorlard\u0131r, \u00f6\u011frenmek isterler. Ne oldu acaba Mrs. Harry Steller Smith, nereye gitti dersiniz?”
\nMrs. Harry Steller Smith’i hat\u0131rlad\u0131n\u0131z m\u0131?
\nBir an durdu, bo\u015f kafese bakt\u0131. “Bana s\u00f6z vermi\u015ftiniz,” dedi; son\u00adra birden mosmor oldu y\u00fcz\u00fc.
\n“Belki vermi\u015fimdir, belki de vermemi\u015fimdir,” dedim, “Eunice’i \u00f6yle aldatmakla \u00e7ok k\u00f6t\u00fc bir i\u015f yapm\u0131\u015ft\u0131n\u0131z, aram\u0131zda s\u0131k\u0131 bir dostluk var diye sustum ben \u015fimdiye kadar, dostlu\u011fumuz sona ererse, belki de bundan sonra susmam.”<\/p>\n
Evet, efendim, g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fcs\u00fcz pat\u0131rt\u0131s\u0131z, g\u00fczel g\u00fczel \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p gitti. Ben de piyano \u00e7almay\u0131 b\u0131rak\u0131p odan\u0131n ortas\u0131ndaki kanepeye uzand\u0131m; korkun\u00e7 bir \u015feydir o kanepe; Eunice onun tak\u0131m\u0131n\u0131 1912’de, Atlan\u00adta’da, tam iki bin dolara alm\u0131\u015f, hem de pe\u015fin para – kendisi \u00f6yle der. Yar\u0131 kara, yan zeytin ye\u015fili pel\u00fc\u015fle kapl\u0131d\u0131r bu tak\u0131m; \u0131slak tavuk t\u00fcy\u00fc kokar. Odan\u0131n k\u00f6\u015felerinden birinde kocaman bir masa durur; \u00fcst\u00fcnde de Miss E ile O-A’n\u0131n sevgili anneleri ile sevgili babalar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6steren iki foto\u011fraf vard\u0131r. Baba yak\u0131\u015f\u0131kl\u0131 bir adam do\u011frusu, ama, aram\u0131zda kals\u0131n, bana ailesine zenci kan\u0131 kar\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f gibi geliyor. \u0130\u00e7 Sava\u015f’ta y\u00fczba\u015f\u0131ym\u0131\u015f, bunu hi\u00e7bir zaman unutmayaca\u011f\u0131m, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc kaputunun yan\u0131nda sallanan k\u0131l\u0131\u00e7 hayat\u0131mda \u00f6nemli bir rol oynad\u0131. Anne t\u0131pk\u0131 Olivia-Ann gibi yar\u0131m ak\u0131ll\u0131 bir kad\u0131n, foto\u011fraf\u0131ndan \u00f6yle anla\u015f\u0131l\u0131yor, ama k\u0131z\u0131ndan \u00e7ok daha ho\u015f.<\/p>\n
Tam uykuya dalaca\u011f\u0131m s\u0131rada Eunice’in sesini duydum; “Nerede? Nerede?” diye hayk\u0131r\u0131yordu. Sonra birden onu kap\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde g\u00f6rd\u00fcm, ellerini koca kal\u00e7alar\u0131na dayam\u0131\u015f, g\u00f6zlerini bana dikmi\u015fti; yardak\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131 arkas\u0131na toplanm\u0131\u015flard\u0131: Bluebell, Olivia-Ann, bir de Marge.<\/p>\n
Birka\u00e7 saniye Eunice kocaman, \u00e7\u0131plak aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131 h\u0131zl\u0131 h\u0131zl\u0131, k\u0131zg\u0131n k\u0131zg\u0131n yere vurdu; \u00fcst\u00fcnde Niagara \u00c7a\u011flayan\u0131’n\u0131n foto\u011fraf\u0131 olan bir kartpostalla \u015fi\u015fman y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc yelpazeledi.
\n“Nereye saklam\u0131\u015f paray\u0131?” dedi. “Kendisine g\u00fcvenmemden, evi\u00admin i\u00e7inde serbest\u00e7e dola\u015fmas\u0131na g\u00f6z yummamdan yararlan\u0131p a\u015f\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 y\u00fcz dolar\u0131m\u0131 nereye saklam\u0131\u015f?”
\n“Bu kadan da \u00e7ok fazla art\u0131k,” dedim; ama s\u0131caktan bunalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m, bitkindim, yerimden k\u0131p\u0131rdayacak halim yoktu.
