\u00a0<\/p>\n
I <\/p>\n
\u00f6nce kol sonra s\u00fcrg\u00fc sonra anahtar a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131r kap\u0131
itilirim s\u0131rt\u0131mdan ben ebedi kirac\u0131 kesilmi\u015f h\u00fckm\u00fcm
\u00f6nce s\u00fcrg\u00fc sonra kol sonra anahtar kapan\u0131r kap\u0131
bir \u00f6m\u00fcr boyu diri diri i\u00e7mek i\u00e7in g\u00f6vdemi
dolan\u0131r bacaklar\u0131ma bal\u00e7\u0131k gibi a\u011f\u0131r bir karanl\u0131k
\u00e7\u0131rp\u0131nsam k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcc\u00fck pencerede \u00e7ifte \u00e7apraz parmakl\u0131k
\u00fcst\u00fcnde y\u00fcz\u00fcme \u00f6rt\u00fcl\u00fcr binlerce kare demir\u00f6rg\u00fc
her karesinde oyulmu\u015f bir g\u00f6z gibi kanar g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc
batan g\u00fcne\u015fim kap\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde k\u0131pk\u0131z\u0131l as\u0131l\u0131r\u0131m biran
ranzam tavana ranzam yere ranzam g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcme \u00e7ak\u0131l\u0131
k\u0131m\u0131ldasam g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcm boydan boya y\u0131rt\u0131lacak sanki
duvarlar\u0131n\u0131 \u00fcst\u00fcme y\u0131kacak h\u00fccrem ad\u0131m atsam
ad\u0131m atsam apans\u0131z kur\u015fun de\u011fdi kanad\u0131na ku\u015fun
tutun beni \u00f6n\u00fcm berbat u\u00e7urum bu kimin sesi
b\u0131rak torban\u0131 atlas’a \u00f6d\u00fcld\u00fcr g\u00f6kkubbeyi ta\u015f\u0131mak
d\u00fc\u015f k\u0131r\u0131kl\u0131\u011f\u0131na salan sals\u0131n g\u00f6zlerini b\u0131rak
ranzanda yatak yatakta d\u00fc\u015flerin da\u011f\u0131n\u0131k kals\u0131n
y\u00fcr\u00fc delikanl\u0131m beton alt\u0131nda toprak uyans\u0131n
duvar\u0131 duvara vur ate\u015f gibi bir \u0131sl\u0131k tuttur
y\u00fcr\u00fc a benim deli g\u00f6nl\u00fcm y\u00fcr\u00fc kesilmi\u015f h\u00fckm\u00fcn <\/p>\n
II <\/p>\n
\u015fark\u0131lar t\u00fcrk\u00fcler ske\u00e7ler camdan cama g\u00fcl\u00fcc\u00fckler
-olur b\u00f6yle \u015feyler takma kafan\u0131 yatar\u0131z be-
gecede ay m\u0131 var alttan alta kat\u0131la\u015fan bir \u015fey
olur b\u00f6yle \u015feyler takm\u0131yorum kafam\u0131 yatar\u0131z be..
