\u00a0<\/p>\n
ve bir g\u00fcn eline
ustura a\u011fz\u0131nda s\u0131nanmam\u0131\u015f
all\u0131-pullu mektuplar ge\u00e7erse
bil ki sevgilim
ben art\u0131k elleri \u00fczerinde y\u00fcr\u00fcyen
\u015faklabandan ba\u015fka bir\u015fey de\u011filim <\/p>\n
I <\/p>\n
koyu karanl\u0131k sulara kar\u0131\u015f\u0131p gitsin korku
p\u00fcf\u00fcr p\u00fcf\u00fcr esmesin may\u0131s r\u00fczgarlar\u0131
\u00e7ekin \u015fu kilimi yaprak h\u0131\u015f\u0131rt\u0131s\u0131 alt\u0131ndan
\u00aby\u0131llar var ki b\u00f6yle \u00f6fkelere dalm\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131m yoktu\u00bb <\/p>\n
y\u0131llar var ki b\u00f6yle \u00f6fkelere dalm\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131m yoktu
inad\u0131na yap\u0131\u015f yap\u0131\u015f havada bir g\u00fcl\u00fcn kokusu
kan k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 oturmu\u015fum y\u00fcre\u011fimin ortal\u0131k yerine
nerdeyse iz basacak g\u00f6zlerim avu\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7 <\/p>\n
koyu karanl\u0131k sulara kar\u0131\u015f\u0131p gitsin korku
bana \u00e7ocuklar betimle sokaklarda b\u00fcsb\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fclen
kitaplar\u0131n yak\u0131lmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir \u00fclke ad\u0131 s\u00f6yle k\u00fctfen
y\u0131llar var ki b\u00f6yle \u00f6fkelere dalm\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131m yoktu <\/p>\n
nerdeyse iz basacak g\u00f6zlerim avu\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7
iki eli var insan\u0131n bayrak tutmak i\u00e7in biri
\u00f6tekini neye sayarsan\u0131z say\u0131n b\u0131\u00e7ak mesela
kab\u0131na s\u0131\u011fmaz uzla\u015fmaz bir e\u015fkiya b\u0131\u00e7ak
\u00e7ardak alt\u0131 kavun beyaz peynir ekmek ve rak\u0131
bir g\u00fcn mutlaka evet ama nas\u0131l ey \u00fctopya
cehennem \u00f6fkeler yuttum g\u00fcn yirmid\u00f6rt saat
cennete \u00e7evirmek i\u00e7in g\u00fczelim yurdumu
\u00e7ekin \u015fu kilimi yaprak h\u0131\u015f\u0131rt\u0131s\u0131 alt\u0131ndan
kan denizi uykulara kur\u015funlar \u00e7al\u0131p
d\u00fcze inece\u011fim \u015fu belal\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 al\u0131p
e\u015fkiya o\u011flu e\u015fkiyay\u0131m duvar i\u00e7re evet
koyu karanl\u0131k sulara kar\u0131\u015f\u0131p gitsin korku <\/p>\n
II <\/p>\n
can\u0131m
sana bu mektubu
g\u00f6zlerim dolu
y\u00fcre\u011fim parampar\u00e7a yaz\u0131yorum
eline ge\u00e7meyecek biliyorum
tepeden t\u0131rna\u011fa kedere batt\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u015fu saat
bilmek yetmiyor fakat <\/p>\n
zul\u00fcm kanl\u0131 bir kene gibi ba\u015f\u0131mda
korkun\u00e7 bir i\u015fkence sonras\u0131
uzun sakallar\u0131mla oturdu\u011fum
d\u00f6rt ayakl\u0131 masamda
ne karanfil kokulu bir hem\u015firenin cebine benzeyen zarf\u0131m
ne zarf\u0131n g\u00fcl y\u00fcz\u00fcne k\u00f6sn\u00fcl bir \u00f6p\u00fcc\u00fck gibi konduracak pulum
ne de sigara k\u00e2\u011f\u0131tlar\u0131n\u0131n dar boyutlar\u0131nda ba\u015f\u0131bo\u015f
bir ho\u015f
ko\u015fturacak kalemim var <\/p>\n
yokluk \u00f6zr\u00fcm\u00fc kabul etmiyor
sat\u0131r sat\u0131r kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131 kan\u0131ma bir kere kitap
ve ben metris direni\u015fi i\u00e7inden g\u00f6zlerimi \u0131s\u0131rarak
elimi kanl\u0131 etime basarak
yaz\u0131yorum bu mektubu <\/p>\n
dur can\u0131m
hemen kaynay\u0131p kabarmas\u0131n y\u00fcre\u011fin
bu yazd\u0131klar\u0131m
yazacaklar\u0131m\u0131n ne ilki
ne sonu
sar\u0131 sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 omzuna vurup
okuyamayacaksan mektubumu
derim ki sana
sardunya kokulu balkonun kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7
da\u011flara bak
da\u011flar bir serin
da\u011flar bir derin
bir rahat
iyi dinlemeli da\u011flar\u0131
kulak bas\u0131p dinler gibi tepinen karn\u0131n\u0131 bir kad\u0131n\u0131n
duyuyor musun \u00e7at\u0131rd\u0131yor
nerde bir zincir varsa kolunda insan\u0131n <\/p>\n
belki bu ses
par\u0131ldayan otuziki di\u015f afrika karas\u0131nda
bu ses belki
deh\u015fetli g\u00fczel bir \u00f6zlemle bekledi\u011fimiz haberi
melez avu\u00e7lar\u0131ndan \u00fcf\u00fcren
salvador’lu karde\u015flerimin sesi
belki kimbilir fakat hay\u0131r neden olmas\u0131n
bu ses bizim da\u011flar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n sesidir
bizim da\u011flar\u0131m\u0131z kendi esintisiyle savrulan gen\u00e7 k\u0131zlar\u0131m\u0131za benzer
ve bizim k\u0131zlar\u0131m\u0131z
korkun\u00e7 bir sab\u0131rla tutu\u015fan bacaklar\u0131n\u0131 gizler <\/p>\n
g\u00fcn gelir g\u00fcne\u015fli g\u00fcnlere yaslanarak
s\u0131y\u0131r\u0131rlar eteklerini bellerine kadar
bir anda
birdenbire bacaklar\u0131 aras\u0131ndan
onbinlerce \u00e7ocuk ta\u015far kente
d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn
bir anda
bir-den-bire
\u00fclkemizde \u00e7ocuk ta\u015fk\u0131n\u0131 <\/p>\n
neyse can\u0131m
yaral\u0131y\u0131m
kan\u0131m azald\u0131
benzim bir g\u00fcz yapra\u011f\u0131 gibi sarard\u0131