\n“Fazla m\u0131, eksik mi sonra g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u00fcz onu,” dedi, konu\u015furken g\u00f6zleri yuvalar\u0131ndan f\u0131rlayacakt\u0131 nerdeyse. “Benim cenaze paramd\u0131 o, param\u0131 isterim. Sen bunun \u00f6l\u00fclerin cebinden para \u00e7alacak kadar d\u00fc\u015f\u00fck bir insan oldu\u011funu anlayamam\u0131\u015f miydin?”
\n“Belki de o \u00e7almam\u0131\u015ft\u0131r,” dedi Marge.
\n“Sen hi\u00e7 kar\u0131\u015fma bu i\u015fe, k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm,” dedi Olivia-Ann.
\n“O \u00e7ald\u0131 param\u0131, y\u00fczde y\u00fcz eminim,” dedi Eunice. “G\u00f6rm\u00fcyor musun g\u00f6zlerini\u00a0 nas\u0131l kara kara, su\u00e7lu su\u00e7lu bak\u0131yor!”
\nEsneyerek \u015f\u00f6yle dedim: “Yasalar\u0131n s\u00f6yledi\u011fine g\u00f6re, bir insan ba\u015fka bir insan\u0131 haks\u0131z yere su\u00e7larsa, kendi su\u00e7lu d\u00fc\u015fer, hem de ko\u00addese t\u0131k\u0131l\u0131r bu y\u00fczden.”
\n“Tanr\u0131 bilir h\u0131rs\u0131zlara verece\u011fi cezay\u0131,” dedi Eunice.
\n“Ah, abla,” dedi Olivia-Ann, “Tanr\u0131ya b\u0131rakmayal\u0131m onu ceza\u00adland\u0131rmay\u0131.”
\nBunun \u00fczerine Eunice benim \u00fcst\u00fcme do\u011fru y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc; kirli, fanile geceli\u011finin ete\u011fi yerde s\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fcyordu. Olivia-Ann hemen onun arkas\u0131\u00adna tak\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131; Bluebell sanki bir yerine bir \u015fey olmu\u015f gibi keskin bir \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131k att\u0131, hani belki ta Eufala’dan bile duymu\u015flard\u0131r o \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131; Marge ellerini kenetlemi\u015f, inliyor, tuhaf sesler \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131yordu.
\n“Oh-h-h,” diye h\u0131\u00e7k\u0131rd\u0131, “ne olur, geri ver \u015fu paray\u0131, k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck sev\u00adgilim.”
\n“Et tu Br\u00fcte?” dedim; William Shakespeare’dendir bu s\u00f6z.
\n“Haline bak\u0131n \u015funun,” dedi Eunice. “B\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcn b\u00f6yle aylak aylak yat\u0131yor, hi\u00e7 yormak istemiyor kendini.”
\n“Ac\u0131nacak \u015fey,” diye g\u0131tg\u0131tlad\u0131 Olivia-Ann.
\n“Sanki \u015fu zavall\u0131 k\u0131zca\u011f\u0131z de\u011fil de bu do\u011furacak.” Eunice’di ko\u00adnu\u015fan.
\nBluebell y\u00fcz paral\u0131k akl\u0131yla at\u0131ld\u0131: “Yalan m\u0131?”
\n“Kendi hallerine bakmadan bana s\u00f6z s\u00f6yl\u00fcyorlar,” dedim.
\n“Evimde \u00fc\u00e7 ay yan gelip oturduktan sonra, bu s\u00fcpr\u00fcnt\u00fc bir de ba\u00adna hakaret mi ediyor?” dedi Eunice.<\/p>\n
Kolumdaki sigara k\u00fcl\u00fcne bir fiske vurdum, sonra a\u011f\u0131r a\u011f\u0131r \u015funlan s\u00f6yledim: “Dr. A. N. Carter’\u0131n dedi\u011fine g\u00f6re bende iskorpit varm\u0131\u015f, \u00e7ok tehlikeli bir hastal\u0131k, en k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir heyecanlanma bile yasak – yoksa a\u011fz\u0131mdan k\u00f6p\u00fckler sa\u00e7arak d\u00f6rt bir yana sald\u0131r\u0131r, \u00f6n\u00fcme geleni \u0131s\u0131r\u0131rm\u0131\u015f\u0131m.”