biter havaland\u0131rma e\u011flentisi de gecenin bir yerinde
son sigaran\u0131n ate\u015fi karar\u0131r dostlar uykuya var\u0131r
gece sefas\u0131 bu mevsim a\u00e7ar m\u0131 gecede ay m\u0131 vard\u0131
idamdan m\u00fcebbete d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm m\u00fcebbetten h\u00fccreme
belki s\u0131cakt\u0131 \u015fubat gece karla ba\u015flad\u0131 fakat
en g\u00fczel y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc resminin y\u00fcre\u011fime ters kapad\u0131m
k\u0131rd\u0131m belle\u011fimin b\u00fct\u00fcn s\u0131rr\u0131 d\u00f6k\u00fck aynalar\u0131n\u0131
ranzam so\u011fuk ranzam ayaz ranzam kar
alt\u0131mda demir \u00fcst\u00fcmde \u0131\u015f\u0131k yan\u0131mda duvar
\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr ellerim sensiz ellerim \u00f6ks\u00fcz ellerim
nerde portakal bah\u00e7esi kadar s\u0131cak memelerin
d\u00f6nerim gene duvar gene so\u011fuk gene ayaz
d\u00fc\u015flerim seni almaz d\u00fc\u015flerime m\u00fcebbetim s\u0131\u011fmaz
bir dal fesle\u011fen taksan da sa\u00e7lar\u0131na yorulursun
g\u00fcne\u015fi yat\u0131rsalar koynuma \u0131s\u0131namam
bir yerine vard\u0131m ki gecenin sen yoksun <\/p>\n
III <\/p>\n
bir yerine vard\u0131m ki gecenin sen yoksun
sen y\u00fcre\u011fimin da\u011flar\u0131nda saklad\u0131\u011f\u0131m ka\u00e7ak k\u0131z
seni sunuyor kar y\u00fckl\u00fc dallar\u0131yla \u00e7am a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131
kimli\u011fin bende sakl\u0131 uzan\u0131p alsam aln\u0131n apak
gece bal\u00e7\u0131k gibi yap\u0131\u015f\u0131yor ellerime saat ka\u00e7
tende ya\u015fanmayacak a\u015fk\u0131m\u0131z anlad\u0131m tenimde isyan
yorgunum ranzama uzansam g\u00f6zlerimi kapatsam
bir daha a\u00e7masam beni bu kapkara suskunluk
beni \u00f6ld\u00fcrecek diyorum avaz avaz d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyorum
asama dikse anam kap\u0131m\u0131zdan balkona t\u0131rmansa
ak\u00e7amlar\u0131n kokusunu sen sa\u00e7lar\u0131ndan savursan
\u00fc\u00e7 yan\u0131 s\u0131r\u0131ls\u0131klam \u00fclkem gibi hep ac\u0131 dalgalara dirensen
yana\u011f\u0131ndan mutlu bir damlan\u0131n yuvarland\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rsem
kar da eridi \u00e7amur sonra ya\u011fmur sokaklar \u00e7\u0131plak
asfalt makadam bulvar ayaklarda o bildik b\u0131\u00e7ak ac\u0131s\u0131
haki g\u00f6mle\u011finden bir d\u00fc\u011fme a\u00e7 ellerimden \u00fc\u015f\u00fcyorum
\u015fafaklar\u0131 yunus \u00e7\u0131karsa a\u011flar\u0131ndan bal\u0131k\u00e7\u0131lar beter a\u011flar
dudaklar\u0131nda uzayan sigara k\u00fcl\u00fc mart\u0131 kanatlar\u0131 ve t\u00fcrk\u00fc:
bir dal fesle\u011fen taksan da sa\u00e7lar\u0131na yorulursun
bula\u015f\u0131yor dilime beni a\u011fz\u0131nla sustur susturacaksan <\/p>\n
IV <\/p>\n
sabah oldu beni a\u011fz\u0131nla sustur susturacaksan
gazeteyle uzat\u0131ld\u0131 mazgaldan d\u00fcr\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f bir yang\u0131n gibi
korkun\u00e7 ac\u0131lar\u0131yla ellerime on \u00fc\u00e7 y\u0131l \u00f6ncesinin vietnam’\u0131
pirin\u00e7 tarlalar\u0131 bambu evleri insanlar\u0131 yani kavgalar\u0131
1972 trag bang k\u00f6y\u00fc ve temmuz g\u00fcne\u015fi
ve yankee ve napalm yani \u00f6l\u00fcm bulutlar\u0131
yap\u0131\u015f\u0131yor s\u0131rtlar\u0131na \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n bacaklar\u0131 tutuk
\u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131klar\u0131 var fakat a\u011f\u0131zlar\u0131nda boylar\u0131ndan b\u00fcy\u00fck
ilkokul \u00e7a\u011f\u0131nda sa\u00e7\u0131 kara \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131 yang\u0131n k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcc\u00fck k\u0131z\u0131n
bant \u00e7ekmi\u015fler g\u00f6be\u011finin alt\u0131na ne ay\u0131p ne yasak
ka\u00e7\u0131yor o g\u00fczelim \u00e7ocuk b\u00fct\u00fcn insanl\u0131\u011f\u0131yla \u00e7\u0131plak
elinden tutmal\u0131 g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcme basmal\u0131 g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcmde solukland\u0131rmal\u0131y\u0131m
benim de g\u00f6zlerim yanaklar\u0131ma do\u011fru \u00e7ekilmeli ac\u0131dan