oysa sana anlatacaklar\u0131m
anlatamad\u0131klar\u0131m kadar \u00e7ok
s\u00f6z\u00fc uzatmaya gerek yok
dinle iki g\u00f6z\u00fcm
y\u00fcre\u011finle kafanla dimdik dinle
y\u0131l 1933
10 may\u0131s berlin
berlin’de fa\u015fizm kol geziyor
berlin sokaklar\u0131ndan y\u00fczbinlerce kitap
opera alan\u0131na ak\u0131yor
kitaplar yak\u0131l\u0131yor
kitaplar be
kitaplar <\/p>\n
kitaplar hiro\u015fima’l\u0131 \u00e7ocuklar
gibi yak\u0131lmazdan \u00f6nce
sermayenin gamal\u0131 u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 goebels
berlin \u00fcniversitesi \u00f6n\u00fcnde
k\u0131rkbin ki\u015fiye s\u00f6ylev verdi :
\u00abalman d\u00fc\u015fmanlar\u0131n\u0131n kitaplar\u0131n\u0131 yakan ate\u015f
y\u00fcreklerinizde vatan sevgisini tutu\u015ftursun…\u00bb
ve fa\u015fizm
duman\u0131nda bo\u011fulaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bile bile
a\u00e7 bir kurt gibi indi kitaplar\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcne <\/p>\n
1933 y\u0131l\u0131nda
berlin opera alan\u0131’nda
kitaplar yak\u0131lacakt\u0131
inat\u00e7\u0131 ya\u011f\u0131yordu ya\u011fmur
koyu mavi g\u00f6k delirmi\u015f
y\u0131\u011f\u0131yordu \u00f6fkesini bulut bulut
ve hitler ve flick ve krupp
yani a\u00e7l\u0131k yani sava\u015f yani fa\u015fizm
oysa benim
ne berlin \u00fcniversitesi kap\u0131s\u0131ndan girmi\u015fli\u011fim
ne opera alan\u0131n\u0131 sarsarak gezmi\u015fli\u011fim
ne de bir h\u00fccre evinde kahrolarak
goebels’i dinlemi\u015fli\u011fim var radyodan
gene de m\u00fcmk\u00fcn de\u011fil ac\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 duymamak
buru\u015fup kal\u0131yor a\u011fz\u0131mda bak
sana s\u00f6ylemek istedi\u011fim en g\u00fczel s\u00f6z
bir d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn
k\u0131rkbin insan
kirkbin \u00e7ift el
ayak
g\u00f6z
bu s\u00f6ylevi a\u011fz\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131k dinledi
kar\u015f\u0131 yap\u0131n\u0131n be\u015finci kat\u0131nda
gen\u00e7 bir soprano inledi
berlin berlin olal\u0131
b\u00f6yle kanl\u0131 bir g\u00fcn g\u00f6rmedi <\/p>\n
o g\u00fcnden bug\u00fcne
senin ya\u015f\u0131n benim ya\u015f\u0131m
art\u0131 \u00e7ocuk ya\u015f\u0131 zaman ge\u00e7ti
ge\u00e7medi fakat fa\u015fizmin korkusu
\u00e7\u00f6reklenmi\u015f topra\u011f\u0131ma etime
kan\u0131m\u0131 emiyor s\u00fcrgit
kan\u0131mda bo\u011fulacak
ito\u011flu it <\/p>\n
\u00e7ardak alt\u0131 kavun beyaz peynir ekmek ve rak\u0131
bir g\u00fcn mutlaka.. evet ama nas\u0131l ey \u00fctopya
\u00e7ekin \u015fu kilimi yaprak h\u0131\u015f\u0131rt\u0131s\u0131 alt\u0131ndan
\u015fili \u015furamda yan\u0131lg\u0131 ve tarifsiz bir ac\u0131
merhaba allende onurlu \u00f6l\u00fcm merhaba
su paredon CIA ve richard nixon
hay\u0131r sizin duvar\u0131n\u0131z evet su paredon (1)
kastilya han\u00e7eri merhaba merhaba ispanya
uzak asya vietnam merhaba merhaba ho amca
kara \u00f6fkem mapusum mandela merhaba
size de merhaba plaza de mayo analar\u0131
\u015fu g\u00fczelim d\u00fcnyam\u0131zda sava\u015f ve k\u0131y\u0131m
\u015fu g\u00fczelim d\u00fcnyam\u0131zda s\u00f6m\u00fcr\u00fc ve zul\u00fcm
\u015fu g\u00fczelim d\u00fcnyam\u0131zda i\u015fkence ve bin t\u00fcrl\u00fc cinayet
yani emperyalizm yani yedi bo\u011fumlu akrep
yani \u015fu g\u00fczelim d\u00fcnyam\u0131zda g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc kadar mavi
g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc kadar sonsuz bir \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fck a\u00e7ana dek
davac\u0131s\u0131y\u0131m b\u00fct\u00fcn kay\u0131p \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131klar\u0131n <\/p>\n
III <\/p>\n
ince uzun ka\u015flar\u0131na devirip ku\u015fkuyu \u00abiyi ama
nedir bu sat\u0131r aralar\u0131nda kanayan y\u0131ld\u0131z\u00bb diye sorma
neyse y\u00fcz\u00fcnde g\u00fcl\u00fcc\u00fck
g\u00f6kte y\u0131ld\u0131z o
bilmez miyim
fakat neyleyim
kanlan\u0131p karar\u0131nca mektubum
kalmad\u0131 ba\u015fka bir yolum
ve duyunca kitaplar\u0131n geceyi y\u0131rtarak gelen
o tarihsel \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131
milyonlar\u0131n ad\u0131na \u00f6fkemi ku\u015fand\u0131m
ko\u011fu\u015f duvar\u0131n\u0131 ikiye ay\u0131rd\u0131m
\u00e7\u0131kt\u0131m d\u0131\u015far\u0131 <\/p>\n
-h\u0131nc\u0131m\u0131 anlatabilsem sana
bir \u00e7ocuk gibi kah\u0131rlanmak istiyorum
bayraml\u0131k giysisi olmayan bir \u00e7ocuk gibi
anl\u0131yor musun
ge\u00e7ti bizden
biliyorum \u00e7ocuk olamay\u0131z art\u0131k
kar akl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 tan\u0131madan sa\u00e7\u0131m\u0131z
tenimiz buru\u015fmadan
ite kaka ya\u015fland\u0131k
kah\u0131rlanmak istiyorum oysa
bir \u00e7ocuk gibi- <\/p>\n
d\u0131\u015farda birbiri \u00fczerine y\u0131\u011f\u0131l\u0131 yat\u0131yordu kitaplar
koridor boyu uzan\u0131p k\u0131vr\u0131larak ak\u0131yordu kan
tek bir ac\u0131 dalgas\u0131 vurmuyordu g\u00f6zlerine
sanki ellerimizden s\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcp g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fclmemi\u015f