\nBunun \u00fczerine Bluebell \u015f\u00f6yle dedi: “Neden gitmiyor geldi\u011fi \u00e7\u00f6pl\u00fc\u011fe, Mobile’e, Miss Eunice? Can\u0131m \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yor ona hizmet etmekten, b\u0131kt\u0131m art\u0131k.”
\nK\u00f6m\u00fcr karas\u0131 zenci iyice tepemi art\u0131rm\u0131\u015ft\u0131, bir an g\u00f6zlerim karar\u00add\u0131. Sonra hi\u00e7 heyecanlanmadan yerimden kalkt\u0131m, gidip ask\u0131l\u0131ktaki \u015femsiyeyi ald\u0131m, al\u0131r almaz da d\u00f6n\u00fcp Bluebell’in kafas\u0131na \u0130ndiriver\u00addim, bir daha, bir daha, \u015femsiye iki par\u00e7a oldu.
\n“Benim ipek \u015femsiyem, japon \u015femsiyem,” diye hayk\u0131rd\u0131 Olivia-Ann.
\nMarge \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131 bast\u0131: “Bluebell’i \u00f6ld\u00fcrd\u00fcn, zavall\u0131 Bluebell’i \u00f6l\u00add\u00fcrd\u00fcn!”
\nEunice, Olivia-Ann’\u0131 kap\u0131ya do\u011fru itti: “Akl\u0131n\u0131 ka\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131, \u015fekerim! Ko\u015f! Ko\u015f, Mr. Tubberville’i \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r!”
\n“Ben hi\u00e7 sevmem Mr. Tubberville’i,” diye kestirip att\u0131 Olivia- Ann. “Gidip kendi domuz b\u0131\u00e7a\u011f\u0131m\u0131 getirece\u011fim.” Tam kap\u0131dan \u00e7\u0131ka\u00adca\u011f\u0131 s\u0131rada bir kaleci gibi at\u0131l\u0131p sar\u0131ld\u0131m beline, yere yuvarland\u0131k, \u00e7o\u00adcuk oyunca\u011f\u0131 de\u011fil bu, \u00f6l\u00fcm var i\u015fin ucunda. Ama s\u0131rt\u0131m h\u00e2l\u00e2 a\u011fr\u0131yor.
\n“\u00d6ld\u00fcrecek onu!” diye bir hayk\u0131rd\u0131 Eunice, b\u00fct\u00fcn ev zang\u0131r zan\u00adg\u0131r sars\u0131ld\u0131. “Hepimizi \u00f6ld\u00fcrecek! Ben s\u00f6yledim sana bunu, Marge. \u00c7abuk, k\u0131z\u0131m, \u00e7abuk babam\u0131n k\u0131l\u0131c\u0131n\u0131 getir!”
\n\u0130\u015fte b\u00f6yle, Marge ko\u015fup k\u0131l\u0131c\u0131 getirdi, Eunice’e verdi. Bir de ka\u00add\u0131nlar\u0131n kocalar\u0131na ba\u011fl\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan s\u00f6z a\u00e7arlar! Bu yetmezmi\u015f gibi, Olivia-Ann karn\u0131ma bir diz atmaz m\u0131, g\u00f6zlerimde \u015fim\u015fekler \u00e7akt\u0131, kollar\u0131m gev\u015fedi. Az sonra Olivia-Ann’\u0131n bah\u00e7ede ba\u011f\u0131ra ba\u011f\u0131ra ila\u00adhiler s\u00f6yledi\u011fini duyduk.<\/p>\n
G\u00f6zlerim g\u00f6rkemli geli\u015fini g\u00f6rd\u00fc Tanr\u0131’n\u0131n; Gazap \u00fcz\u00fcmlerinin y\u0131\u011f\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 ba\u011fbozumunu \u00e7i\u011fneyerek…<\/p>\n
Bu s\u0131rada Eunice babas\u0131n\u0131n k\u0131l\u0131c\u0131n\u0131 savura savura odan\u0131n i\u00e7inde d\u00f6rt d\u00f6n\u00fcyordu; ben nas\u0131l olmu\u015fsa olmu\u015f piyanonun tepesine t\u0131rman\u00adm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Derken Eunice bana do\u011fru gelip piyanonun iskemlesine \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131, o titrek, her yan\u0131 ayr\u0131 oynayan iskemle onun gibi bir canavar\u0131 nas\u0131l \u00e7ekti, bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc ak\u0131l erdiremedim.