a\u011fz\u0131m\u0131 kulaklar\u0131ma dek y\u0131rtarcas\u0131na hayk\u0131rmal\u0131y\u0131m
pay\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015feni almal\u0131y\u0131m yedi milyon ton bombadan
i\u015fte ben her ac\u0131da b\u00f6yle s\u0131r\u0131ls\u0131klam \u015fa\u015fk\u0131n\u0131m
hayk\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f her \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131k burda benim a\u011fz\u0131m\u0131 yak\u0131yor
durma kan\u0131yor ac\u0131lar\u0131m g\u00f6vdemin neresine dokunsam
kald\u0131rmadan demir parmakl\u0131\u011f\u0131 insanla insan aras\u0131ndan
can\u0131m sevgilim ben bu yaralar\u0131 kabuk ba\u011flatmam <\/p>\n
V <\/p>\n
aln\u0131m parmakl\u0131\u011fa g\u00f6m\u00fcl\u00fc aln\u0131mda tarifsiz hasret
d\u00f6rtbir yan\u0131m idam d\u00f6rtbir yan\u0131mda t\u00fcrk\u00fcle\u015fen m\u00fcebbet
ne bir y\u0131ld\u0131z kayar \u00fcst\u00fcnden ne bir \u00e7i\u00e7ek a\u00e7ar
h\u00fccreler burada susuz k\u00f6r kuyulara benzer
her bahar duvara ko\u015far da sarma\u015f\u0131klar yaz biter
yorulur sonunda salk\u0131m sa\u00e7ak dal budak a\u011fa\u00e7lar
g\u00f6zlerimi i\u00e7ime \u00e7evirmesem g\u00f6zlerim duvarda kurur
bir an b\u00fcy\u00fcse suskunluk kulaklar\u0131ma kur\u015fun akar
belki bu y\u00fczden y\u00fcre\u011fimde tepesi karl\u0131 da\u011flar
boydan boya karadeniz boydan boya toros
akda\u011f karada\u011f alt\u0131nda\u011f cudi a\u011fr\u0131 canik aras
vurulup \u00f6ld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm kalk\u0131p \u00e7ocuklar gibi g\u00fcld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm da\u011flar
yak\u0131nd\u0131r eteklerinde dudaklar\u0131na \u00f6zenir kiraz
ellerin t\u00fcfe\u011finden \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcl\u00fcr g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcne \u0131l\u0131k \u0131l\u0131k kan y\u00fcr\u00fcr
di\u015flerinin aras\u0131nda apak ilkbahar kardeleni uyan\u0131rs\u0131n
tenin bu\u011fulan\u0131r bilirim dudaklar\u0131n mahmur uykudad\u0131r
kollar\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131p gerinirsin orman\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131nca ye\u015fil
dokunabilsem sana \u00e7o\u011fal\u0131rd\u0131m sa\u00e7lar\u0131nca tel tel
y\u00fcre\u011fimin \u0131rmaklar\u0131n\u0131 ayk\u0131r\u0131 ak\u0131t\u0131yorum da\u011flara do\u011fru
s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcp gelsen suda bir papatya kadar g\u00fczel <\/p>\n
VI <\/p>\n
sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 yast\u0131k yap\u0131p yat\u0131yorsun \u00f6yle d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum
yorgan diye geceyi d\u00f6rt mevsim \u00fcst\u00fcne \u00e7ekiyorsun
yaprak d\u00fc\u015fer ay d\u00fc\u015fer y\u0131ld\u0131z d\u00fc\u015fer kar d\u00fc\u015fer
kur\u015fun d\u00fc\u015fer \u00fcst\u00fcne bomba \u00f6l\u00fcm ayr\u0131l\u0131k d\u00fc\u015fer
apans\u0131z sena d\u00fc\u015fer akl\u0131ma beni a\u011fz\u0131nla sustur
g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fc isyan g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fc ate\u015f g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fc tomur tomur
sena onalt\u0131 ya\u015f\u0131n\u0131n heyacan\u0131n\u0131 tarar aynada
\u00e7\u0131plac\u0131k boynu.. el-boruk da\u011flar\u0131nda israil konvoyu
k\u0131vr\u0131l\u0131r y\u0131lan gibi.. nazi f\u0131r\u0131nlar\u0131ndan sar\u0131 y\u0131ld\u0131z uyan\u0131r
aynada g\u00f6zlerini b\u0131rak\u0131r g\u00f6zleri iki y\u00fcz kilo bomba
i\u00e7ine 504 peugeot’nun b\u00fcsb\u00fct\u00fcn bir kinle oturur
kanatlan\u0131r av\u0131na sena mehdillah \u015fii m\u00fcsl\u00fcman k\u0131z
sedir a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131 de\u011fil yanan k\u00f6yleri ge\u00e7er iki yan\u0131ndan
h\u00fckm\u00fcn\u00fc okur benim \u00fclkemde filizk\u0131ran f\u0131rt\u0131nas\u0131
dallar\u0131n ac\u0131s\u0131 gelir h\u00fccremde beni bulur
konvoy pat\u0131r cizze aras\u0131nda durur.. sena atmaca
sena nisan dallar\u0131 gibisin sena sena
f\u00fcnye fitil ate\u015f.. sena dur ama durma..