ba\u015flar\u0131 kesilmemi\u015f kar\u0131nlar\u0131 de\u015filmemi\u015f de
sanki okunuyormu\u015f gibi g\u00fcne\u015fli ellerimizde
ayayd\u0131nl\u0131k ve mutluydu y\u00fczleri <\/p>\n
elbet mutlu olacaklar
\u0131\u015f\u0131yacaklar elbet
g\u00fcn yirmid\u00f6rt saat metris’te
kolay m\u0131 madrit’i ya\u015famak yeniden
kolay m\u0131 bin k\u00fcsur insan\u0131n
tutuklu elleriyle \u00e7\u0131plak
et di\u015f t\u0131rnak
no pasaran diye hayk\u0131rmas\u0131 (2) <\/p>\n
bin k\u00fcsur insan
kaynayan kemik tutu\u015fan et
ve birer \u00e7ift g\u00f6zden ibaret
onsekizer ki\u015fiydiler ko\u011fu\u015flar\u0131nda
aralar\u0131nda a\u015f\u0131lmaz duvarlar vard\u0131 <\/p>\n
a\u015f\u0131lmaz duvarlar\u0131 sesleriyle a\u015ft\u0131lar
hayk\u0131rd\u0131lar durmamacas\u0131na hayk\u0131rd\u0131lar
k\u00fclrengi raflarda g\u00f6beklerini a\u00e7m\u0131\u015f
har\u0131l har\u0131l direni\u015fi yaz\u0131yordu kitaplar <\/p>\n
silahl\u0131 ve kalabal\u0131kt\u0131lar
duvarlar onlar ad\u0131na y\u00fckseliyordu
zincirler kilitler s\u00fcrg\u00fcler
tank t\u00fcfek ve \u00f6l\u00fcm
ve bomba ve korku ve zul\u00fcm
ve yery\u00fcz\u00fcnde ve g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcnde
b\u00fct\u00fcn \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcm silahlar\u0131 onlar\u0131nd\u0131
bizim kenetlenmi\u015f kollar\u0131m\u0131z
ve kavgas\u0131n\u0131 vedi\u011fimiz kitaplar\u0131m\u0131z vard\u0131 <\/p>\n
erkekler uzun sakall\u0131yd\u0131 (3)
k\u0131zlar\u0131n al yanaklar\u0131nda uzatacak sakallar\u0131 yoktu
yoktu ama
herbiri uzun soluk ta\u015f\u0131yordu g\u00fcvercin g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcsleri i\u00e7inde
\u00fcf\u00fcrd\u00fck\u00e7e da\u011f
soluduk\u00e7a orman <\/p>\n
yang\u0131nl\u0131 tepeler \u00fczerinde r\u00fczgarl\u0131 bulutlar u\u00e7arken
d\u00f6n\u00fcyordu tarihin tekerle\u011fi f\u0131rlayacak gibi milinden
onlar etekleri ve sa\u00e7lar\u0131 i\u00e7inde tutsakl\u0131\u011f\u0131 reddettiler
ve cephe gerisinden \u00f6n\u00fcm\u00fcze
feodal kafalar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 k\u0131rarak ge\u00e7tiler <\/p>\n
metris’in bir ucunda k\u0131zlar
bir uzunda biz mapus
aram\u0131zda c blok var
c blok’un arka y\u00fcz\u00fcnde
arka y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn bir g\u00f6z\u00fcnde
i n s a n s \u0131 l a r ya\u015far
g\u00fcnde be\u015f vakit secdeye var\u0131rlar
yolda\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n kan\u0131nda abdest al\u0131p
ve itirafnamelerini hatmederler
korkunun rahlesine diz k\u0131r\u0131p <\/p>\n
biz g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fe giderken k\u0131zlar
kollar\u0131yla pencereden
y\u00fckl\u00fc birer dal gibi sarkar
el ederler el ederiz
birini sana benzetirim
severim \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc hepsini
seni sevdi\u011fim kadar <\/p>\n
IV <\/p>\n
bir yerlerde bir \u015fark\u0131 s\u00f6yleniyordur
gitar telinde a\u015fk t\u0131n\u0131s\u0131
g\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f bir ay oturmu\u015f gitar teline
c\u0131rc\u0131r b\u00f6cekleri ve yald\u0131zl\u0131 kumlar
kumda esrik kumda yal\u0131n ayak
dil di\u015f dudak \u00f6p\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyorlarken tam da
d\u00fcnyadan ve yurdumdan uzak
yurduma ve d\u00fcnyaya yak\u0131n
kan tad\u0131 gibi bir \u015fey a\u011fz\u0131mda <\/p>\n
omuzlar\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnde \u00fc\u00e7 maymun
neden
maymun g\u00f6z maymun dil maymun kulak
bunca \u00f6nemli mi kirli havay\u0131 soluyor olmak
ne demekse yemek i\u00e7mek \u00e7iftle\u015fmek uyumak
korka korka kapkara umutsuz
ne demekse <\/p>\n
san\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 kadar uzun de\u011fil t\u00fcfeklerin namlusu
kur\u015funlar\u0131n menziline d\u00fc\u015fmeyen
gece d\u00fcrb\u00fcnlerinin k\u00e2r etmedi\u011fi
\u00f6l\u00fcmlerin ve i\u015fkencenin k\u00e2r etmedi\u011fi
bir yeri var aln\u0131m\u0131n
hi\u00e7bir nal\u00e7al\u0131 \u00e7izme \u00e7i\u011fneyemez umudumu
san\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 kadar kolay bir i\u015f de\u011fil bu <\/p>\n
\u00e7ekin \u015fiirlerden arabesk g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131z\u0131
k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck burjuva ka\u00e7k\u0131nlar\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 al\u0131p gidin romanlardan
nerde benim sanat\u0131m hani o ba\u015fkald\u0131ran
liselim \u00fcniversitelim \u00f6\u011fretmenim nerde
nerde benim grevim grev g\u00f6zc\u00fcm nerde
bu i\u015fyerinde grev var ne g\u00fczel yak\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131
i\u015fyeri duvarlar\u0131na dayan\u0131\u015fma pankartlar\u0131
neden cesedimin y\u00fcz\u00fc ka\u00e7\u0131r\u0131l\u0131yor annemden
annemin \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 kimseler duymuyor neden
d\u00f6rtbir yan\u0131m galile galileo
nerdesin ey cordano bruno