\n“\u0130n oradan a\u015fa\u011f\u0131, pis korkak, ikiye b\u00f6l\u00fcverece\u011fim \u015fimdi,” diyerek k\u0131l\u0131c\u0131 savurdu; bu s\u00f6ylediklerimi her zaman kan\u0131tlayabilirim, tam bir santim derinli\u011finde yaram var, k\u0131l\u0131\u00e7 yaras\u0131.
\nO arada Bluebell kendine gelmi\u015f, usulca kap\u0131dan \u00e7\u0131karak \u00f6n bah\u00ad\u00e7eye, Olivia-Ann’\u0131n yan\u0131na ko\u015fmu\u015ftu; ilahileri birlikte okumaya ba\u015f\u00adlad\u0131lar. Anla\u015f\u0131lan, beni \u00f6ld\u00fcrmek i\u00e7in ayin yap\u0131yorlard\u0131, hani Marge d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcp bay\u0131lmasayd\u0131, \u00f6ld\u00fcreceklerdi de.<\/p>\n
Marge’in bana yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 tek iyilik de bu oldu zaten.<\/p>\n
Sonras\u0131n\u0131 pek iyi hat\u0131rlayam\u0131yorum; bir ara kap\u0131da Olivia-Ann’\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm, elinde otuz santimlik domuz b\u0131\u00e7a\u011f\u0131 vard\u0131, arkas\u0131nda bir y\u0131\u011f\u0131n insan, kom\u015fular duruyordu. Birden yerde yatan Marge’\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fcler; herkes onun ba\u015f\u0131na topland\u0131; derken k\u0131z\u0131 kald\u0131r\u0131p d\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131lar, odas\u0131na, yata\u011f\u0131na g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcler galiba. Her neyse, onlar d\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kar \u00e7\u0131k\u00admaz kap\u0131y\u0131 kapat\u0131p arkas\u0131na e\u015fyalar\u0131 y\u0131\u011fd\u0131m.<\/p>\n
B\u00fct\u00fcn pel\u00fc\u015f koltuklar\u0131, kocaman maun masay\u0131 -yaln\u0131z o bir-iki ton gelir- ask\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131, daha bir s\u00fcr\u00fc \u015feyi y\u0131\u011fd\u0131m \u00fcst \u00fcste. Pencereleri s\u00fcrmeledim, perdeleri kapatt\u0131m. Bu i\u015fleri yaparken koca bir Sweet Love kutusu ge\u00e7ti elime, be\u015f dolarl\u0131k kutulardan; a\u011fz\u0131na kadar da dolu, \u00e7e\u015fit \u00e7e\u015fit \u015feker; \u015fu anda, \u00e7ikolatadan yap\u0131lma, i\u00e7i kremal\u0131 bir kiraz \u00e7i\u011fnemekteyim. Arada bir gelip kap\u0131y\u0131 yumrukluyor, hayk\u0131r\u0131yor, s\u00f6y\u00adleniyorlar. Ah, evet, bamba\u015fka bir \u015fark\u0131 s\u00f6ylemeye ba\u015flad\u0131lar \u015fimdi. Bana gelince; zaman zaman piyanonun ba\u015f\u0131na ge\u00e7ip ne\u015feli \u015fark\u0131lar \u00e7al\u0131yorum, kendilerinden korktu\u011fumu sanmas\u0131nlar diye.<\/p>\n
Benim Anlat\u0131\u015f\u0131m | Truman Capote<\/strong><\/p>\n \u00c7eviri:\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Memet\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 FUAT<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Biliyorum, \u00e7ok k\u00f6t\u00fc \u015feyler s\u00f6yl\u00fcyorlar benim i\u00e7in; ister benden ya\u00adna \u00e7\u0131k\u0131n, ister onlardan, oras\u0131 kendi bilece\u011finiz i\u015f. Ben sadece Eunice ile Olivia-Ann’a kar\u015f\u0131 s\u00f6yleyeceklerimi yaz\u0131yorum; iki sa\u011flam g\u00f6z\u00fc olan herkes kimin ak\u0131ll\u0131, kimin deli oldu\u011funu kolayca g\u00f6r\u00fcr san\u0131r\u0131m. Benim istedi\u011fim ABD halk\u0131n\u0131n olan biteni bilmesi, o kadar. Olan biten: Pazar g\u00fcn\u00fc, 12 A\u011fustos, bu y\u0131l, […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[115],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-7139","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","category-ceviri-oykuler"],"yoast_head":"\n