g\u00f6vdesinin d\u00f6rt kat\u0131 a\u011f\u0131r bombayla patlar g\u00fczelim k\u0131z
beni a\u011fz\u0131nla sustur susturacaksan <\/p>\n
VII <\/p>\n
bu t\u00fcrk\u00fc hi\u00e7 bitmeyecek karanl\u0131k sular ak\u0131yor i\u00e7ime
her dizesi bir f\u0131rt\u0131na belki solu\u011fum yetmeyecek
korkar\u0131m teninden avu\u00e7lad\u0131\u011f\u0131m bu\u011fu u\u00e7up gidecek
yast\u0131\u011f\u0131m s\u0131ms\u0131k\u0131 yast\u0131kta aralanm\u0131yor dudaklar\u0131n
k\u0131\u015f \u00fc\u015f\u00fcmesiyle durma s\u0131rt\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6n\u00fcyor yata\u011f\u0131m
bir yang\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015f\u0131m tepeden t\u0131rna\u011fa yan\u0131k
\u00e7ekip alm\u0131\u015f\u0131m bir \u00e7ocu\u011fu \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131 bende kalm\u0131\u015f
yana yana dost kap\u0131lardan y\u00fczgeri olmu\u015fum
su d\u00f6kenimi aram\u0131\u015f\u0131m inatla beni a\u011fz\u0131nla sustur
beni suskunluk kapkara suskunluk \u00f6ld\u00fcrecek beni
sesi t\u00fcrk\u00fcm\u00fcn sesi sa\u011fanak ya\u011fmurlar\u0131 isterim
dur alt\u0131na sen de sa\u011fal\u0131r belki ate\u015fi g\u00f6vdemin
duvarla ba\u015flad\u0131 duvarla m\u0131 bitecek t\u00fcrk\u00fcm
\u015fu da\u011flar ete\u011fi ku\u015fatma tepesi karl\u0131 da\u011flar
\u015fu okul \u015fu sokak \u015fu ev \u015fu a\u011fa\u00e7 \u015fu bulvar
d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum da sanki bir varm\u0131\u015f bir yokmu\u015f
benim t\u00fcrk\u00fcm yang\u0131n yeri sevgilim sesli konu\u015f
sesli konu\u015f d\u0131\u015farda kalmas\u0131n \u00e7i\u00e7ek y\u00fckl\u00fc dallar\u0131yla bahar
bal\u00e7\u0131k gecelerden bal\u00e7\u0131k gecelere \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yorum
ayayd\u0131nl\u0131k sabahlara bir de sana inan\u0131yorum <\/p>\n
VIII <\/p>\n
benim t\u00fcrk\u00fcm yang\u0131n yeri sevgilim sesli konu\u015f
s\u00f6yle ben t\u00fcrk\u00fc s\u00f6ylerken s\u0131k\u0131 bass\u0131nlar yere
ya\u011fmurlu bulutlar\u0131 tepelerinde ta\u015f\u0131s\u0131nlar s\u00f6yle
benim gecelerim tepeleme \u0131s\u0131rganotu sevgilim
dur durak yok bana bu bahar ak\u015famlar\u0131ndan
toprak deniz ve kad\u0131n kokular\u0131yla d\u00f6v\u00fcyor da kap\u0131m\u0131
bir karas\u0131 a\u015f\u0131yor duvar\u0131 kahrolas\u0131 karanl\u0131k
kibriti \u00e7ak\u0131lm\u0131\u015f sigaray\u0131m nerede dudaklar\u0131n
barut duman\u0131yla islenmi\u015f belki kararm\u0131\u015f sa\u00e7lar\u0131n
\u00e7ekincesiz y\u0131kan\u0131rs\u0131n deli \u00e7\u0131lg\u0131n akan sularda
sular h\u0131r\u00e7\u0131n sular ars\u0131z ben ellerimle yapayaln\u0131z
kovalanm\u0131\u015f\u0131m \u00e7ocuk\u00e7a d\u00fc\u015flerimden ta\u015fa tutulmu\u015fum
bal\u0131klar\u0131 oltada bir deniz gibi aya\u011fa kalkm\u0131\u015f\u0131m
delikanl\u0131y\u0131m y\u0131ld\u0131zs\u0131z gecelerde d\u00fc\u015flerine k\u0131ran girmi\u015f