el uzat\u0131m\u0131 kedi k\u00f6pek \u00f6l\u00fcs\u00fc
bir de insan
\u00e7ekin \u015fu kilimi yaprak h\u0131\u015f\u0131rt\u0131s\u0131 alt\u0131ndan <\/p>\n
delirmek gibi bir\u015fey susun l\u00fctfen
ka\u00e7 lekesiz duvara yap\u0131\u015ft\u0131 diktat\u00f6r foto\u011fraf
bilen var m\u0131 ka\u00e7 g\u00f6z ka\u00e7 duvarda kurudu
portreci ressam defol nat\u00fcrmort sen de
sen de daktilo tu\u015flar\u0131nda \u015fak-\u015fak’\u00e7\u0131 ayd\u0131n
demiri d\u00f6ven ate\u015fi eleyen el
nerdesin ey <\/p>\n
iki eli var insan\u0131n bayrak tutmak i\u00e7in biri
\u00f6tekini neye sayarsan\u0131z say\u0131n b\u0131\u00e7ak mesela
kab\u0131na s\u0131\u011fmaz uzla\u015fmaz bir e\u015fkiya b\u0131\u00e7ak
kollar\u0131n ucuna beyaz bir bayrak gibi \u00e7ekilse de
yat\u0131rsa da kendi g\u00f6vdesini musalla ta\u015f\u0131na
secdeye kapan\u0131p kalksa da kendi ruhu i\u00e7in duaya
yasak bir bildiri gibi ta\u015f\u0131nacak ceplerde elbet
o en m\u00fckemmel \u00fcr\u00fcn
ve o en m\u00fckemmel alet <\/p>\n
\u0131rmakt\u0131rlar belki sa\u011fnak ya\u011fmurlar\u0131 bekleyen
denizdirler belki ufkunda kas\u0131rgalar gizleyen
da\u011fd\u0131rlar belki
kalk\u0131p y\u00fcr\u00fcyecek devdirler belki
belki bu y\u00fczden topal kar\u0131ncan\u0131n y\u00fcr\u00fcmesi duyuluyordu d\u0131\u015farda
i\u00e7erde
k\u0131z\u0131lca k\u0131yamet kopuyordu <\/p>\n
kendi ellerimizle kitaplar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 vermezdik
buyurun al\u0131n
y\u0131rt\u0131n
yak\u0131n
diyemezdik <\/p>\n
V <\/p>\n
g\u00fcn olmu\u015f memedin ya\u015f\u0131 yirmiyi bulmu\u015f
a\u011fr\u0131’dan kars’tan bitlis’ten van’dan
ak-l\u0131 kara-l\u0131 denizden do\u011fu’dan bat\u0131’dan
gelmi\u015f gelmi\u015f de metris’e gardiyan durmu\u015f <\/p>\n
ay\u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 ve dumanl\u0131 d\u00fc\u015fleri
aras\u0131ndan \u00e7ekilip al\u0131nd\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00fcnd\u00fc
elektrikli elektriksiz copu g\u00f6rd\u00fc
bir a\u011fa\u00e7 k\u00f6k\u00fcne benzeyen elleri <\/p>\n
neyin kavgas\u0131d\u0131r bu pek akl\u0131 almad\u0131
delikanl\u0131l\u0131k da olsa serde
kanl\u0131-b\u0131\u00e7akl\u0131 sevdalara da d\u00fc\u015fse
savunmas\u0131z birine eli hi\u00e7 kalkmad\u0131 <\/p>\n
k\u0131zarsa
dertlenirse
severse bir de
toy b\u0131y\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7i\u011fner
bir de ate\u015fini karartmadan
ucuz t\u00fct\u00fcn i\u00e7erdi <\/p>\n
her\u015fey erkek\u00e7e olsun isterdi
isterdi fakat
metris’te emir
demir’i daha bir keser
metris’te askerlik \u00f6l\u00fcmden beter
g\u00fcnde iki tay\u0131n ekme\u011fe
bir kap nohuta bulgura
vatan millet sakarya <\/p>\n
gardiyan memet
silah\u0131 mataras\u0131
kaputu postal\u0131
g\u00f6nl\u00fcnde k\u0131r\u0131k sevdas\u0131
\u00ab\u00e7anakkale i\u00e7inde aynal\u0131 \u00e7ar\u015f\u0131
ana ben gidiyom d\u00fc\u015fmana kar\u015f\u0131\u00bb
memede benzemiyor sevgilim
memedin y\u00fcz\u00fc yurduma d\u00f6n\u00fck
yayla bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131 dumanl\u0131 ve s\u00f6n\u00fck
memet k\u00f6yde
memet kentte
i\u015fyerinde hapisanede
her yerde
el uzat\u0131m\u0131
i\u00e7imizden biri
dostumuz
karde\u015fimiz <\/p>\n
sokak aralar\u0131nda memet
\u0131\u015f\u0131kl\u0131 bulvarda memet
kav\u015faklarda memet
memet
topra\u011f\u0131n y\u00fcre\u011fi nerde g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcn\u00fc par\u00e7alayacak
gibi at\u0131yorsa
atacaksa
orada n\u00f6bete yatar
memedin elinde amerikan yap\u0131s\u0131 t\u00fcfek
da\u011flar\u0131m\u0131zda ne arar
memet
memeeet
s\u00fcng\u00fcnde ne var
memet
s\u00fcng\u00fcnde ne <\/p>\n
\u00e7ocuktur elinde sanki tahtadan t\u00fcfek
tak\u0131l\u0131 ucuna \u00e7ak\u0131yla yontulmu\u015f erik dak\u0131
kentlerde tutmayla biter mi onsekiz ayl\u0131k n\u00f6bet
evlerin sokaklar\u0131n \u00f6tesi k\u0131rlar tepeler
ayak izleri kan damlas\u0131 sarg\u0131 par\u00e7as\u0131
kar lapa c\u0131z\u0131rdayarak s\u00f6ner bir izmarit
ete bast\u0131rm\u0131\u015f gibi
a\u011fac\u0131n kovu\u011fu kurdun yata\u011f\u0131 didik didik
uykular tetik ka\u00e7\u0131l\u0131r kovalan\u0131r cana daral\u0131r
kopup gelmi\u015f sanki \u00e7ocukluktan saklamba\u00e7
o \u00e7ukur senin bu a\u011fa\u00e7 benim patikaya dikkat
zehir gibi kusar kara\u015fafaklar\u0131na kar
senin de kur\u015funlara g\u00f6re bir y\u00fcz\u00fcn var
da\u011f b\u00fcy\u00fck a\u011fa\u00e7 s\u0131k orman bir u\u011fultulu kucak
d\u00fc\u015fte tarhana \u00e7orbas\u0131 d\u00fc\u015fte s\u0131ms\u0131cak yatak
ey g\u00fczel g\u00fcn ey b\u00fcy\u00fck sab\u0131r ey korkun\u00e7 hasret
durdurabilir mi kar f\u0131rt\u0131nas\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131cac\u0131k bir d\u00fc\u015f
k\u0131yas\u0131ya \u00fc\u015f\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f buzdan bir yontu gibi baksana
tav\u015fan kan\u0131 \u0131l\u0131c\u0131k ak\u0131p gitmi\u015f uykusundan
\u00e7ekin \u015fu kilimi yaprak h\u0131\u015f\u0131rt\u0131s\u0131 alt\u0131ndan