sensiz kupkuru bir dal\u0131m g\u00fcne\u015fin g\u00f6z\u00fcne batan
grevsiz i\u015f\u00e7iyim de oca\u011f\u0131 t\u00fctmeyen evim
\u00f6\u011fretmenim diline s\u00f6zc\u00fck s\u00f6zc\u00fck yasak vurulmu\u015f
\u00e7ocu\u011fum elinde bir balon bulut bir dolu umut
benekli balonlar\u0131m sonra bir varm\u0131\u015f bir yokmu\u015f
benim t\u00fcrk\u00fcm yang\u0131n yeri sevgilim sesli konu\u015f <\/p>\n
IX <\/p>\n
t\u00fcrk\u00fc s\u00f6yl\u00fcyoruz tahliyecinin ard\u0131ndan nedense yan\u0131k
yan\u0131k bir\u015feyler kokuyor havada a\u011flamak istiyorum
ate\u015f hatt\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015f\u0131m beni a\u011fz\u0131nla sustur
tam bir hafta aral\u0131ks\u0131z d\u00f6vm\u00fc\u015fler barikat\u0131
kanl\u0131 upuzun b\u0131rakm\u0131\u015f\u0131m \u00fc\u00e7 arkada\u015f\u0131m\u0131 yorgunum
y\u00fcr\u00fcrken \u015farapnel par\u00e7as\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyor g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcmden
\u00e7ekilen ilk di\u015fimmi\u015f gibi al\u0131p cebime koyuyorum
daha otuzbir di\u015fim var kat\u0131la kat\u0131la g\u00fcl\u00fcyorum
yaran\u0131 avu\u00e7lar\u0131ma ver ate\u015f hatt\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015f\u0131m
yitiyor n\u00f6bet\u00e7i kulesi ellerim kopuyor parmakl\u0131ktan
nerede susuzlu\u011fun bir yudum su kald\u0131 mataramda
a\u011fz\u0131mda senin dudaklar\u0131n bir varm\u0131\u015f bir yokmu\u015f
duvar\u0131n dibinde kurt k\u00f6pekleri ve bolivyal\u0131 \u00e7avu\u015f
guevera’n\u0131n s\u0131rt \u00e7antas\u0131nda neruda kahkahas\u0131
ve ezbere okudu\u011fun bizim \u015fairlerimiz geliyor akl\u0131ma
salt bizim i\u015fimizmi\u015f gibi \u015fa\u015f\u0131p kalm\u0131\u015f\u0131m
fel\u00e2ket yak\u0131\u015f\u0131rm\u0131\u015f me\u011fer onlara da \u00f6lmek
\u00e7\u0131nar dedi\u011fin de g\u00fcn gelir devrilirmi\u015f usulca
an\u0131msa ne derdik aram\u0131zda ona hadi an\u0131msa
a. kadir amca a. kadir amca a. kadir amca <\/p>\n
X <\/p>\n
benim t\u00fcrk\u00fcm yang\u0131n yeri sevgilim sesli konu\u015f
s\u00f6yle ben t\u00fcrk\u00fc s\u00f6ylerken s\u0131k\u0131 bass\u0131nlar yere
ya\u011fmurlu bulutlar\u0131 tepelerinde ta\u015f\u0131s\u0131nlar s\u00f6yle
ben yokum okulda fabrikada sokakta sen yoksun
her ad\u0131mda bir pusu her pusuda bir sevin\u00e7 as\u0131l\u0131
kap\u0131lar kapal\u0131 pencerelerin perdeleri aralanmaz
\u00e7ocuklar\u0131n oyunta\u015f\u0131 par\u00e7alan\u0131r camlarda g\u00fclmeler a\u00e7maz
ard\u0131na kap\u0131n\u0131n s\u00fcp\u00fcrgeyle kurum y\u0131\u011far bir kad\u0131n
\u00f6\u011frenciler ba\u015fka i\u015f\u00e7iler ba\u015fka bir ba\u015fka \u00fclkem
sen neredesin insan karde\u015fim nerede neredeyim ben
h\u00fccremin de\u011fil evinin duvar\u0131nda bitiyor voltam
buz gibi titriyor s\u0131rt\u0131yla duvara s\u0131rt\u0131m\u0131 dayasam
ad\u0131mlar\u0131m\u0131 say\u0131yor bir iki \u00fc\u00e7… akl\u0131 kar\u0131\u015f\u0131yor
g\u00fcn biter mi ay biter mi mevsim y\u0131l biter mi
duvardan duvara \u00f6m\u00fcr biter mi \u015fa\u015f\u0131p kal\u0131yor
kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7sa kap\u0131ma \u00e7\u0131kacak \u00f6d\u00fc kopuyor
i\u015fte bu insan karde\u015fimin \u00f6l\u00fcmc\u00fcl korkusu bu i\u015fte
a\u011f\u0131r mahkumum d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyorum b\u00fct\u00fcn u\u00e7urumlar\u0131
y\u00fcre\u011finin kayal\u0131klar\u0131nda ye\u015fertemedi hen\u00fcz bana bir dal
parampar\u00e7a parmaklar\u0131m korkusunu s\u0131\u00e7r\u0131yor uykusunda <\/p>\n
XI <\/p>\n
insan yaralar\u0131m kanad\u0131 beni a\u011fz\u0131nla sustur
yaralar\u0131m kanamasa g\u00f6zlerim duvarda kurur
k\u00f6r sa\u011f\u0131r suskunluklar\u0131 dipsiz d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyorum
ay\u0131rd\u0131na varmadan dibini \u00e7ekiyorlar u\u00e7urumun
beni dipsizlik kapkara dipsizlik \u00f6ld\u00fcrecek beni
s\u00f6z\u00fcm kur\u015fun hasretim kur\u015fun kurtulu\u015fum
a\u00e7sana g\u00fcl\u00fcn yapra\u011f\u0131n\u0131 u\u00e7sana kanad\u0131n\u0131 ku\u015fun
sevmesi sevi\u015fmek de\u011fil g\u00fclmesi g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015fmek
\u00e7ocu\u011funun sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 ok\u015fuyor elleri dalg\u0131n elleri uzak
yasaklarca \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131p konu\u015fup ya\u015f\u0131yor yasaklarca
hah desem unutup b\u00fcy\u00fck ellerini ka\u00e7acak
ka\u00e7acak ard\u0131nda madeni sesler b\u0131rakarak
ke\u015fif kollar\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kar inad\u0131na yasak ate\u015fler yak
ku\u015fatmalar da ku\u015fat\u0131l\u0131r bir yerde haber u\u00e7ur
al\u0131n\u0131p sat\u0131labilen bir \u00fclkenin m\u00fcebbetiyim ben
t\u00fcrk\u00fcm duvarla t\u00fcrk\u00fcm yang\u0131nla s\u00fcr\u00fcp gidecek
gencim delifi\u015fek g\u00f6zlerim bir \u00e7ift kara t\u00fcfek
b\u00fct\u00fcn umutlar menzilimde belki k\u0131z\u0131yorlar s\u00f6zlerime
hen\u00fcz bir avu\u00e7 insan karde\u015fimi g\u00f6rd\u00fcm fakat
\u015fa\u015f\u0131rmadan ellerini dimdik bakabilirken g\u00f6zlerime <\/p>\n
XII <\/p>\n
benim t\u00fcrk\u00fcm yang\u0131n yeri sevgilim sesli konu\u015f
\u00e7o\u011falmas\u0131n yang\u0131n sesli konu\u015f g\u00fczelim insan
ad\u0131n bende gizli g\u00f6lgen takibinde helikopterin
her gece ko\u015far gelirsin d\u00fc\u015flerimin \u00e7ekimine kap\u0131l\u0131p
kent da\u011fa kavu\u015fur ellerim ellerini bulunca
ellerimiz bulu\u015funca d\u00fc\u015flerim gece bask\u0131n\u0131nda
\u00e7am ve ard\u0131\u00e7 kokular\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcme b\u0131rak\u0131p
kopar y\u00fcr\u00fcrs\u00fcn ellerimin \u015fehvetine sar\u0131n\u0131p
y\u00fcr\u00fcrs\u00fcn can\u0131m\u0131n i\u00e7i kanatlan \u00e7ar\u00e7abuk
ser\u00e7e tedirgini ad\u0131mlar\u0131n ele vermeden seni..