vurulmu\u015f da gencecik yana yatm\u0131\u015f gibi bir da\u011f
elin teti\u011fe bula\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 yere k\u0131ra\u011f\u0131 d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f
kim duyar g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc ey g\u00fczel g\u00fcn ey b\u00fcy\u00fck hasret
kavgad\u0131r biter biter bir yerde elbet <\/p>\n
\u00e7ocuktur elinde sanki tahtadan t\u00fcfek
tak\u0131l\u0131 ucuna \u00e7ak\u0131yla yontulmu\u015f erik dal\u0131
yat\u0131rm\u0131\u015f g\u00f6vdesini tam onsekiz ay rehin
\u00f6der borcunu g\u00fcn sayarak parmak hesab\u0131 <\/p>\n
al\u0131rlar sonra pusat\u0131n\u0131 elinden c\u0131sc\u0131b\u0131l kal\u0131r
tezkeresi ve belle\u011finde bir \u00f6m\u00fcrl\u00fck masal
bir \u00e7al\u0131m uzat\u0131r b\u0131y\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 sa\u00e7\u0131n\u0131 sakal\u0131n\u0131
kahv\u00e2ne meclisinde adamdan say\u0131l\u0131r <\/p>\n
erik dal\u0131 san\u0131r kan \u00e7o\u011fal\u0131r
kan geceye ta\u015far
y\u0131k\u0131l\u0131r birer birer
etten
ve kemikten y\u00fckselen barikatlar
sayfalar savrulur sayfalar u\u00e7u\u015fur
sayfalar kana bula\u015f\u0131r
sesler gelir bilmem ka\u00e7 mapus y\u0131l\u0131 \u00f6teden
v\u0131c\u0131r v\u0131c\u0131r bir k\u0131rlang\u0131\u00e7 \u015fafa\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7inden
duvar uzar
duvar y\u00fckselir
kahrolas\u0131 duvar <\/p>\n
bu gelen sesler sorgulama sesidir
bu gelen sesler insan olan insan\u0131 delirtir
ince belli ya\u011f\u0131z bir att\u0131r \u00f6fke
toynaklar\u0131 alt\u0131nda g\u00f6k mavi bir ova yay\u0131l\u0131r
sar\u0131n\u0131r terine yemye\u015fil bir r\u00fczg\u00e2r yelesini ay\u0131r\u0131r
dolu dizgin s\u00fcrersin kendini sorgu odas\u0131na <\/p>\n
sorgu odalar\u0131ndan
sar\u0131 sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 savurarak
sen de ge\u00e7tin bir zaman
korkma
ve an\u0131msa
a\u011fz\u0131nda hayk\u0131racak \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131 olan\u0131n
bir ser\u00e7e gibi kopar\u0131lamaz ba\u015f\u0131 <\/p>\n
VI <\/p>\n
kap\u0131n\u0131n kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda b\u00fcy\u00fccek bir masa duruyor
masan\u0131n \u00fczerinde biri di\u011ferine yabanc\u0131 iki el
bir k\u0131y\u0131m silah\u0131na yap\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f gibi terli ve so\u011fuk
iki maroken koltuk
bo\u015f bir araba lasti\u011fi
ve falaka
ve \u00f6n\u00fcnde k\u00f6r duvar\u0131n
patlam\u0131\u015f kara kumral tabanlar\u0131
t\u0131rnaklar\u0131 d\u00f6k\u00fck ayaklar\u0131n <\/p>\n
tavanda bir uzun ask\u0131 demiri
ask\u0131 demirinden kay\u0131\u015flar sark\u0131yor
inip kalk\u0131yor
kalk\u0131p iniyor
kay\u0131\u015flarda kad\u0131n ve erkek kollar\u0131
irili ufakl\u0131 kum torbalar\u0131
\u00e7ocuk yenleri gibi \u0131slak g\u00f6zba\u011flar\u0131
ve manyetoya ba\u011fl\u0131 k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 u\u00e7lu teller
sopal\u0131 sopas\u0131z i\u015fkenceciler
ve di\u011ferleri
gece saat iki <\/p>\n
birinci i\u015fkenceci gen\u00e7ten yak\u0131\u015f\u0131kl\u0131
sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 ikiye ay\u0131rm\u0131\u015f ortadan
bacaklar\u0131nda pa\u00e7as\u0131 dar plili bir pantolon
hen\u00fcz toy eklemlerini birbirinden ay\u0131rmakta
par\u00e7alamadan ba\u011f\u0131rsaklar\u0131n\u0131 bir insan\u0131 kaz\u0131\u011fa oturtmakta
ve kald\u0131r\u0131p penceren atmakta
tak\u0131l\u0131p kalmasa akl\u0131na yatakta savrulu\u015fu sevgilisinin
korkun\u00e7 bir merakla bekleyecek sonunu i\u015fkencenin <\/p>\n
ikincisi aksayan baca\u011f\u0131yla allah\u0131na yan bakar
bir bit gibi k\u0131rsam
kad\u0131ns\u0131 omuzlar\u0131 \u00fczerinde y\u00fckselen armut kafas\u0131n\u0131
kilosu kadar insan
ve kitap
kan\u0131 akar <\/p>\n
\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fcn\u00fcn en b\u00fcy\u00fck merak\u0131
ak\u0131ma tutulan cinsel organlar\u0131n
yaral\u0131 bir g\u00fcvercin gibi \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131nmas\u0131
sabaha kadar bulamazsa e\u011fer bir insan
ya kendinde deneyecek k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 u\u00e7lu teli
ya bir tutuklu kald\u0131racak uykudan <\/p>\n
bir yan\u0131ndan bak\u0131lsa
\u00f6b\u00fcr yan\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr d\u00f6rd\u00fcnc\u00fcn\u00fcn
ama her kitab\u0131 k\u0131rk d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcml\u00fc ipte
k\u0131rk kez salland\u0131rmaktan yana
fikrimce \u00e7ok iyi biliyor
kime do\u011fru u\u00e7makta
\u00abyay\u0131ndan f\u0131rlayan ok\u00bb <\/p>\n
be\u015fincinin yan\u0131ba\u015f\u0131nda s\u00fcr\u00fckleyecek bir g\u00f6lgesi bile yok <\/p>\n
nas\u0131l b\u00fcy\u00fckse c\u00fcceler \u00fclkesinde gulliver
\u00f6yle b\u00fcy\u00fckt\u00fc odan\u0131n ortas\u0131nda \u00e7ak\u0131l\u0131 duran
g\u00f6zleri ba\u011fl\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7 kitap