ka\u00e7 mahpus y\u0131l\u0131 d\u00fc\u015flerime girip \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131n
hep bir umudun all\u0131\u011f\u0131 d\u00fc\u015fler ki s\u0131n\u0131rs\u0131z
d\u00fc\u015fler ki yazdan k\u0131\u015fa u\u00e7suz bucaks\u0131z
d\u00fc\u015fler ki ya\u015fanan y\u0131llara ayk\u0131r\u0131..
kurumas\u0131n istemem r\u00fczg\u00e2rda sal\u0131nmad\u0131k hi\u00e7bir dal
minik ellerin yine kabzas\u0131nda b\u00fcy\u00fcs\u00fcn silah\u0131n
devrederken n\u00f6beti fakat bir el de\u011fmeli eline
ac\u0131 bir bulut gibi ta\u015f\u0131ma sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 seni \u00fclkem bildim
yorulursun arama arama ellerimi ellerimi unut
katmer g\u00fcllerin a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131 da\u011flardad\u0131r a\u015fk ve umut <\/p>\n
XIII <\/p>\n
umudum da\u011flarca yapraklarca umudum halklarca
fabrikalar gecekondular.. duyuyorum t\u0131p\u0131rt\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 varo\u015flar\u0131n
daha fazla dayanamaz bu beton bu demir bu plastik
kolumu uzat\u0131nca elini buluyorum yan h\u00fccredeki arkada\u015f\u0131n
eli s\u0131cak elim s\u0131cak s\u0131ms\u0131cak umut ya\u015famak bu
ya\u015famak bu diyorum kesip at\u0131yorum karamsar yerlerimi
ve g\u00fcl\u00fcyorum g\u00fcl sen de y\u00fcz\u00fcnde g\u00fcller a\u00e7s\u0131n
g\u00fcney afrikal\u0131 zencilerin kavgalar\u0131 erik \u00e7i\u00e7ekleri kadar ak
biliyorum nice kavgalar verilmekte bana yak\u0131n bana uzak
h\u00fccre h\u00fccre direniyorum ku\u015fat\u0131lsam da sayr\u0131l\u0131klarla
g\u00fcn gelecek sa\u00e7lar\u0131m\u0131n g\u00fcz savrulmas\u0131 durmu\u015f olacak
duvarla bo\u011fu\u015fmayacak hi\u00e7bir d\u00fc\u015f hi\u00e7bir ad\u0131m hi\u00e7bir ayr\u0131l\u0131k
ve hi\u00e7bir s\u00f6zc\u00fck \u015fiirde bir silah gibi patlamayacak
ne m\u00fcthi\u015f bir duygu i\u00e7erde umudu k\u0131yas\u0131ya ya\u015famak
\u00e7\u00fcr\u00fct\u00fclmek ve \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fclmek olas\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 a\u011f\u0131r basarken
mutlu \u015fark\u0131lar\u0131 ve zafer tarakalar\u0131n\u0131 beklemek
evet can\u0131m g\u00fcn gelecek nas\u0131l at\u0131lm\u0131\u015fsam i\u00e7eri
\u00f6yle diri ve gen\u00e7 a\u015faca\u011f\u0131m y\u0131k\u0131lan ilk duvar\u0131
o\u011flu k\u0131z\u0131 yitik b\u00fct\u00fcn kad\u0131nlar\u0131 anam bilece\u011fim
sen diye \u00f6pece\u011fim a\u011fz\u0131ndan kar\u015f\u0131ma \u00e7\u0131kan ilk k\u0131z\u0131 <\/p>\n
XIV <\/p>\n
kar\u015f\u0131ma ilk \u00e7\u0131kan k\u0131z\u0131 sen diye \u00f6pece\u011fim a\u011fz\u0131ndan
boynuna dolad\u0131\u011f\u0131m kollar\u0131ma ayaz vuracak belki
soraca\u011f\u0131m nerde belinin \u00e7ukuruna dolan sa\u00e7lar\u0131n
susturacaksa o k\u0131z da a\u011fz\u0131yla sustursun beni..