biri bilim
biri felsefe
biri sanat <\/p>\n
i\u00e7lerinden biri bir yapra\u011f\u0131n\u0131 devirse \u00fczerine c\u00fccelerin
bir daha d\u00f6nmemek \u00fczere g\u00f6m\u00fcl\u00fcrlerdi dibine tarihin
besbelli bekliyorlard\u0131 b\u00fcy\u00fck bir sab\u0131rla \u00e7almas\u0131n\u0131 o saatin <\/p>\n
insan eme\u011fine kan
insan eme\u011fine s\u00f6m\u00fcr\u00fc
bir s\u00fcl\u00fck gibi yap\u0131\u015f\u0131nca
ba\u015flad\u0131 kitap k\u0131y\u0131m\u0131 <\/p>\n
isa’y\u0131 babas\u0131z
isa’y\u0131 allem kallem
do\u011furman\u0131n s\u0131rr\u0131n\u0131 bulmazdan \u00f6nce meryem
yani isa
babas\u0131n\u0131 ink\u00e2r
gelmezden \u00e7ok \u00f6nce
k\u00f6t\u00fc yola s\u00fcr\u00fckledi\u011fi gerek\u00e7esiyle gen\u00e7leri
\u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcld\u00fc aristofanes <\/p>\n
havaning adl\u0131 c\u00fcce
ba\u015flatmak i\u00e7in uygarl\u0131\u011f\u0131 kendisiyle
ne varsa silip s\u00fcp\u00fcrd\u00fc \u00e7in’den <\/p>\n
ne kald\u0131 geriye f\u0131rat k\u0131y\u0131lar\u0131nda
havari’nin yakt\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 kitaplardan
biraz k\u00fcl biraz duman..
y\u00fcre\u011fimde cehennem yang\u0131n\u0131 <\/p>\n
homeros konfi\u00e7y\u00fcs
augustus \u015fair dedem ovidius
boccacio dante montaigne
remarque b\u00f6ll einstein
marx engels lenin
g\u00f6k\u00e7e naz\u0131m hasan h\u00fcseyin
ve daha binlerce g\u00fczelli\u011fim
yak\u0131ld\u0131
y\u0131rt\u0131ld\u0131
yasakland\u0131
ve kapat\u0131ld\u0131 ard\u0131na demir kap\u0131n\u0131n <\/p>\n
silahlar yasaklanmad\u0131 hi\u00e7
\u00f6ld\u00fcrmek \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fclmek yasaklanmad\u0131
sorgu odalar\u0131 cezaevleri dara\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131
yasaklanmad\u0131 s\u00f6m\u00fcrgele\u015ftirmek
zincirle do\u011fmak zincirle b\u00fcy\u00fcmek
bir g\u00fcn olsun g\u00fclemedim demek yasaklanmad\u0131
yasaklanmad\u0131 legal yar\u0131-legal illegal a\u00e7l\u0131k
tekelcinin d\u00fcnyas\u0131 sava\u015f yasaklanmad\u0131
yasakland\u0131 fakat kitaplar <\/p>\n
insan eme\u011fine kan
insan eme\u011fine s\u00f6m\u00fcr\u00fc
bir s\u00fcl\u00fck gibi yap\u0131\u015f\u0131nca
ba\u015flad\u0131 kitap k\u0131y\u0131m\u0131 <\/p>\n
en \u00f6nce ucuz bir roman kapa\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7inde
ne yapmal\u0131 duruyordu
ili\u00e7 belki bu duruma
geni\u015f aln\u0131n\u0131 ka\u015f\u0131yarak g\u00fcl\u00fcyordu <\/p>\n
g\u00fcnsel sen g\u00fczelim kad\u0131n (4)
nas\u0131l da h\u0131rsl\u0131s\u0131n \u00e7akmak \u00e7akmak
iki elinle bast\u0131rsan patlayacak
binbir umutla b\u00fcy\u00fcyen karn\u0131n <\/p>\n
sen bile dayanamad\u0131n
ellerimizden s\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcp kopar\u0131lmana
oblomov h\u0131mb\u0131l adam (5)
h\u0131rkan\u0131 at\u0131p kalkt\u0131n aya\u011fa <\/p>\n
bir y\u0131ld\u0131z gibi kayard\u0131n gavroche (6)
geceleri paris sokaklar\u0131nda
paris’in sokaklar\u0131 senden sorulurdu
paris’in sokaklar\u0131nda barikatlar kurulurdu
an\u0131msa paris’te halk aya\u011fa kalkm\u0131\u015ft\u0131
fakat ellerinde bir t\u00fcfekleri kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131
av\u0131na kanatlanan bir \u015fahin gibi sen
tepeden t\u0131rna\u011fa isyan tepeden t\u0131rna\u011fa y\u00fcrek
at\u0131ld\u0131n d\u00fc\u015fmandan koparmak i\u00e7in birka\u00e7 t\u00fcfek
vurulup d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcn sokaklar\u0131 d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc paris’in
k\u00fcfret gene k\u00fcfret gavroche k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm
argo dilini sevsinler senin <\/p>\n
bin erkek alt\u0131ndan
k\u0131zo\u011flank\u0131z kalkan
oynak kal\u00e7al\u0131 tereza (7)
\u015fafak ucunda gecenin
hedefini \u015fa\u015fmaz t\u00fckr\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc
bir mermi gibi yap\u0131\u015ft\u0131r
ablak y\u00fcz\u00fcne i\u015fkencecinin <\/p>\n
akhilleus peleus’un o\u011flu
savunuyor diye troya’y\u0131
dur \u00f6ld\u00fcrme hektor’u
hektor bir yi\u011fit adam
sen de inat etme Paris
kimi seviyorsa helena
sunsun ona \u015farab\u0131 elinden
hermes haber ula\u015ft\u0131r zeus’a
poseidon apollon athene ares
ey tanr\u0131lar durdurun sava\u015f\u0131
akhal\u0131lar troyal\u0131lar gelin
tun\u00e7 karg\u0131n\u0131zla kalkan\u0131n\u0131zla
b\u00fck\u00fclmez bileklerinizle gelin
gelin hep birlikte g\u00f6melim i\u015fkenceyi
\u00fclkesinde hodes’in <\/p>\n
julius fu\u00e7ik
ibrahim
\u00e7ilemiz bitmemi\u015f
bitmemi\u015f
karde\u015fim <\/p>\n
VII <\/p>\n
sevgilim \u00e7ilemiz bitmemi\u015f delirecek \u015fu duvar
k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck ad\u0131ml\u0131yordun yasak bir afi\u015f gecesini
konu\u015fmas\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6\u011freniyordu insandan \u00f6nce duvar
vurup duruyordu caddeye serseri bir ayaz
\u00e7\u0131lg\u0131n gibi b\u00fct\u00fcn a\u011fa\u00e7lar nisan sonu muydu?