direnmenin g\u00fczelli\u011fi y\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fczde k\u0131\u015f bahar yaz
\u00e7ok de\u011fi\u015fmedik fakat ellerimiz b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fc azbiraz
g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcnden \u00e7al\u0131p yolla u\u00e7urtmalar\u0131 salk\u0131m sa\u00e7ak
ellerimizde \u00e7ocuk merak\u0131 ellerimiz g\u00fczel haberlere a\u00e7..
bana ince u\u00e7urumlara bakan kar bahar y\u00fckl\u00fc patikalar\u0131 anlat
ki iz s\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fcler t\u0131kan\u0131p kals\u0131n sonlar\u0131na bak\u0131nca o saat
k\u00f6ylere ini\u015flerinizi bir de bir de kentlere ka\u00e7amak
y\u00fcn \u00e7oraplar\u0131 \u00f6nemse da\u011flarda korkar\u0131m ayaklar\u0131n donacak..
a\u011flamakl\u0131 oluyorum ne g\u00fczel d\u00fc\u015flerken ku\u015fanm\u0131\u015f g\u00fcnleri
k\u0131r\u0131lacakm\u0131\u015f gibi b\u00fct\u00fcn kapal\u0131 kap\u0131lar bug\u00fcn yar\u0131n
bayraml\u0131k giysilerimle buluyorum kendimi aynada t\u0131ra\u015f olurken
ranzamda uyur uyan\u0131k d\u00fc\u015f denizi ge\u00e7iyor \u00fczerimden
al\u0131p getiriyor kovas\u0131n\u0131 k\u00fcre\u011fini kumdan kale yapan \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n
bulutlar\u0131 y\u0131k\u0131yorum sa\u00e7lar\u0131ndan g\u00f6zleri nas\u0131l da umut..
hep umut edece\u011fiz sevgilim kopacak her yenilgi sonras\u0131
sustu san\u0131lan y\u00fcre\u011fimizde korkun\u00e7 bir ya\u015fam f\u0131rt\u0131nas\u0131<\/p>\n
Nevzat \u00c7EL\u0130K<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
\u00a0 I \u00f6nce kol sonra s\u00fcrg\u00fc sonra anahtar a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131r kap\u0131 itilirim s\u0131rt\u0131mdan ben ebedi kirac\u0131 kesilmi\u015f h\u00fckm\u00fcm \u00f6nce s\u00fcrg\u00fc sonra kol sonra anahtar kapan\u0131r kap\u0131 bir \u00f6m\u00fcr boyu diri diri i\u00e7mek i\u00e7in g\u00f6vdemi dolan\u0131r bacaklar\u0131ma bal\u00e7\u0131k gibi a\u011f\u0131r bir karanl\u0131k \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131nsam k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcc\u00fck pencerede \u00e7ifte \u00e7apraz parmakl\u0131k \u00fcst\u00fcnde y\u00fcz\u00fcme \u00f6rt\u00fcl\u00fcr binlerce kare demir\u00f6rg\u00fc her karesinde oyulmu\u015f […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[25],"tags":[],"class_list":{"0":"post-911","1":"post","2":"type-post","3":"status-publish","4":"format-standard","6":"category-nevzat-celik"},"yoast_head":"\n