akl\u0131m\u0131-fikrimi \u00e7elmi\u015ftin bir gelincik a\u00e7m\u0131\u015ft\u0131 i\u00e7imde
toyluk i\u015fte bayram yerine gider gibi gelmi\u015ftin
an\u0131msa k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 boyun atk\u0131m\u0131 dolam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m boynuna <\/p>\n
k\u0131n\u0131ndan f\u0131rlam\u0131\u015f bir b\u0131\u00e7ak gibi ayk\u0131r\u0131 g\u00fczeldin
bir gelincik a\u00e7m\u0131\u015ft\u0131 i\u00e7imde akl\u0131m\u0131-fikrimi \u00e7elmi\u015ftin
bir gelincik kanat\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 sonra kan k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131
ayaklar\u0131m bir durak erkene alm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 gelece\u011fin yolu
ne bilsin
pusu son bulu\u015fmam\u0131za ihanetle kurulmu\u015ftu
ayr\u0131l\u0131k bozk\u0131r gecelerine kalkan tren gibi bir \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131k
g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcne g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcm\u00fcn \u015feklini bas\u0131yordum
\u00f6p\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyorduk
pusu patl\u0131yordu \u00fcst\u00fcm\u00fcze ihanetle kurulan
sen karanl\u0131\u011fa ko\u015fuyordun
ay buluta <\/p>\n
kas\u0131klar\u0131mda kan kuruyordu ay buluta ko\u015fuyordu
\u00e7\u0131kmad\u0131 akl\u0131mdan sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 r\u00fczg\u00e2ra yat\u0131r\u0131\u015f\u0131n
kapan\u0131p kalm\u0131\u015f\u0131m be\u015fikta\u015f’ta bir bal\u0131k\u00e7\u0131 tezg\u00e2h\u0131na
ellerimin alt\u0131nda \u0131slak bir kedi miyavlamas\u0131
bir tekme buldu a\u011fz\u0131m\u0131 di\u015flerimi t\u00fck\u00fcrd\u00fcm
ihaneti al\u0131p koydular kar\u015f\u0131ma seni sordular
ihaneti \u00fclkemi seni ve \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm
ya\u011fmurun t\u0131p\u0131rt\u0131s\u0131 gibi kesildi ayak seslerin
ay buluta girdi dedim i\u00e7imden ay buluta girdi <\/p>\n
ka\u00e7 ya\u015f\u0131ndayd\u0131m yirmi hay\u0131r y\u00fcz belki bin
r\u00fczg\u00e2r gibi \u00f6fkeydim as\u0131ld\u0131m ask\u0131 demirine
pencereden sark\u0131tt\u0131lar ink\u00e2r deldim ad\u0131m\u0131
\u015faka\u011f\u0131mda tabanca al\u0131p g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcler bir \u0131ss\u0131za
ay buluta girdi dedim i\u00e7imden ink\u00e2r geldim ad\u0131n\u0131 <\/p>\n
m\u00fcnferit filanm\u0131\u015f i\u015fkence ne b\u00fcy\u00fck yalan
obur k\u00f6pekler gibi bacaklar\u0131m\u0131n aras\u0131nda ceryan
\u00abbana bir a\u015fk masal\u0131ndan \u015fark\u0131lar s\u00f6yle\u00bb
insan ne garip \u015feyler d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyor i\u015fkencede
bir kitab\u0131n denizlerine inerdik olur olmaz
iskandil d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrerek var\u0131rd\u0131k hedefe k\u00fcrek k\u00fcrek
zorlu birer kartald\u0131k kanat veren g\u00f6k f\u0131rt\u0131nalara
biliyorum o tren bir daha u\u011framaz o gara
bir s\u0131r gibi saklanacak son bulu\u015fmas\u0131 dudaklar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n <\/p>\n
\u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131ma \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131klar bula\u015f\u0131yor yan odadan
\u00e7ekin \u015fu kilimi yaprak h\u0131\u015f\u0131rt\u0131s\u0131 alt\u0131ndan
bir el gelip yap\u0131\u015f\u0131yor g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcslerine k\u0131z\u0131n
sunmak i\u00e7in cehennem a\u011fz\u0131na elektrik telinin
ayak parmaklar\u0131 el parmaklar\u0131 yani a\u015fk tara\u011f\u0131
sorgucu sorar sorular sorar g\u00fcn uzar gece uzar
\u00e7ocuk \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131klar\u0131 gelir bir sokak \u00f6teden
anne olamayaca\u011f\u0131 d\u00fc\u015fer k\u0131z\u0131n akl\u0131na
a\u015fk yuvas\u0131 y\u0131ld\u0131r\u0131m d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f bir kovuk
bir g\u00fcn mutlaka evet ama nas\u0131l ey \u00fctopya
oyuncak tren y\u00fcr\u00fct\u00fcr bir evde bir dolu \u00e7ocuk
g\u00f6zler trende g\u00f6zler ray d\u00f6neme\u00e7lerinde vuut vuut
hay\u0131r bu vapurdu tren uzun geceler gibi bir \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131k
biliyorum o tren u\u011framaz bir daha o gara
bu kollar bir daha dolanamaz boynuna biliyorum
radyat\u00f6r demirine ba\u011fl\u0131 bile\u011fimdeki kelep\u00e7enin bir halkas\u0131
bir halkas\u0131 g\u00fczel g\u00fcnlere
yok bunun ortas\u0131
i\u00e7imde harman sar\u0131lar\u0131 v\u0131z\u0131r v\u0131z\u0131r o\u011ful ar\u0131lar\u0131
i\u00e7imde batakl\u0131k ku\u015flar\u0131 le\u015f kargalar\u0131
i\u00e7imde tank paletleriyle ilerliyor ihanet
en amans\u0131z stalingrad savunmas\u0131 beynimde
bir ucu \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fclmek i\u015fkencenin belki kal\u0131r belki kalmaz ad\u0131n
\u00f6teki ucu ihanet ad\u0131n yap\u0131\u015f\u0131p kal\u0131r belle\u011fine halk\u0131n <\/p>\n
ayaklar\u0131m\u0131n dibinde \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131n\u0131yor a\u011fz\u0131mdan bo\u015falan kan
\u00e7ekin \u015fu kilimi yaprak h\u0131\u015f\u0131rt\u0131s\u0131 alt\u0131ndan
en savunmas\u0131z en masum an\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131 yokluyor
belle\u011fime bir s\u0131\u00e7an gibi sokulan el
inad\u0131na geliyor akl\u0131ma unutmak istediklerim
ihanetin menziline girmeyen bir yeri var fakat direncimin
bir kilim gibi katlay\u0131p yakt\u0131m ge\u00e7ti\u011fim b\u00fct\u00fcn yollar\u0131
kimli\u011fim ve allah\u0131m yoktu sanki hi\u00e7 ya\u015famam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m <\/p>\n
kimli\u011fim ve allah\u0131m yoktu sanki hi\u00e7 ya\u015famam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m
ekmek yasak su yasak d\u00fc\u015flerimde serin bir \u0131rmak
kalkar yan\u0131ba\u015f\u0131mdan bir kere kalkmaya g\u00f6rs\u00fcn halk
g\u00fcne\u015fli g\u00fcnleri al\u0131p eline g\u00f6z gez arpac\u0131k
bir kere kalkmayag\u00f6rs\u00fcn… susuyorsa dar\u0131lma
uyanmamak \u00fczere dal\u0131p gitmek bir uykuya
uyuma ulan uyuma ulan ‘lan ‘lan
anneni var ya anneni… hani baban…
annem benim
seni de soruyorlar karde\u015fim seni de sevgilim
s\u00f6zc\u00fcklerle soyuyorlar sizi tarifsiz i\u011fren\u00e7
kur\u015fun d\u00f6k\u00fcyorlar beynimin ortal\u0131k yerine
\u00e7ardak alt\u0131 kavun beyaz peynir ekmek ve rak\u0131
bir g\u00fcn mutlaka… sesli konu\u015f ey \u00fctopya
vakitsiz \u00f6t\u00fcyordur \u015fimdi kumrular
k\u0131rlang\u0131\u00e7lar v\u0131c\u0131r v\u0131c\u0131r k\u0131rlang\u0131\u00e7lar sa\u00e7ak alt\u0131
hercai menek\u015feler gecede ka\u00e7 renk g\u00f6zlerimde ka\u00e7
delirecek \u015fu duvarlar m\u00fcmk\u00fcn\u00fc yok <\/p>\n
VIII <\/p>\n
g\u00fcne\u015ften topraktan senden ve kitaptan uzak
hangi s\u00f6zc\u00fc\u011f\u00fc kald\u0131rsam alt\u0131nda bir kundak
sinsi bir b\u0131\u00e7ak kolluyor en masum d\u00fc\u015flerimi
oturmak istiyor yana\u011f\u0131m\u0131n \u00e7ukuruna \u00f6r\u00fcmcek
belki bu y\u00fczden yang\u0131n gibi bir\u015fey a\u011fz\u0131mda <\/p>\n
her\u015fey benim d\u0131\u015f\u0131mda her\u015fey benden uzak
ey \u00fctopik hamak ne kadar s\u0131caks\u0131n ve ne kadar rahat
peki ya neden g\u00fczel g\u00fcnler derken ben
birdenbire t\u00fcfekle\u015fiyor elimde kalem
k\u0131y\u0131lar\u0131 koylar\u0131 yumu\u015fak ba\u015fl\u0131 da\u011flar\u0131
sevmiyor muyum eskisinden \u00e7ok
her dal\u0131ndan ya\u015fam a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n
koparmay\u0131 istemiyor muyum g\u00fczel bir an
bir sana bir bana karde\u015f karde\u015f d\u00fcnyam\u0131z\u0131
d\u00fc\u015flemiyor muyum ranzama s\u0131rt\u00fcst\u00fc uzan\u0131p
d\u00fc\u015fl\u00fcyorum istiyorum seviyorum fakat
d\u00fc\u015flemekle istemekle de\u011fi\u015fmiyor bu hayat
de\u011fi\u015fmiyor can\u0131m
t\u00fcrk\u00e7emizin en g\u00fczel en sert ve en yumu\u015fak
s\u00f6zc\u00fc\u011f\u00fc direnmek’i
\u00f6\u011frenmeden b\u00fcy\u00fck karflerle
ya\u015fayarak <\/p>\n
\u015fimdi sen uykunun en derininde
kavgan\u0131n en serininde olabilirsin
bir kur\u015funun \u00f6n\u00fcnde kur\u015fundan h\u0131zl\u0131 ka\u00e7abilirsin
ald\u0131 alacakt\u0131r can\u0131n\u0131 yakt\u0131 yakacakt\u0131r sa\u00e7\u0131n\u0131
ve belki herkes kapatm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r sana kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131
ve belki senin hi\u00e7bir kap\u0131y\u0131 \u00e7alam\u0131yor elin
fakat \u015fundan emin ol ki sevgilim
ayayd\u0131nl\u0131k bir kitap gibi
sayfalar\u0131n\u0131 savura a\u00e7a
metris i\u00e7inden istanbul’a sarkan \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131za bak\u0131yor
g\u00fczelim bir d\u00fcnya<\/p>\n
Nevzat \u00c7EL\u0130K<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
\u00a0 ve bir g\u00fcn eline ustura a\u011fz\u0131nda s\u0131nanmam\u0131\u015f all\u0131-pullu mektuplar ge\u00e7erse bil ki sevgilim ben art\u0131k elleri \u00fczerinde y\u00fcr\u00fcyen \u015faklabandan ba\u015fka bir\u015fey de\u011filim I koyu karanl\u0131k sulara kar\u0131\u015f\u0131p gitsin korku p\u00fcf\u00fcr p\u00fcf\u00fcr esmesin may\u0131s r\u00fczgarlar\u0131 \u00e7ekin \u015fu kilimi yaprak h\u0131\u015f\u0131rt\u0131s\u0131 alt\u0131ndan \u00aby\u0131llar var ki b\u00f6yle \u00f6fkelere dalm\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131m yoktu\u00bb y\u0131llar var ki b\u00f6yle \u00f6fkelere dalm\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131m yoktu […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[25],"tags":[],"class_list":{"0":"post-907","1":"post","2":"type-post","3":"status-publish","4":"format-standard","6":"category-nevzat-celik"},"yoast_head":"\n